Be Still & Shut up

Daddy has been telling me for over a year that He was going to take the music industry and hit Nashville … looks like that has started with the new Jason Aldean song “try that in a small town”. If He hadn’t of told me that I’d wonder what all the ruckus was about …. It’s a take down and take over!

Being from a small town I like the song! Some people don’t know what goes on in bigger cities bc they’ve never left their backyard and bc the ones that go into these cities won’t do it in a small town we do take care of our own! I don’t know why this song is upsetting so many….

Today is 13 weeks and my assignment here is over. I’m still waiting on my package but I handed the territory over to my girl tonight. That means I won’t be here much longer. Still tracking that package haha prolly overly tracking lol I can’t help but laugh at that bc He told me He’s giving instructions when the package arrives… so, when I say overly track I mean it haha I want my next and my instructions for it. I’m ready to be rescued, haha, I laugh at that too bc there is like a fairytale playing out that is my life now. Haha I can’t even! I’m so excited. Daddy has made me for this, for all of it and I deserve every bit of it. Please, please know you do too. And, He has so much more planned for us than we could ever think or imagine. Eph 3:20.

I’m so ready bc the stuff I’ve prepared my family for proves He is with me and that this isn’t me. Steps are about to be misunderstood for so many in this next season. You might wanna go right but if it’s a left you’re gonna go left and He is why … you are the observer He’s running this show from now on hahah I think that’s so funny!
I’m down! I’m down for the ride. Show me! You’ve shown me everything else hahah might as well go all in …. Hahaha I sound like You now! Hahah I jumped and didn’t have any water in the pool. I trust You. And I trust you my daughter. 😭😭 not laughing anymore. That made me ugly cry. I love Him so much.

I’ve had to give Him a few more yeses the last few days. I’ll always say yes, always. There is no other way. I agree to anyway You want to use me. I’m ready for You to turn my mess into a message. I want my life to be a walking testament to who You are and what You can do!! I want everyone to know You like I do.

I found a trigger today and I called it out. I can’t stand to be called crazy. I am crazy and I call myself that but I know my crazy. I also know the crazy the world calls us. I didn’t like that at all. Your unbelief and ignorance doesn’t make it any less true. I didn’t call you ignorant but am speaking about all of our ignorance, we haven’t known. He is teaching us. Don’t be hating who He sends the message through. Some people will fall a test bc of them still judging the outward appearance.

I understand. He told me I’d know my husband by his spirit and I do. I don’t know this man but his spirit and I have been courting in the spiritual realm hahah sounds nuts huh?! Haha but we have been for 4 years and I’ve fallen in love with a person I don’t know. I Am ready and prepared. it’s crazy how the Lord had my body fall in love with this man before he’s present to me. He knows me so well. He told me so I would have no confusion and wouldn’t fall for a counterfeit. When He told me I married him right then and have been faithful. I coulda went out but I didn’t. I coulda had sex but didn’t. I coulda done a lot but didn’t. I had 3 marriage proposals haha but I’m taken and married to another. I’ve stood my ground in the spirit for this person too. As I have elevated hes had to. We are one. Thanks for this! Thank You for the man You’ve sent me. Thanks!

She truly warred for this, we know her whole heart is in it. Of course it is! I’m marrying You in a little you haha.
I do love this and praise You for all of it now.

Thanks Daddy, thanks! I’m going to get some food. Laila tov

compassion
kəm-păsh′ən
noun
Deep awareness of the suffering of another accompanied by the wish to relieve it. synonym: pity.
Literally, a suffering with another; hence, a feeling of sorrow or pity excited by the sufferings or misfortunes of another; sympathy; commiseration; pity.

I saw this in myself this morning. The type of compassion that heals them all. Hallelujah!

