Be Still & Shut up

How do you know? You will have peace that surpasses all understanding. When you’re faced with any decision and haven’t gotten a clean answer on it please know you will be at peace with it. Whatever you’re facing, you will find peace.

If you’re searching for your partner and God has given you a few people to choose between, He is wanting you to make the right decision. You will have peace when you’re around that person. I wrote in my journal over a year ago that says “You will know because who you arent supposed to be with you will get a check. Anxiety is not from God.” This let me know so much about a lot of different relationships I found myself it. There are only a handful of people I tell my business to because they have betrayed me and when I feel that check, that anxiety, I know they are not from God. He says proceed with caution and pay attention. I have full faith that you will know. You will know and chances are you already do. Does He have you even if you make the wrong decision? I am sure of it but that doesn’t mean you need to make it. Discern the heart. Discern what you feel when you are around them. I am not posed with choosing but someone is and I pray you are making the right choice. If you need help discerning this please contact me and we will work through it together. Not everyone is sent from God. If God has HIs anointed you best know so does satan. Your past doesnt have to haunt you and you can get over it. I love you! Please know that I love all of you! We can do this and we can do it tougher. God bless and I am praying for all of you! Have a good night.

In the Bible Egypt symbolizes oppression. If you know what your form of Egypt is, whatever, whoever, etc, that kept you oppressed (in former thoughts, patterns, cycles, etc) get it out of you and do not go back. This is not your portion.

If someone repeatedly lied to you, hurt you, made you feel bad about who you are, betrayed you, or consistently tried to bring you down you need to get away from them. We are in a season where the past will try and come back. People will try and come back. Demons are trying to come back (your old warfare). This was a lot to take in and I see it in my own life and in others. I have seen people losing their deliverance and having to fight extra hard to maintain. This is warfare. This is a demon taunting you to try and put you back in oppression. Refrain! Whatever we do consistently we will attract. If you, umm, let me get a good example… if you pray all the time you will attract the spirit of prayer over your life. If you worship you will attract the spirit of worship. If you smoke you will attract a spirit of addiction. If you lie you will attract a spirit of lying. If you drink you will attract a spirit of alcoholism.. make sense? I sure hope so. This is a warning that the past will try and come back but be encouraged because this will let you know that your promise land is right around the corner.

It was easy for God to get His people out of Egypt but to get the thoughts of comfort that Egypt brought was a lot harder. Many didnt even see the promise land because they would not change their thinking. Laugh at the demons. Your knew mindset and what you have learned will make it easier to part ways with Egypt. Be loyal to loyal love. God is loyal love and you do not need to step back into comfort to be taken care of. Please know this! God does provide! I am proof. I lost my job at the beginning of the plandemic in March 2020. I have not worked since but all my bills are paid, and on time I might add, I have food stocked up like I was told. And water, and I have not missed a meal. You can trust Him. His ways are much higher than ours just be obedient and do not go back to what haunted you or made you feel low.

I have lived this. I have had an agent of satan on my tail. I have had them say things that were never from God. Your butt is too big. Your nose is too wide. You dont know what you’re talking about. You didnt cook that right … see what I am saying here? They make you feel horrible about being yourself. I was stupid for allowing this and I will not be stupid anymore. I dont want anyone else to be stupid either. I see some going back to Egypt and it breaks my heart. I have tried to tell them but I cannot make anyone do the right thing. I cannot make them leave whatever comfort they thought they had. Some people need to learn for themselves. If you’re reading this God says do not go back to your form of Egypt. If God told you to stay away from that person- stay away from them. You’re not gonna be able to be friends with everyone, even if you would like to. I have noticed this too. People that I wanted to be friends with that are not called to be in my future have tried to come back. They will try and come back in the same fashion they used to be there as, say an ex. An ex is an ex for a reason. Usually two people broke up because they were not compatible. One made the other feel less than a person. They always found your flaws but never admitted to their own. I have learned that I cannot be friends with these types of people. I can love them but I cannot go back to what was. Trying to be friends with an ex that wants more than you do is like trying to squeeze blood from a turnip- it ain’t gonna happen. They will think yall are supposed to just pick up where yall left off and that cannot be the case. We try though, as humans and often times we get stuck in a cycle again. Anyone that makes you feel like less than a person, that makes you feel like you cannot be yourself, that doesn’t accept you is not for you. And, the tell tale sign – Holy Spirit will check you. You will feel intense anxiety around these types. Like there is an ulterior motive behind their reappearance in your life. That is usually because there is. We just dont listen to the Holy Spirit and stop before it is too late.

