Be Still & Shut up

If you’re afraid to open your whole heart up again I pray Daddy do for you what He has done for me. I was terrified to love like that again. Not scared, that hardly justifies the feeling … I was trembling, flocking terrified! I laugh at that now bc I can go back to the date that broke my whole heart. my body compares that pain to the pain of hell I experienced in that wreck. That’s a lot and I didn’t know that about my heart. That’s deep. That’s intense bc hell scared hell out of me. I have come to learn I didn’t know me at all. I didn’t know my vessel. I didn’t know my heart or how hurt she was. This was an intense healing journey. Anyway, you’ll block yourself from what God has for you if you don’t heal and allow love in every area of your heart. God is love so allow Him to touch your heart. I can feel Him inside mine. I pray you become so sensitive to Him you feel each and every tweak He makes inside you.

1998 was the year. This time of year has gotten me for 25 years … not this year! Not this time. I can go all year and it not pull me down but we get to this time of year and I’m flooded w memories – I’m sure so I’d heal each time. It was this time of the year, winter, when he died. I never shared hardly any of this story w anyone. We just didn’t talk about it, except in therapy, and maybe I should have. He was surely something special and I was blessed each day of those years w our baby boy. Thank You for him. I’m not sure I’d of made it wo our son. Thank You! I hate he had to experience that. I hated that pain to fall on him. Thank You for healing us both.

That was the worst day of my life. That day changed my whole very existence. It changed everything about me and nobody understood. Nobody understood… ha, I didn’t understand and talking about mad at God. Furious! Would cuss Him out! So, when I tell you He’s a big boy and can take it from you I’m not kidding. He still loves me and He will you too! if you make your bed in hell He is still with you- I am proof!

Deer season, duck season, Thanksgiving, his birthday, Christmas, New Year, his death
All of those days hurt and I carried that so incredibly long. In January the man that I called my husband and the man that gave me my son will be gone for 25 years. That pain was like a core memory. Thanks for extinguishing that pain.

It’s been 4 years this month, today I think, that I started truly giving this pain to God. And today I’m here to testify ! Finally, healed of this heartbreak! I was falling apart when Heaven rescued me!

I found this out about 2 weeks ago while I was searching my heart. I prayed for anywhere I was blocking myself to be exposed in me and healed. I’ve been deeply crying it out since. Today, it is finished!

I open my whole heart up! I open myself to receive love. The power of the blood on every calloused area of our hearts! I praise You for its healing power! The power of the blood on every broken piece and we thank You for being our potter and holding our hearts in Your hand. For molding us and our hearts into who You called us to be. Fearless! Obedient! Powerful demonstrators of Your Word.

Idk who you are but – When Yah said it He said He meant it and you cannot lose what He is giving you. Everything and every person is a gift, might be a lesson or blessin- sometimes both.
He doesn’t undo a promise. He said it is finished! Not me but Him! I declare that all the time but tonight He said It is Finished! I know you’re afraid you missed your chance but you didn’t! in fact He chuckled that you asked, again. You’ve asked several times …today. How cool is it that I get to be the answer. I love this so much!

There is no other way! Times up! It’s either 11 days and you’re there – walking into what He said or it’s 40 more years wandering … you choose (be obedient if you have to watch a worm crawl – yes had to do that and it was a test – like I’m serious) but you didn’t miss (you heard Him right, I’m here as your confirmation) and you haven’t missed your chance. He said get up and get in the ring, you’re not out! Fight! Fight! Fight! Fast if you need to for further instructions. I just came to encourage you and tell you it’s yours, you didn’t miss and He loves you! And, it is finished!!

Try again! You’re gonna be just fine. Everything is working for your good! From what I’ve learned we can be timelocked out of things by the enemy, causing delays, but I saw Daddy bust like one of those old timey bell clocks (before digital) w a sledgehammer. Everything holding you back was just busted through by our Daddy! He did this one. Like waved His magic finger and bam! Try again! Or start! Take this back to Yahweh!

