Author: bestillshutup

I give myself permission to be happy where I am and enjoy each now moment with grace and love. The compassion has grown and is part of me. I can see this. I’m proud of this. Compassion is what healed them all. Matt 14:14 and the amount of scripture in me is remarkable, especially to me. I’m a brain injury survivor that literally can’t remember yesterday most of the time lol but I promise if it’s in what I’ve read I know it’s there and can find it. I love this. He made me a savant

Savant-

a person of learning

especially : one with detailed knowledge in some specialized field (as of science or literature)

That’s cool and I praise You for this! Thanks for all the books we’ve read too. I so enjoy being with you and being love all day. It’s a lot weird but I am just love and my vibration has gone up again. When I feel him go up I go up. I’ve been fighting with him and idk if he even knows it. I can feel him and I’m proud of him. The vibration when we are together is astounding and something I can’t exactly explain except it was intoxicating and overwhelming, in a fabulous way. I felt fear the night before I left and I’ve been fighting it with him since. I’m glad I’ve been here. I’m glad we were in separation bc he was really not any good to me at the time. Philemon. Now Daddy is telling me that he is useful to the both of us and accept him as I would Him. A will. I have each time this man has totally interrupted my life lol I love him like You do and it’s kinda strange hahaha this love is a new kind of love and I am so in love with You for it.

I’m happy in the not so great and have made it great. I really can’t wait to see what real happy is in fabulous circumstances. Im joyful even when everyone else isn’t and I know everyone loves me. My family loves me. The body of Christ is my family. I got a new family.

Feeling worthy… knowing I’m more than worthy. Knowing and scoffing at any demon trying to tell me different. I laugh at them.

Things that used to make me made now I know compassion towards them. I can’t do anything about anyone else and I sure wish I could at times. I would love to slap some folks into the new reality. I can’t. I can only plant seeds.

I’m watching everything everywhere all at once. I started watching it last night but turned it off to go to sleep. My sleep has been pretty spotty the last few days. I sometimes feel like I don’t know what to do. I just pray and praise … I shift energy and have been transmuting a lot. It snowed here today. I was up this morning at 3ish and laid back down at 5:30-6ish and heard it raining. When I woke back up at 0830 there was 4 inches of snow.

I’m laying in the bean bag with my iPad propped up on boxes lol – learning to be content in all situations and allowing myself to be happy no matter what. It was not easy allowing myself to be happy when so many are so miserable. Their vibration and thoughts are so negative – they are hearing demons and think it’s them. I pray to silence them daily, cancel daily but I can’t make anyone renew their minds. I am responsible for myself.

People are mad at me and deleted me bc I set boundaries for myself. They weren’t who they were claiming to be in my life. Offense is a spirit that traps people in blame. When you blame you are handing power to the enemy and coming into agreement with the demons.

Learning to be content with this life was different from allowing myself to be happy. I felt kinda guilty for being on this trip w Yah bc I had someone tell me I abandoned them. I did not abandon anyone, they were mad bc I wasn’t doing what they wanted but went with God. I feel sorry for them. I feel extensive pity.

The photo is for my records. Being happy is a state of mind no matter the circumstances. I’ve built a life inside of me where I’m so happy it is manifesting in the natural. I’m really proud of this. It took a lot of renewing my mind to get here. Thanks for that! You did this and I’m so proud of You! Thank You!

I’m getting a little hungry but it can wait bc nothing looks good, nothing sounds good… well Brussels sprouts, asparagus, and cabbage sounds pretty good but I don’t have any of that lol I am so ready to go home and cook dinner most every night lol

Thank You for being You and surrounding me, keeping me safe and sound when everything appears to be falling apart. Thank You for shifting things and for everything working in my favor. Thanks for all You’ve done in me. My God thank You!

There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.
John 15:13

Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
Matthew 10:37

Blessed shall be the fruit of your womb and the fruit of your ground and the fruit of your cattle, the increase of your herds and the young of your flock.
Deuteronomy 28:4

And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life.
Matt 19:29

They replied, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household. Acts 16:31

A good man leaveth an inheritance to his children’s children: and the wealth of the sinner is laid up for the just.”
Proverbs 13:22

May the LORD, the God of your ancestors, increase you a thousand times and bless you as he has promised!
Deuteronomy 1:11

