Be Still & Shut up

Things are happening that I see around me and inside me that are just weird for a lack of better words. Wake and dream life are like merging. I have no other way to really explain this. There have been many times that I have asked myself “is this even real?” “Is this really happening?” I cannot be the only one. And, if this wasn’t crazy enough I have caught feelings for someone I do not even know. Has God told you who your spouse is? Do you find yourself missing and falling in love with someone you do not even really know? To me this is INSANE! Like, how does this even happen? God is crazy!

I have known who God has ordained for me to marry since OCT 2019. When He told me I was married I immediately became married to Holy Spirit and He was molding me. I initially laughed, I will be honest because of who this person is. We know each other and have for about 11 years. we have been in a relationship before and under unusually circumstances. If I hadn’t of been a troll we would probably already be married. I was hell on wheels and what God has done is astounding. Anyway, i laughed because of this and the fact he is from my past. God told me, “ I will show you.” I said, “this I gotta see.” Then, this person called me. Yes, we have been in touch but that wasn’t really unusual every time he was hitting a rough patch he would contact me, like a safety net or something. I am not sure but these short catch up conversations never went anywhere. We never met up until Sept 2020. I have not told this person that God told me anything about us. I am totally watching God do this and I will not put my hand in it. So, I hung out with this man and discerned his heart for eight days. Eight is the number for new beginnings and I really thought the promise was there but then we went back into this separation phase with zero communication. Dec 2020 I saw this person again, nothing again, everything came to a quick halt and I questioned if I even heard God right at this point. God keeps talking to me about this person but I kept my guard up so I didnt break my own heart if I by any chance missed this. I know I didnt miss it and I know in its correct season it will happen and from what God has said this is any day now. if you’re in the wait too it is any day if you know who it is. Back to my story, in Feb i talked to hi. Learned a lot and got to see how the heart healing was coming along on him. Maybe this is the only reason he called.. I hav zero ideas haha. And after Feb nada. Not a text not nothing. This was aggravate the fire out of me before God changed me. I think we both ran. I know I did! This freaked me out. Me and Jesus are in a superb place and the last think I even wanted to deal with was how to allow someone in on that. I told him this when we met in Dec ‘20. He was scared too because I was honest with him. During these stints of visits we talked about the future. we talked about getting married. We talked about Jesus. we talked about our past hurts. We got to know each other on a different level than before and I enjoyed that. This also let me know how to pray for him. What to be specific about. Now, we are in May and nothing again! Did doubt ty and hit me? yep! 1000%! I wanted to question myself if I missed it again and God quickly told me that I did not and would not miss my mark because my eyes are fixed on HIm. I did not ask for this. this is a gift from God and I will accept this gift with certainty. I was totally freaking out about this. being in a relationship, married, ministry.. all of it but yall, I am here to tell ya the feasts of the Lord are pure power! There are promises that come with participating in the feasts. And giving! You will never be able to out give God!

Some of me felt ghosted. Some of me got in my feelings and deleted this person off facebook… lmbo. I am still very much human. Ugh, it really Boggs me down at times.. that human stuff 🙂 but then God gave me the WOrd that came from Philemon and every time I get aggravated about this situation I just charge it to God and know that He will pay it back and He is good for it. I have ghosted people before but then grew up and would tell them how I felt. I was like Daddy, if he is gonna act like this I dont even want it. God laughed at me with this one and spoke to me in Philemon. then another part of me was terrified bc I have failed at marriage. Than I was told I didnt fail I was ill equipped. He built me for this and for so much more. I guess the purpose o this is to tell everyone that is waiting too that God is doing a great work in all of us and setting these up. Be patient and enjoy the rest of your time being single. When life changes it is going to be a suddenly of God and it is going to happen fast. God has prepared us for this so stop freaking out! he has got ya!!

God has told me that He has done the same things to my husband that He did in me. That this will be a Cinderella story and better than anything either of us have ever experienced. God has told me many things about this and other relationships, all the prophetic words about the marriages are up here in the blog. I was told to be transparent and to let someone know you are not alone.

