Category: christianity

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Even with hell on my boots I’m steadfast with faith chasin the Son and in gratitude! No matter how big or how small the blessing it is all working for my good!
My whole world has shifted and at times I’m wondering where are we? What are we doing? Am I crazy or is this real? What the flock is up?! Then, You show me something. You send confirmation or help or a word of encouragement that is so specific it makes me cry. Thank Yiu.

Something dies… Something is resurrected. Something is shifted. Something is shaken. Something … but something is always working for my good. Parts of me die. Parts of me that looked into any past this girl had is dead!! There is no past. There is just the now! There is just tons of grace! Took ya long enough to get me here hahah sorry Daddy! Forgive me! I do apologize! I was kinda curious but she’s done! I am who You created and nothing from my past will get in the way of this mission. I am here for it! You are my whole life and I’m so grateful to You for taking care of me. Thank you!
Don’t you think it’s so funny how people don’t know you and expect a version of you they thought they knew in the past only for them to be confused bc that isn’t you anymore?! I love this! It proves God is with me bc the fruit can be seen. Some stuff has happened recently that should be making me lose my 💩 but I’m cool as a cucumber. Whatever is to be will be by the grace of Yah! If it’s not meant I loose it and give it to You. I’m not hanging on to nothing or nobody of this world. I put everything You told me on the altar and hand it back to You!! Just don’t ever leave me. On my knees crying bc I cannot live without Holy Spirit. I feel King David here with me. Crying even harder now. The love Daddy has for me exceeds my expectations! He has sent so many wonderful spirits to help me. The gratitude I have towards You is immense.

My hearts desire is to work this realm like a video game! This is my virtual reality and I’m in an avatar. Show me how to rock this joint and control the Aether!! Where when we say stop it stops. When we say shift it shifts. When we shalom any and all devils will flee 7 different ways. That the terror they have tried to cause backfires and people are delivered by us being in the room. I see that cartoon of the cat, Sylvester (thanks Holy Spirit. I forgot the cats name), when he would get scared and he would jump out of his body 9 times (9lives) and you could see each part of him being held on by a knot in his tail. An 80’s cartoon.

It’s time to rock this place and make it look like we walk in magic. You said you were giving me the desires of my heart this is it. This is number one. We walk in so much supernatural power that it looks like we walk in magic. You are the magic. You are the Creator and I love You and Your creation. That we transform matter! That we see both worlds simultaneously and operate smoothy in both realms. Easy like Sunday morning! Hallelujah! Thank You! I’m so thankful to be One with You!

You did this and I’m so very proud of You and to serve You all my days! Increase my capacity to be more love than I already am. Stretch me. And Daddy send some loud blessings bc it’s been … You promised double for my trouble and 1000 fold blessing and 100 fold for leaving everything and I left everything. This last step proved that!

I command all neural pathways associated with the past and who this girl used to be to be removed, like they never existed and I command that any river flowing from them be dammed up now to never flow again. I call down the fire of Yah to get any residue. We are starting completely over!! The blood. I cover us in the blood and thank You that all residue of legion has been removed by the Fire! My God thank You!! We ain’t living in any tombs!! Walked right out!! HalleluYah! Thanks Daddy! My my my thank You! I sure appreciate You and all You’re doing to me and for me. Thanks! Hardly seems enough but it’s seriously all I got other than myself and I give You all of me. Change me to be more like You!

