Run to the altar

This morning I was taken to Isaiah 8-12. Please read these chapters and let the Lord speak to your heart. Please repent.

Let me tell ya a little story. This is what happened to me and why! I have been avoiding putting this out there for the world to see in black and white but here we go.

Eight years ago I was driving to have a beer and the entire road opened up to the unseen and became seen to me. I saw the war that is in the heavenlies. I saw the angels and I saw the demons. There are people that worked my wreck that are believers and they said they could feel the hand of God on them while they worked on me. I had the best that night. The best n the field of EMS and I thank them and I praise Jesus for being with me, and them. My body was so badly injured that one mess up by them and I would have never walked again without another miracle. I praise Him for that angel sitting in my car and holding on to me because when I post photos of my car you’ll know I was not alone. Reliving that night is a nightmare to me. I have tears streaming down my face as I type this and I haven’t even gotten to my death. I am so very grateful for His love for us. 2 Kings 6 is a good place to go and read about what it looks like. This is the best reference point I can give you to read and ask Him to open your heart to see. Trust me when I tell you that you do not want to see everything.

My next reference point is the book of Job. Please go read on the sifting and shaking in his life. This was allowed for me. I was not living right but Jesus still loved me enough to save me. I am living proof of His love. When a person is sifted like wheat the devil is given access to their life and the hedge comes down. I praise God for putting my hedge back up. Zec 2:5. Proclaim this over your life. Invoke this promise. Will and shall is everything you need to have all those promises. They are God’s Word and He will not ever allow anyone to touch you when you’re living for Him. Trust me on this. It has been like all hell was breaking loose around me, as if I literal volcano erupted in my house, but nothing touched me. This was recent so invoke this on your life. God has your back just as much as He has mine. I am not anyone special. God is not a respecter of persons. So, when satan was given the opportunity to hit me he took all he had and showed up himself. I have looked the devil in his nasty demonic eyes. None of this is pretty but it is all true. It is all real. When my eyes were opened to that realm we do not want to believe is real I was no longer driving in my world. I couldn’t see the road and I couldn’t see anything but chariots, horses, fire, angels and demons. If I were in my right mind like I am now I would have immediately stopped my car and analyzed the situation. I thought I was about to die. I was on the phone and it went out the window. The last thing I can remember saying on the phone is “I dont know if I can survive this.”

After that my phone went out the window. I started to scream Jesus. If anything starts happening to you that you cannot explain or any evil comes for you please hear me when I say He is your only cure. I was saying His name over and over and asking for forgiveness. I was one of those that didn’t know for sure if He was real but when I saw satan I knew Jesus had to be real too. I have been asked many times if I was a “Christian” before all of this and that answer is yes. I had just finished a degree in religion thinking it would bring me closer to Jesus but what it really did was set up religion. These universities will never teach like Jesus does! They were not honest about things and teach about all religions so you can take your pick. That couldn’t be further from the truth.

This is the hardest blog post I have ever written but I want people to understand what they are up against. I want people to know the truth and it has taken me eight years to be able to tell this. Brain injury did a number on me but I am so very thankful for all of it. I had to take a break from this and finished cooking some chicken and dumplings for a birthday party tomorrow. They are yummy, in case you’re wondering. I was sobbing almost uncontrollably when I finally got up to shred the chicken. One of my girls said she read a quote that said, “You will know when you are completely healed of something when you can talk about it and not cry.” This still sets with me because I do not know if I will ever find true healing or be able to talk about this without crying. It is a painful truth that people go to hell and I do not want another soul there. If I can help save one soul and plant the seeds for thousands of others I am making a difference. I cant take this to my grave with me without telling people. It is a painful truth that I saw hell.

When our natural world closed and all I could see was the unseen I had no idea I was still in this world. I couldn’t see the road and I praise God nobody was on it but me. When I saw satan and foolishly wasn’t thinking my first thought was “I will get him before he gets me,” and I started to drive towards him. Little did I know that I was still very much driving on that hwy (my road to Damascus. This ended like a “Dukes of Hazard” stunt gone way wrong. I jumped an eight foot culvert and hit a tree head on. I uprooted that tree and drove up into another tree. They found car parts 25 feet up in the air stuck in that tree. What goes up must come down. Dont ya just hate that gravity thing? 😉 The tree I drove up dropped me. There were trees all around me and I bounced through a maze of trees all because I was trying to drive into a demon. How stupid was that? Ugh, I laugh at myself on my own ignorance now but trust me it took eight years to get me where I could laugh about any of this. My car hit the ground and I was stuck in the floorboard. I did not have airbags but I was wearing a seat belt. I had an angel in there with me the entire time. He made himself manifest and told me to hang on. He held on to me because I think I was in a state of shock. There was this huge angel in full armor sitting in my car. It is actually pretty cool to think about this now and to know I always got one with me. I actually have several and I love that! I guess God knew He needed to put some extra ones on my side that night and maybe from then on out. Not that I ever really paid attention to them or put them to work but I am not a stupid human anymore.

