Be Still & Shut up

A breakdown used to make me think I was weak but now I know how strong they really make me. There is power in a good cry and how it will release the past from my present. Paul tells us to renew our minds and with renewal of our minds we cannot bring yesterday into our today. This has been the hardest thing for me to accomplish and usually I am pretty good at it but recently I was hurt and someone tried to gaslight me. People that think they do and do for you bu that you have never done for them. They cannot accept any responsibility for their actions. They will not ever apologize. They will not ever admit to their faults. These people are narcissist. They are the worst kind of abuser and it is hard to get out from under the control of their words. I really want to hate this person, but I know if I allow that and choose that route that I have grieved the Holy Spirit that lives in me, Jesus that lives in me and God because of the commandments. They are really the only thing that has separated this person from a lengthy wrath of me. My alter ego also had to go. She was mean and spiteful and could cause some damage to anyone that felt they could push on me. I was not for bully’s and would take care of them but in that midst my realization was that i had become a milder version of what I could not stand. Oh how that hurt me worse than the hatred that wanted to grow in my heart.

It really took this person hurting me to make me better instead of bitter. I will be honest and say that I do not want to look at them again and they lost their all access pass to my life. They can watch me from a distance because they will never be included again. It took a lot of lessons for me to get to the point where I would actually shut them out. People are so crude and call themselves Christians. That is not the spirit of God living on the inside of them. I am not sure what spirit they got but it isn’t my God’s. Their fruit will speak for itself! This is why God has been telling me that this person was not my battle. I needed to let them go but I had hoped for the best and that they would change. This person has twisted scripture and lied, numerous times, trying to hurt me. A narcissist is impossible of feeling empathy. They do not care about anyone but themselves and if you are around one you need to move. The reason these people have been pushed out of our lives is so God can have His way in our lives. You will know if this is for you because you will have dealt with some of these same things. An example of the astronomical lies they tell is “ I had a hummingbird land on my floor because it got tired and I was able to catch it and take it back outside so it didn’t die.” I immediately asked what color it was because i knew it was a lie. One a lie is out there is gives satan a legal right to our lives. I have died explaining this to this person but they do not care. I write this as a warning so nobody else has to experience what I have. Learn from me.. do not be like me.

God has been telling me since last July that this person had to be removed from my life. I did! I got rid of them but they always had their charming ways of returning to my life. I would try to see the best in them and pray for them to turn from their selfish ways. I knew the truth but I remained hopeful. Monday was the last and final straw! This person lost their access to my life permanently. I do not hate this person and for the first time in my life I do not seek revenge. I hold some cards and I have the final play.. I do not ever want anyone to make Ann, my alter ego, return. I think this was like a final test to ensure I was ready to grow up more with the Lord. I believe this had to happen to see if I would go to hurt them like they did me but I didnt and I truly do not have the desire to. I do not want to hurt anyone. Learning to love the difficult people, forgive and forget has been the hardest part of this entire journey. I believe 10000% in talk therapy because that is what it took for me to move past this. My therapist is Jesus and we have talked about this for the last three days but no more after today. I allowed this to steal my peace and that lets me know that satan was involved. I will not give his agents one ounce of pleasure to my life. When satan cannot get to you he comes at you through people to steal your dreams, kill your peace, rob you of your sleep and cause death to your future. If we stay stuck satan has won and I will never give him the advantage over me again. I will not allow that rat to come between me and my destiny. It often times takes a detrimental breakdown to cause us to breakthrough. Mine and your words are too valuable to spend on people so cheap! Watch your words and guard your hearts my friends.

