If you’re afraid to open your whole heart up again I pray Daddy do for you what He has done for me. I was terrified to love like that again. Not scared, that hardly justifies the feeling … I was trembling, flocking terrified! I laugh at that now bc I can go back to the date that broke my whole heart. my body compares that pain to the pain of hell I experienced in that wreck. That’s a lot and I didn’t know that about my heart. That’s deep. That’s intense bc hell scared hell out of me. I have come to learn I didn’t know me at all. I didn’t know my vessel. I didn’t know my heart or how hurt she was. This was an intense healing journey. Anyway, you’ll block yourself from what God has for you if you don’t heal and allow love in every area of your heart. God is love so allow Him to touch your heart. I can feel Him inside mine. I pray you become so sensitive to Him you feel each and every tweak He makes inside you.
1998 was the year. This time of year has gotten me for 25 years … not this year! Not this time. I can go all year and it not pull me down but we get to this time of year and I’m flooded w memories – I’m sure so I’d heal each time. It was this time of the year, winter, when he died. I never shared hardly any of this story w anyone. We just didn’t talk about it, except in therapy, and maybe I should have. He was surely something special and I was blessed each day of those years w our baby boy. Thank You for him. I’m not sure I’d of made it wo our son. Thank You! I hate he had to experience that. I hated that pain to fall on him. Thank You for healing us both.
That was the worst day of my life. That day changed my whole very existence. It changed everything about me and nobody understood. Nobody understood… ha, I didn’t understand and talking about mad at God. Furious! Would cuss Him out! So, when I tell you He’s a big boy and can take it from you I’m not kidding. He still loves me and He will you too! if you make your bed in hell He is still with you- I am proof!
Deer season, duck season, Thanksgiving, his birthday, Christmas, New Year, his death
All of those days hurt and I carried that so incredibly long. In January the man that I called my husband and the man that gave me my son will be gone for 25 years. That pain was like a core memory. Thanks for extinguishing that pain.
It’s been 4 years this month, today I think, that I started truly giving this pain to God. And today I’m here to testify ! Finally, healed of this heartbreak! I was falling apart when Heaven rescued me!
I found this out about 2 weeks ago while I was searching my heart. I prayed for anywhere I was blocking myself to be exposed in me and healed. I’ve been deeply crying it out since. Today, it is finished!
I open my whole heart up! I open myself to receive love. The power of the blood on every calloused area of our hearts! I praise You for its healing power! The power of the blood on every broken piece and we thank You for being our potter and holding our hearts in Your hand. For molding us and our hearts into who You called us to be. Fearless! Obedient! Powerful demonstrators of Your Word.
Be Still & Shut up 