Author: bestillshutup

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I’m totally the most introverted extrovert anyone will ever meet. I’m perfectly fine on my own, if I have to I can be a social butterfly. I prefer to stay in the secret place. I love being in His presence.

The wilderness teaches you to trust. It teaches you to love without limits. It teaches you to give grace, freely and quickly. It teaches you patience. It teaches you to truly step out in faith. It’s taught me so much about me and I’ve gotten to show Him I am all in. I won’t back down and I won’t change. I know what He taught me. I am what She put in me. I can’t do this without Them … That’s my only non-negotiable. I will do what He says, go where He says and when He says. I will fulfill the calling on this life in this lifetime.

I walked with archangel Michael the other day and almost didn’t know who he was. It wasn’t until after that they told me. It was a test. I was entertaining an angel completely unaware. I don’t stop to talk to people. If they stop me I’ll chat but I don’t just walk up to people, it’s just not me. He’s been truly pulling me out of my comfort zone and making me talk to people about all of this. He was sent to test me on my morning walk. I passed but I could still feel myself wanting to get away bc I was alone. Not alone but alone in the natural. He sent them out two by two and I need my other one to make two. I’ve had to sit and watch a demon lay a man on the ground so I could walk by at my command bc I wasn’t allowed to cast it out or speak to it. Couldn’t ask any questions nothing bc I was alone. I don’t like that. I want my marriage bc it makes hell nervous! And, it’s an assignment. Everything is an assignment and so is everyone. How badly have you dropped the ball? Realm of repentance.
I’ve told people about my move. Why I’m here. What He’s done to me and how I met Him when I died. I’ve gotten to talk about angels and parents are watching them catch their kids. Have I mentioned lately that I love this? two people that just moved here were sent here to heal and they are. I’ve talked to them about demons and legal rights and how to remove them and about ascension. It’s really cool and there have been many healings, it’s still happening. He healed a girl of MS today. I praise Him, that isn’t pleasant. Your brain and nervous system are literally fighting everything about you. I felt my brain was trying to kill me. She’s healed bc I was! That’s the thing about this anointing He has on me… everything I was healed of I get to see others be healed from. I’m glad it all happened. I’m glad she was the way she was and that it all happened. I’m so grateful! So grateful!

I have seen by all these things how well I hear and how well I do stepping out in faith., didn’t miss a beat and I’m proud of that. When asked it just spills out and I don’t even have to be asked sometimes. It’s the truth and nothing else. No jibber jabber in between. No explanation. Nothing but the truth and that is Him. That’s what He’s done to me so if you don’t wanna know please don’t ask.

I was told to get my things organized and ready. I did. Now, we wait. This makes my heart a lot excited. I know. I know. I know. I know what has to be next. My environment is proof. Oh and the gas went down again to $3.85. Don’t you know these people are loving that. I think I had almost gotten comfortable in the wilderness. Even had a small routine going on. He told me not to get too comfortable and I’m not but me leaving will be bittersweet. He shook things up and shifted things last week, no routine. I’m going to miss these people and I’m so thankful for them. The love they have shown me is as if they were taking care of Yeshua Himself. That’s how it should be when you’re helping or taking care of one of His sent to you. (Galatians 4:14). He has had me in Galatians for over a week showing me different things each time I read it. I’m seeing why.

That’s how He’s gotten all of His Word in me. Just an fyi. People want to know how I did this. That’s how. I got the Word in me and got to know all three of Them. I meditate day and night. I will read the same chapter for a month if I have to. Whatever it takes!

I’ve also learned in the wilderness I have nothing to lose! You know He told me many years ago there wouldn’t be many miracles in my hometown bc of others disbelief. Like when He was in His hometown. I sure have seen them here. I’ve even had a wife receive healing for her husbands and it worked! Daddy blows my mind. It’s in the faith. Everything I have faith in and do not doubt I’ve seen. I stopped a cloud. That is still a trip! No doubt! Can’t have any doubt living in your heart and the only way to get rid of that is through fasting.
Fasting will also help with that natural mind getting in the way. His voice will become the loudest. Some of y’all are scared to fast bc of how He will transform you and how you’ll hear Him bc you are riding the fence! Please know the line has been drawn! You better pick a side and get in the realm of repentance.

