Author: bestillshutup

I have no idea where I am at the moment. I mean i know where I am and all not in psychosis or anything but where are we? I know how that sounds but I feel like I am in the in between somewhere. Good things are happening and we are winning. He sent me a word yesterday telling me the stone made impact and that the giant was killed. After all the warfare lately I appreciated that more than most will ever realize. I have felt kinda in between worlds for a little while but this shift is different. I know how things work and I know who I am but where is the happy medium? Knowing how He formed the universe with the letters and seeing them go to work amazes me. It is so humbling I am sitting here crying as I type this. I can see the lets moving. I can see them shaping things. I can see! I can see the power in each spoken syllable. If we didnt forget would this world be as fun? As above so below. There is no poverty in heaven so it is not allowed on earth. There is no illness in heaven so it is not allowed here on earth.

My flesh is nervous. I feel her anxiety an idk why its there? Search us and show us… that shifted fast lol she was nervous but quickly got excited. She knows nothing bad is going to happen and that she is guarded on all sides and so are my people. I thank You so much for this. I see You! I see You answering me and performing so much that nobody knows. The weather has essentially tripped me out. I was letting it snow lol but canceled everything that would have caused an ice storm. If you arent from the south Arkansas has become notoriously known for ice storms. These are horrible and detrimental to our area. The power outages, the accidents, the elderly, the homeless, the whole environment…you get the idea, so we aren’t having any of that. Not one drop of ice on the power lines and you know what happened – NOT one drop of ice. I am ready to visit all of my territory again. Last year I stepped foot on each state He now has me covering, and I have one person in each state directing the weather lol. It started in arkansas and I carried a cloud with me all the way to NC and then dropped down and carried it down through the bottom states of the south – had a beautiful trip in FL and my cloud was still there and on the day I left FL it dumped and the rain followed me all the way back to Arkansas. That was a week long trip but such a great experience on canceling the heat wave and bringing the rain. It kinda made me feel like Elijah for a moment. When He showed me the cloud He gave me a flash of Elijahs servant looking for any signs of rain. Then He told me there it is – the cloud going with you. Amazed! He blows my mind. The salt trucks were out yesterday spraying before anything hit. I am so proud of the people currently running my little tri-county area. This is a rough area known for drugs – there is an A&E special on Forrest City- the biggest little drug town in America was the nickname. Sad truth and bc of the drugs the gang violence. It has gotten better. I have seen them have prayer meetings, prayer walks, and they are cleaning it up. Proud of them bc this took a lot of work. We have been praying to get here for 11 years. I volunteered and did city events up until my accident. Fun! It was fun! I got sidetracked huh lol. So, no ice and that is always a plus. The temp did go below freezing when I told it not to. We gonna have to correct this. I know there are angels controlling this bc You showed me and You also told me last night You were commanding angels and that now I would so what’s the deal here? It’s a cleansing – you have canceled the ice storm but the ground must freeze for a bit I told you to brace for the cold. Do You know I sound bat poo crazy lmbo. And you dont even cuss anymore, thanks bc You totally did that! It’s a snow day without snow. I’m ok with the snow if you dont mind but no rain please. The angels that zip up the rain clouds need to do that. Blow on it and turn it to snow something. So, last night I heard some sleet on my window and was like NO! I told you absolutely zero ice and it stopped. It’s a knowing. It’s a knowing. He’s told me I can control demons which I believed from the jump bc He gave me His authority but last night He told me I can dispatch angels and tell them what to do – kinda threw me back for a moment. It’s bc He showed me who He is that I believe Him. Straight facts! I have the belly button He needs and I freely give it to Him. This is some kind of power! Some kind of freaking power! My God! You have me awestruck! I am so in love with Him! He is a total trip! Wrecked me! Wrecked me in Your love! Thank You!