It took them 11 minutes to get to the scene of my accident from the time of the 911 call. It took them 45 minutes to cut me out of my car. If you. Know anything about medicine you know about the golden hour. The helicopter landed on that two-lane highway because I wouldn’t have made it to the main road. From there it took 19 minutes to get me to the trauma center. I am so thankful for the people I had working on me that night.

While everyone was working to get me out and I have heard that there was not a glitch in the system at all that night. Everyone worked together – which is not always the case on the scene of an accident like that. I left my body. My soul left my body and there was this huge tunnel of light. I would have given everything to get in that tunnel but while I was trying to get into that light demons struck me full on. This was a head on attack and drug me down. They dumped me in hell. I was at the gates of hell the next time I opened my eyes. Before I opened my eyes I thought I was on fire. I could feel the heat and it felt like I was melting. That is enough of that .. just know it is real and that we do not need any bitterness, hate, etc in our hearts when we die. This is why “like a thief in the night” needs to mean so much more to folks. We NEVER know when we are going to die.

While in hell I was more scared than I have ever been in my life. I can remember the screams. I can remember the demon lizard monsters. I can remember seeing people and there are a lot. It is like your own personal prison with a demon assigned to you to torture you and this doesn’t ever stop. This torture is for eternity. There are demons living in the walls, if you can call them walls. This has been something I really wanted to etch out of my brain. I can remember having dreams about all of this while I was healing that caused me to have seizures. None of this has been an easy road, so, when I say you can conquer anything with Jesus I am being 100 with you. I was scared and not in my own cell. I often wondered if I would have stayed in hell if it had been my time to die and I can honestly answer probably. It is a sad truth. Hell is what we all deserve but praise God for Jesus and His redemption. That book of life that is talked about in the Bible is just amazing. It was not my time to die but I believe I needed to see hell because I was on my way there and would have busted it wide open on a slip and slide. I will never tell anyone they are going to hell, well, unless they just outright deny Jesus, but I can tell you how to keep your butt outta there. We used to always joke about who was going to get the WiFi password to hell first when we all arrived and that is not funny to me, anymore. There ain’t no WiFi in hell. There is fire. There is a smell that makes me gag when I even think about it. I guess I could describe it as living in an erupted volcano. I would say that is pretty hot and stinks pretty bad. It was like my lungs were on fire, it hurt to try and breathe and when I was there I was in my flesh. It is like I got my body back. I will never pretend to know how all of this works but I will forever tell this story because people need to understand it is all real!! There was a lot I saw. A lot of demons torturing people and the screams alone can haunt a person. I started screaming Jesus after I realized where I was. I walked around for a bit crying, screaming, praying… I thought it was too late when He showed up for me. I am bawling just thinking about Him coming to get me. I jumped into His arms fast as lightening !

That is enough for today and this is the first time I died. During the course of all of this I died a few more times and was in a coma. Tomorrow or Monday I will write about how I spent time in heaven and what it was like, how I got to time hop with Jesus, and how beautiful Jesus is. I want to cry just thinking about Him. I get so Himsick but there is so much to do here for the Kingdom. People might not believe me and they may hate me for speaking the truth but I do not want anyone to ever even smell what I did. Nobody has ever heard all of this and it is in my book. I have not really wanted to put that out yet but God is telling me it is time to finish it up, get it edited and He will do the publishing. I just have to sit with Him and write… first, I have to get used to speaking on this and it has to start here and it has to start today. When I tell you to run to the altar this is why! Please repent and heal your heart and mind. None of us are perfect and we never will be but you’ve gotta know Jesus. There is some stuff coming to change the minds of people, even the elect – know that! Get in His Word!!

If you’re ready to know Jesus lets take care of that right now. Say this out-loud!!

Father, we come to you in the Mighty Name of Jesus and confess with our mouths that we believe. We believe You sent Jesus and He died for our sins. That He rose from the grave and is sitting at Your right hand. Lord, forgive us of our sins. Wash us, cleanse us, and send us Your Holy Spirit. We forgive those that have hurt us and we thank You for Your forgiveness. We will forever give You glory- amen

Welcome to the best family you will ever be apart of! Find you a good church, there are many online, and get in His word. I know many say you can only read KJV but that just isn’t true. God tells me to read different translations so I know He can tell others this as well. Get you a bible you can comprehend because we all learn differently but one thing for sure is we all learn by repetition. You cant just read it once and think you’re good. Jesus is a relationship not religion! Have a beautifully blessed day and God bless you!