desperate
dĕs′pər-ĭt
adjective
Having lost all hope; despairing.
Marked by, arising from, or showing despair.
Reckless or violent because of despair.

I am desperate for Yah. I need Him more than I need air right now. Finding out it’s time to go with nowhere in sight is desperation inside me. This desperation causes me to be ruthless in the spirit with violent faith. Violent faith. And the violent take it by force. There has to be some power in this somewhere. When all hope is gone. I have to remember that You still bring water from the rock. I haven’t lost hope though. I just don’t care. One way or the other my Daddy is gonna take care of me.