I do remember that and why I do not like ice storms. In her core memories there were a few that stand out. These things try to kill people. It took me 4 hours to drive 35 miles bc of the ice. I was working at Crittenden in WM when that happened. I can remember us not having one laboring patient – no patients in L&D that night- and at 0300 when the rain started I called the house super and asked to leave early. He came up to the unit and looked around and said go. I lived the furthest away. Took me 4 hours to get home and when I got there I couldn’t get my car up the drive and had to leave it on the curb. I had to take my shoes off and walk up the hill in my socks so they would have a tiny bit of traction, busted my butt and nope do not like that junk! At all! Gonna make a pot of red beans and rice today. Perfect weather and maybe watch some tv. Yesterday was a day full of warfare and fun! I see 2 timelines w this. My roads are clear but some are not. Weird for sure. I got a dusting … see why I ask where am I?! I’m riding w You and what I see doesn’t matter.

oh my so i saw something my daughters security cameras caught and then Daddy took me back to the Testament of Solomon and well, there is a spirit of dust. Remember when my kids yard was on fire – that is this demons job. No! I want that ring Solomon had that could trap demons. Kid, you are shutting them in portals that only you can open back up. Oh that is great news! Thanks! That might be better than a ring. Thank You! It is really time to start visiting these places and walking them and shutting down the portals. What you dont know is you have been. Each time you went demonic portals were closed – well, that is great news. The enemies camps are so confused lol. I love that! Like truly love that!

I am ready and i feel it is all coming so fast. Oh, so He told me to pack a bag that I was going on a trip yesterday and then I got a phone call with a plane ticket. Looks like we are in for a surprise and I love surprises! I LOVE trips too and He knows it. And I got a night layover in Denver!! Yay! Tell me that isnt my daddy I’ll get to see my baby Brudder and fam for 12 whole hours. That is part of my territory and we are going to take new on this trip. Let’s do it!

If you watch Alice in Wonderland, which I think you should, you will see so much about beating leviathan and getting your muchness back. Remembering who you are. She wasnt the wrong Alice she had just forgotten but when she remembered she slayed the jabberwocky- leviathan is what I saw when I watched. Had to pierce him with my light saber (as Hutch calls my sword, he saw its fire and he is 3 and said it was a light saber and I like that. I love children!! Hutch knows Gabriel and we talk about angels. we had a nerf fight yesterday while he was here. He didnt think he was going to have fun bc he had to go to the dentist and then he came here and we went to the farm (Haileys) bc she had a pig get out. Only my kid would be in a crack house on a Friday night rescuing a pig .. now this pig likes the streets is the joke bc it is always getting out and going to the road- seriously. I pulled authority on a pig but he was easy to get back in lol. Funny funny funny.. Hutch did have fun and we pray for a speedy recovery to his mouth) to get to Leviathan and puncture him I had to use scripture. Isaiah 27:1 SLAYED!! LOVE THIS! Hutch is the only one I have told about my dream on beating this demon. I get along with kids so much better than adults lol and love when they come to play. The dream was kinda like playing in a VR video game lol it was a trip! I was doing this as first person not as a player … it was cool and so is that light saber <big smiles>

So, since we normalizing portals and all id like to be able to throw them and open portals of heaven over regions. You know like Cisco on Flash.. If they can open demonic portals i can open portals from heaven. Amen! Let’s do that! Fun fun fun!

Thank You! Thank You for loving us and for teaching us to love ourselves. Thank You for helping us choose ourselves. Thank You for setting the captives free! We love You so much! Thank You for resurrecting Yourself in us! Dry bones! Hear the word of the Lord – come alive! Amen! I command your spirit to remember and to zig you to where you also know!!! Amen amen amen. Thank You for teaching us the authority we really have and how to use it. Thank You for giving us Your strength. Thank You for teaching us to walk with Your power, properly always and for the greater good of the collective not ourselves. Keep us humble Lord. Dont let us get out of step. Bring those straying back unto You. We give our angels full permission to trip us if we even thing about getting out of alignment. We move when You say move and we go where You say when You say! Amen! I cancel all manmade and manipulated weather now in the name of Yeshua. I command the angels to zip up the rain, not one drop of ice to the roads or power lines. I cancel all waves put out into the atmosphere to cause freezing rain now int he name of Yeshua. Dissipate and remove yourselves from my territorial atmospheres. I cancel all plots plans and schemes of the enemy and his entire encampment in the name of Yeshua. Any entity here to take information back to another entity i confuse your language and you have nothing to report. Back up! Not today either! I decree and declare we see miracles today! Abundance of You! Abundance of the blessings that are overtaking us. Thanks for catching us. We love You so much!