Even with hell on my boots I’m steadfast with faith chasin the Son and in gratitude! No matter how big or how small the blessing it is all working for my good!
My whole world has shifted and at times I’m wondering where are we? What are we doing? Am I crazy or is this real and then You show me something. Something does. Something is resurrected. Parts of me die. Parts of me that looked into any past this girl had is dead!! There is no past. There is just the now! Took ya long enough to get me here hahah sorry Daddy! Forgive me! I do apologize! You are my whole life and I’m so grateful to You for taking care of me. Thank you!
Don’t you think it’s so funny how people don’t know you and expect a version of you they thought they knew in the past only for them to be confused bc that isn’t you anymore?! I love this! It proves God is with me bc the fruit can be seen. Some stuff has happened recently that should be making me lose my 💩 but I’m cool as a cucumber. Whatever is to be will be by the grace of Yah! If it’s not meant I loose it and give it to You. I’m not hanging on to nothing or nobody of this world. I put everything You told me on the altar and hand it back to You!! Just don’t ever leave me. On my knees crying bc I cannot live without Holy Spirit. I feel King David here with me. Crying even harder now. The love Daddy has for me exceeds my expectations! He has sent so many wonderful spirits to help me. The gratitude I have towards You is immense. My hearts desire is to work this realm like a video game! This is my virtual reality and I’m in an avatar. Show me how to rock this joint and control the Aether!! Where when we say stop it stops. When we say shift it shifts. When we jump at a devil they flee 7 different ways. I see that cartoon of the cat, Sylvester (thanks Holy Spirit. I forgot the cats name), when he would get scared and he would jump out of his body 9 times (9lives) and you could see each part of him being held on by a knot in his tail. An 80’s cartoon. Anyway, it’s time to rock this place and make it look like we walk in magic. You said you were giving me the desires of my heart this is it. This is number one. We walk in so much supernatural power that it looks like we walk in magic. You are the magic. You are the Creator and I love You and Your creation. Thank You! I’m so thankful to be One with You! You did this and I’m so very proud of You and to serve You all my days! Increase my capacity to be more love than I already am. Stretch me. And Daddy send some loud blessings bc it’s been … You promised double for my trouble and 1000 fold blessing and 100 fold for leaving everything and I left everything. This last step proved that!!
Praise Yah we are going to be able to change the shipment address on my things so they come here. I do love Melissa so much and am so grateful to her for this. They have welcomed me as their family and You did promise that and I praise You! I Only asked for ONE real. One! He sent her! I need 4 people by my side and supporting me. My kids. My husband and her. Everyone needs someone that will tell them the truth and tell them to get out of their feels for a min and see it with spiritual eyes.
About this husband thing… who knows and at this moment in time I’ve done all I can do. The rest is on You. I’m stepping!! You got 90 days!

So, w hell on my boots it reminds me of Elijah running from Jezebel. I ain’t running and I’m ten toes down but I do ask for this extreme acceleration! Do with me what You will. I got You! Be it unto me as You have spoken, Lord!

I started reading the Kabbalah tonight and saw where they said Yah splits a soul and sends it in two vessels to find each other to reunite and be one flesh again. When we do this we are in a small percentage of people that even know God still does this. Idk … idk what’s going on.

My things left Tennessee to be shipped to Denver today. I’m mailing back the ring and now we just see what Daddy does. Either way I’m good! I didn’t ask for this but I’ll give You Your 90 days.

I got a call last week w I can’t do this. I’m not sure. I won’t. Blah blah blah. Ok… that’s you saying no to God not me and I’m ten toes down with what Daddy said. I did stand in the gap for him bc he knows not what he’s doing. Today did hurt my heart bc I felt the rejection Yeshua felt on the cross. When He was on the cross only one stood w Him. I’ll stand with You! I’ll never leave You! I’m all in with You if this happens or not. I wanted it to be just me and You to begin with. I didn’t ask for this but I will pray for him and keep him under my covering … he’s sooo proved he needs it.

