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Jim, my biological father, transitioned today and went home to be with Daddy. I don’t like that I’m up here. I do not like any of this!! My stuff was delivered today, except my laptop I’m sure he’ll ship that too.

I don’t appreciate being put out here like this. I don’t. He said 30 days again the other day which lets me know I’m not done with being on this roller coaster. I am not a fan of roller coaster and You know it. I feel like I’m crumbling. I’m not begging to be rescued You’re sure right. I’m not sure any person on this earth could make any of this better.

This time last year I was on the cross. I remember the marks. Something else in me has died… I feel lost as a goose. All I have is what you’ve already told me and I trust You. I want to go home! You promised! Yes, You’ve got Your 90 days … it’s not 90 anymore. More like 70 now and where has time gone. I’ve been married a month today – engaged and married same day. I feel the drinking gone bc if there was ever a day I’d crave day drinking it would have been today. Thanks!!

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My things arrived today. My computer was not in the shipment and for a bit a Louis was missing. It took me a few hours but I found the shoe. While the shoe was missing I couldn’t help but laugh. It reminds me of Cinderella. Hahah we joked a little and that hasn’t happened. Well, not a him. I laugh all the time. It was kinda nice. I expect this daily. I expect changed daily and for him to bring me my laptop and come get me.

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Yesterday the rain finally came! The temps have been at 95 and I’m over it hahah we need to go in the 80’s. It took 2 days and that needs to happen a little faster lol but seriously, immediately. We had to work on the weather and it has shifted. I see everyone has stayed 95 and under and it’s awesome to watch Him through me. An afternoon thunderstorm and it was fabulous!! When the storm blew in we could see it raining in a distance that hadn’t got to us yet. It was cool to see no rain and lots of rain. I could see the sun and said we are gonna get a rainbow. Melissa and I went to get a coffee at about 6ish and I said it’s gonna be a double rainbow… that’s exactly what happened. Have I told you how much I love Him, lately? Power. The power to control the weather … It’s so humbling. I’m enjoying it even though it’s full blow war at times. I gave birth to triplets last night. I had a vision of me giving birth and Daddy delivering. Forceps had to be used on the first and then the other 2 came easily. Idk what we birthed yet but I’m excited to see!

I didn’t mail the ring back. I haven’t been able to yet and I am wondering if thst is Daddy bc it’s not supposed to go back. We are married. I keep being reminded of that. I also tried to track my stuff again and it’s giving me an error code. I’ll call Monday bc some of that is priceless and I break and cancel, rebuke and renounce any attacks and assignments against my belongings and command them find me now! Thanks Daddy for rebuking the devourer for me. The Lord rebuke you, Satan! Thanks Daddy! I love you so much and how You calm me.

Full on conversations in the spirit like negotiations. Haha I am just winging it. The only man I’ll ever chase is Yeshua. He will have to come to me this time. I won’t budge on that. He needed help and I went. I was obedient and this man is good at extravagant and being that way and being seen. He can do it. I’m not mad. I’m not hurt. I’m not anything really bc in my head all of this is just drama and I don’t see it. It’s a lie. Things won’t end how they look and I know this. It amazes me how in a knowing He has me. I’m so excited to see how this plays out. Thanks for Your promises. Thanks for coming all the way through for me. I’m glad he got off Facebook and has no idea about my blog and doesn’t have a TikTok but all the videos about this are hidden. One day I may have to put them out but for now they stay w just me.

I feel things and just laugh. I know it’s not me and then I can feel me search myself and then I can feel Holy Spirit search me and I know it’s not me. Missing me! I have to giggle about this a little. He knows. On lions gate I sent him a text that said I know this and I know that and then it said I know your heart has been set to please the Father. I didn’t know this and this is a huge thing. Like I was telling Daddy yesterday this is what had to happen and it’s his relationship with Yeshua and Yah that is so important and I desire that more than I could ever desire something for myself. I don’t want one to perish, not one. I got a zing after I wrote that. It’s good to see. This beast He gave me is rather magnificent.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails. This is who I am. I am love. I put my name everywhere the word love is and He did it. The Word works if you work it.