Still on the habit of writing an hour a day. I learned a brain cycle is 21 days but sometimes it might take longer to make it a habit habit so I am continuing on to the 42 days. 2 brain cycles to set this writing in stone. Still have no interest at all in working on the book and i am going to need that to change inside of me. That is a block and we have to fix that today. I want the world to know our story. I want them to know the truth. I have not been ok with putting myself out ther but my gosh what do you think this blog is doing lol. He is laughing at me and I cant help but laugh with Him. I am ok with totally putting myself out there for You and yes sir I understand what this means. I have already experienced so much of it and I praise You!

Some of what He told me last night took me back for a moment and I caught her thinking about it but there ain’t no going back to that cave. He lit me on fire when i walked out and there aint no going back and we enjoy working with the angels. My God! I looooove Your power and that I get to use it. My God! I cant even with You! When You said people would know it was You bc of the power that would be used through me I was a bit of a skeptic but You got me hook line and sinker… You caught me and I am chasing You right back! Thank You! Thank You for saving me! Thank You for saving everything that concerns me and placing Your favor around me as a shield. Thank You taht that favor attracts everything assigned to me. Amen!

Some of these are way more than an hour and I am glad of that bc I need to be able to sit and write with Him for hours at a time .. this is training ground and all yall get to just see the next version of 2 Cor 5:13 in my crazy supernatural life. I like it! I love it! I want some more of it! My my my at what You have done to me. There is no room for negative thinking when your eyes are fixed on Yeshua. When your eyes are fixed on Him He shows you so much. Thanks for helping me to fix my eyes and set my heart to You. I love You so very much!

Do you just ever wake up and feel done. That is me today. I have already felt so much demonic activity and I am really tired of it. I rebuke and renounce everything the enemy tried to instill in me in the night season in the name of Yeshua. No weapon will prosper and that is the end! Enough! I render all demons powerless today! Back off! I silence you – to the grave! I cancel all spirits of deception, strife, jealousy, error, battle for us to fall, I cancel you all now! Basta! Back up! I call down all the angels and messengers of Yah that frustrate you and they will take you where you are deemed worthy to be. That is to the pit my dears! Uriel, Baruchialchel, Marmarath, Balthial, Asteraoth, and we purposely turn away from all of this and to our Lord and savior Yeshua. I have also felt a lot of anger lol. I am glad they are mad! Hell is having meetings about you ! Good! Let them! It isnt me. It’s all You! Let them!! Let the meet and try to figure out the battle plan they wont! We move in too much silence lol. I love that. Thanks for teaching us to shut up!

I call down the fire of God on all spirits of envy. That Holy Spirits lightening bolt rein down fire on their heads amen! Removed them in totality! I command all envy loose your hold completely. Yeshua they are afraid of You and Your name! Help!

Apparently we are going against all the demons Soloman talked to and captured to help build the temple. Not sure why but I am learning all of them. Today the ones in the first paragraph are what I heard and looked in the book to get rid of. See why it was left out? Absolutely.

Baal has to be behind wrath which comes with anger bc I have felt it today twice already. I cancel your assignment for today in the name of Yeshua. I am looking how to get rid of you completely. Raphael we ask for your assistance in removing asmodeus. Well, he is the one behind wrath,… I thought he was lust and cursed marriages. They do so much to us we have not known. Emmanuel, it is Your name that frustrates the spirit of Rath that is hardly conceivable, we need You! Thank You Daddy! this one mocks Holy Spirit so hard its hard to tell the difference to the point of casting out demons apparently. I had no idea and this demon must present itself, must go when told and announce when you’re around. All the legions of demons these higher level demons control gotta go too! Amen!

The more i read the testament of Solomon the more I can see each of those dang demons. My my my how dumbed down we have been. I watched Micheal Todd this morning and a sermon called Kingdumb and I felt that with just the title. Lol. We have been dumb – thank You for this book and for all the angelic assistance we can call down. Thank You for being with us. Thank You that in our seeking You we not only found You but we found ourselves. I ask them all to be bound and thrown into the pit where they must stay until they are judged in my favor by Yeshua. Thanks Daddy, I sure love you! Thank You! Thank You that we see miracles today. Thank You that everything is working for our good. Thank You for making sure we win!

