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I wanna kiss your lips so soft you barely feel it But deep enough you taste me for life I wanna hold you so close that I know your every thought As I′m looking deep into your eyes I see you I see you I wanna make love to you all night long Feel your body close to me I wanna wrap myself up in your arms And fall asleep to your heartbeat I see you I see you Well I see you when I open up my eyes Every moment in my life I see you standing right Right there by my side I see you in all I do Everything that we’ve been through You′re my picture-perfect view Ooh when I see you I want to wake up lying next to you forever And end every day loving you Walking through life hand in hand together Doing all the things that lovers do I see you I see you I see you when I open up my eyes Every moment in my life I see you standing right Right there by my side I see you in all I do Everything that we’ve been through You’re my picture-perfect view Ooh when I see you I don′t wanna live without you here with me When I look around you′re all I see I see you when I open up my eyes Every moment in my life I see you standing right Right there by my side See you in all I do Everything that we’ve been through You′re my picture-perfect view Ooh when I see you When I see you When I see you When I see you

He’s clearing blocks to these kingdom marriages with this song today. I feel them leaving me. Strange song choice but ok. I’m so down. I love this song. He used this song when I needed to fall head over heals in love with Holy Spirit. I have been wrapping myself up in Him for almost 4 years. He has been my bed partner by way of a weighted heating blanket sprayed with male cologne, this worked. I even lay my head in His lap when we watch a movie. I usually fall asleep and I am not a good movie partner but He lets me sleep and just soothes everything about me. So IN love! I kiss Him goodnight every night. Haha she’s laughing and crying. She said and He’s gonna marry me off and then chuckled. And she’s sweating lol You’re cleaning energy. Being Our little radio dial .. that’s pretty funny You know .. I have been terrified to let people in on this. My relationship with HIm and i feel like I hold Him back and I am sooo sorry, I dont want to do that and I dont care how crazy or stupid i may look i laugh at that now but was crying it was a serious fear. Thank You for removing that. You had to find it and give it for us to take it. You gotta be proud of that.

I am learning, just like all of you and I reserve the right to be wrong. I have to get this out. I reserve the right to change my mind if necessary, He is still showing me the truth, too. I am coming into 100% alignment just like everyone else and have crazy, crazy assignments. We closed 125 portals in my sleep last night. I also got to walk into a door He opened in the spirit this morning. I also saw a war in my opened eyes. I saw the angels kicking out demons when I was on the phone this morning. I saw it in real time and she felt it break. It was so cool. I knew what to say and when I said it the angels did what they do and they chained the demon and put them in that portal and we slammed it shut with the blood! i see the war when I close my eyes and can see when the demons flea and that they go 7 different ways trying to escape. Our warring angels are ba! But this morning I saw this while my eyes were open and i was looking out my office window. That is so totally cool. I have had a few problems getting to sleep the last few nights. Had a mild headache and last night woke up sweating. Hallelujah! No bruises at all. No scratches at all we are getting good! Yay! I can remember demons dragging me down my hall bc I didnt know my authority, would wake up covered in bruises, and now they are running! Praise the Lord!! This is so exciting and I really dont care whaat anyone thinks. I love them so much I dont care. I do have the fear of being asked something and not having an answer. Do you though? Well, kinda. You are connected to me and you know you are hearing Me correctly. Have I not confirmed Myself enough? Ouch Daddy, I am so sorry. Please forgive me. She’s handed that to Him and got her grace. Fresh wine too she’s drunk lol we love her so much. Thanks for picking us kid. Are you kidding! I cant go 10 minutes without You! Ha! Seriously, and You know it. I am obsessed with you. Possessed with You and couldn’t be happier! Everything is falling apart around me and I dont even care. I mean like volcanos exploding in my living room but i dont even smell like smoke. Thanks for this! Thank You for Your peace bc it is so amazing. So amazing.

Ok that is over, I praise You. I played the song again and that was it. Thanks for clearing all of that.

