Crazy faith

Two days ago Holy Spirit brought Mark 8 to my attention. This is when Jesus prayed twice for a blind man to receive His sight. Why did Jesus do this twice? We know He is God so why? I am still not sure but there are many theories that He was teaching the disciples about them still not being able to see who He was when He was right there with them. Is this all it means? I am not so sure. Why would He bring this to my attention when I had just stepped out in faith to pray for someone that doctors say is terminal?

I stepped out in faith not too long ago and my natural brain, my nurse brain too, tried to hinder this. How can someone on hospice be healed by God? Well, let me tell ya because He is God. He can do whatever He wants when He wants He just needs a submitted body to get it done. I would have never went and prayed over this man. I will be honest but I was sent. Did I know exactly what will happen? No, but I can believe because of what Jesus did for me.

About a week after I went and prayed I got a message on facebook from this persons niece. She thanked me for going and praying with him and said, “I will never underestimate the power of the Holy Spirit.” That message made me cry tears of joy. This person isn’t having to take as much pain medicine. They are sleeping in perfect peace. They ate after I had been there and then they began to decline. A few days after this message is when Mark 8 was brought to my attention. Maybe Jesus was teaching us that we need to pray more than once for someone’s total healing. I am not sure but I went back yesterday.

While there I felt God’s presence with us. We all felt Him. We were crying and the man was at perfect peace. He was joking and laughing with me and we talked about eating a steak. I do not eat meat, very often, and maybe it wasn’t me that wanted a steak but him. I heard a prophetic word last night that God is proud of you for stepping out in faith. He will meet you where you stepped out. He will not let you down. I asked and am believing for the person’s total healing. Am I crazy? Perhaps, but I know what God is capable of and I believe everything in His Word and what He has told me. Why would He tell me to go back if there wasn’t reason for it? Maybe it was just for peace, I do not know but I went and I am glad I did no matter what happens. In my past life when I was a nurse I refused to give people false hope. I did not know Jesus then or what He was capable of with a body. I will forever be His body and His hands when He needs them. Sometimes my natural mind needs a little help and I believe that is why He brought that story into my remembrance. I have the faith that it takes. It is not me but Him and I trust Him. Getting my trust here and learning to step out in faith was not easy so for everyone that thinks any of this is easy- it isn’t but it is joyous. Joy and peace that I cannot explain. So much of it I could and do cry in prayer a lot. I was never a person that cried I felt it made me weak. I am not weak I just, well, I finally have heart.

Jesus healed because of His compassion. I have great compassion because I have lived it. I watched the man that raised me, my grandpa, die of cancer. I watched him suffer. I would have given him one of my lungs and offered but he wouldn’t take it. I was 22 when I lost him. I lost my husband that same year. I do not want to see another suffer these losses. I have walked in their shoes. The grief that this pain caused was unbearable. I was broken for so long but I am not broken any longer and now I want them all healed. I believe when we die we should be able to just go to sleep and allow our spirit to go be with the Lord. It is not His will for any of His children to suffer and God does not put illness on us as punishment. Religion has taught us that and it is a lie! Bible says it is His will for ALL to be healed! Sometimes our healing is not on this side of the realms but with Him. Either way I stepped out in faith and I trust Him to make it all peaceful. He has me fully persuaded and if I have to step out in faith daily and look completely nuts I am ok with that. I am sure they thought Jesus was nuts too but then they saw ! He came, He saw, He did and He conquered!!! He healed them ALL!! I still believe He can and will.

He has told me in the past if someone was going to make it or not and He did with this person as well. I know we all will go to sleep and wake up with Jesus at some point in our lives but why cant we go with total peace? I believe we can. I will continue to stand flat footed in my faith until the end of my own life. I will look and sound crazy to some and I am perfectly fine with that. If He sends me to pray I will go. If He tells me to speak I will. I will do what He says when He says. I vow myself (my ALL) to Him. Y’all are witnesses. I cannot think of anything I want more out of what He has promised me than this healing mission we are embarking on. Step out in faith. God will meet you. You aren’t the one doing it anyway. it is all Him! You gotta know what you know because of Who you know! Trust Him. All things are possible to those that believe. ALL THINGS!! ALL!! I love that word! Love it! He will not let you down!

Here is what I have learned through it all, Don’t give up; don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting — for He will never disappoint you. Psalm 27:14 TPT

Fearless faith! Crazy faith! Faith that prevails! FAITH IN ALL!! Faith that whatever I ask He will do, especially when it is according to His will. Healing IS His will!