i cancel all spirits of depression and deception now in the name of Yeshua. Thank You Daddy for lifting us above that vibration and making our bodies snap out of it. Thank You for making our body our mind and thank You for taking our spirit and controlling everything in and around us. Thank You for teaching our body to bow to You and to become one with you. Thank You for this merge! I cancel all spirits of lust today too in the name of Yeshua. I know you meaning you are rendered powerless here! Bow and go! Enough is enough! It is finished. Thanks Daddy! I love you so much! thank You for all the spiritual blessings and for stirring them up! Thank You that they present themselves in the natural thank You for stepping in on our behalf in every area of our lives that concern us. Than kYou for making our enemies Your enemies. Thank You for silencing all voices that rise up against us. Search me and find that there be no wicked in me. Search me and know my anxieties and heal them with the power of Your blood. Definitely, pour it on me thank You that the blood covers every aspect of me. Thank You for applying it! Thank You for everything You have done for me. Thank You! Thank You! Oh Daddy, Yahweh, Yeshua, Ruach- i love You! More and more each day! Thank You for resurrecting Yourself in us! Full resurrection of all spiritually dead areas in our lives. We lack no things. We are blessed with all the gifts of Holy Spirit and we thank You for their activations and stirrings. We love You so much! Thank You that our pruning season is over and that it is time to prosper. Thank You for wrapping the spirit of prosperity around us! Thank You that everything is here and being sucked right to us, like we are magnets to everything assigned to us. Amen! Thanks!

Todays writing went in my journal journal. Idk why but that is where He had me put it. Psalm 29:11 is the verse He gave me today. I love you have a fabulous day!

There are people that want and envy your anointing. With this is going to come jealousy. What they dont understand is if they went through the crushing they would produce oil. And, I had to walk through hell for this anointing – quite literally- and I wouldn’t want anyone to have o do that. I dont want another’s anointing bc I dont know what they had to go through to get it. I know what mine cost. I know that with the anointing comes loss. It’s gonna cost you yourself and you can go the fake power route but that is the enemy and the line has been drawn. I wish people understood what it means for them to come against a chosen one. Not just talking about me, but all of us. Daddy will come in and handle stuff. He will make my enemies His. He will contend with everyone that rises up against me. My ministry has been under serious attack. That demon started with my kid and then moved through the others close to me. Telling them that I was a fake, that I was crazy, that I was the enemy. This is a known tactic – they accused Yeshua of being the enemy bc He was coming at the forces of hell. A house divided will fall (Matt 12:25-30) they told the demon that it was crazy, i was not, rebuked it and it left. I think one may have succumb to this, actually i know it. I know who is doing it. It was an inside job. The devil planted a spy and I am so glad that I have a hard time trust people – mainly I just dont and this is why. I truly dont think this person purposely did this but I could be wrong. I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt and I have not said anything except the very things Yeshua did. A demon will not and cannot cast out another demon- this speaks for itself and I am here to drive out he forces of hell! I am so very thankful for Holy Spirit. I know who is riding with Him and who is pretending. This one stung! Just bring them back to You. Help them see the true light and I stand in the gap for them and ask for forgiveness they didnt know. Mercy Daddy, mercy. Help this person fight for what they know is true. Give them strength and comfort – open their eyes to who they are talking to, expose it all.

I smelled a wet dog this morning. First time I have ever smelled this in the spirit and He said it was Jezebel which makes sense bc she was eaten by dogs. Ugh,. Give it up! I cancel your assignment now in the name of Yeshua. I command death to the vessel you are using! I command all your minion demons to be gone now int he name of Yeshua, I silence all your seeds and command they shrivel up and die never to rise again in thought, will, deed or emotion. Amen

Commanding death to the vessel is commanding that part of them being used dies. That they will recognize it, He will expose it to them, and they will let it go or they wont. Line is drawn but that cannot come back around me, meaning I lose this person (their status changes in my life) or they come around to Him and He will let them come back but as long as the demon is there and they are spitting doubt He will move em. i command the spirit of doubt to shut its mouth now int he name of Yeshua. Daddy, if I need to come up into the courts to handle this let me know. Nope, kid, you’ve just made them mad. We got this. Angels.. i need you to speak in tongues until I tell you to stop. I praise You for training me to do this and have the ability to write. Lol, our brain is so awesome.

