Be Still & Shut up

There is so much God is teaching me that I want the world to know as well. If we all learn together we can withstand anything and everything thrown at us. God is here and He wants us to know that for fact. Not as a theory or something we doubt but to know it. To know we have Him in our midst even when satan is coming in on us like a tornado. Stan and his goons are running rampant and until we understand our enemy we will not be able to fully remove him from our lives. I met him and looked him dead in his eyes the night he tried to kill me. I would love nothing more than to destroy him and all strongholds he places over people, God’s people. We cannot be oppressed by the enemy!

God does not want His children oppressed by anyone and He came in strong in Exodus to deliver His people from the pharaoh, Egyptian rule and bondage. Egypt, and the pharaoh represent bondage in the Bible. It took God to deliver His people and He did many signs, miracles and wonders to accomplish this through a person. He needs us to move in our natural and it is time to arise. (Isaiah 60) our light is here and our time has come. Darkness is coming to our earth, I do not know all of this but I do know God is bigger than anything thrown at us. I also know that He is with us and to not be fearful of anything that is to come. We are to trust Him and that is what He has been teaching us.

In Exodus 4 we see God telling Moses that he shall be a God to pharaoh. shall means it is going to happen. It will happen. Will in the Bible is a promise from God. Since pharaoh represents oppression and bondage we will be God’s over anything and anyone that oppresses us. Can you feel the power of God in that statement. You WILL be a God to whatever is trying to lord over you. To get here you have to realize that the entire trinity lives inside of you. You have to know who you are through Christ. You have to know what Christ did for you and not take it for granted. These are things He has been on me about. We speak so much about Christ dying that we do not think of the true impact of it and what He went through. He died for everyone including that gay person that is church hurt… we cannot be mean or hate because when we do we become free standing agents of satan. God is love, we are called to love not judge! If we cannot look in the mirror at what we have done we have no place to look at anyone else with judgmental eyes.

Have you figured out who you are through Christ yet? It is imperative that we understand the entire God-Head lives on the inside of us IF we love Him and keep His commands. If is the biggest little word I have ever heard or had to come to understand the true importance of. If we love, gotta walk it all out in love whether you want to or not. I know how hard it is to love them difficult people when you would much rather claw their eyes out or pray for them to be run over … I told y’all I was not a very nice person and there have been times I did inflict my wrath instead of waiting on God to take care of it. He has had to really get me to a place where I do not seek revenge anymore but I know He has got it IF I get out of HIs way. John 14 is Huge and we all need to know it, feel it and live it. It is the Father that lives in us. It is God and His power that did everything Jesus did because God stripped Himself of who He is when He came to earth for our salvation. He is our Salvation and our helmet in the armor. (Eph 6) Jesus said we would do greater works than He. In Exodus we see God saying people are blind, mute, etc because He makes them all and we see in John 9 that it is not because of sin but so the power of the Father may be revealed. He is about to manifest Himself to us.. oh, how I want to know when and what He is going to do! We know God doesn’t do anything without telling His prophets first (Amos 3) I still cannot believe all He has done in me. I got to be the lucky one that shared everything He has been teaching me with everyone else and I will never stop because I am coming hard for stan and his rat lying tail! He makes me sick! I have gotten mad and I am going to teach everyone how to kick his ass!! The first step is knowing who you are and then to know your enemy! I know the enemy and I know who I am through the Father. It is time to send these goons packing. It is time we put stan under our feet. It is time we rise up and be a God over our oppressors. Does this sound crazy to me and like a touch of blasphemy? Yep, it all is crazy but God has backed it up with scripture. That is His Word, not mine. He has taught me to leave my opinion out of all of this and gotten me to a place in Him where everything and anything is possible. Nothing is crazy to me anymore and I am so excited to do the future with God, and all of you. If you do not know who you are ask Him.. He is gonna tell you.

Read the Bible with expectations to see all the spirits that need to be removed. Pray and pray often, in tongues. When we pray in the Spirit God is speaking through us and He is putting things in the world He wants there. We have to combat every evil with a Spirit of God. I know to open my mouth and let Him speak when I hear a language I do not know in my head. We are about to amp up the teaching because He says it is time for us to grow up. This puts religion to bed. This puts false gods, mythology and idols in their place and that means they are not in our future. Be proud of yourselves!! You made it! We did it guys. We made it though a phase of our process. If you haven’t yet dont beat yourself up it is coming. Your breakthrough is on its way. Stay encouraged and learn to pray the Word. Meditate to move things from your head to your heart. You have all got this! He is raising up His army and we all get to be apart of it. Aren’t you excited?

