Yesterday was fabulous. I saw all 6 of my grands and my children, fabulous. It was Lily’s born on day so we partied like rockstars w cake, piñatas, Dr. Pepper and dancing. After this I drove to Tanner and Maegans and held my sweet little man for about 4 hours. Paisley was so good. She sat up in the recliner with us and her and I talked about cheer, school, and snacked on hard candy. We licked sour warheads lol they are too much to go all in on at first haha Oakley has been having a hard time pooing so we called for his angels to help him poo and it worked, he pooped on his own for the first time in a week. I didnt know this was going on until last night and we had to fix this. I was holding him and said “Oakley needs his angels to help him get used to this body, I know he has forgotten and we ask that you help him go poo and get his body in alignment. I break all generational curses taht may have fell upon him now int he name of yeshua and any demon trying to operate behind this curse causing any illness to this body must leave now and take everything you brought with you when you go and I reset his DNA to the way it was made to function. Nothing may harm him – psalm 91 Amen” and he started to pass gas. I could smell it and was so glad his little belly was getting relief. I was like Pepper (Paisley’s nickname -Dr. Pepper) we gonna have to change his butt and she laughed. She said oooo he pooped, Grami. I was like let’s check so i unzip his sleeper and turn his little body to the side a little and opened the side of the diaper to look and there was poop. It got all over my thumb lol. I just barely pulled that diaper.. lol.. not the first time, im sure it wont be the last. We started to change him and he was not finished. Me and Pepper were talking to his angels and cheering him on … i know how this sounds but you ever been around a baby with colic? We needed them angels and my Daddy delivered. I love HIm so much. She helped me change him and she did the final wipe. It was actually precious, her love for him. She’s waited on him for 4 years. She remembered him and constantly told them she was ready for him to come be with her. She is draw into the third heaven in her sleep a lot and tells us about the lellow roads (roads of gold) and she’s right I’ve seen them. And she’s been asking about Yeshua since before she could talk. It was like we were so tapped in I could read her mind but didnt know what was going on at the time bc I want conscious to it yet. She would point at crosses and I would tell her about Yeshua and what He did for us on the cross. Love these babies so much! Thank You for them! They are most precious little hearts and souls You have entrusted me with. Help me to never fail You or them. Thank You! He told me you will not fail I am in you. I praise Him.
Tanner went to the DU banquet and I stayed with Meagan and the babies until about 8ish. Tanner has a duck guiding business and went to mingle. I used to go to these with his dad, i have no idea what they are like now but he seems to be excelling and I praise You for turning everything he touches to gold and for blessing the work of his hands. God did me a solid with his wife. ! My God thank You I love You so much! She is mine! No if ands or butts she is mine! I love these kids and I thank You so much for them. when I got home I decompressed for a bit in my office, my Jesus room is what my family calls it, then got ready for bed and crashed. I slept all night! I needed that. The only thing I asked him for when it come to some sort of a routine was to be on the correct hours. Three month of swing shifts got a little tiring. I thank Him for this so much!
When people come in the back door and i am not in the kitchen they know I am in my office. When i am up and busy and Addie comes in she goes to my chair and hangs out at my desk. She is most precious. When she was about 2 we were all baking cookies and I was asking them what they wanted to be when they grow up. This was great, we were creating. When we got to Addie she said, “ i want to be like Grami” this shook me to my core and I knew I had to get it all the way together for these babies. They watch me like a hawk and listen to everything I say and remember it, they will bring things back to my remembrance lol. My seeds are thickly embedded in these girls and I saw how much so that day. It changed me and I knew. I knew I could never step out of alignment with Him again. My actions affect their future and their belief systems. I got it that day. Be the example. Be what you want to see in the world. I want to see love so I had to become love. With kids this is so totally easy. They are pure and beautiful and have no ill intent, that is not the case with adults and learning to love the Judas is essential.
