Author: bestillshutup

The changes in me are happening a lot faster. I can feel Him tweak my heart and my brain when something new has been imparted, maybe a better word is implanted. It’s so odd that I can wake up being one way and then after a 30 min walk I’ve shifted and now believe different. The changes are immediate now and I’m thankful. I don’t like repeat lessons and I understand the assignment. I thank You for trusting me. I will give it all I got!!

I have had a pressure headache in the top of my head off and on. Not debilitating, praise Jesus they have been before, but super painful when moving.. It’s like a forced version of be still. He will lay you down so He can talk to you.

This morning I thought I was going to be sick on my walk. The nausea hit me at the turn and I immediately started praying and talking to my body. Can’t throw up away from home, piss all over myself. No throwing up praise Yeshua. Diarrhea is also very common w the upgrades to our body/DNA… both? Both. That’s cool, thanks! We love You!

Have had a few coughing fits and used my inhaler twice today. Productive and I’m glad it is clearing itself. Some sinus stuff too but this is common.

Had some ringing in my ears yesterday. It was kinda like a high pitched squeal, didn’t hurt and it was only on the right side.

I trust Him. I trust Him. I trust Him. I’ve been telling myself that a lot this week. I trust Him. I trust Him. I trust Him. This is uncharted territory and I’m out here just faithing it. I’ve never been fully submitted. I’ve submitted to Him and then wanted to renegotiate … don’t do that bc you are not going to win against Him and what is there really to negotiate? His way is best! You will cave. Whether it’s 11 days or 40 years is on you.

He’s been upgrading our physical bodies, you might be feeling some or all this too.

I got to be confirmation for someone this morning. Felt good! Felt real, real good.

I was out on my walk and I could hear Holy Spirit talking and said have you heard? Heard what, I say? He begins to tell me something about this person that is futuristic. He told me about a promise to this person and that something had to be done first (that’s being done now) I am so extremely happy for this person I had to call them. 😭 I didn’t know I was going to be confirmation, I was just told to call and share. 🙌 obedience pays! ❤️

I had someone tell me they tucked themselves under my prayer covering and they can see Yeshua shifting things inside and around them. I think that is so amazingly cool! I love being a house of prayer.
My life has become a prayer. Talk about strange but He did it. I pray more than I speak and when I speak I’m either praying, teaching or creating. I don’t small talk good. I don’t really want to talk about the weather unless I’m talking about controlling it. 🤷‍♀️

You know me writing these helped me truly get to know myself and Yeshua. Get a journal and praise Yah you don’t have to post it to the world 🤣

Many new revelations on what’s inside this vessel too. I’ve only had 10 years getting to know her as she relearned herself (memory wiped, I feel like I was just dropped here) and only 4 of them healed. I don’t have all the memories but there are core memories that were tucked inside her heart. I have those w her and I love that.

I love her! Thanks for my vessel you did good w her! She’s totally submitted to Yah, Yeshua, and Holy Spirit. She doesn’t mind saying anything You tell her too. She doesn’t mind working with the angels. She’s ready. So proud of her!

Crazy!
Me? Why yes, yes I am. Not only do I have the mind of Christ and He created everything He’s a little (lot) crazy w what can be done and … just crazy! But now I have His heart and it just … just .. apparently, just spews stuff 😂🤣 Yeshua is crazy!

Something so totally knew … Yeshua took over my conversation that was light and fun. Now, it’s at an awkward spot, I feel, but that’s on Him not me.… control your thoughts bc He will answer you without me knowing what’s going on …😉 and tell me afterwards 😜
SPEWS! Isn’t that wonderful tho? He answers before we even call.

I do like it! It was different and I’m feeling good. How will anyone know if we don’t tell them? Demons like to talk too much and I’d rather it be my voice heard and me the one planting seeds. I’m good w talking about whatever You got! I know I’m sorry. I know it took long enough. Forgive me. Thanks! Get em ready for Your crazy! If you’re looking to love like crazy… crazy is what you’ve-found.

I don’t need to know you to love you. I love Yah in you! His heart! It’s different but oh so amazing! I feel what He feels for you! And, I love my kind of crazy! Different but Good!

Wanna know what I saw about our brains and alcohol today? Of course you do!

I remember that first drink and how it would bring millions of tingles and warmth all throughout my body. It was a sensation of peace. Thats like fake peace the world brings and it is not lasting. Gotta drink more and more … it’s only temporary.

You know how the body gets that heat inside when we drink? The warmth? The feel good sensation that runs through it’s veins. Let me tell you why! This is a tad disturbing so if you don’t wanna know what your brain is doing quit reading. Ok, so our brains release chemicals like dopamine, to make us happy. This is released in excessive amounts when alcohol is ingested and when the body is dying so it’s less painful. Alcohol is poison and putting it in the body causes these chemicals to be flooded to every cell bc the brain is preparing the body to die. How flocking crazy is that?! Our brains think we are dying w every sip. I kinda laughed at this at first bc I sorta laugh at everything and well, every drink? but also this made me ponder … how scared our brain must be when we drink bc it’s literally preparing the body to die. How sad is that? I felt remorseful instantly when I saw this. There have been days when I was terrible to my vessel. Praise Yeshua!! Praise Yeshua! Thank You for healing me!

Daddy, forgive us, we literally didn’t know, and forgive us for seeking peace in anything other than You. Had no idea but it makes sense. ETOH is very bad for brain injured people so it that makes total sense, too. It also delays healing, bc that is also done partly by the brainWe ask our bodies to forgive us as well and we thank You for healing us.