Slaves

We are all a slave to something. Either it is God or our sins. I am stepping out in faith big time writing this! I really do not like all this hell, fire and brimstone stuff. I love the Lord and want to share all of His good but there are so many that already do that. He has done so much for me and I am so in love w Him. I am sharing His goodness bc I should be dead and in hell. He saved me from hell so I could teach you how to save yourself. I was sifted for 7 years. Satan should have taken me out when he had the chance because I’m coming for everything he stole!!

My fire has been restored! I want to teach y’all how to decipher His messages. I want to teach y’all how to kick stans ass! He has so many goons and what is crazy is the Bible tells us about them. Spirits and fallen angels are all around you. It’s kinda like when they see us from Heaven they see light or dark; Jesus is the light of the earth. He is the light of our life and once we accept Him He gives us His seal. His seal is our light!! We are nothing without He! Believe me when I tell ya this bc he has shown me what can be accomplished with Him. I’m so excited for 2020! Tomorrow is a whole new day through Him and with Him raising me up. It’s like the coolest thing ever but it has been most painful. I had to face everything I hadn’t really forgiven, forgotten, and died to. It was excruciating reliving all of that pain and I have cried a million tears over the last 7 years. I’ve never known such pain and how people think you are insane because of your brain injury. Some actually begin to learn about the brain and can now see God was surely with me bc I should not be where I am medically. I have been shocking docs since I came out of the coma. That is such a wow God moment! What He has done for me is amazing! I am privileged to meet my grands!! I should not have seen any past my oldest. It was that bad!! Oh, it was that bad. God has shown me what my life would be like without Him and I never want to even imagine that again. Without God is hell. Hell is the complete absence of God. I never want to feel that or have anyone connected to me have to see or experience that place. Figuratively and literally hell is so real. I’ve said this before but idk how many were paying attention and ya need to. Hell is without God. You are without Him here too but we don’t have to be. Even the most fearless atheist needs to know that he doesn’t really want to spend eternity in hell. I feel like I came back to scare the hell out of everyone…. lmbo, God is hilarious!!

Why? Why me for hell fire and brimstone?! 😂 I understand that world better than most because I saw it. I was driving down my own road to Damascus when God showed me what it looks like when He looks down from heaven onto us. I saw the light and the dark. I saw satan and his goons and I am pissed about this! I am mad at satan!! He must get off my people. I am glad all of this happened to me, now. I was extremely mad at God for taking my memories. I praise Him now bc my torment would have been so much fiercer than it was. I have been tormented to extremes. I wrestle satan in my sleep and wake up with new bruises. Yep, I know how that sounds… 🙄 I know what I would think if I read this crap if it were not happening to me! I know it happens to others they just don’t talk about it. There are kids seeing demons bc we don’t know how to fight that battle. We forgot our first love! Prayer saves everything!!! He wants us to talk to Him and bind those spirits … man are they rampant in the USA!! If you aren’t praying for your country, it’s leaders and it’s Christian unity you need to be. We need to throw religion right out in the water and walk into being Kings kids with the faith that lifts the death! Because death is not God’s will Satan is the prince of death and owns it. With this being true death is a spirit that can be rebuked. The Bible tells us that this was said. If it is God’s will we can lift the dead.

Hebrews 6 says we can lift the death with faith. 2 of the doctrine of baptisms, of laying on of hands, of resurrection of the dead, and of eternal judgment.

3 And this we will do if God permits. – Hebrews 6:2-3

By Gloif it is God’s wil. How cool is that? It is about our faith and it not wavering. Satan throws many darts from hell to try and separate you from Jesus. It’s so simple that we are always at war and we have to become better warriors.

All prophets are intercessors but not all intercessors are prophets. Everyone wants the ability to prophesy and it is there’s. Do you really want that office? Do you want the office of the prophet. Yes, yes I want it. It is in my heart to be your slave and work for You. Teach me your ways and show me what to read and study to get this. Please forgive my disobedience and help me get to work. I’m sorry for being stubborn and hard headed. It really took me all year to get right here where I can decide if I want this or if I want the life I had when I wrecked. Everything is a choice and I choose Him! I choose working for God and I will leave everything behind. I am happiest with Jesus and in His presence. Idk how to share this yet lol and sometimes I really just don’t want to .. lol it’s hilarious that I am hesitant to share my gifts by laying on of hands. I don’t understand that one and this is prolly way long …

