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I ordered luggage and it’ll be here Wednesday. Packing up and going. This is truly my last week here. I’m totally excited!! A journey with Holy Spirit- yes please !! I have more nerves about my drive to Sikeston today than this move. A day trip to a hospital and I don’t particularly care for hospitals. I’ve learned I don’t like too much about the medical industry, and I used to be a nurse. The lies. The lies! The way they are killing people and using them just to study annoys me. We are in the shape we are in bc we have been lied to so much. I’ve become like “them”. The ones we, as people in the medical field, would laugh at bc of their beliefs when we were the ones wrong. It’s humbling to say the least. My biggest prayer is when I walk in a hospital everyone is healed so much so that even those in the morgue get up!! That hospitals lose so much money bc of the power of Yah that they close!! This is a goal of mine kinda like walking on water. I desire for us to be so infused with Him that this is a normal occurrence and people go to the church for healing instead of doctors. You are the church! People that don’t even like you will come to you for healing. Go forth and heal them all. ALL- there is my favorite word. Idk what happens today and whatever His will is I pray that be done. No matter what – I got You!

Everything has sold except a few clothing items, I’m donating them, some kitchen stuff and decorations. This will be the week to catch me outside- It’s got to go! What doesn’t go I’ll donate and I’m more than fine w that. I need to go get a small storage room this week and put what I am keeping in there. That is my plan. He hasn’t told me to do this but it makes me feel better on the inside to have some sort of plan. My plan is to go to Colorado and Utah for the summer but I’m so sure of His plan He can destroy mine and I’ll be great!
I’m so excited! Either way it’s all for my good! Before this move all these plans were in action so I wouldn’t have been here for summer anyway but I didn’t know I would be practically homeless and couch surfing lol, and laughing about it. Yeshua was homeless so I wouldn’t have to be and I trust Him to provide for me. He told me this was a whole new season of trust and boy was He was not kidding!

I don’t talk about what goes on in my personal life too much bc I don’t want anyone speaking crap. I’m sick of canceling junk and if I don’t have one friend except HS I’m more than ok! Fantabulous to be exact! So when you’re told to shut up please hush. You hear it, come into agreement with it and that’s it, It’s done. Don’t!! Do not come into agreement with everything. Don’t speak it if you don’t wanna see it. Don’t think it if you don’t any to see it. Think on what you want. Declare what you want. Who cares what you see. Change it!! It’s energy and has to bend!! Oh that’s exciting. He’s been teaching me about energy for four years and yay- this is how you do it. With your THOUGHTS!! What you think on goes into the heart. When they get to the heart they become reality. (Heart desires and that’s what He gives you!) If you think about what someone said about you and meditate on it (dwell on it) that becomes your truth. This is why we cancel, rebuke and renounce word curses. This is why we see ourselves the way Daddy does bc we meditate on what He says and not anything of the world. It’s a process. Don’t forget to give yourself grace.

Daddy, speaking of grace I’m gonna need a whole lot of that today. Thank You!

Daddy said He’s so proud of you! Yeshua is proud of You. Holy Spirit is proud too. He said you’ve been a pleasure and make Him smile. He’s truly enjoyed training you. I feel them heavily all over tbis. Your obedience is better than anything you could ever do. And, It takes a lot for our flesh to lay itself down to do His will. Not all of this is easy. Yeshua prayed can ya maybe just think about taking this cup, I really don’t want to drink this but either way it’s Your will be done, I got You! (Luke 22:42) He felt the weight of what we feel and it ain’t all easy. He knows! They are super proud of you! Submission is everything! Good job!
Continue to ask Him everything! Proverbs 3:5-6 is truly a lifestyle. Obedience=release of blessings. You do this and He does that. Whatever He’s told you, do it and do it quickly!

Oakley is so smart!! I can’t wait to see how wise. Addie is so wise. Seems like the more that come the wiser they are from the jump. Last night we played with our mouths and he was mocking me. So precious! Paisley and I got a big kick out of it. We did the Indian whaaa waaa waaa .. idk what it’s called lol but it was the best! I did a small pat over his mouth and he made the noise – the best, then Paisley would do it and he would ahhh for her. It was the cutest thing! We celebrated big time and the smiles … oh the smiles! He’s cooing soo much and I love his precious little voice. I love everything about him!! He’s so in love w Paisley. She’s talked about him since she was 2 and kept telling her parents she was ready for him. She’s a great big sister and I haven’t seen any jealousy, lots of love. She likes for me to be company in her room w her while she plays and we’ve been doing this since she was 2 so it’s our thing. I bring Oakley in tow now and we go play in her room, and he watches her every move. We learn by watching and hearing. Mine and Paisley’s conversations usually include Yeshua, the spiritual realm and command to our body – I love they are learning how to operate there as much as here in the natural. My grands, all 6 of them, have been the best adventure I’ve ever been on. Such a huge blessing! They will walk in so much power and that makes everything I’ve ever been through worth it!!

