It has been very hard for me to open up and let people get to know the real me. I was so afraid if people saw my heart they would see too much. This heart He created is so precious and pure. I am still shook about what He has done and He did it to me!

I dont care what people think about me, and I wasn’t made or brought back to be silent!! I can’t help people if they don’t know me. I want to help people and it has become a desire of my heart. I want people free and healed and that is my job. Y’all I saw a blister disappear!! Like absolutely zero evidence of it. This is just the beginning! When He trusts you in the little- I gotta get that verse.

People are so hateful and think they are justified. I got a hate message today about me purposely going on a medication to quit smoking, and that ibuprofen is poison, idk if it is or not and I don’t mind being educated, I’m not closed minded. I’ll try new things but trying to make me come into agreement with condemnation won’t work. I laughed! And I was cussed 🙄

I want to quit and I want it bad enough to put some action to it. Faith wo works… I’m putting works to my faith of only having to take this for a very short time and it’ll work. It was quite humbling going in and seeing someone I don’t know and telling them I don’t want this and I need help. And I don’t have to explain myself but I don’t ever want anyone to think less of themselves for needing and/or asking for help. We are here to help each other.

I have had a hard time asking for help, and I have to work on this a whole lot still, bc people make you feel less than for not doing it their way, or stupid for asking. When I say brain injury did a number on me I’m not kidding. It made me doubt everything about myself, even my looks and I’m not sure how that was even possible 😜 Jesus had to completely rebuild my heart and it’s not only hard asking for help but this put a huge damper in my trust for people. I don’t. I was exposed to truth with TBI. I don’t trust people until God gives me the ok. I don’t tell anyone anything that I can’t trust. If I don’t want it to go in the newspaper I don’t tell anyone! He’s had to expose and I’m grateful! Even when He tells me I can trust that person it takes me a minute to warm up to someone. I have to discern them and any motives that may be hidden, especially if I didn’t know they were coming. If you see the real me the first time you used to be privileged but now everyone is gonna see.

I have not really wanted this bc it really puts me out there and the first time I let people in on something very personal this happens. Tell me the devil ain’t throwing in a last ditch effort to shut this down…. Hahaha jokes on you! 😂🙏 And this is why I put my trust in the Father. Psalm 20

I have to trust Him bc I have already had a dose of persecution. TBI has to count in that! Jail! Hate mail! Rejoice when you are persecuted… still learning this one. I’m getting pretty good at it actually and this made me realize it. This is a win for me bc the response that I gave was blunt, to the point, kind, truth, and done in love. If you know old me you know that is a win! I asked her what was really bothering her bc she didn’t see what that post was about at all. Whatever she thought she saw between the lines wasn’t about me. Idk who or what pissed in her Cheerios but I didn’t do anything. I’ve learned to not take things personally. Maybe she meant it, maybe something else was underlying idk and it doesn’t matter to me.

condemnation and offense … Does anyone else or is it just me? Did I miss anything? Doesn’t matter we are gonna take care of this right now!

Offense
Condemnation and any other lurking demon be gone now in the name of Jesus. I’m not putting up with this crap! I know who my real enemy is!! You cannot retaliate and If you try and come again the angels of Gods army will deal with you! I have been given permission by Yahweh to operate in His courts and you got to go!! There is no legal right … Jesus took it all and we plead the blood! we may have been ignorant but we aren’t anymore- goodbye!