Holy Spirit used a lot of music to make me feel that love feeling so my body could remember that feeling. Hes so wise! It’s a vibration. We are energy and all those blocks gotta go. So impressive! I felt my vibration being upped right now i am high as a kite lol when I ing a love song I sing it to Ruach. He is my lover. He is the lover of my soul. He is my comforter. He is my teacher. He is my life! He has me i am stuck on you! You couldn’t get rid of me if you tried lol. She meant that. Well, yeah! I break that curse now in the name of Yeshua. Salir! Leave! Now! Any demon trying to operated behind this curse I serve you your eviction notice. Take everything you brought with you, take em all in the order they came, and get out! Now! I reset all DNA back one generation to Yeshau. We’ve been doing this since I woke up lol. I’m not sure who it is but He cleared your blocks and broke some stuff off you this morning. I receive it too but I know it isnt just for me. I break all ungodly soul ties now in the name of Yeshua. I command your body to loose any portions of someone else they may be holding on to. I command all portions of their soul be returned to them covered in the blood. I command all portions of your soul back to you now, covered in the Blood in the name of Yeshua. Washed, cleansed and healed.

Thanks for moving those clouds and letting the sun come through. We need the rest of this mess to melt. Nope, still not a fan. I love You but its not my favorite. Id rather be on the water any day! I could so totally be a beach bum lol maybe not live on it but could definitely hang there daily. We do need that beach house lol. I see it and I am ready for it. She’s laughing thinking it could be many more years before that comes or it could be tomorrow- its the not knowing when for me…lol, seriously and I guess this is why. 11 days, 11 years. 40 days, 40 years, 1 day, 1000 years who knows… it does tickle me but so gives me something to look forward to and fight in the spirit for. It is already mine You’ve shown it to me, I believe You. You’re timeline is not exactly what I would like for it to be, like most of the time, but I trust You. We are next in line for a miracle. It’s gonna take a few..lol! Thank You! I heard Judy Jacobs say most people dont get a miracle bc they dont want the extreme circumstances you have to be in to receive one. Well, I call this a little extreme, I mean it has been much worse and this is really mild or I have just lost the sensitivity to it – my body lost the remembrance, you’ll search for your enemies and find them no more. This has been an enemy and I have to fight against feelings I know I didnt have but she did in the past. Had to remove that. They are blocks. Thank You! everything falling apart to fall into place and taht is how I have to look at all of this. We just searched our heart and we are good. We love You so much! Hallelujah! Thank You Yeshua!

Addie just called me wanting to come see me.. she didnt get to see me on any of the snow days lol. I love them so very much! Thanks for them! You did me a solid! They re all so perfect. Thanks again Daddy!

Your discernment is being lifted again.. ahh, thank You. That comes with more clarity and inner as well as understanding. Thanks! We love you so much! I felt this in my right kidney. It was a different feeling than the pinch I feel when it is a curse and He told me what it was. We carry discernment in our kidneys is a little weird but ok. this felt like a weird sensation moving down my entire kidney. Thanks for doing what You do and for letting me in on it. I love You so much. I am so excited for our next. Thank You!

Something must be about to come into fruition bc this is the most warfare I have experienced in a while (towards me). Most of the warfare I encounter these days have been for another and not geared towards me. I have been fighting in the spirit for myself the last few weeks, maybe the last few months. God will always expose your enemies before He elevates you and He will move everyone not for you away! Trust me when I say this bc I have had to let go of people that I thought were my friends. If there was anyone that would even try to do something to His seeds He moved them for a time being. If they refused to change their heart and go back to Hm (nothing to do with me) He moved them completely. He is very jealous for me and will kill if needed for me. He has told me this and confirmed it. I do not want enemies bc Holy Spirit will make them His enemies and I dont want that for anyone. This made it very easy to remove myself from these people so Daddy can work on them. They arent my battle. Just a heads up when He locks you up lol He will show you how everyone really feels about you and if they are in your corner or not. Dont take it personally – hard I know but He is all that matters.