I did tell one person think back to what Holy Spirit has told you. What did He tell you about me and I love you. You will figure it out. I trust your judgment. That was it. I am not defending myself my character will speak for itself. I do have a girlfriend that was hit by this as well and it told her I was crazy and a terrible friend. That I dont call and I dont do this or that Yada Yada Yada .. she told it neither do I, so we are all bad friends.. lol. She knew it was a demon and I am so proud! I am working on this friend thing. I am working on trusting.. really, I am gonna be real- I do not trust anyone unless He tells me I can and when that trust runs out He tells me. Thank You! Thank You for protecting me and what is Yours, this ministry bc it isnt mine. This belongs to You I am just here for the ride and to watch!! I am proud of all the ones hit by this for coming out on top and knowing the truth. I praise Him for confirming me and I didnt have to do anything except cancel and break stuff as He instructed. I will sit here and speak in tongues all day if that is how long it takes! Done this for 16 hours one day lol. I am a whatever it takes-er. I had a warning post that I remember putting on fb last year warning me this was coming. I am so glad I paid attention and i am so pleased He told me to just stay silent and handle it in the spirit. Still working on this and canceling everything i hear in the spirit. I can hear who and what is being put on me and yall I dont like sending all of this back, and I am not anymore but He is. He has put boomerang angels around me and whatever is said about me is automatically sent back. Thank You for this so much! I have been asking for this. I am sick of warring against this every single day. Silence them! Silence all voices that rise up against You! Keep me walking humbly with You Daddy. I have seen some get too big for their britches and I dont ever want this to occur in my life.

I must be doing something right for the enemy to try to infiltrate a military camp for Daddy lol. I count it all joy! Front line warriors – what a jerk! I take this very personally. It was a test for the others and for you. Y’all all passed kid. Thanks Daddy! I love yall so much. Holy Spirit i really cannot ever thank YOu enough for taking care of me. Thank You for stepping in on my behalf in everything that concerns me. Thank You for making me and my business Your business and how You handle it. Thank YOu for getting us out of junk we get ourselves in to. Thank You!

Thank You for being the loudest voice we hear! Thank You for teaching us and thank YOu for bringing Your kids back into you. Forgive them and show them mercy they dont know. Some of Your kids are just really stupid and Daddy we need them to wake up to the truth. I dont even know what else to pray so I am glad You’re doing this part too. I bind up that stupid spirit off everyone in the body of Christ now in the name of Yeshua. Everyone in my territory that is in the Body of Christ is losing this spirit today ! I command you up, out – take everything you brought with you and away! To the pit now in the name of Yeshua. You must stay there until you are judged in my favor by the Lord Yeshua. I loose a spirit of wisdom over them all now in the name of Yeshua. Open their spiritual eyes, open the eyes of their heart and give them understanding. I cancel all assignments from the enemy and the minion demons for today in the name of Yeshua. Holy Spirit hit them with Your fire so there is no residuals of this demon! I cancel all hindering spirits now in the name of Yeshua. All familiar spirits you must bow! All spirits of fear in the name of Yeshua loose your hold. All spirits of delay you must go! All of you away now in the name of Yeshua !

I could not and do not take this personal when it comes to this person. I know I am up against a team of demons. It’s great how He has taught me and been with me and how He comforts me. I was not even nervous during this attack bc I have a knowing. A knowing of how protected and secure IN Him I am. Feels real good to be honest. I feel sorry for these people. I think one knows exactly what they are doing and one is stupid. I could be wrong and have it backwards lol. I have caught a few lies and that gives the devil a foothold into their life. That foothold is a legal right and that gives him the right to use you. Please repent so you arent a tool without even knowing it. So many people are a tool to the enemy. He has his anointed too. Expose them all! Expose every single thing trying to come at us. Show us what we are missing and how to fix it. Help!

This is funny. I check myself so much I just checked myself on not taking this personally . Like why am I not taking this personal? It is not bc i dont love this person bc i do, like truly, but bc I know I am not at war with them. That amazes me bc it might have stung a little but I knew which made it easier to withstand. Thanks for ending this. I love You so much. they all sting when someone close comes against you. It hurts but He is an amazing comforter.

