Totally transparent

I am not sure if I am under attack, usually I can tell w certainty, but with this one I am not sure. Yesterday and today I have, umm, there is no way to say this except to come right and say it. I have wanted to have sex. I am human and I really think it is my flash because now that I have gone through some steps to make it go away I am sure my flesh was attacking me. Crucifying the flesh is some hard work.

So, I knew something was going on when I woke up feeling different. I felt like everything was glorious and I had leveled up. I slept longer than I have in years, and people that know me know I have zero issues sleeping. I could prolly sleep under a bridge, zero issues sleeping. However, to sleep that long was odd. I have survived off of 4-5 hours a night for 28 years but the past week I have been sleeping later than normal. I was always up at 5 and to sleep until 7-8 is odd, I am by no means complaining though. It was nice. Like I said before when I want to eat I know something is up because I usually fast about every other day or a few days a week. I am not sure why but when Holy Spirit says fast, I obey. I woke up in a state of love. Like total bliss as spoken about in 2 Cor 5:13 TPT. This is amazing! The off thing is that I do not think about sex, like ever, so when I did it was weird. I am not sure why that desire has just re-emerged unless I am fully fighting my flesh. That doesnt really make any sense though because I have not desired sex, that act of sex, in a long while. For me to want it threw me for a loop. Y’all can laugh at me. I have been laughing at myself all day 😉 still not sure if it was an attack or dopamine levels, hahahaha

I called my shrink nurse practitioner. She’s not technically my shrink but my sister, my bff, and today I needed her brain power. We figured out that my vibration went up and how to cure it. I didn’t really want to cure it, and make myself go into a lower vibrational state, but make that desire go away or trick my brain into thinking it had already built a snowman.. yes, code for sex.. anyway, she told me to take a cold shower and to exercise. I did not take a cold shower but I did make a bowl of ice water and stuck my face in it. Desire subsided a tad but not enough. Then I kick boxed for 30 mins… ahhhh, desire completely gone. Exercise releases endorphins, endorphins trick the brain. Endorphins make a person happy. Happy people dont kill anyone (themselves by having sex). This is a win folks! A total win!! Still have not smoked and have been conquering things left and right this week. We are all leveling up. Love is the highest vibration we can get to. Our only commandments left to us by Jesus was to love.. love God and love our neighbors as ourselves. It was made a commandment for a reason.

Laugh, and learn to laugh at yourself. When we can we are forever entertained. Laughing is medicine says so in the Bible. Learn to laugh at everything! There is healing power in your laugh and it makes the enemy shake in his shoes. LAUGH!! You can laugh at me, I am perfectly ok with that. I passed! I won today! I want you to win so if my little crazy silly tricks work for me they will work for you. Enjoy your day! GO EXERCISE, stick ya head in some water, and laugh!

I am not new age with the vibration stuff but everything is energy. Meaning we too are a ball of energy. If we were trying to vibrate at the highest level when this process first started, before God taught us to love correctly- unconditionally, our natural bodies couldn’t tolerate it. I do not know anything about that new age stuff all I know is what God has taught me and for some reason He had me write this last paragraph. People have taken what God intended for us to know and used it in demonic fashions. They have. Twisted it. God created science and He created energy. Every disease trying to live in our bodies have their own vibration or energy level and when we vibrate at low energies it allows disease to live in our bodies. Cancer has its own and this has been proven by science. I am not sure who I am trying to convince but look it up. You will see I am right. Some cancers will even begin to die when a vibration is lifted inside the body. I do not know why, I am not sure anyone does but it works. If you want to raise your vibration – joy is the perfect way to start. Praise God.