Everything that is to be will have a new beginning. God will do this but when He told you to stop and you kept on that is a sin for you. I have been guilty of this too but we can get right back up. Careful what you allow in. Careful what warfare you take on. Sometimes we take on warfare we shouldn’t be in because we are around people we shouldn’t be around. When the devil comes knocking – shut the front door! Do not give him any kind of access. You’re gonna have to stand strong and remember what you have learned. Remember, dont hold a grudge, but remember!!

I dont know who this is for but do not go back to what made you feel bad. Dont go back to drinking. Dont go back to smoking. Dont go back to that person. Dont go back! Egypt is getting out of you. It has left the building- now let it stay gone!!

If you haven’t been through this already I am here to warn you that it is coming. No matter what happens do not react. If you are lied to, laugh. If someone tries to bring up your past, you know who you are today. You know what God has done in you. They will come. This could be someone from your past or it could be a cashier at the grocery store. No matter what it is you be kind. You show God’s love. You feed your enemies because it is like dumping hot coals on their heads. Rom 12:20.

When you are about to go into a new level with the Lord the devil will send people to try and trap you. They will try and make you lose your cool. They will try and make you flip your lid. They will test if you love everyone like we are commanded. Do you want to go back? Do you want to go back to where God called you out of? Do you want to go back into something you literally had to pray your way out of because of the pain it caused? Do you want to live like you have in the past? I know I do not. I know what quitting looks like and this time I will see what full throttle ahead has in store. Is it comfortable? NO! I promised I would never lie and I wont. None of this has been comfortable. I am beginning to think it never will be but I keep pushing forward. I want you to as well.

Be smart. Pass the test and know that its coming. Yesterday I went to Sam’s and there was a rude cashier. Back in the day I would have said something like, “boy, you are sure having a bad day, huh?” I would have gotten irritated at his rudeness and prolly told him he needed to find another job if he hated this one. Truth is people have bad days. I have bad days but when I do I try and stay by myself. This isn’t always possible for any of us. I want people to know how loved they are. So, this time I just smiled and told him, “may God bless you abundantly.” There are times when people make me mad, well, they do. I have been guilty of sending texts telling people that they are not acting right. Really it was me not acting right. I do not need a person but only to take everything to the Lord. Our ego will get in the way when we expect ourselves from others. Not everyone is where you are. Not everyone is healed and whole. Not everyone knows how to love unconditionally. Best way I can say this is dont expect you from another. Everyone is you removed. People are still being sanctified, it is a process and not an easy one. Be there to help them. Sometimes your job in someone’s life is to teach. Other times it is to RUN like Forrest Gump. Ask- Prov 3:5,6. Ask! The Lord will tell you everything you need to know about a situation and what your roll is in that persons life. Sometimes you are to bless someone and move on. Teach and move on. Love from afar. False prophets seem all good on the outside and they will try and say all the right things but they are ravenous wolves on the inside. Their hearts are cloudy, and I do not mean partly cloudy, they are full of hate. Be careful! Caution! Proceed with caution!!

Until we pass a test we will have to repeat it. Stop the cycles!! I failed Friday night on a test. My ego got in the way. I thought I needed the help of a particular person when I didn’t. But, I still said somethings I shouldn’t have. Yesterday I had to repeat my love test. If I had only kept my mouth shut Friday … lol.. I am still very much human and I do expect different from some people, especially other believers. What I forgot is that their heart is not where mine is, yet. I have full faith that they will move with God instead of regressing back into patterns of their past. When people act bad, to us, and treat us bad, this lets us know how to pray for them. Is it always easy? Ummm, heck naw! It is one of the hardest things I have had to learn. Learn from me and my mistakes so you do not make them. Keep your mouth shut and pray more than you ever confront something. PASS YOUR TEST!! When we do we do not have to repeat it to gain new levels of trust with the Lord. Remember, to treat people how you want to be treated. Not always easy but it is possible. Know when it is you and not the other person… that is the kicker right there. Admitting that we were stupid once again when we should have known better.