Writing here has also helped me heal. I believe in a lot of prayer. Meditation has helped me so much and not just on God’s word but mindful meditation. I can see myself walking with Jesus and we talk. This is powerful. It takes being still and now I see why He told me I’d need that verse (Psalm 46:10) for the rest of my life. Reading the Word of God and fixing my eyes on Him helps too. Sometimes it is rereading my favorite stories and it takes a whole lot of being intentional. I did not want to write here today. I have not done my podcast, yet, but I will. I have only been live on facebook once or twice, I am not sure, this week when I was doing that every day but when I am dealing with things I like it to be just me and Jesus. This person will never know they got to me like they did unless they read this because like I said my words are too expensive. Dancing with Jesus helps me a lot too when I need to move past things. I have breakthroughs (revelations) with Him all the time. What I wont do is allow someone any authority over my life any more. I take all my power back that anyone has ever had over me and I am not interested in pleasing anyone but God. He literally had to get me here. None of this has been easy and my enemies have been defeated! God will do way better than I ever could at getting even and He has told me that so I will back away and be His vessel. God knew what He was doing when He told us we had to love everyone. It ensures we do not expose them to our own wrath. Wrath is a spirit that satan uses to destroy our destiny. Do not allow him to have another second of your time. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus- the owner of your prize.

Heavenly Father, we thank You for all the breakthroughs You have taught us. We Praise Your Holy name and life You on High. Thank You for Your mercy and Your grace and Your forgiveness. We ask for forgiveness of our sins, for almost adhering to the call of the world and we ask You to bring us back in tight fellowship with You. Thank You for loving us and for us being your favorite.. Lord, we rest in You and Your Word says that means we are protected from all evil and their fiery darts, shield us Father, protect us and allow us to know You have got it. Thanks for teaching patience because nobody can teach like You. Thank You for all the lessons of this journey to date and we look forward to so much more with You. Thank You for healing our hearts, renewing our minds and us starting out new. Thank You Lord, we love You. In Jesus name I seal this and I plead His blood over my life, my sins, my messes and ask You to cleanse me and make me whole. In Jesus name- amen

There are many people that are being enlightened, have gone through a spiritual awakening and have been told to arise. We are left wondering where we are supposed to arise to? I know I have been. I know what God has promised me and that it will happen but I often times get trapped in asking When? When is all of this going to come forth so I can see it in my reality. God is the ultimate teacher of patience, and all this time I thought it was children that did this.

I stood on a promise Jesus made me when I met Him about my healing for 7 years. He told me one day I would wake up and just be cured, and that has occurred. There are other things that have already happened and I can see things beginning to take place. We cannot always bank on what we see in our natural. I have learned that it is finished and He is going to do it but sometimes we gotta give a little to get.

We become so conditioned to our world around us we lose sight of the supernatural realm of God. We forget it is even there and that everything done in the natural is done in unseen spiritual realm first. It has happened! Please know that! Know that God doesn’t lie and if He told you something it will happen. If He told you to do something, even through someone else, you gotta do that too.

He also vindicates people but we gotta get out of His way and shut our mouths. Isaiah 41:11-16 tells us what God is going to do but we get impatient because we want our enemies gone from us. When we shut-up and move away from them, pray for them, and want the best for them then God will move on your behalf. The best way I can tell you to do this is move away from those difficult people. I understand this isn’t always accessible or easy because I have lived it. I had to ask God to accomplish this. I had to pray and I mean hard because I was a spiteful tart that would seek revenge and usually get it. My wrath was a strong game but God has totally removed that and I pray nobody ever tries to make me resort back to that person. I have intentionally removed everyone from my life that triggers me. I wont even go around them for a social visit because they are just difficult. My life has SOOOO much more peace in it and I thank God for that every day.

We must move away from sin.. for the wage of sin is death. God has been pulling me away from my favorite sins for the last year. I used to drink, smoke cigarettes and pot, cuss, fornicate… and I had to stop. I learned that fasting these things made it easier to give up. I have been struggling with smoking cigarettes. Then enemy would come hard at me. Taunting me in my ears with their disgusting whispers, “dont you want a cigarette? That person just made you mad.. dont you want to get over it with a good smoke?” Smoking was my go to when I was mad, upset, excited, angry etc and I had to relinquish that crutch and share my entire life with God. I had to include Him in everything and talk to Him as I would my best friend. He has become my real only friend. I have friends but they dont get everything He does. I have learned that walking and talking to God about things settles my nerves much better than any cigarette ever could. I was struggling with smoking last week and I did smoke some, but I asked God to give me a verse to stand on when the enemy or my flesh would come at my brain trying to get me to smoke.. He gave me “for the wage of sin is death.” All I could do was laugh because He knows me better than I know myself. I do not want to lose my inheritance because of a death spirit coming at me.