Father, o, we praise Your Holy Name. We love you and we are so blessed to be loved by You. Thank You for Your mercy, grace and forgiveness. We ask that You forgive any and all of our sins. Show us where we are wrong and teach us how to move as one with You. We loose the Spirits of Your Almighty Power and supernatural favor and wisdom. We declare we walk with the Holy Spirit and at Your speed. Thank You for elevating us and for all of Your amazing instruction for we know we are nothing without You. We are so excited for Your marvelous move coming. We know You are with us and we fear not. We submit unto You for You to use as You see fit. Thank You for Your promises and for speaking to the remnant that is rising up to show everyone who You are! Thank You Father. Wake up the lost and start the conversation with them so they will be more than ready when You put us in their path. Allow people to see if they have You or if they are agents of stan. Wake them up to who they are as we give all power that we thought we had through our flesh back to You to breed more Spirit in us of You. Download the technologies of heaven into us and let us see, read and understand all the hidden scrolls placed in our presence. Show them who they are Father, show them what You have placed on the inside of them. Thank You for Your power, Your Spirit and for living in us. Lord we seal this in blood of Jesus and I ask the angels to protect this word going out. In Jesus name- Amen

Satan has fooled so many into the greatest lie he has ever told : that he doesn’t exist. With him not existing neither would any of his goons and that is just a lie!! I believe part of me going to hell was to tell everyone it is real and they need to watch their steps.

The Bible is very clear on what will send a person to hell!! With that being said we have to know that spirits are real. There is an increase in people talking about it and that does put me at ease bc I thought I would look terribly crazy for seeing that world and speaking about it. It’s exceptionally cool to see angels and to know they are here for me and to help me. It’s not so great to see demons but it is good to know them so I can send them to the pits to be judged.

Did you know that not only can Satan’s goons hover around you but they can inhabit people? I thought all of this sounded crazy, too, but it is so real. There is a whole world moving beside us in the heavenlies that we don’t see all the time. Just a glimpse would shock most people into oblivion! It’s like an action movie 24/7. Cool is hardly the right term for it but it is rather cool. I wrote about demonic possession the other night and since then have done some homework on this matter.

We know God did not give us a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind. (2 Tim 1:7) Since we have power, love and a sound mind we can annihilate everything satan sends towards us. We just gotta know it is all real. If God gives us His Spirit and those other 3 how many more do you think He provides us with? And if all that can fit inside us and in our most inner being how many can satan fit inside of us?

In the Bible when Jesus cast the demons out of the guy at the caves, legion. We see that that one demon carried thousands with him to inhabit this man. (Matt 8) in this day and age we would prolly call this a form of personality dissociative disorder, or maybe schizophrenia. But, it is being caused by thousands of demons from Satan. Trust me I know how this sounds and I was in the medical profession for 20+ years … I believe in science too but God more! We know that God is the same today, yesterday and tomorrow so we also know His word never changes! If this did happen in the days of Jesus they still happen today. Demons are smart… do not ever think satan is dumb! There are many different demons and a plethora of demonic spirits. Discerning the spirits is a hard gift but one we all need because these things are only going to get worse. In the walls of hell there are spirit forces stuck waiting on satan to release them into the world. We must be ready.

People do not normally want to harm themselves or lust after things of old. These are spirits aka sex demons that are fallen angels we see in Gen 6. They came to earth to take wives of the beautiful women born to men and had children. This is why God destroyed the world and it’s inhabitants bc of the evil within them. Since these demons could take on the shape of humans to entice these women don’t you think they still can today? From what I’ve learned they still do. We need to bid these spiritual husbands and wives farewell.

Father we come before You with praise and thanksgiving. You are our strength, our provider, our Most High God and the love of our lives. Our first love we will never forget again, forgive us. Forgive us for being weak and our lack of knowledge. Thank You for the Spirit of wisdom she will forever be our sister. Thank You for Your Word Lord. Father God we come before you in the name of Jesus and bind all evil and demonic forces, in and around us and cast them to the pits of hell to never leave and be judged by you. Lord, we loose Your grace to come to earth. We cast all evil from our presence and to not ever return around us again. In Jesus name we come to your courts and serve a bill of divorce to anything done in the spirit realm by Satan and/or his goons. We want to be perfect in Your sight with the only spirit dwelling in us is You. Thank You for hearing us and answering our prayers. In Jesus name Amen, amen and amen.

