Trust

Going in to this writing I must wonder why God wants me to write about trust. I have serious trust issues and I always have but there is one I can lay it all down to – Him. I can give Him all my bad, anger, meanness and He will never forsake me. He doesn’t either! I have been taught that I can trust God for my every need.

Our needs aren’t just for tangible things or gifts but for spiritual growth and cleansing. It was impossible for me to trust God with anything bc I had been burnt so many times by people. I still have trust issues when it comes to people but not Jesus. He is my rock! My bad fades the more I reach for Him. I cannot and do not lean on my own understanding, I am a mere stupid mortal. We all are but there is beauty in being stupid and growing into wise people of God.

The process of the healing that must take place in order for us to come to Him without reservations is hard. I can understand why so many quit midway through because it is easier to just be like you were. Change is hard!

He is just so proud of us!! We are His kids! We are King’s kids! If you’re having problems trusting God, especially if you’re mad at Him… talk to Him. The only way we can solve any problem is to talk to the person that hurt us. Jesus is that person and so many forget that He was flesh just like us. He is a man that walked on this earth, worked and dealt with problems. He dealt with so much and because of this He met w God everyday in quietness. He died for you and you can’t trust Him? Don’t feel bad bc neither could I. I was afraid to let God be God. I was afraid He would let me down like all the others in my life. He doesn’t though. He hasn’t let me down but instead He has helped me change my thinking. If anyone let anyone down it was me letting Him down.

Once I changed my thinking towards Him I learned I could trust Him implicitly. I had to change things about myself before I could allow Him to be God in my life. Recognizing that His Will may not be mine but His was best was the hardest thing ever! I will do my best to never walk out of His Will again no matter how much it hurts me at the time. I trust Him! I trust Him w my pain, my anger, my feelings and I trust He does and will come to my aid.

I can’t ask Him to kill folks w a train 😜 and I may or may not have done this. I was such an angry person and I didn’t even realize how much until this year. As He fixed me I did some venting to Him for sure! When I want to yell I take it to Him. When I want to kill someone I pray for them instead. I will never be perfect but I can strive to be more and more like Jesus each day, so can you.

He took everything away from me to make me put all my trust in Him! I lost my brain and my family. He will give it all back better than you originally had it. This is so much easier if you just submit and allow Him to take care of it. Cooperation between you and Him isn’t really needed but this process works so much better when we do.

He is the poet and you are His magnificent poem. Find your faith and trust in Him. We cannot please Him without faith ! I wasn’t a blind faith walker but I can assure you He is real bc I met Him when I died. I praise Him for that. Allow Him to work on His masterpiece; that is you!

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

I had to start small and build to full trust. I started with very specific prayers and I got to watch Him answer all of them. I know He is real but He is ok with proving it! Give Him the chance and He will prove it to you too.

I may not be the best at trusting people here on earth but I have put all my trust in Jesus. Proverbs 3:6 acknowledge Him in everything and He will direct your path. Not all of those paths are straight and some of them come with pain but His way is the safest place you’ll ever be. Trust in the Lord and let Him direct your path! He is really all that matters; in this life and the next. I sure wish I had learned all of this much sooner. It was my distrust in people that scared me away from trusting God. He lets me know who I can trust here on earth and there are times I still have problems with these people and me being able to trust. I have learned to hand it all to Him.

Start with baby steps… He will teach you to walk !