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I can definitely see why so many Israelites didn’t get into the promise land. Please be careful what you pray. I prayed to experience it. To know what they went through. Why didn’t they get in?! Oh I have seen! I’ve had enough. I came. I saw. I did. I’m done! I’m over the wilderness and I want you to swoop in and rescue me. Yeshua had to come down here and rescue Adam and Eve like 10-12 times. I need rescuing right about now!

I’ve not complained and I could. I could say how I really feel but I’m trying to change that. I’m working so hard to keep my joy. This is not as bad as brain injury but …😂 it’s a close second. Hahah but seriously. The warfare has been unreal. We’ve been warring about 4 hours each day, the entire month of June and sometimes longer. Crazy bad! I write about some of it not all of it. sometimes it takes us a few days to figure out which principality it is. When they are caught they gotta go. We have been arresting them left and right. fasting has been a necessary tool. This is a new season, but not just a new season… a new era and that is so exciting!

Being anointed to fight principalities hasn’t been something I’ve heard a lot about but we do it. Did you know some of these demons have maidens? Female demons that work with them and the last one was Hilda who works with beezelbub. May they both be fully exposed, expose yourself and then arrested upon exposure. All demons working with these two up and out now! I command their doings removed in the name of Yeshua. All seeds, up now, fire fire fire die by fire! We unravel all they did and conform to You. Instill the truth in us and write us as we sleep. Thanks!

I had a small freak out tonight but I’ve gotten really good at sitting with things and processing them immediately so nothing festers in my heart. Wounds are like a splinter and will erupt eventually. When they do they will hurt a person that didn’t put them there. Healing my junk and how I feel is my job. I don’t really get mad anymore. Anger is a secondary emotion. It hurts. Like literally hurts my heart. Betrayal hurts so bad. Lies hurt. People being disobedient and me knowing they are hurts. Your obedience is worth more than any sacrifice and it opens the door to your blessings. Just an FYI. Knowing people have stepped out of Him really really hurts! It’s more than you think. It’s more than I would have ever thought. He lets me feel when someone is out of Him. We have to stay in Him and we do that through faith. Without love your faith is not active. Now faith is activated by your love. (That’s in Galatians, I see why He had me in there for a week) We are love and that should be the emotion we feel 24/7. It’s not really an emotion but you can train your body where you’re in love and feel in love all the time. I wanted this bc I want to feel loved. I want to feel like I matter. We all do. This way I have all the love I’ll ever need and don’t ever depend on anyone else loving me. I love me. I’m in love with Holy Spirit! He is upon me, in me, on me, moving w me like a cloud, and I’m in love.

I am love and my faith has been perfected. I believe everything He tells me. Even when I don’t see any evidence of it and when everything feels like it’s working against me. I know all plots are exploding and everything is working for me. I fasted today to get rid of any doubt trying to live in my heart and then felt a new level of submission. I have had to submit to someone else’s authority over me. I was perfectly good with this. He won’t take me where He wont work for me or help me.

I have been patient and I have been patient in the wait. I just caught the revelation that I’m in the wait part of this season and idk how long it’s gonna last… I’m content.

I haven’t grumbled or wanted to go back. Haven’t even thought of that. I have absolutely nothing to go back to. I am so over this for real and I want a vacation like really soon please!

Getting Egypt out of me. He had been doing that before I ever left. It’s gone! Gone! Praise The Lord! I Was so upset with Daddy earlier. When I get mad at Him I tell Him bc I can’t have that seed of anger towards Him in me. Then I have to apologize and repent for being mad at Him. I’m in a tough spot right now. I’m in the in between… literally and it blows! Totally blows!

Obedience- He has me, all of me and I’ve mastered this part. Even the messages I don’t want to give. I feel Him rise up in me and then it’s like word vomit. He gives me the words to speak. It’s not easy giving hard messages to someone and some don’t receive them well. This is anything but easy. Anything but easy. My heart feels so heavy. For heaviness I know to praise. The joy of the Lord is my strength. I’m so grateful for the experience and I’ve learned to be truly careful what I pray over myself. Is it too late to retract this? Haha for real tho can we be done with this ?! I know I’m going to my promise land bc I’ve already landed there in the spirit. I’m glad I see there better than I do here. My vision there is 20/20, here … I claim this same thing. My eyes have been blurry the last few days. I thought there might be two moons last night. I took a pic to be sure. thanks for fixing that. It has to be with the upgrade, idk bc He’s already fixed my eyes. Any demon trying to steal our healing I banish you. To the pit; angels get em! Thanks Daddy! Chain them in the dungeon where they’ll stay until Yeshua makes His rounds on judgment day. enough is enough! Basta! Everything you brought has to do with you!
I gotta go to bed. .. I didn’t proof forgive me. And, I’m so sorry for being a royal pain tonight. I thank You that this was breakdown to breakthrough. Surely … free of all doubts and unbelief and fear !