Jim, my biological father, transitioned today and went home to be with Daddy. I don’t like that I’m up here. I do not like any of this!! My stuff was delivered today, except my laptop I’m sure he’ll ship that too.

I don’t appreciate being put out here like this. I don’t. He said 30 days again the other day which lets me know I’m not done with being on this roller coaster. I am not a fan of roller coaster and You know it. I feel like I’m crumbling. I’m not begging to be rescued You’re sure right. I’m not sure any person on this earth could make any of this better.

This time last year I was on the cross. I remember the marks. Something else in me has died… I feel lost as a goose. All I have is what you’ve already told me and I trust You. I want to go home! You promised! Yes, You’ve got Your 90 days … it’s not 90 anymore. More like 70 now and where has time gone. I’ve been married a month today – engaged and married same day. I feel the drinking gone bc if there was ever a day I’d crave day drinking it would have been today. Thanks!!