Author: bestillshutup

You ever had a baby natural? You know that point where you’re so tired of the pain you just want it to stop. That if it doesn’t stop and soon you’re gonna jump out of the body? People can prolly see your head spinning bc you’re done! The pain is too much. The human body can only take so much. This is where I am!!

I saw myself throw my head back and tell Abba. I’m done. I was just begging do whatever you need to do bc I’m done. Get me out of here. He said one more push, kid. Just one more. One more. I’ll give you one more. I did and I saw the baby. Go get her was playing as I was bawling my eyes out dying but giving birth in the spirit. Dying to myself. I’m burning up one mine and crying. Freezing the next and laughing.

We are almost there. Don’t stop pushing. I’ve been seeing babies all day. I need to see something. I need to see something personal. I need something very personal. Thank You Daddy for bringing my baby right to me.

This weather was so evenly distributed it trips me out. Oh my Yah thank You!! The temps have lined up everywhere to include Key West and Harlingen. Those two have given me fits haha but not now! The knowing. My goodness I’m so glad you’re doing this. And we canceled the energy for a tsunami and it was cdnceled in the natural immediately. We are in the realm of immediately!! I’ve been pushing to get here for… this whole trip. 20 months on the road to get fully in the knowing and my head and my heart on the same page. I think He’s crazy but I’m so here for it! Who woulda ever thought Yah would choose a small town chic from Arkansas to control the weather and change the frequency of energy. Im exceeded. He exceeds my expectations with this. Moses did control the elements in Numbers 20. He was disobedient as to how the water came from the rock but it came. The water came at his command bc he was looked at as a God exodus 4:16. My goodness. We wrote about becoming this a year ago. I remember. We did it. Looks like we made it. You trip me out. I love You so much!
It’s a little cold in the South for this time of year but it’s only for a few more days. I must be leaving in a few more days. I am leaving here tonight. I say this every single night. It’s weird being in the not knowing lol. I treat each day as it is my last. Soon it will be. Tonight!! I’m excited. I’m excited to see my husband. I’m excited to see his face. I’m excited to hear his voice. I’m excited to touch his arm. I’m excited to hold his hand. I’m excited to go home. I’m excited about being married. I need to want him. He’s imperative to my calling. I need him. He needs me. We need each other. This is two, created before the foundations of the earth, coming back together and being one light. I don’t really understand this in the natural or how this works but in the spirit I get it bc we are the ruling principality and I see this and it trips me out. I only say what He says. I only do what I see Her doing. This much power is big time interesting. I have to really watch my words. I fear only Yah. I am so thankful I’m the favorite. 🤩 😂 so are you. I just know it. I know. I love the knowing. Love it!! Thanks! My gosh thank You!

I haven’t heard him in a while. I’ve felt him, absorbed so I could transmute and then would throw my shield up and cut myself off from the whole world. I had to focus on Abba. I had to focus on me. I had to focus. I will not fail Him. I had to learn. I am practically perfect in every way. I am more than worthy. You are for sure!!

Daddy, I love You! Thank You my God thank You!! Thank You!

You’re so fabulous!! We are about to see a lot of miracles. This is so exciting. I don’t care if people think I’m nuts. The proof is in the power of Yah. I’m not going anything. I’m merely being obedient and calling what’s mine to me. Maserati come forth. Property come forth. Husband come forth. Earth vomit out my inheritance. Angels bring the harvest forth. TikTok shop go viral with mass sells starting now. Inheritance come forth. Wealth transfer begin now. Thank You Daddy !! Oh thank You!! We did it! Looks likes we made it. Mighta took the long way but we made it. We have handled all of this with zero reaction. No freak outs. No losing my mind. I was aggravated and getting bitter but I didn’t let that control anything about any response I’ve had during this test.