Please know it is ok to outgrow some people. Not all people will continue on your journey once you get out of the wilderness. I dont know about y’all but I want out of the wilderness and into my promise land and I will do anything to venture there. I have no desire to stay trapped or no enter my promise land because of my own disobedience. If and when He tells you to do something do it right then because delayed obedience is still disobedience. I am speaking to myself as well. I am far from perfect and I never will be but that doesnt mean I cant strive to be.

It seems as with every victory there is war. I fast a lot to make sure demons cannot come at me. I fast a lot of foods because they lower my vibration (energy). There are many foods that cause us to be on low vibrations and I have noticed God has pulled me away from them. Plants are best. No sugar, no coffee, no meat… my entire life has changed through this awakening. Spiritual ware fare is intense on some days. I can recommend fasting, lots of prayer, and speaking in tongues so the Holy Spirit resolves the issues we have.

Father, thank You for this day. Thank You for Your love, Your mercy and Your grace. Lord, we ask that you forgive us where we have been wrong and show us how to fix these things. Teach us, renew us, clean up our hearts where nothing can come at us without us knowing exactly what it is. Create in us a clean heart and give us a renewed steadfast spirit to walk out the anointing You have placed on us. Show us when we are wrong so we can turn from things, and people we have that need to be removed. Help us when we are taunted and place our angels before us to pave the way. Purge us of our disastrous ways and clean us up Father. In Jesus name we pray. Amen

I got a huge great prophecy from God yesterday and put it out on my facebook and today the enemy is coming hard. I woke up in a funk but I know God has got it and I only need to be still and rest in Him. Knowing God and preparing to do what He has called me to do has increased the attacks for sure. I am sure I am not the only one this is happening to. There have been so many things brought back in to my head that I figured I had forgiven. I truly say “I forgive” out loud like a million times in order to get it in me that that circumstance or situation is over. I had to deal with a few things last night and this morning. I mean the attacks even came in my sleep. I am so glad God has been molding me to be the warrior I need to be. This has not been easy and putting out that prophecy yesterday was a tad difficult but I do trust God and I know His voice. I will also put it here but I want to encourage everyone to be obedient to God because there are so many blessings that come with obedience.

The battles are stiff just know that but your love and trust for God is greater. Always remember He that lives in you is greater than anything of this world. That is encouraging all by itself. To wage good war you gotta know who your enemy is and that it is not against any flesh and blood or your past. When my past is thrown up by a demon spirit I immediately say; “Yep, that happened, I cannot change it and God has forgiven me.” Once I acknowledge the fight I can come back harder than satan’s goons are trying to hit me. Many of you are dealing with these same things and I want you to be prepared and win your battle.

I quit smoking in Nov. 2019 but that crutch has been trying to come at me HARD! I mean hard. I will be asked “dont you want a smoke?” At times I really do but at other times I dont even want one but that voice makes me think about it. I have cracked and smoked but not anymore. I asked God to give me a scripture to stand on for that battle and He told me it was within myself. He gave me “For the wage of sin is death.” I had to laugh at HIm with that and death is also a spirit that comes to kill finances, your self-worth, businesses, marriages.. etc. it is more than just death. This spirit is an agent of stan and it comes to kill, steal and destroy and the last thing I want is for satan to have anymore of my life. I know y’all want out of this cycle too and that is why I am trying to teach you how to get that nasty rat off your back.

When a memory comes into your mind, or you start playing a conversation you have not had please know that there is a spirit standing there talking to you. Your spiritual ears hear all of this and make you feel odd and off. I woke up with doom and gloom this morning because satan came at me in my sleep but when I started spending time with God He took over and fought for me. I had to bind some spirits and loose them from me but once that was done I was free again. I encourage you to see how things make you feel and then get rid of it. I also had to tell stan to get beneath my feet and he does not and will not ever have access to my life again. It is impossible to get rid of a demon you enjoy playing with. I used to enjoy smoking but God delivered me from it. Right before the birth of a book and my ministry satan has come hard at me… he comes to steal kill and destroy.. dont forget that. Anything that harasses you like this is an agent of stan and needs to be removed from around you. Bless your house and anoint everything in it because demons can attach to things. The last thing you want is your peace and then evil to come around again because of one item in your house. I began to feel so much better after doing this. If a memory keeps coming up let it play out and then talk to yourself in the promises God has given you. You have access to all of those promises in the Bible because of the spirit of adoption.

