Hour of my thoughts

Yesterday afternoon i went to see my baby boy, Oakley. He is so perfect and so very sweet. I am so excited to get to know him. He looks a lot like Lily, my daughters daughter. It’s funny how all my grandchildren look so much like me its uncanny. Definitely strong genetics. Maegan was a godsend for sure. Daddy blessed me big time with her. Tanner is having some ascension symptoms which made me feel good. I sent him some music to help move energy through his body. It was his heart space that was giving him pain. When the heart is opening fully and there is a block it will hurt, mine did, makes sense my baby had the same symptoms. We pulled an arrow out of my daughters heart and sealed it the other day and last night Tanner showed me where his pain was. Same as mine so the music and me touching him and praying will take care of this. I’m so grateful they are listening and seeing. I put my hand on his back and he was giving me directions on where exactly the pain was and I commanded the heart to open and covered it in the blood. My wreck was a lot of trauma that took its toll on all of us. My sweet babies are healing and I appreciate that so much. Thank You Daddy.

That is about all that happened yesterday. I was extremely tired and just wanted to sleep so I did as much as I could. I saw a guy talking about earths heart beat and solar flares that could be why we are feeling so tried, stiff, stomach issues, etc.. ascension. We are ascending in consciousness and the old stagnant energy must come up and out!

Izabella came to spend last night with me. They had to go to town and she told her momma I want to go to Grami’s so she is back there in my bed. That makes me smile. I love spending time with them. Paisley is starting to write and made me a picture for my fridge last night with my name on it and a drawing. It’s so perfect.

The other day i was in a vision dancing w Yeshua and He walked awy from me and i was like what are you doing. He told me hang on a sec and up walks the man that He has ordained me to marry. Normally I get excited when He shows me my husband but this time I got a little irritated like what are you doing? Why? You mean way more to me than a man come back here. He kinda laughed at me. At this moment in time I am glad things were delayed. Things had to be handled here. When i got annoyed, i guess that was the emotion, the vision ended. I didnt want to dance with him i wanted to dance with Him. He told me to dance with Him until He brings my husband and then He walks off and brings a man.. what does this mean? I have lots of questions about this but I am really not in the head or heart space to sit and get the answers. I am going to have to. I have sacrificed this promise back to the Lord like Abraham and Issac. Abraham was asked to sacrifice his promise because God wanted to see who was more important. If this was my test I am guessing I passed. Yeshua is my first love and I have wondered how I will be able to incorporate someone else into this relationship. He has told me this man will fit right in and I pray so because I will walk away from this promise completely before I allow anyone to infringe on mine and His relationship. I am so unsure how to do this. I teach nonstop in person and I just need him prepared for what he’s walking in to. I slay demons and lock up portals for fun… haha .. that makes me laugh. I have wondered how … when.. how.. how! I even told this man in 2020 that I dont know how to incorporate him into my relationship with Jesus and I didnt ask for this. I didnt ask for marriage. I didnt ask for a man. I didnt ask for this! I was a little panicked. I was honest but maybe I should have made this sound a little better because i was pretty frank. I dont think he knew then and if he did he was running and I am glad to know he has stopped running from Yeshua. i want him more for the kingdom than I want him for myself. I told this man this too. I love you and i want you but I want you to return to Yeshua more than I want you for myself because if you dont have Him you are no good to me. This prophetic love story has been a daunting process and a lot of praying and a lot of warring. If only he knew how much he is loved, by us both. You have shared so much with me about this person and I cant help but wonder what he knows about me? Does he really know what he is getting himself into with me? Does he understand the assignment? I understand does he? Yes kid, he understands this is an assignment. I chose this because You said, no other reason exists. I dont like not knowing and I am sure that is prevalent. This is the definition of blind faith in my opinion. One day we will see how all of this is going to work out and I am sure of that.

Feeling worthy has been an issue i have noticed with many people. God wants to give us so much but we dont feel worthy of it. I have noticed this with the prophetic love stories too. Like how could any of us not feel worthy of our partner when God chose them? Dumbfounds me but I did this. When He told me who it was I laughed and was like really? Then, I really started to think about this and thought I was crazy. I told the Lord You’re gonna have to show me this. Not too much longer this man calls me, out of the blue. He’s so wonderful am I even good enough for him? I laugh at that now because all these, not just this man, but everyone He has assigned to me I would be plagued with the enemy telling me I was not good enough. An enemy tactic is to come against your identity and this is part of that identity. Idk if the men aren’t feeling worthy or what but i know this is an issue with the collective. I feel it. Zap us into knowing who we are through You so there is no more of this. You are sending us into these rooms meaning You have already prepared the way. Thank You.

A girl was in my house to be healed and there was a prophet here that kept telling her you are worthy. You are worthy of this healing. She then received and was healed. It was beautiful! Please know that Yah is in you and He wants to give you the moon. Lasso it and hand it to you like in “It’s A Wonderful Life,” Let Him!

I am burning up on the inside this morning and i have on shorts. The ascension symptoms have been so strong lately.

Thanks Daddy for taking care of us and for showing us who we are in and through You. That we are worthy of all You have for us and then some. We are one with You but You are greater and we praise You for this. Thanks for taking the lead and taking charge. I couldn’t do any of this without You. Thanks for protecting us and letting us see our protection. We love You and thank You immensely.