Congratulations! You are now divorced from any and all evil lurking to bind you in oppression. Be watchful because the Bible says they will try and come back especially when they find your house all neat and tidy (you in God’s Word). (Luke 11) Feelings you normally would not have are demonic spirits talking to you. Whispering in your ear and making you respond with negativity. Remember to be carful what comes out of your mouth ! Our words are walking spirits and they are either for Satan or for God. Do not be evil or negative but instead shut your mouth and pray!! God can deliver anyone from all oppression but we have to truly want it. I know He can and does bc He has done it for me. Do not allow Satan another moment of your life- fight back!!

So, I heard a rumor somewhere that anyone that dies whether they knew it was COVID or not is getting put COViD on death certificates. Do you think they are blowing this up? Conspiracy theorist I wanna know what you think. I got some research to do. My next assignment is politics… wow, that is a bit intimidating. Don’t get me wrong I’m good at debating but this subject used to would irritate me so badly it was really hard to love people like Pelosi.

Wow, He is revealing so many things that I had forgotten about and telling me why I went to hell. He’s finishing up the story bc I didn’t want to know. I didn’t really want the revelation that if it had been my time to die I would have stayed in hell for eternity. If I went how many of y’all would be headed there?

I didn’t want to know all my past sins bc they are great and many. I have to walk in love or I lose my Spirit man feeling and that cannot happen! I cannot lose Him. He got me to a place in Him where He is all that matters. He did it!! He created me and makes me feel worthy when He is inside of me. He gave me back my flair!! I had lost that aire about me that made me me! I am a highly likable person and kinda charismatic. I can’t believe I just said that about myself bc I’m sure after my wreck people thought she died. I lost me in that accident! Well, she’s baaaaack! Yep, I said that like on “poltergeist”.

Demons can do all that stuff and it’s a little frightening … I am pissed off at satan though! You should be too!! That rat punk ass liar is making the world shut down. Instead of complaining y’all need to start talking to God and shut your mouths. Do you understand the more you complain the more you speak negative spirits in the world. Our words are walking. Shut UP!! The Bible tells us not to complain but we are such stupid humans and do not pay attention to it. I never knew spirits were so intense and there were so many. We are seriously at war w principalities, and the spirits from the devil, it is not against flesh and blood. God taught me today that demons can possess people and they do. they just aren’t as stunningly portrayed as in the movies. These things are smart and wait until the time is just right and then they come in like a freaking tornado. I am seriously pissed off and tired of that rat bastard beating me with the world.

And, what spirit do we have the most problem out of? Addiction!! This thing is running rampant right now in all the world. Look at all these addicts and they don’t even realize they are being harassed by Satan and need to kick his ass. We have dominion and it’s time we take it!! We can remove these spirits and allow the angels to fight this battle. We must grab our authority and speak the Word of God. This is terrifying… people are gonna think I’m insane. We are all addicted to something …. I dont care if it’s your dang morning coffee. Quit and see how you feel w caffeine withdrawal!! I went through it and I can tell ya I ain’t addicted to no coffee anymore. I do not like pain and it was like coming off benzo withdrawal!! I was sick! That is an addiction and I had to break that. I have had to break every addiction I’ve had and some where harder than others. That is a tip for all you folks that wanna walk in the Spirit ALL the time! I had an addiction to cigarettes, coffee, sex, gossip, pot, peanut butter, red velvet, pancakes, peanut butter m&m’s, there were several!! You get the point, right? Anything we put in front of God is an addiction and an idol. Can’t have those.

He lets you feel the Holy Spirit just enough you become addicted to Him instead of all this worldly stuff. Every time I sin it grieve Him I can feel His power leave me. I have to get out of His way and stop wanting to revel and get on board w all of this. I quit! I don’t want to not please Him anymore. Idk what all is coming but He’s making me learn a TON! I love to learn and I love to research – I think we are about to really start writing again. I have to stop walking, except to jog for my exercise, and start dancing again. I can see the future when I dance and I think I might have saw me giving everything up and quit dancing. I got aggravated about having to let some folks go. I won’t lie and I’m sorry if I am off schedule but I really think God already knew I’d buck a little. That is just who I am. I mean I asked Him if He would be quiet bc I was trying to watch my code. I’m so stupid like that and that is one aspect He loves about me when the world got in so badly I lost that boldness. Brain injury is some serious crap and ain’t no joke. And y’all should be more patient with them they are sick! No! They don’t look it, none of us look sick, they look like ME!! I am a brain injury survivor and people are asshats! Y’all all think you’re so good but you don’t treat people like you want to be treated. I think God had to show me what I was like. I was like y’all. I never thought anyone that looked as good as us were sick either. People are walking all around you with #BrainDamage and we are so full of ourselves with no regard to our fellow man! I cannot believe I was such an arrogant bitch. I mean people are just awful to the ones they are supposed to love and want to get better.