What happens if you get mad at me? 😂 I pray! I pray!! Literally, I go on a walk and I pray. I don’t ignore anything that makes me mad but I ask myself why I’m mad before any response is given. Is this me. Is this a seed. Is this right with Yah. Is He mad too? I have answers to all of this before one word comes out of my mouth. Sometimes it matters and sometimes it doesn’t. I’ve walked a lot on this trip haha I walk a lot. I pray a lot but not all about the same things. I mainly just stay at His feet and in praise. I’m under contract and She told me Thsy had called in the contracts and people had submitted. That means my husband. I’m thrilled. I do love him and I trust You have done a mighty work.

I think about going home everyday. I think about him everyday. What you hold in your mind today you hold in your hand tomorrow. That was nesbitts post today. Wow! Thanks! I’d absolutely love going home tomorrow! I’m going home tonight!! This is happening now. Waiting on it to walking in it. Oh thank You. Thank You so much! That word on TikTok from Dynah was tomorrow too. I’m sticking to that. By this time tomorrow. No fear. No blocks. Just excitement and let’s go! It feels good to be here. No blocks in me. Praise God. You’re awesome!! My my my thank You! No blocks. HalleluYah!! He removed them. Thank You! I had some anxiety. Like how do we get past this but we already have. He was scared and I was mad. Not a good combination. I’m glad we already did all this separation stuff in the beginning and we will never do this again. This was the test. If I would still stand through my anger. I did. I will fight for You until my heart is black and blue. This is an assignment. I won’t let You down! I think I need a Power Nap.

My God. I love You so much!! I think You’re so crazy and I love it and I’m so thankful You chose me. I will not let You down! I know, Kid, that’s why We chose you. I’m crying crying cryin bawling. The power Moses had I have. The looked as a God before the oppressor. Crowned for His glory. Ahhh I’m crying again. I got a new crown. How sweet. Today I fully stepped into all the knowing. Where I trust Him to feed me information so much I don’t have to know anything. She knows everything. She is Him. They are one. Awww that’s so sweet. I see it. I see it. This is what She keeps telling me and about me and TN. That I am Him and he is me and we are one. I didn’t capitalize that. I did fully accept this call. I will let everyone think this is brain injury hahah bc I’m sure that is what so many think. I find that hilarious!! They thought I was crazy when I first came back bc I knew about controlling energy and shifting it and making it do what I wanted it to do. I just didn’t know how. Early will I seek Him. This is when He taught me. Years of 3ams. 6 of them. I love the 4th watch. I don’t want to switch. If you need me to cover another prayer time I will but I love the warfare on third watch. I like to war. I find this fun. It is a job but I like it. All I really do in the natural is stay at His feet and breathe how He tell me.

I’m ready! I’m ready to fully walk into this. I have no blocks when it comes to walking away from anything or anyone. Thank You for my family. Thank You for the new family!

Ummm is what I say to call on Holy Spirit. I see I say that a lot and I can see myself losing my words (aphasia is from TBI and we need this healed) crying again. He’s touching my tongue. I begged Him for an Arron. He wouldn’t pass the anointing through anyone else’s words with me. I bowed. I took both my knees. I got You. Oh You can blow my mind!! I’m ready. I’ve been listening to this for the last 20 mins. Tasha cobbs ready for overflow. It’s here. It’s now! No matter what it looks like.

I had a seed of bitterness plucked yesterday. My heart was growing cold towards my spouse. I’m so blessed and glad I’m here bc I don’t want any bitterness towards anyone ever, especially him. He is me. I am Him. We are one. I didn’t cap that time either. Show me Abba. I will. Thank You! When haha I knew You knew I was gonna ask. We shared a laugh here. He does know. He knows me. I used to ask every day when and now it’s already finished. I’m there. I’m home. I’ve been in my new bed for about a month (in the spirit) I pace my new office. I practice everything there (in the spirit) and see it before it happens. That is how He tells me what to do and what’s coming. Sometimes He doesn’t show me He shows someone with me to surprise me. I’ve learned I love surprises and I expect this each day. I am a brain injury survivor and He makes me fall in love with Him each day. He renews our vows inside of me when I need to hear them. Telling me how much He loves me. How proud He is of me – this one was hard to receive. Even from the Creator where it should be easiest. Thanks for fixing me! Thank You!