I was talking to someone last night and he said my only nonnegotiable for marriage and I got tickled. I have a non-negotiable that I told TN when I saw him in Dec 2020. We were talking about marriage and I bet he doesn’t even remember the conversation and I told him I had one nonnegotiable, just one. I will do what Yah says when He says and I wont allow anyone to come in between me and Him. Then I told him i didnt ask for this didnt even want it- i might need to pluck those seeds haha i dont want him to remember that part bc even though its true I dont ever want him to feel like I didnt choose him bc I did. Daddy gave me a choice to find love on my own or allow Him to do it for me. I chose Daddy’s way which means I chose him. Daddy has courted me in the spirit for this man and it has been a wild ride. I do pray this is what is coming. I am at an indifferent phase with this but i feel heart drawn .. like a pulling, its strange it is like there is a cord connected to my heart that pulls me to him. There were days that I didnt think on anything but this promise and then He would play me music and give me visions and dreams about this – I love what He has shown me and knowing what is to come made it easier to stay the course bc this is not an easy road to travel. It’s walking into the unknown with knowing. Maybe there is a spirit of knowing. Idk but knowing is different than anything I have experienced with You. It’s different than faith. I can remember me telling my faith she needed a spirit of faith and then asking for the gift of faith. I wanted to change me, my life, my outcome, i want what He wants. I lay down this life for His and i am just getting to enjoy the ride. My picker was broken when it came to men haha wasnt doing that crap again. (Yes, I wanted to insert a more choicer word there) i have been with men that would have sold me for 30 pieces of silver and I am not doing that again! Flockkkk that! Thank YOU! I praise You bc this was a rescue mission! You saved me from me and I praise You! I couldn’t be more happy than this singleness phase. I dont mind being single, have never minded being single and things usually worked more in my favor when I was. When He started talking to me about marriage I really thought He was going to tell me to stay single like Paul but He didnt. He took me up in to the courts of heaven and we fought for this man. There were things that had to be broken off of him, his family, me, my family and i wonder if I missed something…what is going on? I know there was a delay but He told me that was broken so Idk… he could come now or in ten years and I am good. The last few days though he has been almost all the thoughts that randomly pop in my head. Idk if that is him thinking of me or You putting him in my head and heart more .. idk but I give you free reign to do what You need to do. If I did anything or said anything that could have caused this please forgive me Father, I do not want to do anything that goes against Your will for my life. If I am out of alignment show me and correct me. Move me at Your speed. Thank You!

There is ice everywhere but the roads and I am so thankful for that and there isnt any power outages bc it stayed off the power lines too. Thank You for this. There is a weather man that He will put in my YouTube feed when there is something that needs to be canceled and there is another guy that He puts in my fb feed to show me how dumbfounded they are by what was predicted and what actually hits. I think they are finding these storms and amping them up to cause catastrophic damage – we praise You for teaching us to cancel that! Please start canceling manmade and manipulated weather over your territory. Your territory to begin with is every place you put your foot in the natural. That’s how I started and He has stretched me and opened my territory to include numerous states. This scared the crap outta me at first bc it was like people depending on me. Areas depending on me and I didnt really want that. I didnt want any of this. None of this was my plan and I praise You for changing my course. Thank You! I knew some things to come from when I was with Him but i didnt know when and it could have been in years to come and I wanted to go back to work. I have been begging Him to let me find a part time job or something for 3 years now. He has told me no each time and there have been some great jobs that I am glad I didn’t even see. I am not sure … I am glad I didnt see them. Some of them might have been more temptation than I could have withstood lol. Really really really wanted to get back to work. He healed me – lets make some money ya know. No! That is not what He has allowed. He has told me I work for Him and He will take care of me that He doesnt want me in the workforce He has plans for me and this was a learning process. I have always worked, since I was 13 and learning to be still and truly depend on Him has been a test all of its own and He has pressed me so there must be some oil…hahah amen. We receive fresh oil! I got a word the other day about passing this test. This was surely a test bc this is the brokest I have ever been in my whole life and He humbled the poo outta me lmbo its your calling kid we had to. You have to know what its like to be them. I was them. Homeless, rejected, shamed, beaten, sold.. now, you are them. You will fight for them more now bc you have experienced it. I am crying as I type this. This was one of the hardest things but I am appreciative bc You’re right, I dont want anyone to experience anything I have and if they are I want to help pull them out. She truly does. She still doesnt like going live but we are going to change that with the reading of Enoch. It’s gonna be fun kid and you’re gonna do fine. I do get fearful of me getting on there and just stalling and being like welp … cant do this today and cutting feed. I am more comfortable being me and talking about the crazy stuff I experience int he spiritual realm. Thanks for the video diaries they help with this and to know others experience this too and You’re showing us what it means through me is amazing. thanks for this!