Y’all have no idea the negativity we’re spouting in the world. Every word out of your mouth is a spirit and alive. You either spew hate or you speak like God and release the good. For every bad there is good! A good spirit and your angel can kick that bad spirts ass. You gotta learn to discern the spirits or get to talking to someone that can. Become analytical for a moment. When there is an addiction spirit I can feel it. When you know yourself, your true self, where you will judge yourself you can tell every spirit that is around you bc you know how they make you feel. Addiction, for example, makes me want to do whatever my drug of choice is when I run into it. Say, a smoker. I can feel that addiction spirit bc I’ve dealt with it. I had to say some final farewells to a few of my favorite sins tonight. I can drink coffee again on occasion- if I can handle not getting addicted again. I like coffee but I do not want to be addicted to anything that crosses or grieves the Holy Spirit. My body is His temple and so is yours. They carried the ark of the covenant around in the OT. Today we get to carry Him around is us and produce those same kind of miracles. What are you waiting on? I want to see this show and I’m ready for it to start.

Get out of God’s way. He told me that tonight and it kinda terrified me, excited me, and made me curious all at the same time. I am so excited for my King. He is about to show out and there us about to be such an amazing harvest for the Kingdom. I’m curious at what all He is about to do. I mean He has shown me new organs, new limbs and healing in the spirit bc daggers from words are hindering the body from healings. I wanted to write something nurse-y there and was stopped. I had to back it up and delete it all bc He had to bring me to a spot where I believed He could and would heal anyone w the right vessel. Idk if that is me but I give it up!! I quit bc I don’t want anyone sick. I been there and I’ll spend my life praying for folks healings. I pray for healing and I promise your heart healing is much better than physical. Once your heart is healed you’re ok w everything going on around you. God’s peace is all you’ll ever need. He truly takes all the cares of this world away.

I do not care what one person thinks of me except Him!! He had to get me here too. It’s hard loving everyone. There is a way to say everything and our approach is everything. I can tell you many things bc of my life experiences and put it in a perspective everyone can grasp to hear the truth. People that get all up in their feelings over politics are truly selfish individuals… see there He’s profiling!! I knew He made me learn all of that for a reason. I had to be them so I could see them. It’s so true that what you do not like in someone else is what you dislike about who you used to be like and the things you didn’t like in yourself. When you were broken. Wow! That is deep… I can spot a fraud a mile away bc I used to be one. It’s all a facade mostly.

I was not ever a mean person, really, but had to appear that way bc of where I grew up and well, I’ve always been a smart ass know it all. 😂 I know who I was. I still know it all but I can tell someone much more politely now. Tact is such a wonderful thing. I could really cuss someone out and never say a curse word. Wow!! He did that too bc I was a fighter. I mean fist fighter! Let’s take it to the streets and handle this. I was over that petty Betty bs. Put up or shut up was my motto lmbo. I have had to fight for everything and my pride was definitely one of them things. I never heard I’m proud of you too much so I made myself proud and never let a bully go free. I was mean but not bully mean. I was not really mean until someone crossed me and then one match became an explosion. I wouldn’t stop making their life hell until I was happy w the end results of revenge. I was my very own god… vengeance is the Lords and me taking the reins away leading my own life was taking His job from Him.

He wants us all to have this relationship with Him and created us to commune with Him. The blogs this week is what He has taught me this week. That is now what the blog has become- what He is teaching me so I’m sure there might be one on sex demons … I’ve got some more research to do on this subject. God leads me to certain books of the Bible to show me things. It’s all really cool bc I won’t talk about a subject until I grasp it. I wouldn’t but now I kinda wanna know what others think.