For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.
Matt 16:25

This is why I left everything when I was told. This is why I came on this journey. I laid my life down for my friends , as the greatest act of love. What I’ve done will save souls. It will save my household’s souls! It will change nations. And, He is my beloved Daddy, but I have fear of the Lord, a serious fear of the Lord. He scares me. He showed me what’s on the other side and beyond the veil. Hell is very real and He means His word! What people don’t understand is on judgement day that word is law and He will ask you what you did with His Son… which is the Word!! I hear all the time “God knows my heart” know what the Bible says about hearts? They are deceitful. Jeremiah 17:9-10 our footsteps are to be led by Yah. He guides a good man. Are you a good man, or woman? This is serious and I know people think I’m crazy and that’s ok. I do not care. I have not ever cared about what anyone thought and I’m not gonna start now. I left everything and picked up my cross, I die daily. This was my training and I needed every step to prepare me for where we go next. He is about to introduce me to the world and that terrified me until yesterday. Yesterday I walked a block 7 times praising to one song. I didnt catch on until about the third lap. I just let Him do what He needs to do. Walls of Jericho, which was my fear of being seen fell. I have been terrified of letting Him down, that I wasn’t good enough and that is a lie. He had to tear those walls down too and He did. I shouted HalleluYah several times. I can’t praise Him enough. I know the Living God. I walk with Him, like Enoch. It’s odd that They chose me, I know. how do you think I’ve felt while They have steadily made me feel worthy? When He crowned me and made me feel like royalty and let me see the bloodline I come from I knew I was worthy in this realm and life. I have been a queen before in another realm or lifetime, idk. But what I do know is everything is happening everywhere all at once. It’s a Godverse and multidimensional. So, in meditation I go to that aspect of me, the queen, and I have her impart upon me. It’s me, just in an alternate universe. I got to several different versions of me I know exist. Like the writer me, I go to her a lot. She’s helped me. I asked for help and He sent help and also showed me where to get more. There is a movie that will explain this better than I ever could. Everything, everywhere all at once. She jumps through portals to go to a version of her that has the answer for her current situation. Wisdom and skills are imparted and she fights. We fight. I am sore today bc we have been fighting so much. My left knee has been a little sore. My right bicep is sore and I woke up throwing punches with my left arm. Fighting in the spirit. Sanballat and Tobias – Neh 4 and since we got this and the giants in the book of Joshua with Caleb. Struck down leviathan with fasting, got Jezebel with jehu and the dogs and even though some thought we’d go up in smoke this trip we are getting beauty for those ashes bc we did go in the fire. I don’t smell like it but I was tried in fire. I was handed fire. I am trusted by the Creator of everything we see. What an honor!

But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.
1 Peter 5:10

And Isaiah 60 and 61 is what I am walking into this season. He was angry with me and I have served out my judgement – praise God!! I praise You! That was one hell of a ride, literally. I am so grateful to be on the other side. Thank You for being You and for loving me when I didn’t know how. Thank You! Looks like we made it. Mighta took the scenic route but we have arrived!! Shalom future, shalom. Shalom. I put peace on all future events and demand reversal of anything trying to work against me to be turned in my favor (Esther, Romans8) I judge you, sanballat and Tobias. Everything you stole you must return with interest. Get out now! To dry places in the name of Yeshua. Thank You Abba for exposing this and showing me. Nimrod caught you, too. You gotta pay back everything you stole too and go. You all have 24 hours to pay it back or interest will accrue to double every 72 hours! Pay up!! We come out of agreement with all sanballat spirits and all Tobias spirits and all nimrod spirits and I uproot their seeds now in the name of Yeshua. I call down the fire of Yah so there be no residue. We didn’t know Daddy, forgive us and dam any neural pathway associated with these demonic entities and energies. Download the truth and make us keenly aware. Thank You! Thank You for giving us a second change. Thank You! Thank You for carrying us into our second Job season where everything connected to us is blessed and highly favored.

I think I need a nap.

You know what I did in 2024 on the Gregorian calendar? I SURVIVED!! I survived! I suvived. I survived!
2025/5785 is a jubilee year, and this year we thrive. He made us strong now He will make us happy. He promised!

You are energy, which is frequency, which is vibration. So is music. Music is healing! It’s medicine! It has the power to vibrate your DNA and transform it. What do you have to lose if you have a CA DX? Not a thing, and everything to gain!! I’ve seen so many women fighting and I’m praying for you, and add the music. Also, stop listening to secular music. The vibration is too low and you’re desiring and chasing healing. Knock and you will find! Give it 30 days listening all day, play it on a tv connected to YouTube on loop. I’ve done this!! I know!! I know it works. I know you’re praying and if you’re not reading His Word do thst, too, it also has a high vibration. Words are energy, spirit and life and if you’re not decreeing your healing, start. Kick the enemy out of your body!!
By His stripes I am healed. I come out of agreement with all medical diagnoses in the name of Yeshua and into agreement with Yah that bc Yeshua died on that cross I don’t have to be sick and I receive my healing. He died for me. Death you have been defeated and I am anointed to live in the land of the living to see the glory of Yah! Get out! Take everything you brought and get out now!! By the blood of Yeshua I am healed!!
I command the spirit of cancer to loose its hold now and take every illness it brought with it and go! Now! Don’t come back. No retaliation and no recourse. I command your body to heal. I loose healing, lift your hands if you want it, and say I receive. Angels are standing by.
And, if you thought I was crazy in 2024 oh, you ain’t seen nothing yet! Come back and testify to His goodness!