Maybe I need to fast for myself. I saw that. Me saying if … if this is a test of faith You know I ain’t going out! I’ll stand until the end! I will stay single. I just need You! I’m not saying I don’t need a man bc I do but I definitely need You much more. I just need my cover and apparently since I have 2 principalities under me right now and things changing I would presume I have my cover bc I wasn’t strong enough. Unless He stretched me and made me stronger. Bc I did get a diamond armor this month. My armor stays. I won’t give thst up. I’m not giving him up. I am taking my hand off things like You told me and staying out of Your way. I don’t care anything about the ring… what an expensive lesson! What an expensive lesson! I’m sure I learned I won’t be with him the way he is. You gonna have to do a quick work hahah and I’m here for it. No, I’m good! Really I am. It does hurt a little and I give thst to you. I mean I was rejected by the man I was literally created with hahah how much more serious can rejection get …. Except You experienced it. When everyone rejected You. How people have slept on You and cheated on You like in Hosea. Forgive us Daddy where we have failed You and when we have been stubborn towards You instead of for You. Forgive us. Forgive us!

I also got an offer from Lange today and I absolutely love their products! They want to know about my media kit hahah I have absolutely zero idea what that means. Guess I got some work with ole google tomorrow. That’s exciting! I was so irritated by the fact I don’t have my hair dryer from Lange with me lol. I do love their products. this could be so good bc thst gives You a lot of exposure bc even in the ads I’m true to You.

I’m so enjoying my break and Sebastian set the table tonight and adddd me a spot. Ahhhh my heart. This made me cry. They tell me they love me and I stop right in the middle of everything and kiss on them. See, I’m good. Thanks for sending me here. I’m appreciative. Melissa and I are gonna have to go to Denver and get my things. I found out my brother is moving and I don’t want them to have to deal w my stuff. Thanks for sending the money to take care of this next 90 days.

I see. I see that I desire to teach. I desire to do Your will. I desire You! I feel like I’m giving birth what is going on?! I don’t even have a uterus but it sure feels like I do right now. Maybe we are in the labor room?

Oh I did tell him and if he wanted me to write better he shoulda acted better. He was great tho for about 10 days. He has a beautiful heart and when You get his head right he’ll be good. I told him the world is watching. Hahah I don’t even want to talk about this bc I won’t talk against it. Thank You thst my marriage bears fruit in every season. I command the fruit to take over and for the head heart data dump to commence. Sometimes your head talks to your heart and at times my heart has had to tell my head. Let all the matching cells in the brain and heart merge where they are on the same page with You in us both. Change me more, to be more like You!

I love our Daddy so much and the reassurance He does inside me and the knowing He has put me in. Nothing can move me from what He has said. Living from the future in the now. There is no past, there is just grace. Definitely not double minded and this was fabulous to see. My whole being is on the same accord with what Daddy has said. Prepare my heart to receive all You have for me. Thank You for blocking everything sent to harm me.

I give you this anger. I felt it and I forgive. I show grace to get it. Thanks Daddy for loads of transitional grace! Thanks! I trust You no matter what. No matter what! I don’t always like everything, at first, but I’ve found You have a way a changing me where I like and love what You like and love and hate what You hate. What You’ve done in the last few days trips me out. It’s been a lot of warfare and a lot of laughing at the enemy. The way Daddy has shifted me just simply amazes me. I’ve even grown accustomed to the videos. Took long enough huh lol

I feel like I’m giving birth again. I pray it’s to more power or a deeper understanding and inner standing of the power I already walk with making a brand new version of me coming forth. My highest vibration where everything comes into fruition I call you forth. I call forth my highest timeline where we merge.

I have found I am love and I am unconditional love. No matter what and it’s simply stunning what He has done to my heart. He gave me His. And the forgiveness is a trip. When I forgive and laugh at it bc I know better ummm the whole memory is gone like it never happened. I wonder if that is for everyone or just me? If this is my perfected brain injured brain. Idk but I like it. I don’t have any reason to remember the bad. It sits with us so long bc it takes longer for our hearts to process. This time didn’t do that. This time didn’t hurt me. It was like I knew but didn’t know and don’t care. Hahah that’s funny. I don’t care. I didn’t ask for none of this! I have begged You to take this cup from me but I will do Your will. Thank You!

