My doctor appt to continue my social security was yesterday. I am not sure if they were really evaluating me medically or mentally. I sit here and laugh at this bc I was 20000% honest about everything. I haven’t been to a doctor in 5 years and medical trauma is real. I experienced it and I used to be a nurse. People are treated horribly in doctors offices. They won’t get any money from me. If God don’t want it fixed then it’s not. Is how I have become and He is sustaining me. Yesterday I could feel the panic try and set in and the past trauma surfacing. I had some X-rays done on my neck and had to hold some bottles of water and bend my neck certain ways and I started crying. That appointment brought everything that I needed to deal with on a personal level up and I cried. I was asked why I was crying and I was honest. I can’t help it. There is pain. It wasn’t physical pain but there was pain. My body is under control of Holy Spirit and I don’t hurt unless it is something I asked for. I asked to be so sensitive in the spirit that I felt everything around me and He has answered. I feel different demons in different places in my body making me stealthy in the spirit and giving me the advantage. I see, feel or just know before most things happen. I was still being tested until yesterday. I really did appreciate the physicians kindness and I did let him know that.
I do believe some was a mental evaluation bc I was asked if I had a therapist bc of all the trauma with the wreck and I said “oh yes, she’s always on stsndby. I love her. I met God when I died and I have needed her” without missing a beat. Oh my paperwork I had to mail back in for my history and why I haven’t seen a doc I put bc yall are milking people with big pharmaceutical and I’m not taking your poisons anymore. I went holistic! I’ve had 3 ibuprofen in 5 years. There is a cure in so many plants that we were told were weeds. The lies have been crazy and I put that. Then to the doc how my wreck happened but I warned him and told him it’s gonna a make me sound crazy but I’m gonna tell you the truth and I went in hahah 2 Kings 6 happened to me and it here I am to tell about it. It’s a trip and being brain injured has been an experience I wouldn’t wish on anyone. He asked me if I missed nursing and I was honest. Sometimes. I don’t have the brain or the stomach for it since brain injury though. We shall see. I know daddy is dismantling everything so we will see. I’m not worried. He will provide and give me instructions. I do miss the money nursing provided tho and I told him that too. This healing has not been easy and it’s ongoing. They have no idea what I have been through. Then there is a side of me that this whole questioning whether they need to give me my own money irritates. If I could have went back to work I would have. I have tried. Yah shuts it down each time and I have had so much fun the the Esther treatment videos and reviewing the products. I have enjoyed this phase.

Also I learned I have maintained my current weight and size since 2021. Not up or down but exactly where the Lord had me when I sat out to get into a dress I ordered that didn’t fit when it arrived. I had a few months and we worked hard to get here and maintained. I’m proud of that. I also have not returned to Egypt and keep telling him I’m ready to get outta here. I’ve passed all the tests the last few weeks. Back to back to back.

Going back and doing things He’s said do too. I had to change my name on TikTok to apostle Melissa Sheriff. He told me to do they a few months ago and I really didn’t want to bc I don’t care about a title. The only one that I care about is son. Idk why They had me do this except it red me stepping into it fully.

During the eclipse we worked w some angels and got rid of some dragons and demons. Energy was transmuted and we meditated, put our love and then slept. I’ve slept more to recover from that assignment than I have ever had to sleep to catch up. I still feel a little drained but not like I did. I slept and cooked. Sometimes all we need is a good meal and a nap. This has been a different type of at rest. Nurturing is a form of rest and the feminine energy being herself. My feet are a little achy. Whatever I have in me, in the vessel, that is against you get rid of it. Thanks Daddy!