Author: bestillshutup

I will extol You, O LORD, for You have lifted me up,
And have not let my foes rejoice over me.
O LORD my God, I cried out to You,
And You healed me.
O LORD, You brought my soul up from the grave;
You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.
Sing praise to the LORD, you saints of His,
And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name.
For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for life;
Weeping may endure for a night,
But joy comes in the morning.
Now in my prosperity I said,
“I shall never be moved.”
LORD, by Your favor You have made my mountain stand strong;
You hid Your face, and I was troubled.
I cried out to You, O LORD;
And to the LORD I made supplication:
“What profit is there in my blood,
When I go down to the pit?
Will the dust praise You?
Will it declare Your truth?
Hear, O LORD, and have mercy on me;
LORD, be my helper!”
You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness,
To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent.
O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever.

Psalm 30

I give myself permission to be happy where I am and enjoy each now moment with grace and love. The compassion has grown and is part of me. I can see this. I’m proud of this. Compassion is what healed them all. Matt 14:14 and the amount of scripture in me is remarkable, especially to me. I’m a brain injury survivor that literally can’t remember yesterday most of the time lol but I promise if it’s in what I’ve read I know it’s there and can find it. I love this. He made me a savant

Savant-

a person of learning

especially : one with detailed knowledge in some specialized field (as of science or literature)

That’s cool and I praise You for this! Thanks for all the books we’ve read too. I so enjoy being with you and being love all day. It’s a lot weird but I am just love and my vibration has gone up again. When I feel him go up I go up. I’ve been fighting with him and idk if he even knows it. I can feel him and I’m proud of him. The vibration when we are together is astounding and something I can’t exactly explain except it was intoxicating and overwhelming, in a fabulous way. I felt fear the night before I left and I’ve been fighting it with him since. I’m glad I’ve been here. I’m glad we were in separation bc he was really not any good to me at the time. Philemon. Now Daddy is telling me that he is useful to the both of us and accept him as I would Him. A will. I have each time this man has totally interrupted my life lol I love him like You do and it’s kinda strange hahaha this love is a new kind of love and I am so in love with You for it.

I’m happy in the not so great and have made it great. I really can’t wait to see what real happy is in fabulous circumstances. Im joyful even when everyone else isn’t and I know everyone loves me. My family loves me. The body of Christ is my family. I got a new family.

Feeling worthy… knowing I’m more than worthy. Knowing and scoffing at any demon trying to tell me different. I laugh at them.

Things that used to make me made now I know compassion towards them. I can’t do anything about anyone else and I sure wish I could at times. I would love to slap some folks into the new reality. I can’t. I can only plant seeds.

I’m watching everything everywhere all at once. I started watching it last night but turned it off to go to sleep. My sleep has been pretty spotty the last few days. I sometimes feel like I don’t know what to do. I just pray and praise … I shift energy and have been transmuting a lot. It snowed here today. I was up this morning at 3ish and laid back down at 5:30-6ish and heard it raining. When I woke back up at 0830 there was 4 inches of snow.

I’m laying in the bean bag with my iPad propped up on boxes lol – learning to be content in all situations and allowing myself to be happy no matter what. It was not easy allowing myself to be happy when so many are so miserable. Their vibration and thoughts are so negative – they are hearing demons and think it’s them. I pray to silence them daily, cancel daily but I can’t make anyone renew their minds. I am responsible for myself.

People are mad at me and deleted me bc I set boundaries for myself. They weren’t who they were claiming to be in my life. Offense is a spirit that traps people in blame. When you blame you are handing power to the enemy and coming into agreement with the demons.

Learning to be content with this life was different from allowing myself to be happy. I felt kinda guilty for being on this trip w Yah bc I had someone tell me I abandoned them. I did not abandon anyone, they were mad bc I wasn’t doing what they wanted but went with God. I feel sorry for them. I feel extensive pity.

The photo is for my records. Being happy is a state of mind no matter the circumstances. I’ve built a life inside of me where I’m so happy it is manifesting in the natural. I’m really proud of this. It took a lot of renewing my mind to get here. Thanks for that! You did this and I’m so proud of You! Thank You!

I’m getting a little hungry but it can wait bc nothing looks good, nothing sounds good… well Brussels sprouts, asparagus, and cabbage sounds pretty good but I don’t have any of that lol I am so ready to go home and cook dinner most every night lol

Thank You for being You and surrounding me, keeping me safe and sound when everything appears to be falling apart. Thank You for shifting things and for everything working in my favor. Thanks for all You’ve done in me. My God thank You!

