Testing the waters

I read a book a few years ago about glory carriers. That might be the name of it I’ll have to look bc I’ve read soooo many but they said there is a particular group that carry His glory that will live in His presence. They don’t leave much and are secluded. They are locked up with Yeshua- literally a prisoner – but the best kind. It’s like our ankles are locked, stuck like glue. Anyway, when I read this book He told me you are one of those that will constantly be in my presence to carry the glory. I agreed. I mean who doesn’t want to live in the presence of Yah?! I agreed without knowing any details 🤣 I agreed to everything without any details – He cracks me up. I didn’t know the cost. I don’t know what all my anointing would cost or cover but I’m learning. There wasn’t really a cost when I reflect on things. He’s perfected so many parts of me it was all worth it. He’s explaining my anointing and the grace on my life and what all that means. I walked through hell for this and fought my ass off to heal. I couldn’t have healed without Him. I wanted to quit plenty of times but He is the best coach ever. I praise Him for healing me. Walking through hell was totally my own fault and I praise Him for allowing this experience bc it changed me! It wrecked me in every sense of the word.

Anointing in my understanding is what I can personally do without being told to, or asking permission. You just know people are going to be healed bc He healed you. This is a whole lot w me bc I feel like every system caught hell bc of brain injury, and went into failure. It was horrific! It was like my brain was trying to kill me. It was not firing correctly and if the brain doesn’t work nothing does. all the wires get crossed and nerves rewire across the body in different spots. It’s different but I’ve learned what’s what and how to roll with it. In all my years of nursing and seeing patients in different areas TBI is the worst thing anyone can experience and survive BUT there are so many positives to this! I learned how to use way more than 20% of my brain. I still don’t think this is me but I think He unlocked Himself inside my brain. Every area that was broken He healed w Himself. His blood. By His stripes we are healed! I got out my medical records and started applying the blood to every part of my brain! I believe the blood works and it’s not just my belief but I’m proof. The blood works or it doesn’t. I’m here to tell ya the blood works.

What’s so totally cool is I can feel Him rewriting neural pathways inside someone else. I know when He is tweaking them. It’s so cool! We are one body and if I’m tapped into you I can feel you. I have also learned to turn this off unless He is healing someone around me. Then I’ll feel it.

With the anointing I’ve learned that it includes miracles. He’s been giving me scriptures about the gifts and grace. I’m still not sure how all of this works but I don’t really need understanding to put out a blessing. I’m totally testing the waters. When He said prophesy according to your faith I smacked the table. According to my faith?! Oh yes please! So, His heart is for the intercessors in this hour, and I put out a blessing. I see He has already answered one person. And there was a divine reversal. I praise Him for meeting me. I knew He would or I wouldn’t have said it but seeing it is just more buds on my faith tree!

I’ve truly started testing the waters w decrees, prayers, prophetic words… etc and I see Him meeting me. I love Him so much!