I went to a funeral yesterday that hurt my heart. Most of the time I can celebrate when people transition Home, but she was my age!! My age is too young to die…

This funeral stirred up emotions in me that I could have went a lifetime without reliving. Ive lost a spouse so I understood and could feel her husbands heart. Oh, at the tears and grief I had to hold back. This caused great compassion to stir within me. I’ve lost a parent too and could relate to her children.

This felt like a gut punch to my heart! That could have been me! 9 years ago it was supposed to be!

If you follow you know Jesus has been talking to me about lifting the dead and that I had millions of questions- who? When? Why them? Who gets up? Yesterday I was so angry and I know how crazy I sound but when Daddy tells me to walk into a funeral home and tell them to get up I’m doing it! Jesus did with Lazarus! (John 11) I got a new mandate when it comes to death yesterday. It’s time for the sons of God to reveal themselves! Romans 8!

My only fear or hesitation was pulling someone from heaven. I never want to do that bc I’ve been there and I sometimes wonder if I was stupid for coming back but here I am, on my own crazy train. I don’t care if I pull them out of heaven anymore. They can tell me I don’t want to be here and leave again but everyone is about to be getting up! I came back to destroy the works of the enemy. Death is his and this warrior of God’s is pissed off! Every ounce of anger I have goes to its rightful place, the enemy. My enemy, your enemy, our only enemy!!

Have you ever sat and thought about the brokenness you’ve experienced and the culprit of the pain? One event can shake a person to their inner core. One event can break a solid person. Isn’t it odd how we can go through some of the toughest things and thrive but then comes along that one event and everything seems to feel like it’s crumbling?

I am reflecting today. We are changing seasons again and it’s time to let go of some stuff and make room for new again. Some of the people in your life are about to change. You’re ok and you’re safe.

All of this stepping into being a son is new to me. I wonder, quite often, if I’ve completely lost it? Is this real? Is this really happening? Am I dreaming? Is this real? Did I misunderstand Holy Spirit? Did I miss this? Did I hear You right? Did I see that right? I think I’m gonna pinch myself …

What are you willing to give up? Anything You need me to. I just want to please You!

There is a food shortage coming, please start stocking up, and I can feel another shutdown (I’ve been putting out warnings hoping people would wake up and see). If we don’t pray to minimize the things coming it’ll get worse and there will be never a going back to what we thought was normal (pre-COViD). Welcome to the new folks! It’s gonna get hairy but I’ve been promised those living IN Jesus are going to be fine! Don’t get scared but be prepared! I don’t ever want to cause fear to come on anyone so don’t allow that. Fear is a spirit that lies to you and makes you terrified. God says you’re gonna be ok IF you’re IN Jesus. If you don’t know Jesus I highly recommend getting in a relationship with Him.

Being in Jesus means you’re hidden. You’re hidden and tucked in the bosom of Yahweh! No safer place to be than dwelling in the presence of the Most High and under His wings!

I haven’t really wanted to talk about hell but it is growing exponentially daily! That needs to stop! If I need to scare hell out of people like God did me so be it. Yesterday after the funeral I had to go on a walk with Jesus and work through some emotions. I was presented with a scenario that shook me to my core! What if! What if I were the pastor doing a funeral of someone I didn’t personally know?! How can I know what to tell their family? How could I ever say they went to heaven when I didn’t know? I couldn’t … How can I let them sit in hell ? Then I was asked; would you get them up if you thought they all went to hell? My heart sank on this one and my answer was immediately YES!! I’ve been to hell and I don’t want another soul there – that is the enemy winning and I can’t allow that to happen! God picked someone with some vengeance on the inside of them when He picked me. I want revenge for that rat trying to kill me and if destroying his works is how then let’s do this! I know who my enemy is and it ain’t people.

I have changed so much over the last 3 years when all of this started; my process. I can remember the day I woke up knowing my past and the day I agreed to Him wiping my memories again so I could learn from Him. From my understanding all my memories are up there in like a filing cabinet and if I need them I can access em (sometimes I have to meditate for this and to be honest a memory usually isn’t worth it – I live from the future not the past). It’s nice knowing it’s up there and accessible. I’ve used this to go back to events of my children’s past. I’ve went back to hearing their heartbeat while they were inside of me. The brain is such a cool tool we have not near touched the surface of. It’s an untapped weapon!

3 years of learning from Jesus. I joke and say this time was my brainwashing. It was truly lol. I moved out on my own alone and He became my roommate. We cook together, have meals together, we talk, we watch movies (that He picks), we go on walks … He is my best friend!! He sucked me out of the world to suck the world back out of me. The heart I have now is the one I came back from heaven with and it is precious. Looking at all He has accomplished … this has been the best 3 years of the short 9 I’ve been here.

More later…