If you don’t meditate and want to discover your blocks inside you. Say it. Speak it to yourself and feel if you believe yourself or not. What do you want? What were you promised and do you even believe God in you for what He told you?
If you don’t believe it say it until you do. Access your subconscious mind and get it in there. When you meditate feel it as already done. See it and feel it. Subconscious works more on energy and better with pictures. You make sure you see it, and feel it and it’s your new truth. You won’t see it until you have zero doubt in your heart.

For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does NOT doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Mark 11:23