The human side of me has questions. Like how dare you let the enemy use you like that? What happened? What the flock got into you? Who are you? What demon is present? Are you oppressed or possessed? Do you want to be? Do you want to be set free from this demon? Most demon possessed people wont look at me in the eyes so maybe they are just oppressed. Idk. I just dont know anymore. These higher level demons are freaking good at hiding that persons energy … i dont like that. When they hide that person energy I cant feel that person at all or they are mirrored. Thanks for showing me this. Thanks for using this to give me understanding. How are they doing this? How can they block me from feeling Your body? That doesn’t even sound possible like they cant be strong enough for that. I understand You didnt take what powers they had but what is this bc if they have it so do i. I should be able to block their energy patterns to get to the person. I call for that. No demon will be able to hide themselves from me from this moment forward. The energy will introduce them- all facets of them- the entire being -their entire energy field, demon and all, can be felt by my energy field. My field interprets and sends info to me. This will let me know exactly who I am up against and if it is a demon or an evil heart. Thanks! Nope, I do not understand all of this, I am sure there is more and a deeper understanding is coming. I get the basics of this, everything is energy and I trust You. I may not trust much or many but I trust You. Teach us! I cancel all energy blocking demons assignments now in the name of Yeshua. No trickery around here. We will be able to get to feel that persons energy so we can get to the root and the legal right to remove it. This is new for sure.

I feel us shifting again. The ascension symptoms are about the same, leg cramps, stomach issues, snot, same as usual i suppose, and fatigue. Our DNA is being changed and upgraded and the body will need extra rest right now. Take it! Im praying there is only a few more days of this.

He told me whatever was coming at me broke and He directed traffic in the spirit. I didnt get any visions or anything and I dont need it. I trust You. Sometimes He shows me what He is doing and lets me watch. Today we just wrote and prayed. I guess like a brain test. I can read and speak in tongues but haven’t ever wrote continuously and spoke in tongues so He could pray through me at the same time. Pretty cool. Thanks for showing me this was possible. I love you so much. i think I am going to watch some Saturday morning cartoons lol. I am about to go lay in the living room and nap prolly. 30 more mins of my prayer watch and i am prolly gonna nap lol

i cancel all manmade and manipulate weather in the name of Yeshua. Any storms cells that will produce freezing rain (ice) i cancel your assignment now. Not one drop of ice is to fall on the power lines or the roads. Dissipate now. I cancel all flooding cells now in the name of Yesaua. I cancel all sound waves put in the air to cause these storm patterns and neutralize them- nothing will be born of you. I cancel these storms over the entire southern portion of the US now in the name of Yeshua. No tornados, no flooding, no ice, no sleet, no hail, no no no!!

So, He said in a live that the more portals that are closed the more the weather cooperates with me and listens bc the principalities over that region have been removed. I have been closing portals all over my territory like playing a video game at night in my sleep lol its fun and He has said like Daniel it has taken a long time to remove this stuff from my territory. There is a storm being predicted but idk if it is for both timelines or for one or for merging… idk .. one timeline is about to see severe judgment, the other is about to live – we are breaking out of the one seeing judgment and moving on up into the big leagues lol. Taht song has been playing a few days. I remember a show called the Jeffersons and He has been playing me their theme song. I dont remember really but that is part of the chorus lol i need to listen to that today.

I choose me. Out of all the choices you have given me and still continue to give me, I choose me. By me choosing me I purposely choose Him and nothing can move me. I had to choose me and I had to love myself on purpose to come out of all of this so today that is your assignment. Who are you choosing? Who and what have you put before yourself? Where do you gaslight yourself? Where have you not forgiven yourself? Where have you not loved you? This is important bc everyone in the world will see you like you see you bc everyone is you removed. I think I am truly getting the hang of what that means. This is so cool. Thank You! Today I leave you with a little touch of wisdom – always choose you. Love you. When you do you can love everyone else with ease bc your cup is overflowing. Every ounce of love you will ever need is already on the inside of you. Stop looking for love in all the wrong places! He will show you His love and teach you to love like He does- choose you today. Find 30 minutes and tell yourself how great you are. Or find a mirror and work on forgiving yourself so you can look in that mirror and love who is looking back. Cover that mirror in the blood first considering we learned they are portals the other day. We prayed for them to be sealed and I trust they are but you need to anoint bc those were our instructions to ensure they were closed. To those with ears hear. I love yall and thanks for hanging out with me. Those that read this know me almost as well as i know myself. If you’ve been here the whole three years you’re a rockstar and you’re surely as crazy as I by now.

