I started reading the Kabbalah tonight and saw where they said Yah splits a soul and sends it in two vessels to find each other to reunite and be one flesh again. When we do this we are in a small percentage of people that even know God still does this. Idk … idk what’s going on.

My things left Tennessee to be shipped to Denver today. I’m mailing back the ring and now we just see what Daddy does. Either way I’m good! I didn’t ask for this but I’ll give You Your 90 days.

I got a call last week w I can’t do this. I’m not sure. I won’t. Blah blah blah. Ok… that’s you saying no to God not me and I’m ten toes down with what Daddy said. I did stand in the gap for him bc he knows not what he’s doing. Today did hurt my heart bc I felt the rejection Yeshua felt on the cross. When He was on the cross only one stood w Him. I’ll stand with You! I’ll never leave You! I’m all in with You if this happens or not. I wanted it to be just me and You to begin with. I didn’t ask for this but I will pray for him and keep him under my covering … he’s sooo proved he needs it.

Maybe I need to fast for myself. I saw that. Me saying if … if this is a test of faith You know I ain’t going out! I’ll stand until the end! I will stay single. I just need You! I’m not saying I don’t need a man bc I do but I definitely need You much more. I just need my cover and apparently since I have 2 principalities under me right now and things changing I would presume I have my cover bc I wasn’t strong enough. Unless He stretched me and made me stronger. Bc I did get a diamond armor this month. My armor stays. I won’t give thst up. I’m not giving him up. I am taking my hand off things like You told me and staying out of Your way. I don’t care anything about the ring… what an expensive lesson! What an expensive lesson! I’m sure I learned I won’t be with him the way he is. You gonna have to do a quick work hahah and I’m here for it. No, I’m good! Really I am. It does hurt a little and I give thst to you. I mean I was rejected by the man I was literally created with hahah how much more serious can rejection get …. Except You experienced it. When everyone rejected You. How people have slept on You and cheated on You like in Hosea. Forgive us Daddy where we have failed You and when we have been stubborn towards You instead of for You. Forgive us. Forgive us!

I also got an offer from Lange today and I absolutely love their products! They want to know about my media kit hahah I have absolutely zero idea what that means. Guess I got some work with ole google tomorrow. That’s exciting! I was so irritated by the fact I don’t have my hair dryer from Lange with me lol. I do love their products. this could be so good bc thst gives You a lot of exposure bc even in the ads I’m true to You.

I’m so enjoying my break and Sebastian set the table tonight and adddd me a spot. Ahhhh my heart. This made me cry. They tell me they love me and I stop right in the middle of everything and kiss on them. See, I’m good. Thanks for sending me here. I’m appreciative. Melissa and I are gonna have to go to Denver and get my things. I found out my brother is moving and I don’t want them to have to deal w my stuff. Thanks for sending the money to take care of this next 90 days.

I see. I see that I desire to teach. I desire to do Your will. I desire You! I feel like I’m giving birth what is going on?! I don’t even have a uterus but it sure feels like I do right now. Maybe we are in the labor room?

Oh I did tell him and if he wanted me to write better he shoulda acted better. He was great tho for about 10 days. He has a beautiful heart and when You get his head right he’ll be good. I told him the world is watching. Hahah I don’t even want to talk about this bc I won’t talk against it. Thank You thst my marriage bears fruit in every season. I command the fruit to take over and for the head heart data dump to commence. Sometimes your head talks to your heart and at times my heart has had to tell my head. Let all the matching cells in the brain and heart merge where they are on the same page with You in us both. Change me more, to be more like You!