Seeing the light body the other night was cool. I have read so many books during my process, which has been really my whole life bc I’ve always soaked in knowledge and was a nerd, that I desire a break. Our vocabulary is being upgraded. Amen! I love You so much.

Thanks for today! I love You! It’s in the knowing. He zapped me before this trip and finished me at the end of it. Amen! HalleluYah!! I receive the end of this trip! I put my ring back on. Idk how long it’s been since I wore it but it’s back on. I will be obedient. I saw it in the spirit and put it back on. I’ve been working and I was some kind of mad. He softened my heart and pulled out that seed of bitterness. The other night I told Kathy when I think of him I just smile and then I rage. He just makes me mad. He didn’t make me anything but mad. The last time I saw him he asked me what if you get mad at me. I said TN I’ve known about us being one and married for 5 years and watched you in two relationships I knew weren’t going to last and I tried to warn you both times!! I’ve already been mad at you!! He said oh yeah and we went on about our business. This was a test that I passed. People walk away where they’re mad. I didn’t and I won’t. We are one. I look at him different than I’ve ever seen a man. I look in the mirror and I saw all the brokenness I’ve dealt with that he has been healing from and I cry for him. I’ve been in his state. Thank You for showing Him that I totally understood when he called me asking for help. I’ve been there. I’ve never asked for help but I think it’s so brave of him to do so. And to ask me for help out of the whole world .. I’m honored. I’m not mad at him anymore I love him. Thanks for softening my heart towards him. Been praying that one for about 126 days. Oh my and it’s been 126 days exactly. I went and looked hahaha I forgave every time I would think of the words he said to me. I had to forgive each time. Now I just laugh at it bc I know it’s the enemy wanting to make me mad at him and I’m not having that. I love him. I will fight for him. That boy is mine!! I laugh at the enemy all days some days. Ive been pulling him out of his low vibrational funk

I went full on no contact. If I felt TN in the spirit I said nope!!! And put my shield up so nobody and nothing could get through. I haven’t heard anyone but Yah in 126 days. I started shielding up and bricking myself up 126 days ago. I was wanting to hide myself. My assignment didn’t allow that and doesn’t allow that so I’m thankful my shields are active and that they cannot be penetrated!! That’s fantastic!! I am trying to let people in. I know why I didn’t. It’s thst abandonment wound hahah and I don’t have that anymore. People leave so why get to know them. I can love everyone without knowing them… this was my thinking. Now, I do enjoy getting to know people. I like hearing what their fav food is.

I know why I love college football more than any other type I wonder if others know. That is good. I prefer college ball bc this is kids at the top of their game. Some of them it’s the first time they’ve ever left home and got out of the ghetto bc of a scholarship. It’s just beautiful!

I fully step in! You got it! Fully! This is gonna be so fun!

I will get better at resting. I don’t like not working. I am just so good at it and you’ve taught me so well we just go in and clean house. You and King David taught me forgive me if I’ve done wrong. You secure a victory and I’m going. You’ve secured them all and I love You for this. Forgive me for not resting. He will force someone into rest or He will be. I don’t get sick. It’s not allowed to touch tbis body and if it does it dies by fire. It doesn’t want to have to die. Nothing does and nothing really does it’s just turned from one form to another. Like water and ice. We turn low vibrational energy into high vibration. Catch and release haha

I picked this back up to say something I didn’t want to forget and it must not have been too important. I guess we are finished. Thanks I love You! You’re so Wonderful!! So today we soak this in and it becomes our truth. I gotta go read Moses again. He didn’t get in the promise bc he was disobedient but the elements did what he said. I think… I need to see again. No sir, I got You. I got a warning about obedience right there. If I’m the last one standing. I got You! From my mouth straight to Your ear. From Your mouth straight into my body.