I need a vacation! A real one!! Each trip I’ve been on in the last 4 years was work, and I want a VACATION!! I truly want to be able to put my hair down and relax. I’m so ready for this next adventure! I’ll never be able to fully explain how ready!!

I have a date! Hallelujah!! April 21, 2023 will be my last day here!!!! 🙌🙌🙌🙌 Idk what all happens between now and then but what I do know is that that day is the very last day of Nisan. Guaranteed to cross over! Passover season! Praise The Lord !! 9 days!

Have you ever been in the situation where you didn’t know for sure if you’d ever see someone again? Something happened and they might not of survived? Wondering if you’d lost them for good? Gone from this life forever!

On March 31, 2023 Wynne was traumatized by an F3 tornado and the very first person the Lord sent as a real friend from Him house was flattened. He put Kim and I together and we have enjoyed living w Christ together. She has dragged me to conferences that I needed way more than she did. I’m so grateful for this friendship. Without her idk if I would have ever found Nesbitt and wo her I wouldn’t be who I am in Christ today. So many reasons I’m grateful for her! Mainly it’s her love. It’s her love for Him and His children. My flesh was terrifed she was gone but God kept reminding me of a promise that was to her that He showed me. I saw her whole and complete. My thoughts had to come into agreement with Him wo a waver and they did. I praise Him!

While I was without power she was trapped and so was Sean. We complain about such petty stuff when someone 5 miles down the road is fighting for their life. Being without power didn’t bother me. I lifted the windows and lit some candles and pretended I was camping. I tried to text Kim and I heard Daddy say “I got this” but He didn’t tell me what He had. I wanted to go to wynne but Holy Spirit stopped me – I had locked my door ready to pull out and He said no! I came back in and started to stress myself so bad He laid me down. I had nothing but Him and what He said to hang onto so that is what I did. He put me in the bed and put me to sleep. Sometimes He will sleep me to keep me from getting in His way. I’m thankful bc it was getting serious. My flesh doesn’t freak out and she doesn’t worry but this kinda shook me off kilter and I needed Him. When He says it it becomes my truth but what did He have? Umm, just her life in His hands but I needed His very breath bc I was on my way to a full blown panic attack. I felt my body try and I’m like girl, you know what you saw stop this and it quit. She listened and that was it no more worry. This was a big eye opener on her true trust level for Him and what He says. And, trusting myself that I hear on 100 has been a true process but I do trust Him. Finally, I trust myself. I was fine Saturday when I woke up and had word she was alive w minor injuries. Praise The Lord!! In any situation I’ve learned prayer is my go to. Someone couldn’t find their keys yesterday after being here shopping and I prayed. They found their keys. Trauma, not trauma, it’s still all prayer. It’s my first response and I love He did that to me.

Yesterday was the first time I have gotten to lay eyes on her and Sean. The day after she sent me a message on fb from Sean’s account bc she didn’t know where her phone was. They found it the next day without a blemish. Praise The Lord ! He kept her! He kept them! He kept us!! My God thank You for being our keeper!

A week later and our city is a mess. It’s gonna be a while before it gets rebuilt. The cleanup efforts are still ongoing. Some have left and more are to follow. There are parts of town I still haven’t seen. I walked one end to another, it was an assignment, and while walking I could see everything .. the photos don’t show the depth of it. I can sit here and think about this and cry, cry, cry!

The day I walked it was when I truly felt the magnitude of this. These are things you see on social media, the news etc but when you see it w your own eyes it hits your heart different. I could feel the fear, sadness, grief – all of it, a city on their knees. there were several people that stopped and asked if I needed a ride, wanting to help bc so many are without cars too. I got to explain that I was praying over the city while walking it. I didn’t go too in depth and then thanked them. Hutch wanted to sing, his mom and he walked the last mile w me, so we sang. It was a chilly morning and we were feeling Christmasy and he chose jingle bells. So we sang Jingle bells to the top of our lungs strolling down Falls Blvd in April. And the smell of the BBQ at the tech center was amazing!! By the time we were in front of there we were singing to Yeshua. It was precious, he’s 5. We also had breakfast at the gas station that finished up my assignment. encountered a few demons, some arrows, broke some curses, did some healing…
Saw some prejudices on how some are treated bc of the way they look – it’s sad! We prayed against this and all spirits that cause division. Ive seen mostly Unity but there are some that slip through the cracks. We need to be better. Make us better. Make us more like you. Instill more compassion in us. Thank You! We prayed and we prayed a whole lot! And we praised Him. It could have been so much worse, so much worse!