He reveals things to me when I am still w Him. I can’t get sucked in by this world or worry at all. You’re not supposed to either. Bible tells us to be anxious about nothing instead pray about everything. This keeps us in constant communication with God. He talks back when we make Him our all. I mean full blown conversations all day. I even argue with God or plead with Him in my heart. I feel like that is where some of my sense is now. You know the good senses that are supposed to be in my head? This is all SO crazy!! I love I’m not the only one He is doing this too. I just get to be a revealer. Wow! That is intense… do y’all know some of the stuff He wants said? I am such a sinner and have quenched His Spirt (grieved Him) that is a verse Eph 4:20. Wow! I can’t even believe what all He has done. Can y’all even believe this? If He can do this to me He can do it to you!!

Don’t you want to be addicted to your 1st love? God is love and we love because He loves us first. He was and will always be our 1st love. We all came from heaven and that is supposed to be where we all return. He knew us before we were ever formed in the womb… we are spirit with a shell of a body to house it. He formed us in His own image. God is spirit. Idk if y’all are getting this but I’m getting a.Bible lesson. I told Him I was nothing more than a stupid human and He had to break it down for me. He does and He can get down right to the nitty gritty. He is your friend and knows your personality and He wants to please you too. It’s a relationship of give and take. He wants what He wants and it’s really best to give it to Him. He is the best feeling ever!! I mean He hooked me. This is like walking in pure ecstasy every second of my life. I love Him so much!. God has become my new drug !! I can’t even believe Him and what He has done. I get to wake up like this tomorrow too. He’s taught me how to stay one with Him!

We are definitely under grace but there are still some things that will take folks to hell and the Bible clearly states that. He’s serious about His word. I’ve had to say I’m sorry and mean it a lot!! What is so funny is I do truly mean it. Some of those sins were fun!! Some of it I didn’t really want to say I was sorry for and mean it. He got me to a place where I truly want to please Him. I just can’t even w our God! He truly amazes me and I want everyone to get here. Are you ready? I think this means I’m gonna have to do some research and go live once a week for sure. Maybe more bc I like getting y’all to think about stuff too. I don’t think a lot of people are seeing the videos. Can you share them w others. I really didn’t want to put myself out there like that but I’m game if He is. This is a huge trust level. Do y’all understand there is #Double judgment attached to me for all of this? I ain’t going back to hell for nobody or nothing!!

I had a love for money and liked making it. It was an addiction. God had to break me from that too. I had money not too long ago but God removed all of it. I lost absolutely everything bc He made me let it all go. I held on to what He allowed and it was all meaningful… things attached w feelings stayed with me. I had to let a lot of things go to include people. It was not the easiest thing I’ve ever done. I had to get over every heartache that was inflicted upon me and love them anyway. Which means I truly forgave them bc I really don’t want any harm to come to them.

Three strikes and folks is out of the VIP section of my life. They went to the balcony and I can live them from afar! God has shown what is really in people’s hearts. It isn’t wise to stay in relationships that don’t make you feel better about yourself. That hurt a lot, I’ll be honest. We think we know someone to only see what they really fill their lives with and I can’t be apart of that negativity!! When you’re around only negative spirits your whole like will be sucked in by it. We are what we will ourselves with. Turn off that tv and get in the word of God. He reads your thoughts ya know? What you put in your head is what you’re constantly thinking about. I don’t want to think negative bc I don’t want to be negative. What is in our hearts will spew out of us.

This was a whole lot tonight and I didn’t even document all of the stuff we went over. Tonight was intense but I’m thinking life is about to take off… I’m really excited to do life God’s way. I’ve never done this before and I said I’d do anything for science. This all started as a hide and seek God and I playing about 12 years ago when a lot of me changed bc of Him the first time. I got around negative and resorted back to old ways… that will not happen again!! I am strong enough to handle my comeback and you best believe I’m coming for all of it. I’m pissed of at satan and I want 7 times more than what he stole from me!! I wish I had known all of this a while ago and would have really faced that chic looking back at me in the mirror. I would judge others but not look inside of me. I felt terrible when God showed me that sin. I dance walking on HWY 1. At first I thought people would react but they aren’t paying attention to me. We are so stuck on ourselves and problems we forget to have fun. Slow down and enjoy your life. Look what all He put for us to enjoy. We rush around like chickens w our heads cut off and miss everything that could be special. Making money isn’t everything. Don’t forget who really owns all that money!! God has a mass treasury department in heaven full of what we think are riches. He is the only true provider! We think we do it by our jobs but He did that. For He knows the plans He has for us…

God, Thank You for tonight and all these cool revelations. Thanks for Your teachings and I am all yours. I submit totally. You have me and You had me at hello!! I know it was cheesy but so am I. Thank You for my family and my friends and all the readers. Have their angels go before them and cover them with Your precious shield. Guide us, protect us, and put us in Your will. Thank You for trusting me! Thank You for being an awesome God. In Jesus name- amen. We declare the Holy Spirit is living on the inside of us.