Do I love those that do not have their hearts pure? Yes and I want them to get where they are pure in the quickest, least painful ways, possible. Is it always my job to help them? No, and that one was hard to accept. I can only give people tools I cannot make them do the work. Neither can you. We cannot make anyone act right all we can do is love them through it. Sometimes loving them through it is backing away completely. Not an easy task when you love hard. I was not one that loved hard, unless it was my children or my grands, so this is completely new to me. This love walk is intense and to all of you that have always loved hard dont you dare quit! We are to love everyone as we love ourselves. When we do we will not want them to suffer any at all. Are they all our battles? Not always, but God will tell you who is and who isn’t. He has kept me around some that I wanted to jet away from and others He has told me kick the dirt off ya shoes and get to steppin’! That is how God talks to me. He talks to everyone in a way they will understand. Pay attention and ask Him everything. I wish I had asked Him Friday night if I was to send that text because then I would not have. Not my battle! Not my place to tell anyone when they aren’t acting like Jesus it is His! That “not my battle” has become hard for me to accept because He made wanting to help people a passion. I think He had to put me around certain individuals to teach me to love them anyway. No matter what a person does I have learned to separate their behavior from them as a person, a child of God. When you can separate everything done and said from them you can love hell right out of them. Is this a tad bit scary? No, it is a lot scary because I feel like I am sticking my heart out on the line to be shattered. Being vulnerable was not ever one of my strong points. I was a hard a$$ BEEEPP.. lol.. I know who I was and I know what I will never go back into. I never want that person to come up in me again. I have prayed and prayed to never return to what I knew, to not ever depend on my own understanding, to never be allowed to succumb to any situation. To change me. To help me. To guide me. To remove my emotions from everything and teach me Your ways. Some tough prayers to change me were answered. I passed yesterday and I feel like I could again. I know what I have done wrong and I dont need to repeat any of my former mistakes.

God keeps telling me, “I got your back.” I trust Him. If He has my back He has yours!! I trust Him to tell me who to be around and who to let go of. If you’re trying to make something work that you cried and prayed your way out of- stop! Proceed with caution and allow Holy Spirit to guide your steps and the peace of God to guard your mind and your heart. Work with Him and not against Him. Do not trap yourself into something that isn’t for you. Wait on the Lord and be obedient. He does know best.

If you haven’t watched “The Matrix” I highly recommend that you do. I refer to this a lot. Even if you have, watch it again. You can either take the blue pill and go back to life as you know it (you’ve been down that road and know where it goes.. do you want to stay there?) or you can take the red pill and find the truth. I wanted the truth. I wanted God to wake me up. This went deep for me because He woke me up from TBI (traumatic brain injury) but it is really no different than what others experience when they do not want to see the truth. This could go with anything we face. Do you want the truth? When we do God will show us. He will tell you everything, even give you driving directions. I never knew the power that lived inside of me but He is teaching me. He wants us all to know. God is not a respecter of persons. What He did for one He wants to do in us all. When you watch this listen to what Morpheus says to Neo. You are the one! Get rid of all that fear, doubt and disbelief. Take that leap of faith! The just walk by faith and not by sight. You gotta know that God is there with you and that He will not allow you to fall on your face. This reminds me of when Neo took his first jump and fell. He got up and we have to as well. We all fall, but we will survive. We may bend but we won’t break. Trust Him!

I have had several love tests this weekend. It took me failing one to recognize what was going on. I will not repeat any old cycles. I will ask God what to do in every situation and circumstance. I will rely on Him to guide my steps. Tell yourself these things. It gets it in your head so you rely on Him fully! Our egos want to go ahead of God and it is time we shut that down. Have a great day! God bless!!