Hebrews 4:2 we have had the good news of deliverance just as they did, yet they didn’t join their faith with the word. Instead, what they heard didn’t affect them deeply, for they doubted. This is telling us to grow up in our faith and step out in faith for His promises to be activated. Don’t you want everything He has for you? Yes! I want everything He is willing to show me. Everything He is willing to bless me with. I want all of Him to fill me up. I want to walk in the spirit all the time- this is the best thing I have ever felt. I do love Him more than anyone or anything and I have never been this way before. There was always a somewhat in front of Him but that isn’t the case any longer. I am just hard headed and have really been wrestling w Him on this hell fire and brimstone stuff. I have known this since summer but didn’t want to do it and I am doing it bc He is forcing me. He wants this story out and I have been struggling w looking crazy. I laugh at this too Bc I think He enjoys making me look crazy. I mean I can see the spirits all around people. This is a huge change in my life… signs, wonders and miracles- get ready. Some of y’all can see the angels as you activate them and some of y’all can see demons hovering around you. No, matter what you’ve seen before it will be opened in a totally different way when your spiritual eyes are working and on. Activate them bc it’ll change your life. I prayed for them to be opened in a Facebook video – Melissa Sheriff.

I see why God chose Facebook. I would have never come out about everything on Facebook. I am not proud of things in my past but they were all lessons turned to blessings. I can see my punishment and my gifts here from Jesus. He does punish His kids bc we have to learn not to do those things again. There are things i have done in my past that I will never do again. I know who I am and who I am through Christ. I will not ever let Him down like that again. If it takes me being single for the rest of my life so I can focus on Him- I’m ok w that. I liked being married when I had kids but now… I’m not so sure I’d like being married anymore. I am scared to get married bc of things said to me by someone who wanted to marry me. If I am not good enough and he doesn’t even try to tell me I’ll always be good enough for him I don’t want to be around all that negativity. I’ve learned I cannot change people or make them act right and they are not always my battle.

God laid me down so we could go over all of this. There is a lot to do before the new year! 2020 is gonna be lit! I am so excited for God! He is going to really shine next year! He is about to show Himself through some pretty cool people. Post a proverb a day ! Yes, sir. He has been on me about helping others get in the word. One small verse outloud activates your angel. Trust me you need all your angels around you and the spirits of God.

Knowledge and understanding

Wisdom

Peace

Truth

Strength

Patience

Faith – these are the spirits of the Lord we want to come and surround us. I ask God to place Him around and in us so thickly we cannot go against His spirit.

I bind the spirits of division, racism, famine, war, hate, slumber, depression, anger, lust, anxiety, guilt, chaos, confusion, disbelief, ignorance, discord, heaviness, lying, bitterness, petty spirits and I loose them off of us to return to hell where they belong. Should we come in contact with anyone carrying these spirits may we be able to spot it and cast it out immediately. Teach us to fight back and win, Lord. Teach us to shut up and rest in You and Your power.

Praise Him folks. Get you some praise music and worship Him more than 15 mins to a song, you’re dead singing in church. Get up off your butts and worship the Lord! Thank Him for what He has done for you!!

This office comes with much pain but you can get through it and we all need you to! God has shown me so many of y’all going through this process too. I check on y’all and pray for you everyday.

Don’t worry, I didn’t believe all this stuff at first, either. I was prolly one of Gods biggest critics several times in my life. I am not proud of that I just didn’t know Him. I know He is a person that is God. It’s the best thing ever to know He walks w me but on water too. I am His friend and He is all I need. Teaching is like a whole job tho bc I am terrified I’m going to mess up. That is why I like writing. I have to write with intent and idk if I trust my old self with going live yet … lol. Ok this is how I work through my problems. God is live right now with the words I type. I know when He is in charge in my writings. This is how I know what it felt like for the Bible to be God-breathed. Idk why He chose me for this … He is hilarious bc I am so not worthy! I am nobody … a small town girl from Arkansas lol. What He is about to do with me is about to be done so fast it makes my head spin. Ok… I’m calm but excited and down w this. I am just your vessel, let’s have some fun and look full on crazy lol. Boy, wow at 2020! This used to make me want to have a panic attack but I’m ok now.