Now for the prophecy and it is amazing! I am so excited for God!!

Isaiah 43:1 But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Melissa- put your name where you see people’s names in the Bible. And, who formed you, O Melissa, (you are Israel now, we all are) Fear not for I have redeemed you. I have called you by name and you are Mine. .. This comforted me so much because putting out His Word and being His mouthpiece was a little intimidating. Fear tried to come at me hard with “what if this doesnt happen” I had to come back at fear harder with “I Know this is going to happen because my God doesn’t lie, get back in hell where you belong. It has been a tough couple of days.

God is also telling us to leave the past in the past where it belongs. Isa 43:18-19. He is doing a new thing and we need to as well. God will build me up and give me the courage to do all of this and then He gives me scriptures of instruction. After instruction He will tell me what’s about to happen and then confirm Himself in His Word. Our minds need to be renewed of who God is and who we are through Him. We become so conditioned to this world we inadvertently lose who we are and that the whole Kingdom of God is on the inside of us. It is time we own who we are in and through Him.

In the book of Acts we learn about Pentecost which is the coming of the Holy Spirit. We also see how it happened. We lived though an historical Passover and I believe we are about to see a live Pentecost as well. And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting. Acts 2:2. After He gave me this scripture He told me the winds would be so prevalent we would be able to see them. I have no idea what all is about to happen but this weekend is Pentecost. I am so excited for God.

Then He gave me Acts 4. And with great power the apostles gave witness to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And great grace was upon them all. Acts 4:33. That great grace and power is about to hit our earth. I truly believe within the next few days. The warfare is intense right now because stan doesnt want us walking in the authority God gave us and that is about to change. We are about to move into those greater works Jesus spoke of and God is about to raise the dead, regrow amputated limbs and take the spirits of satan by storm. In the Bible it talks about people being healed by Paul’s shadow.. we are about to see this kind of power of God on earth again.

He gave me some instructions and I am going to give everyone the same ones. Do not complain, this allows satan access to your life. Ask God to bind up your tongue so you do not say anything that isn’t pleasing to Him. Get up and pray, even if you have to set an alarm. Prayer is our calling card to Jesus and then He intercesses for us. We have to talk to them, all three of them. We have gotten so stuck in worshiping only one of the Godheads that we leave the others out. Tell them you love them and see what a difference it makes in your relationship with them. We all like being told we are loved and so does the Lord. Fast your favorite sins. Stop doing these things He has delivered you from once and seek His face while fasting. I am fasting a few things because I can feel myself losing control of my flesh and that flesh has to be in check to walk in authority. Do not, under any circumstances, seek revenge or be spiteful. satan is replaying those memories hoping to make you mad at that situation so you’ll act on it. Do not let Him win. Ask God what you need to stop doing and if you need to move away from people, He will tell you. And above all get in the word of God. This Word will renew your mind, your spirit, your heart, and prepare you for battle because you’ll know what to come back at those goons with. Be prepared!! Take communion as often as you think about it. We need to get at the table with Jesus.

Father God, our daddy and our King, we thank You for loving us and for fighting our battles for us. I sure thank You for helping me win today, and for You teaching me to be still and rest in you which allows You to fight for me. Thank You, Lord, thank You. Lord, the battles have been intense since You really started talking and telling people what’s up, please send the angels before us to handle all of this. Forgive us were we have sinned against You and ourselves. Give us strength and the stamina to walk all of this out. Lord, renew our minds, guard our thoughts. No weapon formed against us will prosper!! I cancel every plots plans and schemes the enemy has devised against us. Lord, help us over the next few days and kick all fear out. Some of us have been having an identity crisis about who we are through You, help us Lord, and show us what our mandate and ministry is to consist of. Thank You Lord. Thank You Lord, I seal this word in Your blood. I ask the angels to go before it and not a word of it fall to the ground. Thank You Father. In Jesus name- amen