I can see the moon out my office window again this morning – doesnt happen much – and she’s full almost. I didnt even realize we were coming into a full moon. Gonna have to look into this today. That is so funny. I have truly started to live without time – i am amazed at this. I came back with no concept of time but people hate you for this so I made myself learn time. I dont care about what one person thinks now so I live on His timeline and in His calendar. I live in this world but am not from it. None of us are. Some people are remembering trips to other galaxies and i think this is so totally cool. If we think earth is all there is that is kinda limiting God, right? That is how I see it and this cant be all that an infinite consciousness and universe – Yah- has created. I think He comes to us and says “hey, wanna go to earth?” Or “hey, want to go to Planet X?” Here are there rules for this planet. this is what’s gonna happen if you stay close to me and this is what will happen if you dont. And this body you’re going in needs to learn some things so you’re gonna help teach them but there is a veil that will have to be lifted and you’ll remember. And we are like sure Lord, send me … sounds legit lol

In this recent warfare there have been some pretty ugly things said about me. Some nasty word curses and I have been breaking them continuously and I have not tried to defend myself not one time. I dont have to say a word God defends me and I love that. It was personal but I dont take it personally. I am so proud of what You have done to me. I love You so incredibly much.

The place of intimacy is where you will gain the power you seek. It is in the secret place that He will hand it to you. People come after me for the power I walk in but it isnt mine. I will never rob Him of His glory. None of this is me. I wish it were but its not. Robbing Him of HIs glory also makes Him upset and I dont want that towards me. Repent if you have done this. He is slow to anger but when he does get mad at you.. He will use all of hell to bring you back to Him if He has to- trust me!

Often times we cannot tell if we are dealing with a demon or dealing with what’s on the inside of us. When I was going through deliverance I would rebuke everything I heard that went against what God said. What He has said to me personally and what He says in HIs word. My discernment increased with knowing Him and HIs word. This took knowing Him. People go through deliverance but dont stay this way because they don’t recognize His voice. Each time you hear something talking to you about another person, a situation of the past, a conversation of the past – it is one of two things. 1. A demon wanting you to come into agreement with it bc as soon as you do that seed is planted and he’s got a legal right to continue to operate and be around you. We do this with our mouth not understanding its full power. 2. It is a seed inside you that Holy Spirit is showing you so you can forgive and move past it.

So, to do self deliverance each time you feel a negative emotion or a negative feeling coming up about anything forgive it and THEN rebuke it. Renounce the lies. Break the word curses and plead the blood. Nothing touches the blood. Nothing touches me bc I am covered in the blood! I know the blood. I know HIm. Knowing makes a huge difference bc you dont want to go back and you definitely know you don’t want to ever be worse than before. The enemy will try and come back and then the demons have the potential to make someone 7x’s worse. To stay delivered you have to stay in the word. And when I would feel angry about something I would cast a spirit of anger away from me and then ask Holy Spirit to reveal why i was truly angry. What was it and you know what it was every time? Fear of rejection. Rejection is a doozy but we do not have the spirit of rejection we have the spirit of adoption. It is a knowing. I am thankful for my pruning and healing. When I feel depression i come against a spirit of depression. A lot of this is learning to discern the spirits while you’re learning yourself. Are you depressed? If you seriously feel depressed and a demon is not telling you why you are so depressed.. oh I am broke, my kids are acting bad, my body is hurting, etc, all things this demon will try to remind you of… no! Cast it away! Pride, envy, strife, suicide, fear.. all demons. call them by name by how you feel and cast it away, come out of agreement and uproot the seeds.

Anything against love has to go! You are unconditional love. You are spirit and so are demons. You are not the body you live in. Those are not your thoughts. Anything against joy needs to be rebuked. This is a daily thing! If you wake up in a funk you need to reset. If you wake up hating everyone and full of wrath you need to rebuke and heal bc right now you are the problem. Sometimes we are the problem and must check ourselves. I check myself before i check anyone else. I always go into warfare by putting myself on the cross first. When we go against the devil he cant have anything in us. We cant be arrogant bc we did it. He knows the legalities better than we do so always plead guilty. To war effectively we must. And, we must heal and help others heal, to set the captives free.