Oh yall, I am working again. kinda like a glorified assistant haha but I get to travel and minister while gone. I watched Him heal back pain yesterday and I get to spend the day at the beach waiting on the auction. I travel with my employer and we were supposed to go to Nashville but I was like Daddy, I really want to go to the beach please. Guess what God did? He rerouted this entire business trip to the gulf coast! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! I am so grateful! What’s even better about this is God told me last week that I was going to the beach but it wouldn’t look like what I expected. I was expecting Nashville and then SUDDENLY was turned south!

Been in Lo Debar? Valley of decisions? Desert? Wilderness? Valley? Pit? I see God every day in every circumstance but there are things He has told me that I cannot see in the natural at all. Like, ya know, “did I hear that right?” “Was that even God talking?”, we question ourselves.

This is a spirit of doubt that we need to get out from under, he will try and make you get in your head. Your head knows. It’s time to get the head and heart on the same page, (get your flesh to believe- meditate) If the spirit of doubt can convince you that you didn’t hear right you’ll stop believing. Do not allow that! The quickest way I know to lose doubt is w fasting, prayer, and dancing w Him. And do whatever God says! When He says! You’ll see Him!

You heard right so don’t you dare stop believing now! God is not a man that should lie. He is obligated to do what He said and told you- trust Him. For He cannot deny Himself. He is IN YOU! He would not lie to Himself. He speaks to your spirit and your spirit talks to you. Start paying attention you are a 3 part being too. Don’t allow the flesh to even for one second think it rules bc it does not! We are guided by God. He ordains our steps. If you got out of step (alignment) go back to what He told you to do that you haven’t done and do it! Do it now!! And then repent. We all fall out but step back in. Get back in!!

I want to prophesy over us that we are coming out of Lo Debar to never return! We are headed straight to the palaces we were promised! That God speaks truth and we for sure believe Him! I command every spirit of doubt, unbelief and fear to leave now, to never return and zero retaliation in the matchless name of Jesus! peace, guard our hearts and minds. Wisdom, increase our capacity for more of you. Daddy enlarge our territory. Help our unbelief and increase our faith. Thank You! Thank You, I knew You always heard me. I trust You Father. Thank You for sealing us w Holy Spirit and for hiding us under Your Wings, and for the blood of Jesus. Thank You for your guidance and protection and your promises. We receive!! Thank You! Thank You that the angels have went before us to pave the way and make it straight and that they are to help us stay in alignment. We give you glory, honor and praise! In Jesus mighty name- amen! Angels go forth and bring harvest to us. Thanks Daddy!

Glory to God! We are coming out folks! Rest in Him He is almost finished up!!

Yesterday I was told 72 hours and we will see something we’ve been praying for. If you know who your kingdom spouse is and you haven’t met him yet this could occur any day. 72 hours is now about 48 hours. The last time He gave me this time span I saw some amazing things. They were little things to some but to me they were huge, and I saw it w my natural eyes.

The other day He said soon, soon, soon, soon and then I got any day and then 72 hours so be expecting something amazing!

Jesus is coming back for a church without spot or wrinkle. God is on a healing mission! Oh, that’s music to my ears!! He’s raised up a whole generation to destroy the works of the enemy. A company of prophets that are really, really mad at the enemy. These people war for the entire body. They call out your name and stand in the gap for you daily. I’m so thankful for them prayers! That is the only way I made it through all of this. People are praying for you to get through your process. Did you know everyone was called to be a prophet and hear from God? This hearing from God thing isn’t just for your pastor. This intimacy is for everyone! If you go even the slightest for Him He will come hard for you! His love is joy, peace, love, and I mean real love. He will never beat you up and when He needs to show you something He does it with grace.

Pruning is tough but you don’t have to keep reliving those past circumstances and you’re up against a principality, leviathan, we learn about this fleeting serpant in Job. This demon comes and goes and tries to keep you focused on the past instead of welcoming the now and the new. We tread upon serpents and when the thief is caught he has to pay back double. This makes folks sick, pain, cancer, and messes w your mind. Be still and heal your soul from this demon while God fights him. This one has been a tough one to get on top of. It can be done as I’m living proof so keep going. Your soul is having to be healed and renewed. God is pruning everyone. New levels new devils. I had no idea about this one until the other say.

He’s cleaning up hearts, removing demonic activity from around you, renewing your mind with His truth, and catapulting you into your calling. This is the process and what’s going on with you. Once you know who you are it’s so much easier to fight these devils.

