So I will never forget

Today I have been reading all day. It seems rather daunting at times doing nothing but reading. I did not even get out of my pajamas today because there were three books I had to finish. I am on the last one and it is a Kathryn Kuhlman book. I have been told to study her and Smith Wigglesworth because God has told me I will pick up where they left off. I am bawling coming out about that. I am so grateful. I do believe in miracles… mainly because I am one. I had never heard of these people until Jesus told me to learn about their ministries. I wasn’t raised in this environment and had no knowledge of either of them.

While I was reading these testimonies from these families that were healed I was crying, just nonstop crying. ALL WERE HEALED by Jesus and there were so many healed at these healing Svs. I began to tell Jesus I would give up everything He promised me in order for all of His people to be healed. You see, this was an important thing for me because I used to be selfish. I was! I would give it all up. He said, “you know you dont have to, right, kid?” I told Him I did know He was not that way but with my own free will I would. I would give it all up, the marriage coming, the homes, the businesses, the books.. all of it. And I would. I would give it all up to do His will. I want what God wants. What He wanted more than anything was for my character to be like His. He did it! He gave me a new heart and baptized me with His Spirit. He did it! He did it! He gave me His heart for His people. I am laughing now, at myself, because it sure took me long enough to get here. The heart of a healer. Oh, how I love Him. He is telling me I am ready now for all of it. ALL OF IT!!

It is 5:55 pm as I write this. This morning He was talking to me about numbers. The grace to heal. The heart to heal. HE DID IT!! I am so excited for God and since we all know He did this to me He can and wants to do it for everyone. He wants everyone healed, trust me on this. He does! If He didnt I wouldn’t be sitting here writing this. I wouldn’t be able to go skating with my grands. My neck was broken so badly there is a cage holding it together. I had to have another surgery four years after my wreck, I woke up paralyzed again. I have been skating several times with my babies. I have ran at the airport. I can kick-box again. I never thought I would be able to do these things again. In fact I was told I wouldnt be able to. Doctors and nurses do not know it all but Jesus does. As a nurse all of this was so hard for me to fathom. I have rocked babies while they were dying. If I had only knew then what I know now. I would have never lost a patient. I get that forgetting the past is difficult but it is part of moving into the new beginning God has planned for all of us.

As I sit and write this I get a text from a friend of a beautiful sunset. God is perfecting so many masterpieces. He is the best artist I have ever known. He is rewriting so many of our stories and I love that about HIm. Wont you let Him rewrite you? His love is the best thing I have ever experienced. I cannot even begin to put it into words. I am always in a good mood and get asked, are you always like this? Umm, yes, and full of energy. Sitting down to read three books today almost made me depressed haha I would rather be out and about talking, teaching, praying and healing. January and the beginning of this month reminds of me when I was writing my thesis.. those were not fun times haha but I do love learning about Jesus and His employees. I am so glad I finished the books. Whatever He tells you to do just do it. I cannot stress this enough.