Some days are so much better than others. I feel everything today. I feel me having to love and hug in the spirit. I miss my grands! He just reminded me of us hanging out at night in our dreams. They know I’m there and I love that. I’ve never been away from my kids this long. Surly not the grands. This is a first and I miss them terribly. This time is much easier bc Holy Spirit comforts me and loves on me and makes me better. When I was on assignment before I’d stack 8 days in a row in the middle of my assignment and go on vacation with my kids for a week. There wasn’t any of that this time. This was Him finishing me off. The wilderness teaches things that no other experience can. I trust Him. I have to. He is my everything and I don’t have a choice in this matter. I got to come back for my babies and their babies and I will make it count! I owe Him my very life and freely give it. I agree to everything You want from this vessel, Yeshua, anything. I will do whatever He says so His blessings fall down 1000 generations below me. Is it hard? Sometimes… I’m gonna be honest and there is insanity in obedience. If insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results … we’re insane! To this world we are. Do you know how often I do the exact same thing or say the same thing and see different things? Each time! I’m so honored! So honored!

I do miss them and my heart cries for them. I’m strong though, even in a moment of weakness I am strong! This gave me some kinds of strength. I’m in my flesh today as a test hahah I feel it and I know it bc I truly know I’m with everyone and that they are with me. I want to physically put my arms around them. However, I’m not falling for the illusion of separation. I’m not separated with them so I don’t miss them. Not usually. Bc usually I’m in the spirit. I’m not sure why I’m down here in my flesh today. He must me gonna deliver me from something else haha Praise The Lord Praise The Lord Praise The Lord I receive!! I receive any deliverance left for the body and will impart. Thank You bc it’s time! It’s time! 😭 laughing to crying. Yep it’s deliverance and total take over of the flesh. That is hilarious 😂🤣 He has me fasting too hahaha I can’t with Him sometimes.

It takes me sitting down and talking to Him and writing it out to figure this all out. Thos was quick. Accelerated season and I can see that. when I first started journaling I was writing prayers. I like going back and seeing what He did and how each one were answered. I was pouring out my heart and healing. I was writing therapy letters. I was writing burn letters. I was getting it out of me. This worked for me so I recommend everyone try it. You’ll find yourself writing with the Lord. The scribe anointing. Pick up your pen and tell your story. Start somewhere and don’t despise small beginnings. We thank Him for this and for our time in the wilderness learning to operate as a son! Hallelujah!! Nobody will ever understand what that just did! Sonship! I made it! Slaves don’t know what the master is doing. Friends are told before hand. Disciples are learning. Sons just do! They just do. I just went from laughing and celebrating to crying deep in my heart, deep. I’m so deeply grateful I get to be apart of this. I’m so proud of us for making it here. It was a fight. There has opposition this whole way hahah but not anymore! I’m taking over. I know who I am and we are gonna run this joint from the inside. I say what I hear the Father say and I do what I see Him do 😭😭😭 oh my heart. We did it. You should be proud of yourself. I am. I am. Thanks! Thank You for loving me. If They will still choose me and I didn’t mess up too bad I can promise you that you haven’t either.

It’s easy going back to Him. People wanna make it long and drawn out or hard but it’s easy. I threw my hands up and said I’m done! I quit! unless you take over I’m done! I want to come home! I’m over this whole thing and He stepped in. The calling on our lives is much bigger than us. TBI had me so suicidal.. I understand it now where I never did before and it angered me. It took me fighting it to understand it. I have been in their shoes. I could have never said that before. The situations I was in made me so compassionate bc idk if I was or not. Idk but she couldn’t have been too bad she was a nurse. She couldn’t be today with her weak stomach hahaha guys but true. True. I love everyone, everyone is me. That revelation got me …

These flesh suits are just the vessel He chose. It is no longer I that live but Him that lives through me. He wanted to take a drive this morning and He did. I was there for the ride. It’s actually pretty cool. He’s told me that some peoples steps are about to be misunderstood by many, possibly even yourself. That’s Him moving us into alignment 🤣😂 do your thang!

You’re about to see some of His kids take flight. The jets are taking off – the pic the other day I put up on Facebook. haha I can remember It was 4 years ago when I threw my hands up. He totally stepped in! My God my God thank You for saving me! I love You! Thank You!!

I can’t stay down or in my flesh for long and I praise Him for that.

I expect quicker healings. I expect miracles. I expect breakthrough. I expect and am in expectancy mode. Oh that’s wonderful bc she knows it’s here! Oh this is fabulous. Let’s get this party started! And in the feminine energy – receiving mode. It took so much for Him to get me here. Breaking out of survivor mode where the masculine energy dominates was hard!! The male in me had to be healed. Thank You for healing both energies and for them working together. Thank you for teaching me about this and healing me. I praise You!

I have seen 1010, 1111, 1212, and 777 today I know what a lot of those mean. 10 is whole. 11 is transition and I feel this. 12 is perfect. 7 is whole thank You for making this a perfect transition to wholeness. No more separation!! Hey! Welcome to a new day! Haha thank You!
Wow. We are really leaving here hahah I know and if I’m being honest I know but I’m always like wow it’s happening .. ok let’s go
I’m a vessel being used for this assignment and I do love that it is truly no longer me but Him. I’m so excited to see how this plays out. Hahah

Yay! Go Daddy! We did it! Thanks! Thank You! My God I love You so much!

I feel like I’m in labor again in the spirit. I’m bout ready for a stat c-section or something… this has been going on for about a month lol off and on I guess like Braxton hicks. That’s so funny. I can’t even with this! We’ve been pregnant in the spirit with purpose and it is being birthed. We are birthing nations. Well, are we about done? Truly; I’m strong! I’m strong! I’m strong! She laughed. She got it. Thanks!! I couldn’t do this wo you! Thank You! Thanks for holding my hand. I think I’m gonna meditate.
Thank You for being patient with me. Thank You!

Part of me feels a new level of crazy hahaha I can feel Him fixing a neural pathway in my brain. He’s been in my brain and in my heart since I’ve been sitting her writing this.

Thank You Daddy for all Your goodness to me. Thank You for being the promise keeper and for delivering us from all our fears. Fear is an illusion and there is nothing except love here. a take over! Amen! Amen! Amen!

Oh, I can see so many people’s growth. I see them waking up and coming out of their shell and knowing who they are in You and it’s great. wake up wake up wake up! Meditation time!