I have come to learn that God is everything I will ever need no matter the situation or circumstance. He has taught me so much that I want everyone to learn as I do. I feel like I keep saying that but it is true. I also do not want your blood on my hands. I have come to learn that obedience is how I keep your blood off my hands. If God has someone that needs to hear your story He is going to send them your way. The way to keep their blood off of your hands and know they hear the gospel is to tell them. Ezk. 33. God has to be very blunt with me and this is how He gets it done. He will take me to scripture that means something to me at that moment, or my now.

Now literally means now. For another definition it means your present moment, whatever you find yourself in at this second is your now. Now is the adverb of time. I am not teaching an English class but I want everyone to grasp the understanding of our time versus eternity. God is an eternal God bringing things into the now, or our time. We know God knew the end at the beginning making Him eternal. We have an instruction manual, the Bible, we just do not know it the way we should. It will take a lifetime to grasp all of it if we do then. We know that scripture is God breathed and this is why and how it can come to life for us. John 6:63 says that His words are walking. This means they are spirit and alive. Since the Word of God is alive and we were made in His image and likeness our words are walking too. This is why He has been on us to shut our mouths unless it is teaching, exhorting, loving, or Him speaking through us. When He tells us to do or say something it does not mean do it later. It means do it right now! Delayed obedience is still disobedience. When we are disobedient we have love problems. We need to check our love for Him. Our obedience creates trust and He wants us to trust Him more than we could ever trust ourselves. Often times we put our trust in man and we are let down by this experience. So, why do we ever wait to trust Him the most and ask Him if we need to trust another person? Prov 3.

We need to ask Him about everything. Like He has taught us; when we ask Him we give Him access to our lives and this allows Him to move freely. When He tells us to move we need to go with Him because He has already set the angels to work. They will go before us and work it out. When God told Joshua to go to war for the Israelite’s to go into the promised land He had already delivered the people into his hands because of his obedience. Joshua had to act then, or his now, for this to occur. Our obedience and relationship with the Holy Spirit is what will create that bond. That bond results in mass amounts of love for our God and His Kingdom. It is about to be imperative for us to move with the Holy Spirit and at His speed. I am not sure what all is about to occur but I am sure that God has it taken care of, it is just time for us to get in line and understand our now!

God wants to be our first, our middle and our last. He is supposed to be and this is why He created us; for fellowship. When we grieve the Holy Spirit, (Eph 4) we come out of fellowship and repentance is needed. I hope people have realized He is giving us the keys to pure hearts and amazing fellowship with Him through these writings and teachings. I have learned that when I cannot feel Him I need to repent and ask Him to show me where I went wrong and help me fix it.

Father, thank You for today. thank You for creating a clean heart in us. show us where we are off and help us fix it. we repent of our sins and ask You to teach us to have a better relationship with You and with people. let us not be offensive to anything coming at us. we cancel every plot, plan, and scheme coming at us from the enemy and his cohorts. Lord, we will move with You and at Your pace. Give us the stamina to walk it out and to go out with You and for You. we love You Lord. Send the angels out before us and let them guide, protect and put us in your will. In Jesus name – Amen.

Get in His Word.. if you do not know where to start get in the book of Proverbs. There is one for every day of the month and we all need the spirit of Wisdom as our sister! Have a beautifully blessed day!

God has really been on me about who I am through Him and I want everyone else to start the conversation and thoughts about this. God does not show favorites so everything you have seen Him do for someone else He wants to do the same things for you but we gotta get outta His way. We also have to move with Him and do what He says. When we do not obey at that second we are being disobedient and costing ourselves blessing. He wants our full attention and obedience, as well as compliance with the Holy Spirit.

Our consciousness about who God is is also important. He wants to be our everything and for us to trust in Him. We have been so stuck in religion we have forgotten to take everything He says and to take Him at His Word, He is a literal guy. We have also forgotten about putting our angels to work as if they do not exist and we have to stop that. When we pray God’s Word we put our angels to work and God’s Word does not return void and needs to be in us and in our mouths. This is something He has really been teaching me. When we search the scriptures we find verses for healing, prosperity, provision, faith, love, trust.. etc and we need to use these as they are needed.