Dont follow after the wicked ones or be jealous of their wealth. Dont think for a moment they’re better off than you. They and their short lived success will soon shrivel up and quickly fade away like grass clippings in the hot sun. Keep trusting in the Lord and do what is right in His eyes. Fix your heart on the promises of God and you will be secure, feasting on His faithfulness. Make God the utmost delight and pleasure of your life and He will provide for you what you desire the most. Give God the right to direct your life and as you trust Him along the way you’ll find He pulled it off perfectly. He will appear as your righteousness as sure as the dawning of a new day. He will manifest as your Justine as. Sure and strong as the noonday sun. Quiet your heart in His presence and pray; keep hope alive as you long for God to come through for you. And dont think for a moment that the wicked in their prosperity are better off than you. Stay away from anger and revenge, keep envy far from you, for it only leads you into lies. For one day the wicked will be destroyed but those who trust in the Lord will live safe and sound with blessings overflowing. Just a little while longer and the ungodly will vanish; you will look for them in vain. But the humble of heart will inherit every promise and enjoy abundant peace. Let the wicked keep plotting against the godly with all their sneers and arrogant jeers. God doesn’t lose any sleep over them and He knows their day is coming. Evil ones take aim on the poor and helpless, they are ready to slaughter those who do right. But the Lord will turn all their weapons of wickedness back on themselves piercing their pride filled hearts until they are helpless. It is much better to have little combined with much of God than to have the fabulous wealth of the wicked and nothing else. For the Lord takes care of all of His forgiven ones while the strength of the everlasting will surely slip away. Day by day the Lord watches the good deeds of the godly and He prepares for them His forever reward. Even in a time os disaster He will watch over them and they will always have more than enough no matter what happens. All the enemies of God will perish. For the wicked have only a momentary value, a fading glory. Then one day they vanish! Here today gone tomorrow. They break their promises, borrowing money but never paying it back. The good man returns what He owes with some extra besides. The Lord’s blessed ones receive it all in the end but the cursed ones will be cut off with nothing to show for themselves. The steps of the God-pursuing ones follow firmly in the footsteps of the Lord and God delights in every step they take to follow Him. If they stumble badly they will still survive for the Lord lifers them up with HIs hands. I was once young, but now I’m old. Not once have found a lover of God forsaken by Him nor have any of their children gone hungry. Instead, I’ve found the godly ones to be the generous ones who give freely to others. Their children are blessed and become a blessing. If you truly want to dwell forever in God’s presence forsake evil and do what is right in His eyes. The Lord loves it when He sees us walking in His justice. He will never desert His devoted lovers, they will be kept forever in His faithful care. But the descendants of the wicked will be banished. The faithful lovers of God will inherit the earth and enjoy every promise of God’s care, dwelling in HIs peace forever. God lovers make the best counselors. Their words possess wisdom and are right and trustworthy. The ways of God are in their hearts and they wont swerve from the paths of steadfast righteousness. Evil ones spy on the godly ones, stalking them to find something they could use to accuse them. They’re out for the kill! But God will foil all their plots. The ungodly will not stand condemned when brought to trial. So dont be impatient for the Lord to act; keep moving forward steadily in His ways and He will exalt you at the right time. And when He does, you will possess every promise including your full inheritance. You’ll watch with your own eyes and see the wicked lose everything. I’ve already seen this happen. Once I saw a wicked and violent man overpower all who were around him, a domineering tyrant with his pride and oppressive ways. Then he died and was forgotten. Now no one cares that he is gone forever. But you can tell who are the blameless and spiritually mature. What a different story with them! The godly ones will have a peaceful and prosperous future with a happy ending. Every evil sinner will be destroyed, obliterated. They’ll be utter failures with no future! But the Lord will be the Savior of all who love Him. Even in their time of trouble God will live in them as strength. Because of their faith in Him their daily portion will be a Father’s help and deliverance from evil. This is true for all who turn to hide themselves in Him. Psalm 37 TPT

Two days ago Holy Spirit brought Mark 8 to my attention. This is when Jesus prayed twice for a blind man to receive His sight. Why did Jesus do this twice? We know He is God so why? I am still not sure but there are many theories that He was teaching the disciples about them still not being able to see who He was when He was right there with them. Is this all it means? I am not so sure. Why would He bring this to my attention when I had just stepped out in faith to pray for someone that doctors say is terminal?

