Love

The Bible tells us the greatest gift is love, 1 Corinthians 13:13, but so often we do not see love as a gift. Not only is this a gift from Jesus to all believers but it is how we are supposed to do things as we walk through life; through love. If we don’t do everything with love attached why did we do it?

I am a brain injury survivor. I did not remember my life because my memories were wiped. I was so angry about not being able to remember because it was thrown in my face. The inability to remember what happened yesterday was held against me. I eventually learned how to adapt and overcome. I journaled everything that happened the days before and if I needed to know I read. This should have been a time that I learned to love again but the world got in and I wasn’t guarding my heart. (Psalm 4:23) If I had listened to The Word of God and guarded my heart I would have never resorted back to my old ways after my death. The more I healed the more my unruly flesh returned.

It took a long time for me to not be angry again. God had to show me that I had to focus on making new memories and appreciate that I was alive, period. I should have never been mad. People should have never been mad at me for not remembering. People should have never been mad at me for my past and tried to make me feel bad for things I didn’t know. We cannot do that to others and must be better. I should not have been so weak and allowed them to!

When one cannot remember what they have done but others do there is a plethora of responses one has to deal with. Envy, hate, jealousy, disdain, anger, and may other negative vibrations because people love telling others what they did wrong instead of looking at what they have done wrong. I, too, am just at guilty but it is time for us to be better. We need to be the change we want to see in the world. We need to love as we were called and pray God give us His heart. O, my dear Father, hear the cries of Your children and give us Your heart for our brothers and sisters. In Jesus name amen! I pray you meant that because it is only way we can truly love like God called us to. (Mark 12:31)

When we do things it must be out of love. If it isn’t why did we do it in the first place? There are no obligations to others unless you birthed them, or married them. If you don’t do it out of love for your brother you’ve ultimately forsaken your gift. We are all born to sin and struggle daily with this. We must love ourselves and the Lord first then the love for people will come easy. I didn’t like people at all and now I truly care; only God could accomplish this. Only God could heal my own negativity and the mean spirit attached to me.

Lord, if there is anything in my heart not of you show me so we can change it. I don’t want to be someone running around angry and not portraying You. I want my heart posture right and to be one with You. Help me Father- in Jesus Name help me!

Love is a gift and one I did not have. I was born with love and to love but the world can make your heart cold. Allow God to fix you because He is seriously the only One that can. He is just to forgive when we ask. Father, forgive us of our sins; the ones we know (list them) and the ones we know not. Your mouth is a sinner all by itself. I never realized how badly until Jesus showed me. I have had to apologize for so much and I’m sure there are things and people I still owe an apology to.

I can prophesy all day but if I do it without love it doesn’t matter. I can’t and never have spoke in tongues but I do desire to. I can heal with a thought but if I don’t have love why would I even try? I desire all of the gifts of Jesus. He is the one that hands them out. If any of this is done without love we are attempting to accomplish things of our selfish flesh for our own glory. I do not want any glory and I know I haven’t done anything without God bc I am nothing without He. I long for the gift of love. I long to love as He loves me! I long to help save the world through this gift of the Spirit. I pray He sends us all His heart and that we get His Spirit of love attached to us. Amen, amen and amen!!