Love

Jeremiah 7:13 NIV~ while you were doing all these things, declares the Lord, I spoke to you again and again but you did not listen; I called you but you did not answer.

Reading that verse hurts my heart and brings up so many times I was not paying attention. I will never move again without God but I have. I have messed up royally but He still loves me. I love Him too and He is a good, good Father. He doesn’t hold grudges like people. I was a grudge holder and now it cracks me up with folks do this. Why? God forgives you so why not forgive others ? To be Christian and to hold a grudge is a sin! The wage of sin is death! Yes, Jesus died for our sins… however, a portion of your heart dies when you live in sin. It is hard to get it right again, too.

If there was ever a child He should have lost patience with it was me. I was such a lost person. Even after my death, after meeting Jesus, I was still wretched if I told the honest to God truth. Just because we try to do things right we really can’t all the way without Him. I was you so I know this to be the truth.

There were so many things I doubted. There was so much I hated. There were so many I couldn’t stand. If it can be done I have done it. Affair – yep. Married and divorced- yep. Lied- yep. Drugs- yep. I thought I was a decent person too and now I laugh about that. I literally just chuckled while writing that. I praise Him for not giving up on me.

Can you imagine God walking into the Garden of Eden and asking “where are you?” Adam and Eve had sinned and were hiding; they knew they were naked. I love being naked and raw with God bc He is really the only person I can trust with all my ugly. He loves me anyway and I have been the outcast and totally unloved by people I never thought would walk away from me. God will never forsake me and the love He encapsulates me in brings tears to my eyes! I don’t even feel weak crying out to God; anymore. I have! You are not alone. We all feel weak and it is ok to be weak to God. No matter what He will not leave you; even if you make your bed in hell. I know that too bc He snatched me from hell.

I am so grateful for His love and His tenderness that resides in me.

I never knew what mean was until brain injury. I was mean but that is when people started to be mean to me because I lost all my credibility. When your brain doesn’t work people treat and look at you differently. I was nobody but now I am a King’s Kid! I am His and that is all that matters to me. Nobody will ever be mean to me again without me telling my Daddy. He saw it then and He sees it now. We choose to forgive but I believe everyone will pay for the wrongs they commit here in some way or another. You may not have to go to hell literally but I bet you’ve been through some version of it here on earth. The great thing about God is He will always take you back. Be His prodigal and never forget your first love!