Looking for love…

If you’re looking for love please do not try and depend on another person to receive this from. God is love. Jesus is love. The Holy Spirit is love. These are the ones to seek love from. Take it from someone that has looked for love in all the wrong places and tried to fill my heart with love from others. Love comes from within first. God asked me last week how could I love someone else the way we are supposed to love if I didn’t love myself. This hit me pretty hard. I have been so beat up by others and the lies they spoke over me that I had fallen out of love with myself. I forgot who I was and Who I belonged to. I sought out love from others instead of loving the Lord and myself. When we do not love ourselves we will settle with others and forget about ourselves.

Self love starts with self care. When we do not take care of ourselves how could we ever take care of the needs of others? Taking care of ourselves is a form of worship. The living God lives on the inside of us and if we are not taking care of ourselves we are not taking care of Who lives in us. This can be as simple as brushing our teeth. If we do not take care of our teeth science tells us that we will get cavities and then the tooth will need work or need to be pulled. That really isn’t science but common sense. Making our beds is taking care of what God gave us. I did not have a bed for about eight months. I slept on an air mattress that I was extremely thankful to have. I now have a bed but only because of God. These seem like very simple things, and when it comes right down to it they are simple but they are steps to improve your love for yourself. Not only for yourself but for what God has already given you. God got me a few months back about taking care of what He has already given me so He could and would give me more. It is gratitude. Why would He ever give us more if we are not a good steward to what we already have?

Out of your heart flows everything. If we do not have a pure love for Jesus and yourself the love needed to expound onto others will not be made manifest in our lives. The hardest commandment that Jesus left us with is loving others as we love ourselves. If a person loves himself and shows true forgiveness then the world would not be in the chaos it is in. A person would not hurt his own flesh. If you ever want to hurt yourself please know that is a demon attacking you. The spirit world is real and there are demons trying to prevent you from loving yourself and others. If they can get you to not love yourself there will be no love in the biblical sense to show others. We can love with our minds but do we really love with our whole hearts? I hope this makes sense to everyone because I have been numb in my heart but knew in my head I had to love them so I faithed it until my heart opened up to others. I was one that was so beat up by messengers of satan that I believed I was not worthy of pure love because of my brain injury . I do not believe this anymore but it caused my heart to shut off. I loved my children and my grands but others was not so easy. I had to literally get it in my head and make it move to my heart, I did this through meditation. Meditate on the Word day and night. Write the Words on the tablet of your heart. In the Bible some of the times heart is used is meant for the subconscious mind and in other places it is meant for the literal heart. This one was a doozy for me because I did not want to love all of His children they are mean, ungrateful, obnoxious, hateful…etc. you get the point. People have faults and I had to see all of mine before I could stop seeing others. This is where we all have problems. Self-examination is one of the hardest things I have ever experienced. I saw where I was wrong when I asked God to search me. To show me what is in my heart that is not from Him. There was a lot of junk in there implanted by the enemy and I really didn’t feel worthy of love… that is a lie from the pit of hell! We are worthy of love, Jesus DIED for us. Who would you die for? Would you die for Him?

Getting love in my head was not so easy either. I hated people that had hurt me and wanted revenge. That was not from God. That was implanted by the enemy and I would go after them to hurt them before they could ever hurt me. Vengeance is the Lords and He will and does vindicate. I have learned to shut my mouth and allow God to work it all out which to be honest was hard! It was extremely hard work to not go off on others coming at me. During my recovery from traumatic brain injury I could not remember my past and much of it I still do not. Which I fully embrace and am so thankful for. This makes it easy to forgive and forget and love them anyway. I was made to feel ashamed, worthless, and nonexistent because of me not being able to remember. I would have flashbacks of the past but when God woke me up I remembered everything people had said and done to make me feel unworthy. Truth is we are all worthy and there is not one single person we will ever look at that God does not love. I get it. I get that people are mean and desperate to find some sort of love that they look for it in all the wrong places. We seek approval and some sort of self satisfaction from other people which is the wrong place to ever venture for love. Jesus is the ultimate portrait of love. I have asked thousands of times for His heart for His people because without Him there is no way I could forgive and forget the way He does. I had to pray a whole lot and learn to trust again. I do not put my trust in me or in people but in the Lord. I know now when people are lying. When they are hurt. When they are plagued by their past. When their pain is causing them to hurt others. I get it now. God will keep you around the most difficult people of your life to teach you how to forgive and love them anyway. Love is everything and faith. Faith operates by love. These are also spirits so if you’re having a hard time loving people remember that God gave us a spirit of love. (2 Tim 1:7) loose this spirit onto yourself and others that you see having issues in this department. Separate what you see from the person and know that either they have an evil heart or they are being oppressed by the enemy. When you get this and can separate peoples actions from them you can learn to love even the most atrocious person. Loving them and forgiving them does not mean you must reconnect with these people in the same fashion you held on to them in the past. Some things must fade into the background of your life. The past is in the past and that is where it needs to stay. When we hang on to things that a person did to use as ammunition against them we haven’t really forgiven. Do not forget we are forgiven on the same measure we forgive others.

Love is the most difficult of human emotions. Is it just an emotion or is it an action? Love is a verb! Verbs are action words… how are you showing love? Self examination is hard work but it is so worth it in the end. The process of spiritual growth is no easy task but I promise you can and will make it through. The Bible says that God will finish the works in which He started in you. Faith without works is dead and love without faith is nothing. Your love must start with Jesus. It must end in Jesus. It starts with you. Everything starts with you. Love is in you and it can abound onto others. It will too once you get the Word in you. We gotta show love and this is no easy task. I can remember thinking that everyone that was nice to me had an ulterior motive and I needed to find out what that was. If it were a man being nice was that him or did he just want sex? If it was a woman were they being real or what did they want from me? Why were people wanting to love me? This is how badly messengers of satan can beat you down and try and kick your ass. Do not let them! You have the authority to stop demons in their tracks. I have learned that until I came into full submission to the Lord it was impossible for me to cast a demon away and make it stay away from me. (James 4:7) Once I submitted the devil left and so did all his goons. Everything starts within. Get it in your head and it will ultimately move to your heart. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God.. (Matt 6:33) and find His love for you then you will learn to love all of yourself, even your biggest imperfections that the enemy has tried to make you hate about yourself. Trust me on this! Seek God and His love! Then God will give you the desires of your heart. Seek within to find out what these are. Write them down! What are the desires of your heart? I have been searching my own heart for a year to find out what is in there and what I needed to remove from it. There are lies that the enemy will try and implant inside of you and one lie can change your entire belief system about yourself and about God. (Gal 5:9) Do not grow weary in doing good and you will reap a harvest. ( Gal 6:9) What we put out we will get back. If you’re sowing seeds of love you will reap a harvest of love. God means His Word. Learn it, know it, meditate on it and find the scriptures that you need in an area of growth. If it is love find all of the scriptures on love. Google makes this extremely easy for us all. Get it in your head (your subconscious mind where there is power) and it will move to your heart.

I do hope this helps when it comes to the very essence of Who God is and helping you love. Not only yourself but others. Remember that we are not our pasts but what God says we are. We are His! He is love. We love because He loves us. Not sure why God had me write on love today or who needs it but please know that you are loved. Jesus loves you and so do I. We can love again, not only others but ourselves. Reprogram your mind through meditating on the Word of God. YouTube makes this easy for us as well. There are all kinds of scriptural meditations that you can sleep with hearing. The subconscious mind never sleeps and that is where the renewing the mind starts. Once it is there it will move into conscious thinking and into the heart. Have a great day and never forget YOU ARE LOVED!! YOU ARE LOVE!!