I woke up this morning and heard 3 days. Not only once did I hear this but twice.

I feel all over the place this morning. Like, in a funk but I don’t think this is me. I’ve been crying all day and I am nothing but grateful. Even the stuff I’m hearing to make me doubt 😂makes me laugh. I’ve been laughing at the warfare after crying it out.

While on my walk this morning the gas has went to 3.09 and it did that to me the last time before I left Arkansas. When I went back into Arkansas to get my things it was back at 2.99. Doubt can flock right off! Thank You for my authority and teaching me how to use it. I am mad that a petty little lower level demon got to me. What is up? Not you him. Well, this fast better do something. I absolutely will fast! I absolutely will! In fact I started one at 6:20 last night. After being on one meal a day for 3 days.

I see! I fight every day and I won’t quit, my heart has been back and blue and I haven’t walked away. I won’t do You that way! You’d have to come down here and talk to me to change my mind and we both know that! You command puts me in action. I do it bc I love You. Even when quit tries to taunt me I kept going. When everything was stacked against me, I kept going. When You told me to sell it all, I kept going. We go on $5 and we have went with $500 and $5000 – I’ve not changed and I’ve not not done something bc of money. I started this trip with $3500 and what They sent in. Now you can test me with 50,000 or 500k or 5M or 500M – it’s a tool You’re the Source of it and it’s Yours. I desire the necessities, essentials and always a toothbrush on hand. I know that will be crazy for some but I was stuck out on a boat for 3 days and had my purse but no toothbrush. That has not ever happened again!! I’ve had a toothbrush in my purse for 4 years. I may be caught off guard once but I learn from it each time.

I have some love and hate. I love being a brain injury survivor bc I don’t have the past. I’m grateful. I also hate being a severe TBI survivor bc people automatically think I’m stupid. This is why I asked for wisdom and not wealth. When I was with Yeshua He asked me what I wanted when I came out of this. I want wisdom. I want to be above the rest like Daniel. Second to Solomon. I wanted people to eat their words but now I just don’t care. I wanted people to go into judgement bc of me but then I saw it and cried out for their mercy. I didn’t want it anymore and I didn’t want to be anywhere near and He pulled me. I’m not.

I feel anxious on the inside of me and that shouldn’t be there. I felt like I was having a panic attack this morning …. I couldn’t breathe. I was bawling and crying bc doubt was trying to roam and I can’t let that demon get anywhere anyone of my people. Some only come out by prayer and fasting. I’ll do both gladly. We gotta have things turn around.