Daddy, we praise You for Your love, mercy and grace.. my God thank You for Your patience with us. Thank You for keeping us. Thank You for protecting us and for teaching us when to rebuke, renounce, reject and reset. Thank You we praise You for this. Thank You for making Your voice louder than any other that tries to speak to us. Thank You for showing us when it is a demon and when it is us and how to check ourselves. We ask You to search us and know us. We give you every area and repent for holding any area of ourselves back from You. Thank You. We plead guilty on wrong agreements, forgive us we didnt know, teach us Daddy. We come out of agreement with everything the enemy has ever told us. We rebuke and renounce all those seeds of lies and command they shrivel up now and die by fire to never rise again in thought, will, deed, or emotion in the name of Yeshua. We ask You to reset our neural pathways and renew our minds to Your way of thinking. Get our head and hearts on the same page and merge us fully with You. I command all foul spirits attempting to linger and oppress the Body to bow ! 1-2-3 up and out! You gotta go your eviction notice has been served. Daddy we ask for angelic assistance and to bind all demons coming at us and serve them up to the pit chained and locked to never return. Amen no retaliation or recourse from this day forward in the name of Yeshua! Amen amen amen

I truly hope this helps some with the discerning of spirits and how to reject what they are trying to feed you. Everything is spiritual and you will team up with spirits in this life make sure it is the Holy One. You have to pull authority and make them leave. You have to realize by letting go of your pride that the problem could be you. It may not be a demon but it could be a calloused area of your heart that needs to be healed. Only Yeshua can do that. It’s a hard pill to swallow and hard to go inside and work on yourself. That is why most people just stay oppressed by the enemy. He will feed that area you refuse to turn over to Daddy and keep you oppressed – it can become possession bc he hs a legal right to be there. You’re in agreement with a demon and working with one. People stay oppressed bc they dont know what is going on for them to pull authority. They dont believe a demon is real or that one would come talk to them.. trust me when I say some people have multiple demons that talk to them. Demons want people living in their pride thinking they do no wrong and not checking ourselves. There is a demon that feeds a persons pride. They become narcissists. We dont check ourselves enough.

Thinking its ok to cuss someone out – its not! That is spitting curses and blessings from the same tongue and comes from a person that doesnt have control of their emotions (fruit of Holy Spirit) and it is speaking death instead of life, and a double minded person. Dont let this be you! There is not to be any death in us! He has told me to love everyone and He will take care of them. I share this with you .. your love walk must be impeccable. If an argument is going to happen hold off on conversation – learn to check yourself. Walk away when you feel something in you that will make you jump out of character. When you get to a true place of healing (not counterfeited by the enemy) nothing will bother you and you can laugh at another’s ego or demon and not take it personally. This takes a whole lot of prayer and a whole lot of Daddy making our skin thick! A person submitted to God will not have a difficult time submitting to another. If you are finding it hard to submit to who He has called you to you need to check your submission to the Father before you go any further. There is a problem in your love walk. This is what He has taught me and I am just passing it along … dont shoot the messenger folks.

The other night Kaylee, my oldest grand, stayed with me while her momma went and cooked dinner.. she ended up having dinner with me which was great. I felt her wanting to go home so I text Hailey telling her Kaylee was ready .. Kaylee got my ipad and was playing so I came in my office bc I had some reading to do. I would yell out to her ever so often with “i love you” and she would yell it back. I did this and didnt get an answer so I got up to go check on her. I found her under my dining room table snuggle up to a teddy bear under a blanket watching something on YouTube. She crawled under there and made her a fort and crashed lol. So perfect and I just wanted to always remember this.