This has been a big week of self revelation and the knowing Faith has knocked me into. I see Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Now faith. Faith that operated in the now. My love operates in the now. When faith and the anointing collide there are healings. What do You want me to do? I’m here for it! I’m so here for all of this. You are a drama King at times and I know You love it but can we calm it down a little. I am enjoying my rest and I know it’s not gonna last long. It is a beautiful ring and I know his heart towards me.

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We are shifting. I’m sitting here listening to a song and crying. Even when nobody else believes I’m not going down that easily so don’t give up on me. No matter what this world throws it won’t shake me loose. Nothing will move me from You! I’m in a reflection of all the growth. I’m so extremely proud of myself. I’m crying in gratitude bc we made it! He promised me He’d make me a Son. He said He would make me the word made manifest – serious ugh crying. Haha I love Them so much. With Sonship there are major benefits.. so excited! Something is about to hit I can tell w the warfare. It’s so cool I can’t even get over it. Every Word out of His mouth touches my heart and humbles me. Love! I am love. I see all the decrees in action. I see the music He has put in me happening. I see the Words He has given me come to pass. He said just hang on a little longer you’re just a few feet away!

Biblical – I love this song. I will have it all with You. When you open your eyes I’ll be there by your side. I want have it all with you. We need to shift this. We have it all. This love is biblical.

I desire everything You have for me. Nothing more and nothing less! I have already agreed to everything You told me but if You’re Rebecca’ing me right now again yes I’ll go. I’ll stay the course and help You. I got Your back! Stubborn faith! I believe You and I trust You. If you lead me to it You will see me through it.

I’ve been in the valley of decisions so I know others have. Be it unto me, Daddy, as it is written in my books and in my contract with You. I got You! I’ll do anything You say. You let me come back. I get to be here bc of You. I got you! Crying again – not that long that time. Thank You. It’s getting easier.

Easy like Sunday morning hahah He used this song too and today was an easy day. I did not even get dressed lol. I don’t get many days like this and when I do I full on enjoy them!!

The full moon is tonight. Go sit outside and look at it. We can tap into anything on this planet. Way cool!! He’s been showing me. It’s all us. We are all one. We are all consciousness becoming aware of itself. Everything here is alive and has a frequency! There has been a shield over the moon for over a year so it can’t be used for evil but for Daddy! Yep, I felt real crazy after doing that with Him but then people started seeing it in the natural and taking pictures of what I see in the spirit. Fascinating for sure! Certifiable and if this is crazy I never want to be any other way.

I am Kingdom minded and only kingdom minded. I am also governed by Yah. His army, His rules, His everything… everything is His way. He will ask but don’t forget He could make you!! (Philemon) He could literally make us do anything He wanted bc we have a contract with Him. We just forgot but that veil is being lifted. May You be reminded and embark on a new journey! May you act quickly on what you learn and move in confidence with lots of transitional and transformational grace !

I operate in both worlds but mainly there. I war almost nonstop and I like it. Haha truly! I have seen my hand go up and pull something down in the heavenlies to earth. Idk what it was but I was seeing all kinds of things and moving them around on the board and I just did this in the natural as I saw it needed to be done. Yes, people are going to think I’m so weird haha you think I care? Nope! Not two flying flocks what one person says! He had to get me here too. Bold spirit. Let’s just say I know Peter and have worked with him a lil bit. I’ve been a Peter but on the wrong side. It takes confidence in Yah to be bold on this side. It takes a lot of trust. A lot. This ministry is all about the supernatural. I work with a lot of angels and operate in court daily. This is a whole job that most never know happens bc we are so behind the scenes and I’ve been thankful for that, truly. I’m so thankful for small beginnings. Soooo thankful!