Yesterday was fabulous. I saw all 6 of my grands and my children, fabulous. It was Lily’s born on day so we partied like rockstars w cake, piñatas, Dr. Pepper and dancing. After this I drove to Tanner and Maegans and held my sweet little man for about 4 hours. Paisley was so good. She sat up in the recliner with us and her and I talked about cheer, school, and snacked on hard candy. We licked sour warheads lol they are too much to go all in on at first haha Oakley has been having a hard time pooing so we called for his angels to help him poo and it worked, he pooped on his own for the first time in a week. I didnt know this was going on until last night and we had to fix this. I was holding him and said “Oakley needs his angels to help him get used to this body, I know he has forgotten and we ask that you help him go poo and get his body in alignment. I break all generational curses taht may have fell upon him now int he name of yeshua and any demon trying to operate behind this curse causing any illness to this body must leave now and take everything you brought with you when you go and I reset his DNA to the way it was made to function. Nothing may harm him – psalm 91 Amen” and he started to pass gas. I could smell it and was so glad his little belly was getting relief. I was like Pepper (Paisley’s nickname -Dr. Pepper) we gonna have to change his butt and she laughed. She said oooo he pooped, Grami. I was like let’s check so i unzip his sleeper and turn his little body to the side a little and opened the side of the diaper to look and there was poop. It got all over my thumb lol. I just barely pulled that diaper.. lol.. not the first time, im sure it wont be the last. We started to change him and he was not finished. Me and Pepper were talking to his angels and cheering him on … i know how this sounds but you ever been around a baby with colic? We needed them angels and my Daddy delivered. I love HIm so much. She helped me change him and she did the final wipe. It was actually precious, her love for him. She’s waited on him for 4 years. She remembered him and constantly told them she was ready for him to come be with her. She is draw into the third heaven in her sleep a lot and tells us about the lellow roads (roads of gold) and she’s right I’ve seen them. And she’s been asking about Yeshua since before she could talk. It was like we were so tapped in I could read her mind but didnt know what was going on at the time bc I want conscious to it yet. She would point at crosses and I would tell her about Yeshua and what He did for us on the cross. Love these babies so much! Thank You for them! They are most precious little hearts and souls You have entrusted me with. Help me to never fail You or them. Thank You! He told me you will not fail I am in you. I praise Him.

Tanner went to the DU banquet and I stayed with Meagan and the babies until about 8ish. Tanner has a duck guiding business and went to mingle. I used to go to these with his dad, i have no idea what they are like now but he seems to be excelling and I praise You for turning everything he touches to gold and for blessing the work of his hands. God did me a solid with his wife. ! My God thank You I love You so much! She is mine! No if ands or butts she is mine! I love these kids and I thank You so much for them. when I got home I decompressed for a bit in my office, my Jesus room is what my family calls it, then got ready for bed and crashed. I slept all night! I needed that. The only thing I asked him for when it come to some sort of a routine was to be on the correct hours. Three month of swing shifts got a little tiring. I thank Him for this so much!

When people come in the back door and i am not in the kitchen they know I am in my office. When i am up and busy and Addie comes in she goes to my chair and hangs out at my desk. She is most precious. When she was about 2 we were all baking cookies and I was asking them what they wanted to be when they grow up. This was great, we were creating. When we got to Addie she said, “ i want to be like Grami” this shook me to my core and I knew I had to get it all the way together for these babies. They watch me like a hawk and listen to everything I say and remember it, they will bring things back to my remembrance lol. My seeds are thickly embedded in these girls and I saw how much so that day. It changed me and I knew. I knew I could never step out of alignment with Him again. My actions affect their future and their belief systems. I got it that day. Be the example. Be what you want to see in the world. I want to see love so I had to become love. With kids this is so totally easy. They are pure and beautiful and have no ill intent, that is not the case with adults and learning to love the Judas is essential.