Learning to love the Judas. This is where most people get stuck bc they throw the Judas away. We cant be throwing people away. Their role in your life will shift but they cannot be thrown out of the circle. The circle is the circle of love. We all have like a circle and throwing someone out of it is throwing then out of God and we cant do that. This circle is the Body of Christ. We are not at war with flesh and blood but the demon behind all of it. When I truly learned this and understood it is when I really learned to war and to command a demon away from me! If that person wants to keep their demon, fine, but they are not bringing it to play around me! And they stay away! That persons roll shifts automatically bc this is my world i just allow certain people to reside around me. I am learning this whole my world stuff and about only allowing in what I want and commanding what I dont want away .. learning. We are all learning. When a Judas spirit would come around me I learned to fight with that demon in the spirit and not that person in the natural i would stand there and smile while they cussed me out but boy when I went into prayer things changed. Go after the demon not the person. Some of the ways these people allow themselves to be used still dumbfounds me too but that is is God’s problem. They ain’t my battle!! Knocked the dust off my feet but before i left I pulled my peace as instructed. I knew He had it! And the demon stays the same until the lesson is learned. The demon may come through different teachers meaning the teacher may change but the lesson is the same. until it is learned you’ll be in that cycle. Dont let us get stuck in any cycles. Zap us till we taste orange and get all of that out of us. Ain’t no going back to the way things were. Help us to move in flow with you at all time.
Thanks Daddy for a day of suddenlies we receive and thank You for stepping in on all things that concern us. Thank You! My God thank You!
There is just something about hearing pipes on a truck when it drives by my house. I know more than likely it is a teenager and it like brings up the teen part of me and then a few core memories of her teen years on Budweiser Blvd and the square, Ally and Eric Jacksons house come up. Didnt really get out much , I have always been a loner. Thanks for letting us know that. I like being alone. I like myself i didnt like many other people. Lol that is so funny bc of how you love everyone now. I do but that is not me. Yes yes it is you. Those were great times. My God bless my momma. She surely needs it after having to deal with me. Thank You for changing me. Thanks for showing me. Thank You for redeeming me and for saving me. My God thank You! We were awful children – in my defense we lived in a tough area. We did what we had to to make it. Really? Well, that was the thought process at the time. Cmon you know where I grew up. We do. He’s laughing at me. I cant justify any of our actions, none and I do praise you for pulling me out. Praise You. Most of those people I used to hang out with are either dead or in prison. My daughter, who was a total surprise and a gift from God, saved me! He sent her when she was least expected by me but I praised Him. I got pregnant at 16 but life did not stop there it had just begun. I changed everything about school, got an apartment, got a job, enrolled in college and grew up. I still made plenty of mistakes and me and Hailey grew up together. 5 years later He sent Tanner. We grew up together too. Neither of my children had teen pregnancies and I praise You for that. Thank You for breaking that curse! The perfect beings were sent by God bc i never wanted to have children. I wanted to go live in NYC and was on my way there. I have always been on the intelligent side, tested genius a few times, skipped a grade, and was in the GT classes working to get out. Being a nurse was not in my plans lol. None of the stuff that happened were in my plans but I see everything has played out the way it needed to. I dont. I dont like someone telling a teen mom her life is over. Do i like or agree with teen pregnancy, no, but I am proof you can still get an education and make it. Thanks for all of this. You’ve truly been there through it all and my God did You do good with them kids. Thank You for them! Thank You for the babies through them! Oh thank You!
I text a few friends this morning telling them we should skip today and go to Beale and have bloody Mary’s lol.. it jut feels like a Bloody Mary morning lol.. i am going to have to paint my nails again today. I looked down last night and one is all chipped up. I may leave them natural for a little while. We will see I did get a new color Id like to try. It’s a cute, cute spring melon orange color and I got a blessing that had to do with oranges this morning. Eating during famine. Joseph. I will take that! Yes sir! Thank You! I praise You for the abundance of confirmation. You are so good to me.
I am on day two of a new habit I am creating. We are going to write an hour here and an hour in the book to get it finished. I decree and declare the writing will flow easily from your mouth to my fingers. Thank You! Yesterday we read for an hour and saw some things that needed to be changed – this is why I should prolly finish reading and then go in and edit it. I havent read it since this time last year. It hasnt been my favorite project and we really need to change that. I truly do desire to do this. I am all in. Thanks! I felt that. She’s ready! I gotta get of here and brush my teeth people are going to be here soon I guess i need to put some clothes on and get dressed. I slept until 545 and its 8 now. Ie been here since about 630 writing.
Be Still & Shut up 