And when Jesus went out He saw a great multitude; and He was moved with compassion for them, and healed their sick. Matt 14:14

I was sitting on the balcony this morning having coffee when one of the neighbors could barely make it down the stairs due to pain. I saw the back brace and my heart was moved with compassion. I had to wear one of those for over a year and then multiple times on this journey due to pain. When I saw this person I started to pray and command healing then I went down and asked them if I could pray for them, and touch them. Told them some of my story and that I understand the pain, too much understanding tbh. I started to cry when I put my hand on them. Oh how I remember not being able to walk without pain… hurt my heart. When I finished a lady said the MS is gone, your touch worked on me 🙌. That’s the anointing not me but I did endure so I could become the healer He has entrusted me to be. The MS is gone! I touched her a few weeks ago … and He healed her. Now she knows there can be no other way when it comes to her husband. This is just fabulous!

Faith is a force to be reckoned with and this is not based on anyone’s faith but my own. A knowing. A knowing that everything He has healed me of I’m anointed to heal. 🙌 Hallelujah, Thank You Daddy, Yeshua and Ruach.

I asked for His heart towards His people and His compassion… He delivered and I saw that this morning. This was a new level of boldness for me bc I don’t usually go running down stairs to pray over someone. I pray but this time I made sure to touch them. I’m a total introvert that He is making be an extrovert when I see something that needs to be done. Sonship! 🙌

I understand why Yeshua snuck away for alone time with Daddy bc I have to do this myself. Life and people and energy gets overwhelming. When I need a reset I run to the Father. I highly recommend running to Him, today! I still run into His arms like a little girl and cry cry cry. He is my safety net, the water in the pool, and my guardian … my saving grace. I would not ever want to do any of this without Him.

Being in limbo or the in between is not easy. I don’t know how any of this is going to play out but I’m totally excited to see and I’m truly enjoying the journey. How could I not? I’ve seen!

This morning I was in the box and there was another person in there with me. I fully expected it to be Yah when I zoomed up there, it was not. This time my husband was sitting in the box with me and I love that. I’m glad he’s figuring out who he is bc I don’t think he would have shown up in the box with me if he didn’t know.

Everyone wants a spouse and wants to be in kingdom marriages … let me warn you- this will be the most gruesome experience you’ve ever been put through. Not as bad as TBI or this move but it’s 3 on the list of hardships He’s had me overcome. It’s a ministry. It’s a calling. It’s a split like Adam and Eve. When you’re called to this it’s exhausting watching them live out their best worldly life …. It’s long suffering for sure and you cannot listen to the world or what they say. I would have walked away 2 years ago, I’ve known for 4, if He hadn’t of kept reassuring me and giving me confirmation. Sometimes it was from my husbands mouth I got that confirmation and I’m positive he had no idea at the time.… I did! Verbatim what Yah had already told me. Not easy and if I had listened to all this relationship advice so many people try to give I would have been like thats a double red flag, time to go! I have tried, I promise, but I can’t. the calling is bigger than me. I’ve cut cords, broken any tie I have to him and then I watch as Yah knits us back together… can’t get away if it’s a calling.

I tried tracking my package this morning and no new information… it’s just moving through the network. I feel like I’m catching waves, even felt a little sea sick and I’m in the mountains so that is hardly the case, it’s spiritual. It’s waves in the spirit pushing me to the shoreline. It’s been a little bumpy but He told me it would be.

I’ve been up at 2 for the last 3 days. That’s 3 southern time and up until 5 which is 6 there and that is the 4th watch. I’m ok with the reset on the time. I’m ready to go home! I’m ready to go to my home …. I’m ready for my promise land and for me to come out of the wilderness in the natural like You said. I come before You and petition You for the promises. You said Daddy and I agreed to Your will not mine. Be it unto me as You have spoken. Show me how good this life can be. Show me! Thanks for being with me. I appreciate You so very much!

