If you follow me you know I have been, ummm slowly, coming out of my cave. I’m not even gonna lie it’s been easy being in here. I’m safe in my cave and in the little life I’ve created around me. I’ve liked my little life and I’ve seen what me agreeing to do this does to my life.

I will never be able to walk into a bar and grab a beer again because I will be judged by people for that beer and it could discredit my entire ministry (for a beer – how nuts, I’d rather someone be real and tell me the truth than pretend to be perfect while hiding their sins and lie to me!!) these are the things that have been playing over and over in my mind and heart. This cost me everything I used to do and things I thought were fun until He taught me the spiritual implications on all my fun. It became not fun at all. He’s made me be ok w giving it all up.

That, and people are going to flipping hate me! They will love the healings and be left awe struck by God but they will still hate me. Knowing that going in has been bothersome. Jesus has told me that He has a lot of friends where He is sending me and to not worry. I’m a bit of an overthinker so that was not the easiest to just stop about. The ones that matter will love me and they do, they just might not know it yet. God is in everyone, and people don’t know that, and His spirit will mold you into Jesus’ image (someone in English help me here – what is the correct way to write this on Jesus?) God is love. See, they just don’t know they love me yet 😜 that is how I got through that hate part and baby I been hated before. It’ll be alright.

This involves a physical move for me. Idk exactly when but He’s told me the city I will live in and I’m so excited!! It’s country and city and I love that about it. So is my future spouse. He’s a little city and a lot country. I love outdoors if you can’t tell and spend a lot of time out there. This was important to me. It also includes that future spouse thing and it has taken Holy Spirit 2 years to make me ok w being married again. This is something I did not want. I wouldn’t even put out the prophetic words about it bc I didn’t want that spoke over me. I sure didn’t want it out of my mouth. I know the power of my words but man when I tell ya Jesus touched my heart for this person … my God… I love him. Like love him love him and he’s got small children. Oh,,, y’all my heart melts at that! Kids are my crew! They are my favorite people on earth!! One of my grands got mad and cried yesterday bc I’m going out of town and into a different time zone. She thought she couldn’t call me. I’m ONLY a phone call away. And I pray w them before they go to school every morning. She was scared that would stop. After I explained she had it all wrong she was ok and kissed me bye and told me to have fun. That is the love of a child and they are the absolute best. It’s important to start their day and yours with prayer. You command your entire day this way!! I’m just going to visit my baby brudder right now but they are aware that Jesus told their Grami she was getting married. He told me it was a must for my mandate. Then He molded me by me being married to Him. He is my first love and I’ll do anything He says! He brainwashed my head and heart so well! Y’all … if this don’t shock a person idk what will.

And then He taught me about anointing. This is what you are specifically chosen by Him to do. You will lack no spiritual gifts from Holy Spirit. (1 Cor 1:7) then He started talking about mantles. This you choose to put on and walk in. Do you want it and what is your motive behind it. I had to learn about some people, their lives and how they operated. I had no idea who they were but I’ve been asked and decided I would pick up their mantles. I’m so grateful my heart is crying as I write this. My entire being cries of gratitude with this. I picked up a legends mantle yesterday, two of them actually, and I pray I can do just a tenth of what they did. These are people I could put eyes on and learn from in my language- they had the anointing that Paul had and carried his mantle. I think God is crazy for this but I accept!!