I can’t be a moderation person. This is why I had to stop people, drinking, things I really liked doing to sin. I can’t have a beer but I don’t think one beer is gonna send anyone to hell. I don’t really care about drinking since getting older … that hangover is a beast that I do not wanna deal with ever again. There is a not a drug like the Holy Spirit though. I Will evangelize daily for this! Never forget your first love! The letter was to the Ephesians… I messed up and said laodiceans (something like that.) I need more bible knowledge… yes, sir. I know to study on my own. No It was in Ephesus where witchcraft was so rampant. Witchcraft is of the devil. I have dabbled in this and it’s all of hate. If you loved someone you’d never want to put a spell on them to do what you wanted. This is selfishness! Selfish people are not working for God. This is how He tells me who to watch out for. If I run into someone that is selfish I’m supposed to use the gift of exhortation to remedy this. In end times fathers hearts restored to their children and children to their fathers. Oh, here we go again w this end times stuff. I don’t like knowing the future or what is going to go down. It’s kinda scary because He is gonna make me put what He shows me out there, eventually. If my discernment is off one bit I feel doomed. That extra judgment is a bit scary… I want to be told “well done my good and faithful servant” when I arrive at the gates of Heaven next time.

Faith is everything to God and without faith we cannot please Him. I have faith in God that He will not allow me to fail bc these are His people and His plan. I have to prove my faith by stepping out in it bc God brings it all back home. He is handing me my keys of authority. Oh wow!! Oh wow Jesus! I praise you!! I have never in my life wanted to worship a man like I do Jesus. He shows me the true meaning of love and there isn’t a love like His. I am picky!! I am picky about my shoes and they just go on my feet…. a relationship scares me. I am scared I’ll lose my first love bc Idk balance yet. I’m just a teenage lol. Had to grow up fast that last 7 years… #HardFacts.

I’ll be 8 in July maybe I’ll be old enough to have a boyfriend then lol. It’s not hard to tell if I’m not ready bc I work w God all day and I won’t be able to give Him up. Idk how! I’m ok w not knowing how! I’m happy w Jesus!! I’m happy being alone but I don’t think my flesh understands this yet and that is why it’s eating it’s feelings lol she has never really been alone and I had to learn. I was single for my if my life but only bc I was a runner. I ran from my problems but they didn’t want to be married to me either. I was not the easiest person to deal with bc I put my kids first. when it should have been God, marriage and then my kids. I have never been able to share loyalties. If I picked a man over my kids I was turning into my mother. That was not going to happen! I am glad I am not with any of them and that it didn’t work. It brought me where I am and He has always taken care of us.

I really did not know when this blogging all of this was going to happen but I felt it would. It’s so odd how God does that. He has been preparing my heart and trying to get my character in check for the blessings about to be poured on me. I am so not worthy! I am really just a nobody! I without hesitation know what I was raised around. I know what I come from and it all made me a survivor. There are people with worse things happen in their childhood than in mine. Mine wasn’t perfect but I had a pretty great one ! Us cousins were like brothers and sisters and I didn’t know any different than a close family. We were close knit and that all changed when my grandpa and then my aunt died. This wrecked my family and then my gramma died – I was actually glad she finally let go and let God take her home. She was pretty sick at the end. I miss her every day of my life but I don’t want her to suffer bc of my selfishness of wanting to keep her here. Maybe that explains it better/ she had given up and we couldn’t fix her or give her the desire to get better. She was ready but held on to some guilt she had to let go of. I felt when she left this world and I told John she had just died. I felt it. I felt it hard for her to breathe and her kidneys hurting. Idk why I am having to go here but there is something I need to deal with. I was still mad at Betsy bc I didn’t go to the funeral bc she started crap w me. I don’t remember what or how petty it was but she needed to check herself. She use to stick her nose where it didn’t belong but I think she has learned. I could have went anyway it just wouldn’t have been a day of peace and I wasn’t going to allow anyone to steal that from me. I was at peace w my grammas death and I knew before hand she was going to die that Saturday. I was there with her and I saw it. We said our goodbyes and I believe we both knew. I believe they know when they are going to go. I had to tell Betsy if she wanted to see her mom alive she needed to get here bc we were praying her out of here Saturday. I didn’t pray w my gramma bc I was so scared she would die. I will never be disobedient another time in my life. There are so many things that flash through me right now and that is the seed of doubt. Don’t ever let it make you doubt yourself.