Coming back for a church without spot or wrinkle. Each time we are hurt by anything it creates a hole in the soul. The hole leaks the light and needs to be patched with the blood. We are the light of the earth. Jesus is our light and hope of glory. To carry the glory you can’t have any leaks or holes in your soul. The light just leaks out of them. Like a water balloon w a slow leak. If you see you’re being petty, arrogant, angry, irritable, insensitive, prideful etc… anything you need to ask Jesus to heal that and remove it from you. To rewrite you and to change you from within. Apply the blood. Ask Him to patch you with the blood. All holes are filled with the powerful blood of Christ. Thank Him. Receive your healing. Let Him work. Meditate with this. I like to meditate to certain tones that help the brain process certain feelings. If I’m feeling anxious I’ll find a tone for removing anxiety and listen to it and praise God while it plays. Then He will show me what was causing it. It’s usually something my flesh feels coming that I’m not completely aware of. It’s like I sense a surprise is coming and soon and that unknown of what was coming was getting me. Shoot, I done been to jail now … hahaha,. I’m not scared! I was tho. I was scared of all of this and this demon was taunting me so I know he is others.

God is a covenant keeper and all covenants were ratified by blood. Apply the blood to your soul, and your body. There is healing in the Word. Jesus is the Word. Those that find it find health to their entire bodies! When you get the Word in you you also become the Word manifest. His Words are spirit and life. You are spirit. His Words speak life not death. You are His Word! He spoke you into existence just like everything else. You were with Him in the beginning. He has always and will always be inside you. People need to accept Jesus! We have never been separate from God- the biggest illusion the enemy has fed us. In the beginning was the Word. The Word was with God and the Word was God. You were with Him in the beginning. You were in the heart of God where Jesus is tucked in (the heart of God is Jesus). We are the body of Christ. Christ is the head. God has His heart walking outside of His chest too w His children. You were with Him in the beginning!! You are one with the Father but the Father is greater. We are to walk with the faith God has in Himself. The God kind of faith. Covenant! Knowing who you are. Do you know who you are and to Whom you belong? If you’re unsure of covenant let me know. I’d be happy to share. There is so much we have been stupid to and I sure don’t know it all. I’m not sure I ever will even know a minuscule amount. We could never exhaust the Word of God. I see something different each time I read what He gives me for that day. We are in Isaiah a lot right now. He’s given me some prophetic words that we are about to revisit and expand on. Praise The Lord !! I’m so excited!! Isaiah 38 has been coming up a lot. The weather is for sure a sign of how this is unfolding but I’ve not had a whole lot of time to seek Him specifically on this. We’ve been working on other things. Man, the devil tried to stall me out big time. Arrested, a death in my family, distractions everywhere but he lost that.

It is time for the body to arise from their slumber. I say arise sleeping lions. You are no longer viewing yourself as a grasshopper. Go forth and take your land! Isaiah 60- this is so encouraging!

I’m not gonna lie all the warfare has been tiring. Man, the devil is mad at us 😂😂😂. That means we are doing our job right! I was put in jail for talking about my love for Jesus while at the airport when my flight was delayed. People heard a few hours of nonstop Jesus. This is hilarious to me! I love it!! Jesus told me if I talk about my love for Him people get healed and I believe Him. Have you seen what I survived? Have you seen Maggie, my car that I wrecked? Nobody shoulda walked away from that!! My God I am so grateful!! I will never stop talking about Jesus and that is what I told them in court, and told them there is a chance I’d be back. I can’t say it won’t happen again.

I have ran long enough. The devil tried to shut me down but the jokes on him!!

Just a reminder: it is NOT your job to make a single person happy. They should be happy on their own. If you’re unhappy you need to search yourself to see why instead of grumbling and complaining. (Eph 4) and talk to God. He loves you! He wants to help you. He is your Daddy!
Repent and go to Him, I promise He is listening!