I stepped out in faith not too long ago and my natural brain, my nurse brain too, tried to hinder this. How can someone on hospice be healed by God? Well, let me tell ya because He is God. He can do whatever He wants when He wants He just needs a submitted body to get it done. I would have never went and prayed over this man. I will be honest but I was sent. Did I know exactly what will happen? No, but I can believe because of what Jesus did for me.

About a week after I went and prayed I got a message on facebook from this persons niece. She thanked me for going and praying with him and said, “I will never underestimate the power of the Holy Spirit.” That message made me cry tears of joy. This person isn’t having to take as much pain medicine. They are sleeping in perfect peace. They ate after I had been there and then they began to decline. A few days after this message is when Mark 8 was brought to my attention. Maybe Jesus was teaching us that we need to pray more than once for someone’s total healing. I am not sure but I went back yesterday.

While there I felt God’s presence with us. We all felt Him. We were crying and the man was at perfect peace. He was joking and laughing with me and we talked about eating a steak. I do not eat meat, very often, and maybe it wasn’t me that wanted a steak but him. I heard a prophetic word last night that God is proud of you for stepping out in faith. He will meet you where you stepped out. He will not let you down. I asked and am believing for the person’s total healing. Am I crazy? Perhaps, but I know what God is capable of and I believe everything in His Word and what He has told me. Why would He tell me to go back if there wasn’t reason for it? Maybe it was just for peace, I do not know but I went and I am glad I did no matter what happens. In my past life when I was a nurse I refused to give people false hope. I did not know Jesus then or what He was capable of with a body. I will forever be His body and His hands when He needs them. Sometimes my natural mind needs a little help and I believe that is why He brought that story into my remembrance. I have the faith that it takes. It is not me but Him and I trust Him. Getting my trust here and learning to step out in faith was not easy so for everyone that thinks any of this is easy- it isn’t but it is joyous. Joy and peace that I cannot explain. So much of it I could and do cry in prayer a lot. I was never a person that cried I felt it made me weak. I am not weak I just, well, I finally have heart.

Jesus healed because of His compassion. I have great compassion because I have lived it. I watched the man that raised me, my grandpa, die of cancer. I watched him suffer. I would have given him one of my lungs and offered but he wouldn’t take it. I was 22 when I lost him. I lost my husband that same year. I do not want to see another suffer these losses. I have walked in their shoes. The grief that this pain caused was unbearable. I was broken for so long but I am not broken any longer and now I want them all healed. I believe when we die we should be able to just go to sleep and allow our spirit to go be with the Lord. It is not His will for any of His children to suffer and God does not put illness on us as punishment. Religion has taught us that and it is a lie! Bible says it is His will for ALL to be healed! Sometimes our healing is not on this side of the realms but with Him. Either way I stepped out in faith and I trust Him to make it all peaceful. He has me fully persuaded and if I have to step out in faith daily and look completely nuts I am ok with that. I am sure they thought Jesus was nuts too but then they saw ! He came, He saw, He did and He conquered!!! He healed them ALL!! I still believe He can and will.

He has told me in the past if someone was going to make it or not and He did with this person as well. I know we all will go to sleep and wake up with Jesus at some point in our lives but why cant we go with total peace? I believe we can. I will continue to stand flat footed in my faith until the end of my own life. I will look and sound crazy to some and I am perfectly fine with that. If He sends me to pray I will go. If He tells me to speak I will. I will do what He says when He says. I vow myself (my ALL) to Him. Y’all are witnesses. I cannot think of anything I want more out of what He has promised me than this healing mission we are embarking on. Step out in faith. God will meet you. You aren’t the one doing it anyway. it is all Him! You gotta know what you know because of Who you know! Trust Him. All things are possible to those that believe. ALL THINGS!! ALL!! I love that word! Love it! He will not let you down!

Here is what I have learned through it all, Don’t give up; don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting — for He will never disappoint you. Psalm 27:14 TPT

Fearless faith! Crazy faith! Faith that prevails! FAITH IN ALL!! Faith that whatever I ask He will do, especially when it is according to His will. Healing IS His will!