Some days are so much better than others. I feel everything today. I feel me having to love and hug in the spirit. I miss my grands! He just reminded me of us hanging out at night in our dreams. They know I’m there and I love that. I’ve never been away from my kids this long. Surly not the grands. This is a first and I miss them terribly. This time is much easier bc Holy Spirit comforts me and loves on me and makes me better. When I was on assignment before I’d stack 8 days in a row in the middle of my assignment and go on vacation with my kids for a week. There wasn’t any of that this time. This was Him finishing me off. The wilderness teaches things that no other experience can. I trust Him. I have to. He is my everything and I don’t have a choice in this matter. I got to come back for my babies and their babies and I will make it count! I owe Him my very life and freely give it. I agree to everything You want from this vessel, Yeshua, anything. I will do whatever He says so His blessings fall down 1000 generations below me. Is it hard? Sometimes… I’m gonna be honest and there is insanity in obedience. If insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results … we’re insane! To this world we are. Do you know how often I do the exact same thing or say the same thing and see different things? Each time! I’m so honored! So honored!

I do miss them and my heart cries for them. I’m strong though, even in a moment of weakness I am strong! This gave me some kinds of strength. I’m in my flesh today as a test hahah I feel it and I know it bc I truly know I’m with everyone and that they are with me. I want to physically put my arms around them. However, I’m not falling for the illusion of separation. I’m not separated with them so I don’t miss them. Not usually. Bc usually I’m in the spirit. I’m not sure why I’m down here in my flesh today. He must me gonna deliver me from something else haha Praise The Lord Praise The Lord Praise The Lord I receive!! I receive any deliverance left for the body and will impart. Thank You bc it’s time! It’s time! 😭 laughing to crying. Yep it’s deliverance and total take over of the flesh. That is hilarious 😂🤣 He has me fasting too hahaha I can’t with Him sometimes.

It takes me sitting down and talking to Him and writing it out to figure this all out. Thos was quick. Accelerated season and I can see that. when I first started journaling I was writing prayers. I like going back and seeing what He did and how each one were answered. I was pouring out my heart and healing. I was writing therapy letters. I was writing burn letters. I was getting it out of me. This worked for me so I recommend everyone try it. You’ll find yourself writing with the Lord. The scribe anointing. Pick up your pen and tell your story. Start somewhere and don’t despise small beginnings. We thank Him for this and for our time in the wilderness learning to operate as a son! Hallelujah!! Nobody will ever understand what that just did! Sonship! I made it! Slaves don’t know what the master is doing. Friends are told before hand. Disciples are learning. Sons just do! They just do. I just went from laughing and celebrating to crying deep in my heart, deep. I’m so deeply grateful I get to be apart of this. I’m so proud of us for making it here. It was a fight. There has opposition this whole way hahah but not anymore! I’m taking over. I know who I am and we are gonna run this joint from the inside. I say what I hear the Father say and I do what I see Him do 😭😭😭 oh my heart. We did it. You should be proud of yourself. I am. I am. Thanks! Thank You for loving me. If They will still choose me and I didn’t mess up too bad I can promise you that you haven’t either.

It’s easy going back to Him. People wanna make it long and drawn out or hard but it’s easy. I threw my hands up and said I’m done! I quit! unless you take over I’m done! I want to come home! I’m over this whole thing and He stepped in. The calling on our lives is much bigger than us. TBI had me so suicidal.. I understand it now where I never did before and it angered me. It took me fighting it to understand it. I have been in their shoes. I could have never said that before. The situations I was in made me so compassionate bc idk if I was or not. Idk but she couldn’t have been too bad she was a nurse. She couldn’t be today with her weak stomach hahaha guys but true. True. I love everyone, everyone is me. That revelation got me …

These flesh suits are just the vessel He chose. It is no longer I that live but Him that lives through me. He wanted to take a drive this morning and He did. I was there for the ride. It’s actually pretty cool. He’s told me that some peoples steps are about to be misunderstood by many, possibly even yourself. That’s Him moving us into alignment 🤣😂 do your thang!

You’re about to see some of His kids take flight. The jets are taking off – the pic the other day I put up on Facebook. haha I can remember It was 4 years ago when I threw my hands up. He totally stepped in! My God my God thank You for saving me! I love You! Thank You!!

