Category: christianity

If you don’t meditate and want to discover your blocks inside you. Say it. Speak it to yourself and feel if you believe yourself or not. What do you want? What were you promised and do you even believe God in you for what He told you?
If you don’t believe it say it until you do. Access your subconscious mind and get it in there. When you meditate feel it as already done. See it and feel it. Subconscious works more on energy and better with pictures. You make sure you see it, and feel it and it’s your new truth. You won’t see it until you have zero doubt in your heart.

For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does NOT doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Mark 11:23

Let me tell you a story.

Fifteen years ago I met someone on a website. I was meeting many to be honest. I was new in town and thought it would be a perfect time to write a book about dating. I was talking to two guys that looked very similar. I invited one to my house… I know so stupid and I wouldn’t do this today. We had a blast. I cooked, we ate and played rock band on the wii (it was a long time ago but I still love this game). After a while of us playing and him getting whipped I looked at him and asked, “I thought you had a goat tee” he answered, “no, I’ve never had one”. I tried to redeem myself and said, “maybe you should try it out. Or a beard you’d look fabulous!” At that moment I realized I mixed the men up. I had a book full of notes on several different men and threw the whole thing away. I wish I still had that thing to see what I said and felt but I can imagine I felt stupid. I felt really stupid after I saw this guy a few more times and he casually mentioned in conversation he was married. I was like oh no what have I done. This is not what I set out to do nor was ever getting involved with a married man again. I had done this once in my younger years (about 17) and was not going down this road again. I had to end things. I had to get away. I had to heal bc I fell in love. I said from that day forward I wouldn’t fall in love again. I would not allow anyone to hurt me like this for the rest of my life. I have loved but not been “in” love and really I never got butterflies with this person but I felt safe. I felt like nothing could touch me as long as I was near him. Had to get away. Started seeing a few new people to try and make this person leave my head and my heart and I prayed. I prayed hard for Yah to heal me and I didn’t know Him then like I do now. That man has never left my memory or my heart. In 2019 the Lord told me He had a husband for me. I said ok not knowing who He was talking about. I was submitted so whatever He said I will do, doesn’t matter what or what others think about it. In late Nov 2019 the Lord told me who thst man was and I laughed. I said there is no way I am going to marry this man. Haha I laughed some more and simply told the Lord … show me. Oh my goodness has he. This man has called me every two years since 2012 (my wreck) and we got together in 2020. He confirmed things that the Lord told me and still has no idea about this. We talked in 2022 and in 2024 we married with some washing of the feet and some vows before the Lord. We’ve been separated since but when Yah tells you something believe Him no matter how it looks or how bad the situation may seem. He reconciles the past and time. Doing a new thing. Boy, this is for sure new! Then in 2022 the Lord started giving me the revelation of why He put us together and the story about King David and Bathsheba and Adam and Eve. Not sure what all this marriage will birth but it is for Him. I’ve begged Yah to remove this cup from me since I found out until He showed me that this person and I were created together like Adam and Eve. I was floored. Like literally fell out in the floor and cried … why would you do this to me?? People are going to hate me for this. I didn’t remember all of this until recently. (Like 6 mths ago). There are still many things I’m sure I don’t remember and I’m so ok with that. My past has been covered in the Blood. He has removed all the shame and guilt of this from me and this man. We are free. Some people won’t understand we made a stupid mistake and we’re still destined to be together before the foundations of the earth. I went from begging Yah to take this cup from me to needing to want this man. He is part of my calling. He is a main character and I need him to complete my calling. Yah did this!

Not everyone will understand your calling and not everyone will be on board with what you are called to do… so it anyway! People are not your way into heaven!

I went from begging, and I mean begging, Yah to take a cup from me. To needing to want it. This is a weird place bc I have absolutely zero power over this, it’s all Him. Needing to want a person. Ha! This is hilarious! But seriously. This person is part of my calling. I need them to complete my mission. I need to want them for my best interest. Weird, right?!

There was just a lot of fog here. Like it was disorienting and I’m glad I know my way around here. I saw the fog advisory but didn’t think to even cancel it specifically. Lesson learned. I commanded it to lift and it did. It took it 30 mins, it’s gone. I’ve been forging through and pushing pushing pushing to get into the realm of immediately!! I’ve been expecting this for many years and I’ve started to see Him confirming what He has told me in how fast things are happening. Within the hour! The realm of immediately! Thank You Daddy! I am so honored. I am thrilled to work with You! I have enjoyed this part of my training. It has been so fun. Thank You!
Tiktok shop is exploding and things are selling like crazy. Praise The Lord!! I’ve been doing this a year and can see things have turned in my favor. My God thank You! Thank You!

The power Spirit I walk with is kinda intimidating… and the angel He sent scares me hahah but in a good way. They will scare fear out of you … all of it! I have made it in the spirit. My voice is pure power. I’m crying. This is so humbling. I love it! He knows I know what is out there and that none of us are safe … y’all better read Esther 4:14 to it’s entirety. If I don’t me and my fathers house will perish and I will not allow that to ever happen. I got You Abba!! I got You! I would not ever misuse the power He has given me and He knows it. That’s why He gave it to me. He trusts me. He’s crazy and I love Him for it.
Isaiah 11
Exodus 23:20-21
Acts 16:18
All of Yeshua’s miracles happened immediately and at His command everything obeyed- all the elements and the water!!! We are gonna walk on water next year!! I’m jumping up and down here!! Celebrate good times!! I have reached this! My God! You’re so amazing!!

Looks like we made it!! Might of took the long way but we made it. I don’t look at it as the long way but instead the scenic route. I love You! I honor You! I praise You! I got You! Thank You! My God thank You! I’m riding the waves of glory! We are prepared and have been trained for this! Keep me humble and You can do what You want. I give You full permission! I will follow You anywhere. Thanks for picking me for this whole assignment. You told me I’d understand why we came this way when the trip was over and I see. I get it. I’m thankful for my training. I am thankful for the hurt. I am thankful for the pain. I am thankful for all of it. I have learned so much about myself and seen the whole heart of others. I may not know many people but the ones I do I know them with my heart. I’ve learned so much. I’m so very grateful! You’re amazing! Now, faith, take me home!

You ever had a baby natural? You know that point where you’re so tired of the pain you just want it to stop. That if it doesn’t stop and soon you’re gonna jump out of the body? People can prolly see your head spinning bc you’re done! The pain is too much. The human body can only take so much. This is where I am!!

I saw myself throw my head back and tell Abba. I’m done. I was just begging do whatever you need to do bc I’m done. Get me out of here. He said one more push, kid. Just one more. One more. I’ll give you one more. I did and I saw the baby. Go get her was playing as I was bawling my eyes out dying but giving birth in the spirit. Dying to myself. I’m burning up one mine and crying. Freezing the next and laughing.

We are almost there. Don’t stop pushing. I’ve been seeing babies all day. I need to see something. I need to see something personal. I need something very personal. Thank You Daddy for bringing my baby right to me.