There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.
John 15:13

Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
Matthew 10:37

Blessed shall be the fruit of your womb and the fruit of your ground and the fruit of your cattle, the increase of your herds and the young of your flock.
Deuteronomy 28:4

And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life.
Matt 19:29

They replied, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household. Acts 16:31

A good man leaveth an inheritance to his children’s children: and the wealth of the sinner is laid up for the just.”
Proverbs 13:22

May the LORD, the God of your ancestors, increase you a thousand times and bless you as he has promised!
Deuteronomy 1:11

For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.
Matt 16:25

This is why I left everything when I was told. This is why I came on this journey. I laid my life down for my friends , as the greatest act of love. What I’ve done will save souls. It will save my household’s souls! It will change nations. And, He is my beloved Daddy, but I have fear of the Lord, a serious fear of the Lord. He scares me. He showed me what’s on the other side and beyond the veil. Hell is very real and He means His word! What people don’t understand is on judgement day that word is law and He will ask you what you did with His Son… which is the Word!! I hear all the time “God knows my heart” know what the Bible says about hearts? They are deceitful. Jeremiah 17:9-10 our footsteps are to be led by Yah. He guides a good man. Are you a good man, or woman? This is serious and I know people think I’m crazy and that’s ok. I do not care. I have not ever cared about what anyone thought and I’m not gonna start now. I left everything and picked up my cross, I die daily. This was my training and I needed every step to prepare me for where we go next. He is about to introduce me to the world and that terrified me until yesterday. Yesterday I walked a block 7 times praising to one song. I didnt catch on until about the third lap. I just let Him do what He needs to do. Walls of Jericho, which was my fear of being seen fell. I have been terrified of letting Him down, that I wasn’t good enough and that is a lie. He had to tear those walls down too and He did. I shouted HalleluYah several times. I can’t praise Him enough. I know the Living God. I walk with Him, like Enoch. It’s odd that They chose me, I know. how do you think I’ve felt while They have steadily made me feel worthy? When He crowned me and made me feel like royalty and let me see the bloodline I come from I knew I was worthy in this realm and life. I have been a queen before in another realm or lifetime, idk. But what I do know is everything is happening everywhere all at once. It’s a Godverse and multidimensional. So, in meditation I go to that aspect of me, the queen, and I have her impart upon me. It’s me, just in an alternate universe. I got to several different versions of me I know exist. Like the writer me, I go to her a lot. She’s helped me. I asked for help and He sent help and also showed me where to get more. There is a movie that will explain this better than I ever could. Everything, everywhere all at once. She jumps through portals to go to a version of her that has the answer for her current situation. Wisdom and skills are imparted and she fights. We fight. I am sore today bc we have been fighting so much. My left knee has been a little sore. My right bicep is sore and I woke up throwing punches with my left arm. Fighting in the spirit. Sanballat and Tobias – Neh 4 and since we got this and the giants in the book of Joshua with Caleb. Struck down leviathan with fasting, got Jezebel with jehu and the dogs and even though some thought we’d go up in smoke this trip we are getting beauty for those ashes bc we did go in the fire. I don’t smell like it but I was tried in fire. I was handed fire. I am trusted by the Creator of everything we see. What an honor!

But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.
1 Peter 5:10

And Isaiah 60 and 61 is what I am walking into this season. He was angry with me and I have served out my judgement – praise God!! I praise You! That was one hell of a ride, literally. I am so grateful to be on the other side. Thank You for being You and for loving me when I didn’t know how. Thank You! Looks like we made it. Mighta took the scenic route but we have arrived!! Shalom future, shalom. Shalom. I put peace on all future events and demand reversal of anything trying to work against me to be turned in my favor (Esther, Romans8) I judge you, sanballat and Tobias. Everything you stole you must return with interest. Get out now! To dry places in the name of Yeshua. Thank You Abba for exposing this and showing me. Nimrod caught you, too. You gotta pay back everything you stole too and go. You all have 24 hours to pay it back or interest will accrue to double every 72 hours! Pay up!! We come out of agreement with all sanballat spirits and all Tobias spirits and all nimrod spirits and I uproot their seeds now in the name of Yeshua. I call down the fire of Yah so there be no residue. We didn’t know Daddy, forgive us and dam any neural pathway associated with these demonic entities and energies. Download the truth and make us keenly aware. Thank You! Thank You for giving us a second change. Thank You! Thank You for carrying us into our second Job season where everything connected to us is blessed and highly favored.

I think I need a nap.

You know what I did in 2024 on the Gregorian calendar? I SURVIVED!! I survived! I suvived. I survived!
2025/5785 is a jubilee year, and this year we thrive. He made us strong now He will make us happy. He promised!

You are energy, which is frequency, which is vibration. So is music. Music is healing! It’s medicine! It has the power to vibrate your DNA and transform it. What do you have to lose if you have a CA DX? Not a thing, and everything to gain!! I’ve seen so many women fighting and I’m praying for you, and add the music. Also, stop listening to secular music. The vibration is too low and you’re desiring and chasing healing. Knock and you will find! Give it 30 days listening all day, play it on a tv connected to YouTube on loop. I’ve done this!! I know!! I know it works. I know you’re praying and if you’re not reading His Word do thst, too, it also has a high vibration. Words are energy, spirit and life and if you’re not decreeing your healing, start. Kick the enemy out of your body!!
By His stripes I am healed. I come out of agreement with all medical diagnoses in the name of Yeshua and into agreement with Yah that bc Yeshua died on that cross I don’t have to be sick and I receive my healing. He died for me. Death you have been defeated and I am anointed to live in the land of the living to see the glory of Yah! Get out! Take everything you brought and get out now!! By the blood of Yeshua I am healed!!
I command the spirit of cancer to loose its hold now and take every illness it brought with it and go! Now! Don’t come back. No retaliation and no recourse. I command your body to heal. I loose healing, lift your hands if you want it, and say I receive. Angels are standing by.
And, if you thought I was crazy in 2024 oh, you ain’t seen nothing yet! Come back and testify to His goodness!