So, I just danced 4 songs w Jesus. I love dancing in the spirit but I stopped bc I was beginning to see the future and it scared me. Tonight I just danced with no fear so I could return to my first love. Jesus, may I have the next dance? I ask you to come back to me fully and restore all of me. Make me who you need me to be for Your Kingdom!! I surrender. I give you my all. I am going to fast and pray the next 3 days of this year and if He allows not post anywhere. I need this time just me and Him to see where we go next. I got 3 days to prepare for an immediate change. I have no idea what this all consists of but I’m sure He is gonna let me know real soon. I’m going to bed… goodnight and God bless. Please keep me in your prayers … I sound like a lunatic. Maybe that is why He wanted me to get a degree in law. I was supposed to go to law school and help change the cj system but there are some actively trying to change it. I will still do my part for sure when I am in the situation to make positive changes for our country. This is such a huge responsibility, helping get laws changed. We don’t just need reform we need real change. It truly takes us all to pray it will happen. Why wouldn’t we pray for our people to change bc we don’t want them to die right now they’d be doomed to hell. God never takes something He gives you but you can surely walk away from Him. Being absent of God is being in hell… y’all I’ll be honest. I was so scared I sold out to Satan at a weak moment but u never did bc I do have a genuine love for Christ. I wasn’t the worst but definitely wasn’t one of the best and I went to hell. Do you even want to risk it? See this is not what I ever want. I don’t want people to be scared of God. I didn’t want pastors to use hell fire and brimstone bc it doesn’t tell how good God it is but it does. Jesus came to the gates of hell for me and snatched me out of there. He is trying to do the same for you no matter what you’ve got yourself into. What have you really got to lose? Give Him 30 days of active praise and worship with an intentional seeking Him relationship. He changes you slowly if you don’t adapt well to change, He is such a gentleman! I wish He had abruptly changed me – like He will some but I had to clean up my heart. I had to grow up too. I had to forgive the people that had hurt me the most. Everything that I had to get over came spilling out of me and towards the one that hurt me. I had to forgive for real. I know most of them did too and I know the ones that didn’t. Those that didn’t used to hurt me but not now bc I didn’t do anything but go away to heal bc I was hated. I am still being hated bc they are in their feelings about a situation. God has shown me to not worry about it it isn’t my battle. Not everyone you care for are your battle. You can pray the same for everyone but faith is a determining factor. I have had this come up before but I never work through this. I’m scared of an answer about healing hands I’ve had. Is their healing partly determined by the faith of the healer and then the faith of the one being healed. Are there layers to healing and receiving healing?

Victory is here! God is doing a new thing. I’m getting ready for overflow. I’m getting ready to see so many things I’ve never seen. I’m getting ready to see things I’ve never seen. Get ready for overflow and the devil is scared.

While you was trying to pull me down I leveled up! I got the power of life and death coming out my tongue. I love that song! God talks to me w music depending on what we are doing over that day. Today is grow up and all the lessons are and the music. Growing in faith, obedience, love, trust, grace and wisdom of all knowledge and understanding. I have seen Him speak through me to folks and it is so weird bc I don’t even get a chance to say anything it just comes out. Ears haven’t heard the kinds of blessings that are about to fall on me. Victory is here. I’m ready for a new thing. I’m ready for overflow. Gods doing a new thing. You’ve been fasting and praying and gods doing a new thing. Get ready for overflow. I claim it! I receive it. I declare and decree it over us.

I need to research that, this declaring, decreeing and the prophetic key the next 3 days bc I’m walking into 2020 w outstandingness! It’s time to shine your light and let the whole world see. Fill my life again. I surrender. My God is mighty to save. Some of y’all are fighting demons. Please know you need to pray your way out of this. Pray for God to remove every spirit around you that isn’t of Him. I pray for Him to show us what they are and we will bind them at once. Don’t be scared He is always with you! He is gonna be holding your hand but you aren’t a brain injured little girl anymore. You are His little lady and you need to act like it. Remember who you are and reintroduce everyone to her. You’re gonna be ok. Look to the Bible and those that have been through this. Being a disciple of the Lord is a process and we are all called to be disciples.

I really want to switch screens but He won’t let me. I want to post this blog and be done with it but that isn’t happening either. I am getting sleepy though so we gotta get through this.

I am very thankful for my friends who have become my family. I should have been homeless and be starving to death a few times. God has told people to help and who to help me. I guess I’m supposed to be more thankful to Jeff instead of blaming him. I lost everything so God could humble me. It is just the way it happened and it is not his fault for being a douche. See, I am not over this prenup crap. I can’t forgive him for that bc of how badly it hurt me. I forgive him God but I don’t want him apart if my life anymore. Not in a relationship kind of way but as friends I can maybe stand to be around him. I’m not sure yet. Idk how to separate his arrogance and narcissistic personality disorder. I can’t be around that!! I can’t be around negativity. Do everything as if you’re doing it for God. I’m so excited about the future and I don’t get excited. I’m going to bed now. He had to kill that little bit of flesh left behind self doubt. Thanks Father! Thank you!!