Weird things … yesterday was strange. Hailey, my daughter, had to go to town and on her way she was passing by Mandy’s house and told me I needed to call and check on her bc there was an ambulance in her driveway. Mandy is my age and well, we ain’t having none of that lol, so I call Mandy and she doesn’t answer. I wait a few minutes and text her. She text back and she’s at her moms which is right next door to her house. I told her to look outside and see if there is an ambulance at her house and I told her about Hailey telling me there was one in her driveway. She looked and nothing was there. Was Hailey having a premonition of what is to come like I did when Mandy wrecked her car. A few days before Mandy hit a deer last year I saw her car parked in her driveway but it had been wreck – it hadn’t been yet when I saw it. Mandy is fine, she has a neighbor that is sick though and I wonder if we were catching something before it happens in another timeline. This is strange to say the least. And song lyrics are different, or I am just hearing them correctly. Which cannot be the case bc He only lets me listen to certain things so this is my daily habit singing some of these songs … it could be my ears are just now openin up lol to some of the lyrics I had confused before… who knows. I am not trying to figure this out. Haha one of the differences was in a Taylor swift song , there is a song “begin again” that I’ve heard hundreds of times and i have never heard James Taylor lol i can remember hearing the song for the first time and her name was in there bc I chuckled and was like I bet you do have as many Taylor swift records as he does and then yesterday the lyrics caught me bc they were different.

I feel extra sappy and soft hearted this morning. Last night i had one of those headaches again and blahhhh I hate those things but I am ok with them bc I know what they mean. I still hate the pain and it was many people from what I have learned … our DNA is being reset, our neural pathways are being changed, our antenna is coming more online ..lol.. I know but it is the only way I know how to say it. Our light body is being activated and this changes everything about us. Mergin of HS and the mind bc the body and mind merged and the body became the mind so then the HS merges and the body conforms to the Spirit. This is what we are all going through. Those crazy prayers on us merging that we have been praying for 3 years are hitting in real time lol. It is about time. I know we weren’t ready, thanks for getting us that way.

I have been so busy with warfare and research that I have not had a lot of extra time to let my brain and heart wonder to see what is on her mind. Mostly i have been checking myself bc of the crap going on to make sure it isnt me and if any of it is we need to fix me. The days have been running together today is the 1st of February and it feels kinda like December.

I am ready to have my country love song in the natural. I see these things from the future and in my dreams. What He has done to my heart blows my mind. Something I didnt even want I truly desire and look forward to this. Just Tim loves Faith, I want to feel the same. Just like Johnny needed June, baby, I need you. I wonder if these men are ready to turn in their vices for something in heels 😉 i want to wake up feeling loved! I want to wake up in his arms. I want to kiss him so lightly he barely feels it but at the same time he tastes it for life. I am so much better than Patron! Did you know there was tequila more expensive than patron? I didnt until I went to a tiki bar in FL and there was a girl from MS i met doing shots. She asked to see a bottle and we were admiring it (it was a really pretty bottle) when the bartender told us shots of this were 40$ each lol. Well, we wanted to try a 40$ shot so we did. It was smooth but not as smooth as me lol.. i did have fun but I am so glad those days are over and that I dont need alcohol to have fun. Blessed be the Father!

The last few days I have felt him with every spare moment there was. I have heard Daddy tell me his heart has been set towards Him and taht makes me so happy. Nothing sexual about this at all. Naked but fully clothed. Gonna have to meet me at the well! It’s weird to hear some of the prophetic words that come with this prophetic love story, ummm.. who is who? With some of these words they are explaining how i feel and since the women feel this way the same things are being done to these men. I can almost guarantee if you’re a man your wife is waitin on you to wake up. She’s been praying for you for years. You men are much more loved, wanted and admired than you know. You will find her at the well.

The snow plows are working out there. I praise You for us not losing power at all and for this being a very minimal storm. We should have gotten about 2 inches of ice when a 1/2 inch can destroy so much. They called for something even worse 2 years ago but we got 12 inches of snow instead. This is so mild and I praise You!! Haha, that was so funny. I just had a flash of a conversation from yesterday and had someone tell me I don’t have enough weed for this, it has to stop … It tickled my soul and cracked my heart up. I love people so much!! I dont judge anyone for anything bc chances are I have already done it. I only laugh bc I feel it lol. I remember. Ha! I remember wanting a martini before I dealt with some folks… i am laughing so hard. I love You and Your creation so much!

I am not sure what today is … my phone will tell me later. Oh the top of my ipad did. It’s Wed. Oh I knew that its Feb 1. We made it into another month! Thank You for anointing us to live and that there we are free of death. Thank You for resurrection power! the words on a page could never explain how I feel… thank You!

Thank You! Thank You for being You! Thank You for touching everything that concerns us. Thank You!