I can’t stay down or in my flesh for long and I praise Him for that.

I expect quicker healings. I expect miracles. I expect breakthrough. I expect and am in expectancy mode. Oh that’s wonderful bc she knows it’s here! Oh this is fabulous. Let’s get this party started! And in the feminine energy – receiving mode. It took so much for Him to get me here. Breaking out of survivor mode where the masculine energy dominates was hard!! The male in me had to be healed. Thank You for healing both energies and for them working together. Thank you for teaching me about this and healing me. I praise You!

I have seen 1010, 1111, 1212, and 777 today I know what a lot of those mean. 10 is whole. 11 is transition and I feel this. 12 is perfect. 7 is whole thank You for making this a perfect transition to wholeness. No more separation!! Hey! Welcome to a new day! Haha thank You!
Wow. We are really leaving here hahah I know and if I’m being honest I know but I’m always like wow it’s happening .. ok let’s go
I’m a vessel being used for this assignment and I do love that it is truly no longer me but Him. I’m so excited to see how this plays out. Hahah

Yay! Go Daddy! We did it! Thanks! Thank You! My God I love You so much!

I feel like I’m in labor again in the spirit. I’m bout ready for a stat c-section or something… this has been going on for about a month lol off and on I guess like Braxton hicks. That’s so funny. I can’t even with this! We’ve been pregnant in the spirit with purpose and it is being birthed. We are birthing nations. Well, are we about done? Truly; I’m strong! I’m strong! I’m strong! She laughed. She got it. Thanks!! I couldn’t do this wo you! Thank You! Thanks for holding my hand. I think I’m gonna meditate.
Thank You for being patient with me. Thank You!

Part of me feels a new level of crazy hahaha I can feel Him fixing a neural pathway in my brain. He’s been in my brain and in my heart since I’ve been sitting her writing this.

Thank You Daddy for all Your goodness to me. Thank You for being the promise keeper and for delivering us from all our fears. Fear is an illusion and there is nothing except love here. a take over! Amen! Amen! Amen!

Oh, I can see so many people’s growth. I see them waking up and coming out of their shell and knowing who they are in You and it’s great. wake up wake up wake up! Meditation time!

75-85 degrees is good weather. Speaking of the weather everywhere is 75-85… my territories anyway and that is way cool!

So, last night I went to town and saw gas had went up. That made me so mad! I went in the spirit and started canceling stuff. I’m ready for my next, there is no more delay and when I say mad I mean mad! How dare the enemy try again! Mad! I started canceling and commanding. There can be no other way. This is what the Lord said. After that I was mad at the heat bc I have not slept good here the last few nights bc it’s been hot! The thing about the west is there isn’t central air and there is not an ac unit in the bedroom. I made a pallet in the living room floor and slept there for a bit. I set the temp to 75-85 across the board and not 20 mins later a front blew in and took us to 77 … it’s 69 now. I got my front and still didn’t sleep good haha had nothing to do with the heat but I’ve been up praying.

Front porch evening talks are the best. I sit here and teach and preach … mainly to myself and I told them that last night. Y’all know I‘m preaching to myself, right? I’m learning and catching revelations, too.

I was asked about praying and explained we pray down. I used the weather right then and prayed it through commanding rain. Then, I said well, the command is out that when the ground asks for rain it gets it so it should rain here bc I see the grass … it rained; exceeds my expectations! I knew we needed rain and that it would when the ground asked and it did. The temps really exceed my expectations.

This is amazing!

He’s helped me with the weather by showing me demons over the portals that control the winds and rains etc. I removed the demons from the portals and took over. This power is wow!! Being in the knowing is different … nesbitt last night is exactly what I needed. Thank you! She confirmed some things and helped me have the revelation of what is happening now and what You’re showing me. Thanks! Thank You! I love Y’all so much!

We are one. I only say what I hear the Father say. I only do what the Father does. His mind is my mind. Thank You so much!

I’ll be really glad when my package arrives. I can feel it inside me that the next is close. Like really close.