Random thoughts, reflections and questions…

Random thoughts, reflections and questions…

1524 days
1524 days
1524 DAYS!

That is how many days I have been obedient to the Lord no matter the consequences. This is about how long I’ve been standing on some promises too. I didn’t know half of what I know now I was just told some things and told Him ok.

I was asked, “why do you love Jesus more than you love me? why do you love Jesus more than you love momma?”
My response- baby, I love you and your momma like I love Jesus. Are you asking me why I put Him first?
Her- yes, does that mean you love Him more?
Me- I put Him first bc He is my first love. I owe Him my very life and if it weren’t for Him I wouldn’t know you. I would have died if I hadn’t got a miracle. Jesus saved my life. Also, I have to put Him first bc I made Him a promise and I follow through on my word. He promised me I could know you if I did what He said. He let me come back so I could meet you so I owe Him everything and I got to come back and I get to love y’all. And, He is supposed to be first in everyone’s life. He loves us the most! I love you just like He does. So, I love you mostestest! Do you understand?
Her- 🥰 she hugged me and told me she loved me and Jesus. And that she understood and on some level of her being so awake in consciousness I believe she got it.

This part has been the hardest of all! Having to say no and not be able to has been trying on me. I feel Eph 3:1 I am a prisoner to Christ but even in all the truth of being His prisoner and owing Him I don’t feel like a prisoner. Has this process been easy? NO! NO! NO! Has it been worth it? YES! YES! YES! Seeing the healings, the deliverance, the love – the reason I came back! I’m seeing it. That’s the reason I was sent back. I chose to come back bc of all He showed me. I stopped things just by being on earth. Don’t ever let the enemy make you believe you aren’t important. How could I not come back w all that He showed me? I had to! I have to do this! I don’t feel like I have free will anymore and tbh I don’t want it. Free will messes a lot of folks up! I’ll be His kind of prisoner for the rest of my life. I made the decision to be obedient at all costs 1524 days ago, I sold everything and has it cost me 🤣 oh boy lol – gave up everything!! Everything … really, nothing was a loss but a total blessing. It’s been a great process actually. I’m so glad Daddy grades on the curve.

When He pulls you out be sure and reach back!! You are His body. You are His person to pull others out! You! Yes, You!