Random thoughts

I may have this outer bad ass persona going on but don’t think for a second it’s real lol lol lol. I am such a softy it’s funny. I have cried over some silly Netflix show about a half kid half deer hybrid. I saw love and it got me. Every time I see love it gets me. Trust me when I say I know when it’s not love. When you find love you know it and then you know what it’s not. When you become love it’s very easy to spot the fakes. I’m on His strength and badassery. .. do not need any of what used to be mine… I totally like being a girl, feminine, and I’m not going back in my masculine! Nope! Notta chance! I’m living in the promise not in survival mode! It has been a challenge and I’m so grateful He has taught me what that looks like for me.

Wanna know something about me that some won’t believe? I am traveling for the first time in my life across country alone without a gun. I am a criminologist and licensed to carry so please don’t come at me about that and sometimes it’s why others are still alive … that the good guy has a gun. For a long time I wouldn’t go to the neighboring city bc I didn’t want to carry. To understand this you had to grow up in Memphis, TN or Forrest City, AR. I’m sure there are other cities like these but these were mine and they are both on the top unsafe places. There are people Daddy won’t even let go into these cities anymore. I don’t particularly want to ever use my weapon so I just didn’t go. Then He showed me how safe I am, and I didn’t care. Still don’t. He controls everything and every person. If push come to shove He could make you but He doesn’t want to do that. He wants us all to just be obedient!! He really doesn’t ask too much and really I’m sick of telling people how important their obedience is. No sir, not complaining but some of your kids! 🙄 I love You so much and I’m so glad that I’m just planting seeds. I’d never want Your job. I’m so glad they are yours 🤣 sometimes I don’t even have anything sarcastic it’s so dumb and I can’t do anything but shake my head. Ok … I’ll stop. My keys were starting to mess up lol. He did let me vent a little and that was my sign I’ve said enough lol. I do love Him so much! For real tho … some of Your kids need a spanking! 😂

I’m so blessed by where He sent me. There is nothing but love here. Nothing but love! When you come from environments that weren’t always based on love love stands out. It takes some getting used to but its now a must! If there isn’t love I’m out!

Daddy has me in a spot with little kids which is great lol. I missed out on getting to be the cool aunt a lot to my nieces and nephews bc of brain injury. My Abraham move promises new family, not replacing don’t think that, just new. My soul tribe and that is exciting. He removed all the fakes, all the users and all the liars, all of them! One by one they fell off and very few people have access to me. My phone won’t even ring lol.sometimes my phone does just weird things but maybe that has been part of my protection.

I can see why the Israelites grumbled. I truly can. You’re moving w the cloud and w the fire and going at His pace. I have made it out of the wilderness spiritually but it hasn’t manifested as the promise yet in the natural and I’m so grateful for Him and where I am bc I’m safe and I’m ok. I’m happy and that is better than just content and I’m almost ready to get back in the truck and go explore. Me and the boys did that for a little while this afternoon. We found a Walgreens and stopped in for gummies and they didn’t have them. They did have chocolate covered almonds which is better.

Boys! He sent me to boys lol and it’s such great fun. My girls have so much south in them they are as we say in the South, tomboys, but they are not boys lol. these boys were on top of their dresser jumping to the bottom bunk 🤣 it looked like such great fun but I had to stop them. I told them I couldn’t tell them twice that they had to stop bc once I said no their angels wouldn’t catch ‘em bc they weren’t minding. And, we are not doing the ER on my watch so stop! They accepted this and stopped w ease. Praise The Lord.

This is going to be a busy week. I truly am grateful for Him giving me a week off from driving. Tomorrow I have to walk downtown Salt Lake and the last time I went there it made me sick but we gonna get this done!
Hot springs tomorrow for sure and I’m thrilled about that!

This is totally why I don’t share too much lol.

So cool is there’s a guy from Israel that lives across the way that has said he would teach us Hebrew. It’s gonna be a fabulous Summer.

I haven’t had a freak out since I was at the lake that day and I’m so proud of that!! I have cried several times but not like that day. I trust Him and everything He does. He’s says things will be totally different in a month. Don’t know how or why but I’m sure excited to see! We have a month to teach these babies to read and we really need to finish these two books and put them out. I’m good w this, I haven’t been, but we can finsh the last chapter and put it out. Thanks for waiting on me. I sure love You and I sure apologize for getting in Your way. Don’t let me do that anymore. Thank You!

Looks like Denver is on the list for this week too. I’m happy about that! I guess after that we come back here and I’m totally good with that. I like it here and there is much more exploring to do. If I’m going to be displaced for a bit You couldn’t have picked a better place.