Can I take this ring off now? Do you not want it? I do but I don’t need it to know I’m married. I haven’t had a ring in years and stood true to this. It doesn’t change anything in me. It’s outside of me. All I need is You! I desire my husband and the other part of me needs to come forth! I am who shows up. I am the one he needs and I thank You for showing Him he wouldn’t even be alive if we hadn’t of been there. Well, he might of but it would have been an EMS CALL. I’m glad you showed him. He is who I need and I just saw him walking up to these stairs. Oh my thank You! The knowing is a funny place to be. My body knows changes are coming. She’s so relaxed with this. I love You so much!! I got You!!

I think I’m really done now but if not I’ll pick it back up and write again.

Oh those triangles spinning is cool watching it transmute energy and see how I help in the natural gave me more understanding. Thank You!

My territory has increased. I have overtaken any entity or principality trying to get in my way and the weather (He’s crazy and I love it) I’m bawling ( I had our slang here to with eyes and out and had to remove it bc that is a word curse) of gratitude that He trusts me like this. I mean I guess the weather is nothing since He trusts me with His people. People are much more important than the weather. Their souls, Abba! Their souls!

Not just the weather but I’m learning the etheric realm and the aether… you know what it is? It is spirit. It is breath. It is all around us. It is energy. The realm is me being conscious of all of this with each breath I take and shifting things with my exhale. This is the coolest thing ever!!

The titanium in my body has hurt with this upgrade. I’ve kinda had to take it easy. Friday night my arm was swollen and hurting. I thought it was bc I was cold but then my neck started to hurt and then up my jaw it went. It took me 2 days to clear the blocks where I am pain free.
Social security called me again asking if there had been any changes in my medical care or treatments. Yes. There have been changes. My diet has changed again and I’ve practically been living off soup, grilled cheese, water and sprite.
I feel a new upgrade. He made me a governing principality over the United States!! Ummm, are You sure? 😭😭😭 that is a lot of pressure. You sure, sure?

I’m gonna have to do some research. I need to compile a list of reproductive issues for the prayer He wants to go out. We are about to see a baby boom 🤯 🤣 I love that!

He’s telling me I don’t have to learn about politics bc I was like oh crap I don’t know anything about this but He does. The govt is on His shoulders not mine! Isaiah 9:6 thank You! I didn’t ask for this. We know but you’re gonna be perfect. Inhale – shift it. Thank You Holy Spirit. Thank You! 😭

The knowing!

The Lord asked me if I wanted snow before I left and I politely told Him no thank You. I do not want any snow. It can do that when I leave. It was supposed to snow and didn’t and then in the afternoon it started pouring snow. I looked at it and smiled. Told it how pretty it is but it had to go, canceled all manmade or manipulated weather and it stopped. It went into the mountains and I’m cool with that.

Still, are You sure? I mean that’s a pretty big territory and interceding for the entire body. Are you sure? He’s telling me it’s in my job assignment and yeah He’s sure. He trusts me and I need to trust myself. I hear Him impeccably and know energy. I don’t ever have to say anything. I can snap my fingers and breathe and shift everything around me. And the realm of immediately. He told me that after the prayer goes out women will be pregnant in their next cycle. It’ll get to who needs it and I trust this. I was kinda liking being hidden but we need this TikTok thing to blow up. There are a lot of people I desire to help. We need a home base, Abba and I praise You for taking me home! Before the end of the month. I’ll do the research and make the list tomorrow.

What about organs? I’d like some angels to hand some out. I’ve seen the room and I want some of them organs in this realm. The ability to transform matter. The ability to pull from heaven and bring it into this realm. Teach me!! Show me! This is exciting!

Always my sign that an assignment has been fully completed and that it’s time for my next destination! Surprise me! And, let’s rock this joint! Thanks for this trip. I needed it! I needed to come into full power and authority alone. People think I’m crazy when I start directing bubbles flying in the air hahah and then I hear “do it again” 🤣 He couldn’t allow anyone to be kryptonite to the power He has me walking in. I think He’s crazy but I’m here for it. I’ve faithed around and I’m about to find out!! 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