When we talk to God we are giving Him complete access to our lives. He wants to be one with us and in order for Him to do that we have to trust Him. We also must talk to Him. This is why the Bible tells us to pray without ceasing. When He is your first conversation He can take care of everything you are facing and place His peace around you. Speaking to Him gives Him access to your life. God is the perfect gentleman and will not ever come on the scene without permission. I cannot make it through the day now without Him. He did this to me and wants to do it to everyone. It is TIME! I cannot stress this enough because of what is coming to the earth. People that do not surround themselves with the Word of God and KNOW it are about to be duped. There is already a lot of evil in our world and it is about to get worse. We need to prepare for the coming times.

When we pray God’s Word over ourselves and into the world we give the angels access to our lives and we are actually putting them to work. When we say “I am sick” we give a spirit of infirmity permission to work around us. So, instead we must start claiming healing. I have some allergy issues and I have had to start talking to my body telling it “Jesus died for this and you have no legal right inside my body and must go!” Does it sound a little strange? Yep, did to me at first but now I get it. I want everyone to understand we live in a spoken universe and our words are walking. John 6:63. I believe this is why I got the shut-up ministry and I find that simply hilarious now.

In order to begin praying God’s Word over you, you gotta be in the Word. Knowing He is the great I Am and He is everything we need at that moment in time is imperative to our well being; mentally and physically. When we see a person’s name, you, thou.. we gotta know we can insert our names that He does not show favorites. Every promise in the Bible is for you!! Use them!

We have limited God and ourselves because of our our though process. We must believe everything in His Word and renew our minds about this every single day! God is raising up a generation to walk in authority and to allow people to see what His original mandate means! There are some folks we would never expect to walk in miracles, signs and wonders. We cannot put limits on a limitless God. I mean… He parted the Red Sea! He is about to recreate the anointing of Jesus but we gotta pay attention. None of these people that work on team God will claim to be anything because we know we are not. We know that our Father and us are one but our Father is greater than us. This is why our thinking must be right. This is why the heart must be right because some will become prophets for profit. There is some sketchy stuff coming and the heart must be right and for God. All trust must be in Him alone and not of ourselves! We were just in a reset which allowed Him to move people closer to Him and it is time to ask Him what your mandate (job) is with Him in order for you to walk into your calling. I will tell you this is not the way I saw the blog being written this morning but I know that I trust God and whatever He wants out there I yield to Him. He has had to teach me how to do that so I know He will teach you as well. He is trying to prepare us for what all is about to happen. We must know Him, trust Him and have crazy faith in this season. I am not sure what all is about to happen but I am excited that He is allowing us to see it. We are living history right now and we are His historians.

satan is gonna come hard but that only means you comeback harder on what God has shown you. When he comes at you hard it is because he knows you are a problem for his plans. Kick his ass! he is my only enemy and I am severely pissed off at him. he tried to kill me the night I died by coming at me. When I say everything in the Word of God is true believe me! Stand on the promises of God. If you do not journal I highly recommend you start that is a legal contract between you and the Lord. I will start writing here three days a week; Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.

Father, thank You for all that you do for us. Thank You for Your love, Your forgiveness and Your grace. Lord, we ask for fresh oil every morning. We know that You will supply our every need, help us put all of our trust in You. Teach us to move at the speed of the Holy Spirit and to walk in Your original mandate. Teach us to minister to others and to really make it easy to understand so everyone will want to know more of You. Lord, teach us what to say and when to say it. Bind our tongues so nothing that doesn’t glorify You comes out of us. Show us things before they happen and kick our everything in us that is not of You. We know that You are the only answer and we seek You my Lord. Thank You for being so amazing. You have our hearts. We stand in the gap for our children, our grandchildren, our godchildren and we ask for forgiveness for them. For You to show them what they need to forgive and Lord, help them forgive without prejudice. remove us from all evil and teach us how to love as You do. We thank You Father. Increase our faith in You and move us from all sin. In Jesus mighty name we pray, amen!