I love you! It wasn’t always easy being obedient and if anyone fought Him it was me. I was stubborn to what had been ingrained in me and for that I repent. Forgive me Daddy, forgive me. I would not have ever participated had I known I was… ugh it disgusts me. Paying homage to nimrods sack … no! The nimrods balls did me in. I used to love that tree. Ugh…. Forgive me and I come out of agreement with nimrod now in the name of Yeshua. My God thank You! Any contracts we stupidly put ourselves in for participation in pagan activities we render null and void now in the name of Yeshua. I praise You! I praise You for teaching us the truth. I’m sure my soul knew but I didn’t. Thanks for being patient with me. My God I praise You for Your forgiveness and for my heart and hands being clean before You!
Oh my this is soooo good!! Psalm 24 Thank You Daddy! 😭😭🙌🏻🙌🏻

The earth is the LORD’s and the fullness thereof,
the world and those who dwell therein,
for he has founded it upon the seas
and established it upon the rivers.
Who shall ascend the hill of the LORD?
And who shall stand in his holy place?
He who has clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not lift up his soul to what is false
and does not swear deceitfully. He will receive blessing from the LORD
and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
Such is the generation of those who seek him,
who seek the face of the God of Jacob. Selah
Lift up your heads, O gates!
And be lifted up, O ancient doors,
that the King of glory may come in.
Who is this King of glory?
The LORD, strong and mighty,
the LORD, mighty in battle!
Lift up your heads, O gates!
And lift them up, O ancient doors,
that the King of glory may come in.
Who is this King of glory?
The LORD of hosts,
he is the King of glory! Selah

I’ve literally been speaking to my gates since Sept of 2023, and the earth, when I found this verse, then I started seeing gates and opening them. Closing others and placing angels to guard them. Nothing gets through. Nothing! He comforts! He heals! He loves. He loves me just the way I am. All my weirdness! All my heart. I desire what They desire for me. I only desire to fulfill my contract. I knew I would have to be trained and I praise You we are done! My my my thank You. I’m right here. Waiting. Waiting on You! Until You do something, do anything, I’m just here being obedient. I’m comfortable in the uncomfortable and it took a long time for Him to get me here. Been through the fire and came out covered in grace.. can’t even smell smoke and those ashes were right next to my foot. I had burn marks on my feet, I have a pic. I’ll have to post it one day. Literally went through the fire and came out on the other side smelling like flowers from heaven! This has been one heck of a ride. We have been through the Bible a few times on this trip. I thank You for helping me only depend on You. Thank You for Yiur word.

I took myself down a rabbit hole the other day on Caleb and his different spirit. Still don’t know anything other than different. But that different spirit got him into the promise land and I want it too!! We getting in and stewarding well!!
Another rabbit hole is nimrods balls … I’ll never see a Christmas tree the same again in my life. This utterly grossed me out. Symbolically that tree is nimrods penis decorated with his balls. An idol. Nimrods pecker is an idol and pagan god in many people homes right now. Daddy, forgive us. We did not know. You know we didn’t. Know.i just learned this they don’t yet but You help me get all the proof and I’ll teach it. Or I’ll give it and send them to someone else for the proof. Open book test. Crazy not stupid. They taught me. I don’t know it all and I’m so still learning and I am ready to have an office and have my books in one spot. Stability. I wasn’t one that adapted well to change after brain injury and wasn’t sure I’d see that part of me again but what’dya know .. here she is being resurrected! A rebirth! I used to would jump up and go and was down for anything but after brain injury I don’t want to leave my house. I was safe there and driving would cause anxiety and at times full blown, I thought I was dying, panic attacks. This tip cured all that hahah He’s a trip. Obedience more than sacrifice! I was told my obedience was tied to how much I love Them. If it were a fault to love … I am obedient … I love Them more than anything.

Only stubborn for Him now. Only stubborn for Him. I’m 10 toes down in what He has told me and nothing.. bc He won’t allow it .. will come between this destiny. He is the final say and I know this. He won’t let any demon stop His plan. And it’s already written. We are just kinda acting it out now with our fleshly experience bc we know what’s up now. This is so fabulous!! Thank You! I praise You! Your praise will forever be on my lips! I’ve loved getting to know You! I praise You and am so very grateful for this opportunity… please don’t ever take Your Holy Spirit from me. Thank You that those that know their God will do mighty exploits! I am so ready to see. I’m just hanging out and watching! She’s pure in heart and full of love. Desires to help others. I can’t hold back praise! I love Yall!! I gotta let it! HalleluYah!

. He told me a long time ago “I started those hearts , I can stop them.” I saw a video the other day, and reposted it, about a guy that said he was gonna go in the spirit realm on psychedelics and Daddy told Him I started your heart, I can stop it. He immediately went into repentance bc he was having chest pains. He knew! This was a huge confirmation.

This is not the way I saw this but it is written how it happened. Thank You! Thank You for my gates. Thanks for my authority. Thanks for Your power I walk with. Thank You!! My God thank You!

Nimrod was evil. He’s the one that was building the Tower of Babel. He was evil and knew too much God came down and scrambled languages. he was born on December 25th. The tree is an idol bc it’s nimrods package being adorned and decorated Jere 10:4 just gross. This is as bad as the vsgina hats. I do thank You for showing me the truth and for saving me from myself. I praise You for taking me out of the world so You could get the world out of me. Thank You! Think we can go home now? I’ve been there in the spirit and it’s time to go in the natural.

If there be anything blocking me I command it reveal itself now in the name of Yeshua!

I gotta put my phone on the charger now. I love Yall and I love you!!