Everything appears to be falling into place bc fsith and love are telling me it is. This has got to be the definition of crazy fsith and maybe stupid blind trust. It does tell me I trust myself and what I’ve heard from Yah. I hear Them perfectly and can discern who He sent to help me. It’s been a wild ride learning to walk in the supernatural but it has been soooo much fun.

I’ve felt some sadness the last couple of dsys and I don’t believe it’s me. I mean it could be this is a lot but it’s not making me sad bc I know better. It’s weird. But, I always search me first and I know this must be him. I’m mad at him and right now I don’t care he’s sad. He really deserves to be. He’s hurt a lot of people. He hurt me. Ahhh, there we go. The root. Of course this would be rejection too but it didn’t hit me this time. If anything it just pissed me off. This whole thing has! I have only spoke the word of Yah over this even through my anger and praised Him now for the future bc I know. This is so weird.

Are you sure? I trust You and I have seen we are and we can do You w him. I was worried. Thanks for showing me. I will give him a do over. I forgive. I charge this straight to You. I do forgive him and I pray for You to. I stand as him, we are one, and repent. Daddy, I ask You to hear Him. I know that him not treating me right blocks his prayers. Daddy, I ask You to hear me for him and change me to change him. Bring him the deliverance I’ve experienced. Set him free.

Thank You for today. Thank You for being You and how good You are to us. There are no words that I have leaned to describe the love I have for You! As long as I got You I’m sooo good!

Clock was jaut set to midnight. We are in the midnight hour. Lots is about to happen. Buckley up folks! I gotta do some research on this. What does this mean? Is this good or bad? I’m not in the South w my kids and You promised! I trust You! I trust this transition goes smoothly and many plans were stopped w prayer.
My elevation in the natural is proof of the spiritual elevation and we are rising. I felt it earlier and I need to reset my nervous system.
Daddy told me don’t get in His way when it comes to my husband. Let me tell ya!! I would not in a million years have chosen this!! Ain’t no way I would have ever done this to myself. I just wanted a quiet life, a nice house, car, business or two and write a few books. I did not ask to be w anyone famous, even if I believe it is in their own eyes, haha ego has had to be healed. Mass healing and quick. He is a famous music producer but not to me. That world kinda got him and lots of healing needs to take place. This new moon Hosea 5:7 … oh Abba, mercy. I’m thankful You moved me. I don’t want to be apart of a Jonah’s destruction from You. Thank You for protecting me. Thank You! I do thank You for bringing him out on the other side and showing me You’ve already done this.
Melissa, we are proud of you and bc of your faith it shall be done. Thank You! Thanks Daddy! Heal him. I don’t like him all the time but I also don’t like me all the time but I do love us unconditionally. Finish us with this moon and zap him until he tastes orange. He likes that color. Let him taste it. I did. He ain’t better than me!! Zap him into the knowing.

Hosea was made to marry Gomar to show the unconditional love and forgiveness of our Father. We have all cheated on God. Not one of us is perfect! I feel like Hosea right now. Lots of idolatry but those have been knocked down!! Dagon is down! This is fabulous!! I do remember that. That is in the journal I don’t have telling me what’s up. I’m out here winging it haha and being obedient. I’m having fun actually. I love being with Melissa.
No matter what it looks like. No matter. August has got to be so good! Got to be! No matter what it looks like, I trust You!
It’s really not my story to tell and things are not looking good in the natural but I’ve stopped paying attention to that bc Daddy is moving. I feel it. I know it. I know Him! I know Him as a promise keeper and what He has started in us He will finish! I see the prayers from last summer. I see them. I’m happy I left the journal. I love surprises!!
Stubborn. I can’t be moved and I’ve seen that. Delusional when it comes to what Daddy has said. That is my truth even when nothing looks like it. And when I say nothing I mean nothing! Faith will make ya look stupid until it rains or doesn’t for 3 years ….