Laila tov 🥰

Speaking from experience don’t tell Yah you won’t do something. If you do He will show you who is boss and make you. If He told you something you best do it. You won’t be able to sleep until you do! If you’re disobedient during a test you’ll have to repeat it and thats a whole season … trust me! You don’t any to set yourself back or be a weapon forming against yourself.
Laila tov! (Goodnight)

This is how most of my mornings are spent- FaceTime. I’m so thankful for our technology! This morning I had my coffee with Addie, and Lily. I sure love these kids. Each time I talk to them they show me everything and it’s the cutest and sweetest thing ever. I get tours of their houses and their chicken coops, if they get a new toy or new makeup they tell me all about it … I love them so much! It’s a privilege to be in someone’s life, don’t ever forget that! They are my greatest blessings! Addie will be 5 in just a few days and it makes me sad I’m not there. This is for them and this is legacy being built; for many generations to come. We push on! I used to do this with tears in my eyes. Now, I have a smile on my face!! I understand the assignment and I’m so thrilled to be apart of Yah’s plan.

Melissa and I are still tripping about this one. I found out how crazy I really am and we watched what I say come to pass before our eyes, twice, in real time. I do love this! I told that cloud that it was not coming into my airspace and it froze. Not kidding. The whole sky paused, we are still tripping on this. And you see that white ray of clouds going towards it? That’s what popped up after I told that cloud it wasn’t flying here and that it had to go into the light. Y’all the light appeared and got it. 🤯🤯🤯
This is why I wanted to know if you got rain today. I’ve been playing and learning. I’ve been canceling for over a year. And now, we are controlling and that is simply amazing. The heat wave they want in the south has to dissipate and it has to rain. There can be no other way! I command pop up steady showers for anywhere that needs rain, that’s like the entire South and for to cool it off. Last year I worked on trying to control the humidity and telling it to come down. It would depend on what it was daily so I totally recommend you becoming as crazy as me and demanding your weather listen. I am seeing these pop up showers happen and one of em was in the desert in New Mexico.

Take a deep breath and exhale. Breathe into your heart and let her know she’s ok. She’s safe and Yah is protecting her on all sides. I know you’re scared, I am too, but we are being delivered of all fears. We are excited and ready to walk into our next. We don’t doubt you.

I have a cool story about a cloud and our inquisitive nature hahah. The cloud we watched dissipate. I told it t was flying in my air space and was operating illegally and that it had to be moved into the light. We were blown away. That happened! That happened! That really happened hahah.
There is a new guy in the building and our inquisitive nature and being truth serum I told him , you do know you got some inquisitive neighbors, right? I think I might have said nosy … got his story.
There is an Israeli across the way that is the best person ever. He’s confused by religion but we’re working on that. They watch me. I pray outside. I pace the balcony and pray. They are meeting Yeshua and seeing Him through me. They know my story. They know I’m on an Abraham move and waiting on a promise to manifest. This is hilarious and as I type this we are all sitting outside and I’m high as a kite on Holy Spirit. They prolly think I’m nuts hahaha. Tonight I didn’t miss a beat or beat around the bush trying to explain things I was just matter of fact. You gotta repent. I’m not trying to change you but you gotta repent. That gives a demon a legal right. Then I said I know I’m truly mind blown by all of this too but it’s truth or it wouldn’t come out of me. Being a speaker of truth and no lie can’t cross these lips has made me very creative and honest lol sometimes I won’t talk at all and it’s nothing towards that person is spiritual. Not everything needs a response in the natural.

I can feel the supernatural heart survives happening and it makes me feel like I’m in labor. We are birthing s promise tonight. One thing I know about being a L&D nurse is you can’t go in labor and not deliver. Ain’t no going back. We don’t even want to nor think about the past. We are too busy creating our future.

I washed my hair and I feel like a new woman. I feel like I’m in labor. Like even doing Lamaze breathing like I’d have my patients do. I always used the power of imagination and didnt even know the true power within. I feel like we know but we don’t know and now I know.

Talk about exposure… there is some of that going on. Been a few fights … I haven’t seen any of them which is good bc I woulda prolly been fighting too bc I’m always rooting for yahs team but I have seen the evidence of the enemy and it is frustrating but everyone’s true colors are being exposed.

Sebastian walked in on me putting my lotion on sitting on the side of the tub (I had a towel on) and then politely closed the door and said I needed to pee but not that bad I can wait. Such a gentleman. My girl is raising true men and I’m so blessed to be apart of their lives. I love them so very much and this leave will be bittersweet as well. Not much longer here and oh I’m so ready! Yes, please.

I just got tired. Maybe it’s over. Nope there went a breath hahah this is a trip. Im going to play a game for a little while.