Please read Ephesians. I don’t care how long it’s been since you picked up a Bible. Need one? Need a Bible? I have given almost 100 Bibles away since October of last year. If we need them God will provide them- contact me. We will get you a Bible. Download a Bible app – they are free!! I like paper Bibles personally but as long as you’re reading. It is medicine to your whole body! I vowed to God that if He taught me how to heal myself I would teach everyone how to do it too. I hated being sick and I know the agony that comes with it. Not just physically but mentally, emotionally, soul piercings… I get it. I hated it and I don’t want anyone to not think there is hope. I came back from a severe traumatic brain injury. I had 8 brain bleeds and my head was the size of a basketball. Medically speaking it was so bad! I was a nurse in my pre TBI and I should not be here. If I hadn’t of got a kiss by Jesus I would have never pulled through that. There were several other severe injuries that should have taken me out. My neck was broken too. I’m so grateful, so grateful! I look at my grands now and just thank Him. I should not have been here to watch them experience their fleshly experience (their lives). That’s what happening. You’re merely having a fleshly experience.

Grace is given in the measure it is needed bc of what Christ did for us. Ask for the grace to get through your process. Let me help you real quick- What you see you don’t like in someone else is a direct reflection of what you don’t like in yourself. To change myself I talked to God a whole lot. He helped me bc there is absolutely no way I could have done this without Him.

I don’t know much about this law of attraction thing but when we get to the nitty gritty of it it’s scriptural. I listened to a few for research. Crazy right? They know there is a God (I’ve heard some on this but using it biblically, scripture. It’s our like declarations and prayers) but they need Jesus. Jesus is the ONLY WAY! We must act like Jesus to help them know Him – I know it hurt my feelings a little too. I was taught it’s all demonic and it’s not. It’s the law of vibration. These are Kingdom laws.

Consciousness, vibration… it’s all in the Bible. He had to show me. Your vibration is directly related to your consciousness (your awareness) You know like a tree is a tree. A car a car. A skyscraper is what it is and well so are you. You are a spirit. You are energy. You are a vibration. You attract what you are…. sound familiar? We have been fed some crap. And with that we scold people without offering them the only way- Jesus! Exhortation is done with love. I’ve seen people condemn others without offering them any hope. That is not exhortation and if you don’t know how to say it then shut up until you do. He will give you the words. He gives them to me and I’m no one special. I’m a Kings kid and so are you!

There is a better way to all of this. Matthew 6:33! Jesus!! Jesus! Jesus! Seek Him and His righteousness and He will give it all to you. He will heal your every hurt and set you completely free! He can and will patch any hurt w His blood. I promise. I’m living proof! Everyone has watched Him change me. He did it publicly 😂. God is a trip! I had a few deaths plotted (no lie, I knew how, why, how, how, where lol) I pray to God every single day that nobody ever yank me out of being inside Jesus. We are IN Him. He is IN us. Do you understand this power? This is where your consciousness comes in! When He has you fully convinced you know He can and will do anything. Some of you know I recently lost an aunt. God guided me through the whole process of her going to sleep. That’s what those in Christ are really doing. Going to sleep. I knew when she released her spirit and it was done at 3:20 in the afternoon. She was a bus driver and she loved it. Man, we all loved that woman! She was amazing!! But! Me having been to hell and not knowing where she was spiritually and knowing that power, I had to try. I had to try so I told her if she wasn’t in heaven with Jesus to get back in her body. In the name of Jesus. My only fear has been snatching someone out of heaven bc He’s told me we are going to lift the dead. I am not the only one that will do this! Pay attention! He’s been teaching me the words to say and how it makes sense biblically. John 11! Read John 11. Since this fear existed a clause was put in returning to the body- IF! The biggest little word in our language. Jesus name holds power! ALL POWER! Raising the dead power! He did it and so will we! Your consciousness and faith in Him is of utmost importance…

God gave me John 11 3 days before her sleeping session and the morning of the funeral. Guess what her pastor preached on? John 11!! It was my sign she was A OK and w Him! And well, she didn’t get up. When I say hell is bad and I don’t want anyone there I mean it. I mean, I am sure I sound stupid crazy right now but I had to try. I had to try and lift the dead and then our amazing Daddy told me she was w Him. I even got a play by play of where she was in heaven. Waiting room, I call it a teaching room – if we don’t learn it all here we will learn it there. God will be worshipped by everyone there and if you don’t know how to worship here …. let me just tell you we don’t praise Him near enough.

Jesus is so amazing and I love Him so very much. He is my everything! I’ve missed Him so much. I’ve had family in and out for a week now. I loved it. I love being with everyone but I missed being with Him. I know He is w me always but I missed our quiet time together. He’s my best friend and I need Him more than I need air!