Learning to love the Judas. This is where most people get stuck bc they throw the Judas away. We cant be throwing people away. Their role in your life will shift but they cannot be thrown out of the circle. The circle is the circle of love. We all have like a circle and throwing someone out of it is throwing then out of God and we cant do that. This circle is the Body of Christ. We are not at war with flesh and blood but the demon behind all of it. When I truly learned this and understood it is when I really learned to war and to command a demon away from me! If that person wants to keep their demon, fine, but they are not bringing it to play around me! And they stay away! That persons roll shifts automatically bc this is my world i just allow certain people to reside around me. I am learning this whole my world stuff and about only allowing in what I want and commanding what I dont want away .. learning. We are all learning. When a Judas spirit would come around me I learned to fight with that demon in the spirit and not that person in the natural i would stand there and smile while they cussed me out but boy when I went into prayer things changed. Go after the demon not the person. Some of the ways these people allow themselves to be used still dumbfounds me too but that is is God’s problem. They ain’t my battle!! Knocked the dust off my feet but before i left I pulled my peace as instructed. I knew He had it! And the demon stays the same until the lesson is learned. The demon may come through different teachers meaning the teacher may change but the lesson is the same. until it is learned you’ll be in that cycle. Dont let us get stuck in any cycles. Zap us till we taste orange and get all of that out of us. Ain’t no going back to the way things were. Help us to move in flow with you at all time.

Thanks Daddy for a day of suddenlies we receive and thank You for stepping in on all things that concern us. Thank You! My God thank You!

There is just something about hearing pipes on a truck when it drives by my house. I know more than likely it is a teenager and it like brings up the teen part of me and then a few core memories of her teen years on Budweiser Blvd and the square, Ally and Eric Jacksons house come up. Didnt really get out much , I have always been a loner. Thanks for letting us know that. I like being alone. I like myself i didnt like many other people. Lol that is so funny bc of how you love everyone now. I do but that is not me. Yes yes it is you. Those were great times. My God bless my momma. She surely needs it after having to deal with me. Thank You for changing me. Thanks for showing me. Thank You for redeeming me and for saving me. My God thank You! We were awful children – in my defense we lived in a tough area. We did what we had to to make it. Really? Well, that was the thought process at the time. Cmon you know where I grew up. We do. He’s laughing at me. I cant justify any of our actions, none and I do praise you for pulling me out. Praise You. Most of those people I used to hang out with are either dead or in prison. My daughter, who was a total surprise and a gift from God, saved me! He sent her when she was least expected by me but I praised Him. I got pregnant at 16 but life did not stop there it had just begun. I changed everything about school, got an apartment, got a job, enrolled in college and grew up. I still made plenty of mistakes and me and Hailey grew up together. 5 years later He sent Tanner. We grew up together too. Neither of my children had teen pregnancies and I praise You for that. Thank You for breaking that curse! The perfect beings were sent by God bc i never wanted to have children. I wanted to go live in NYC and was on my way there. I have always been on the intelligent side, tested genius a few times, skipped a grade, and was in the GT classes working to get out. Being a nurse was not in my plans lol. None of the stuff that happened were in my plans but I see everything has played out the way it needed to. I dont. I dont like someone telling a teen mom her life is over. Do i like or agree with teen pregnancy, no, but I am proof you can still get an education and make it. Thanks for all of this. You’ve truly been there through it all and my God did You do good with them kids. Thank You for them! Thank You for the babies through them! Oh thank You!

I text a few friends this morning telling them we should skip today and go to Beale and have bloody Mary’s lol.. it jut feels like a Bloody Mary morning lol.. i am going to have to paint my nails again today. I looked down last night and one is all chipped up. I may leave them natural for a little while. We will see I did get a new color Id like to try. It’s a cute, cute spring melon orange color and I got a blessing that had to do with oranges this morning. Eating during famine. Joseph. I will take that! Yes sir! Thank You! I praise You for the abundance of confirmation. You are so good to me.

I am on day two of a new habit I am creating. We are going to write an hour here and an hour in the book to get it finished. I decree and declare the writing will flow easily from your mouth to my fingers. Thank You! Yesterday we read for an hour and saw some things that needed to be changed – this is why I should prolly finish reading and then go in and edit it. I havent read it since this time last year. It hasnt been my favorite project and we really need to change that. I truly do desire to do this. I am all in. Thanks! I felt that. She’s ready! I gotta get of here and brush my teeth people are going to be here soon I guess i need to put some clothes on and get dressed. I slept until 545 and its 8 now. Ie been here since about 630 writing.