I love you! 😘

We are about to see things that was supposed to only be a conspiracy theory. Aliens/demons seen and apparently, bc of the scripture He gave me they will get followers. If I’m having to put out a warning people are going to be deceived. Don’t let that be you. Matt 24:5

Please get right w Jesus/Yeshua! I cannot stress this enough. Prepare your hearts, some people aren’t going into 2023. Repent and turn back to Him! PLEASE! Isaiah 38 GET YOUR HOUSE IN ORDER!

This winter is going to be 🥶. I’m not a fan and still cancel everything but He’s told me it’s going to be cold, at least He warned me. He laughs at me when I talk to the sun and ask her to warm up 😩🤣

Buckle up! 🥰 Drastic radical obedience is coming to you! 🥰

Daddy is about to show out. Ready or not, here it comes!

Idk how He’s doing it but every waking second He’s transforming me. I wake up even more sure of what He’s said every time. He resets us when sleeping, Thanks. The last few days all I’ve wanted to do was sleep. I will get huge downloads and then go to sleep. I love that He resets everything about me and makes His truth my total truth and way of life while I sleep.
So, I’m getting to know the soul realm of myself. The thoughts, will, emotions. I don’t have thoughts unless I need to. I can just be. I can turn my brain off!! I have also learned how to shut out outside noise when I’m in a conversation too so I’m totally in it, and not drifting off to the spiritual realm or listening to background chatter. This was a challenge lol. And I can hear and carry on multiple conversations at the same time wo wanting to lose my mind, while warring as needed in the spirit. My grands helped me so much w this! I can hear them all at the same time and almost make out a conversation with each one while they talk over each other. Do you even understand the challenges this was? It was overstimulation to the max! Thank You for healing this I sure love you! I give You all the glory! It’s so totally cool tho there are 5 of them and they are all girls that like to chatttttt 🤣 I get all the juice from them haha. It’s so totally cool to not have to tell them to shhh one at a time I can’t hear you. All this is overwhelming my brain, slow down, and that feels amazing! The more He heals me the more He amazes me. The more He shows me what our brains can do the more He trips me out. I never thought my brain would be able to process all of that at the same time again. It does and then some.
Untapped weapon!

Communicating was a challenge w brain injury. I could hear the words in my head but something totally different came out of my mouth. There were times I sounded like a babbling baby. My brain communications centers were damaged – not now! He has taught me to communicate like Esther. He has taught me when to speak and when not to. He has taught me. He taught me. He did! Holy Spirit ROCKS! My my my I love You so much. And her faith – she would be the last one standing and not wavering at all! Flat footed in her faith in You and what You’ve said. I love that. Thank You for searching me to make sure. I love You so much! 😘😘😘

My will – it’s Your Will be done. I don’t have this, I traded mine for His. I love His! It’s so much better than anything I had dreamed!

Emotions- been getting to know them for a few years and I can honestly say we have them healed and under control. Boy at the testing on this 🤣 I know my power and that my emotions are energy in motion and affect everyone around me. I deal, forgive and heal immediately- no festering. I have my own happiness internally and live w joy. I am content in all situations and can hang out w Yeshua at any moment in time. I’ve trained myself where there is no boredom. Jehovah Rapha! My healer! I praise You! You amaze me with what you’ve done in me! Simply astounding! Rock on Papa!

These shifts are painful but have great rewards. My vision is better. In both realms – natural and spiritual. Stuff is so much clearer when it’s coming in.
The ringing in our ears is angels lifting us and we are hearing it. That’s cool. Thanks for making us aware of what’s going on.
The lifting usually causes diarrhea. It’s gotta be released! You aren’t sick you’re elevating! I have felt blah for the last few days. I’ve got up and done what needed to be done but that was it. I was hurting. Physical pain and He declared a fast Friday. Whew! I’ll be glad when we out of this … push us into purpose! That didn’t bother me. She was terrified before but now now I trust her, He trusts her and she finally trusts herself.
unworthy, unqualified, un- everything, I felt it.
He built this girl back ready to take on the world.
That makes me cry, so humble, so grateful!
Haha we can’t help but laugh. My heart is such a .. umm, what is the word? She’s in there is all we gonna say 🤣 she will fight and not think twice about it and literally laughs in demons faces. We love her courage. And now that she knows her brain is healed and she knows how to use it … WATCH OUT!