I went live on TikTok and didn’t have a panic attack lol. I’m proud of me bc y’all know this is not something I wanted to do. The business, yes. The books, yes, I want people to learn. Me speaking … had to think about this … I knew it was on the agenda but didn’t know it was going to be so hard for me to go through with. It takes sooo much dedication, isolation, and love to do any of this. Plus, I don’t want any blood on my hands and I’ve been told that. I can’t have that! I ain’t going back bc I wouldn’t tell! Bet that!

I cannot believe the followers Jesus has sent in less than a week. He told me to look at how many followers I had Monday at 5pm, I did; 7308. It has been that number for a year and 10 mths, that’s when I joined TikTok. With all the platforms He has me share to there are now approximately 30k family members. That is incredible!! There are 21k on TikTok alone … I’m stunned at this. I’m a small town chick from Arkansas.

I am getting testimonies from the prayers! I LOVE this part! I am getting used to the videos and I absolutely love the people on TikTok. They are full of Jesus, ok, well, mostly. Of course I have some followers that don’t believe but I’m planting seeds and those seeds prayerfully stick.

I am soooo thankful He didn’t do this to me when I first started. That is when He told me about it tho and it freaked me out so bad I didn’t want it. If it would have been this many to begin with I would have ran, prolly at full speed, right back in my cave. I don’t think my cave experience was too terrible. I mean it could have been worse. The wait and learning to trust was the hardest. Spending all this time with Him is a bonus and I’ll stay isolated for Him and His presence! Content.

I was really worried about small self – ahhh- Ann, coming out on someone that crossed me. Someone did tell me to stop talking and answer questions tonight and I think I handled it quite well. Come on, we know old me. Some of y’all know Ann haha … it’s a daily job and when I feel her I have to go off by myself to see what is up. She can reek some kind of havoc. I love her but she’s hot headed! I could feel my heart trying to rise up and I was having to tell it “baby girl, we got this … let’s see what they got!” So, that is what we did. And!! And, I was able to answer the last question and go back to conversation without missing a beat. I am proud bc we all know about me being a TBI survivor. I never know about this brain of mine. I did lose where I was once but a girl reminded me. So grateful for her! Thank You Jesus.

The best part of my day was my babies coming over after school and me getting to see those smiles. I love those faces! During the week the isolation is ok… everyone works. This is what I consider my job so I work like everyone else. The pay ain’t so bad either. He takes care of me! I have not lacked one good thing. The weekends get a little lonely but I try to stay busy.

I have learned so much about me. She’s picky. She’s high maintenance and she’s expensive lol … Jesus told me that today. I said.. you knew that when you got me haha He laughed too.
I knew about a full conversation and that a certain person was at work before it happened today and I was told exactly what to say. It was so cool. Yesterday I could hear Him talking in my head and then it started coming out of my mouth. He didn’t have to tell me I just said it. It was pretty cool.

I had one person say they were jealous. Never be bc this isn’t just for me. Everyone is anointed to do something and we were all commissioned. EVERYONE! I went hard and locked myself up to get to where I am. How bad do you want Him? That’s what He asked me so I ask you…