In the Bible Jesus gave us two commandments to ensure we never broke the first ten. If we love God with all of our heart, strength and mind we want to please Him more than ourselves. If we love our neighbors as we love ourselves we will never hurt them. When we have the inability to forgive lingering in our hearts we are not walking in love. Walking in love is the only way to walk in the supernatural with the Lord and manifest things into our natural. Is this the hardest thing that God could have ever told us we have to do? I would say absolutely because it is HARD to love the difficult folks. They do not care if you love them but they want to knock you down when you have finally gotten up from your last fall. They are obstacles blocking your next blessing.. until you learn to really love them and forgive them.

Loving someone does not mean that they can treat you badly and that you have to surround yourself with them. Toxic is toxic no matter who they are. If their words are always condemning they are not walking with Christ. They are not following the way God told us to be and are not good for any of us but we must learn to forgive, forget, and see them as Christ does. Many times after we think evil it will come out of our mouths, more often than not to be honest. If I am annoyed I will not even go around the person that made me that way or talk to them. I purposely distance myself until I figure out what they did to make me so mad. Why what they said or did bothered me so badly. Did they bust my trust? Lie? Blame me for something I did not do? Did I think they were being unfair? Once I figured this out I could move past whatever it was that made me mad. I am a pretty unconventional person but I can analyze myself better than anyone else can. No matter what I felt I had to remember I am not perfect, either. Even though I may not have committed their sin or evil towards another I am no better. I am still a sinner. This was not an easy lesson and it still isn’t, if I am being 100% honest. Loving those that purposely hurt us or those we love is something God has put me around to teach me not to be a Saul. There are times God will put us around a Saul in order to prepare us for the good and the Davids on their way. We cannot appreciation all of the good until we have experienced the bad. We cannot see what God has for us if we never walk in the valley.

God is showing people exactly what is in other people’s heart and it is important we pay attention. We need to know how people really feel and pray for them. Does this sound crazy? YES!! The last thing I usually want to do is pray for people that hurt me or make me mad but I have found that this is the only way I can keep my pure heart for God. I cannot let all of these little foxes spoil the vine. When love is the cure for every illness and we come to terms with that it becomes a little easier to love those we would rather pluck the eyeballs right out of. (Smile) all of this is doable because I do it. There is a man in my life that I used to be in love with but he has said and done so many things he took that love away all on his own. When I realized I was not in love with him because of his true personality and the evil in his heart I did not want to even look at him much less love him. God has really been dealing with me about this- BIG time!! Today my reading was in Luke 6&7, and I was taken to the Passion translation. When God has something He wants you to see if you pay attention and be obedient He will show you. There are times God does not have to say a word… He just proves His point. Today I got that point. The Bible says that when we are mistreated or harmed by someone that is our opportunity it pray for them. We must accept that mission and pray for that difficult person we do not want to love. It is impossible to hate someone you are asking God to bless AND we dump hot heated coals on the heads of our enemies when we pray for them. What better revenge than to let God take care of it? I used to not be this way and would allow people to feel the wrath of Ann, my alter ego. She is so mean that I have had to completely get rid of her. She was the boldness in me that would take revenge and get even with anyone that crossed me. She had to die. It was like having another personality inside me, and I believe there was really a spirit not of God that was plaguing me. The Bible says that evil can inhabit people without us even knowing so I had to push that out. Since God is a spirit and we have a spirit inside of us, if it isn’t His spirit then it is one of satan’s and it is up to us to discern this matter and take care of it. The Holy Spirit really lives in those that love! Those that truly love Him AND obey His commands live as one with God. God is in them and they are in God (John 14) I know this is a lot to take in but stay with me. Whoever passionately loves Jesus will be loved by the Father and He will love us in return AND manifest Himself in us. The only way to truly walk with God is to love. Love really is the greatest gift. If we have an obedience problem we have a love problem! The Bible says that loving Him empowers us to obey His Word, and this includes loving those difficult folks! The Holy Spirit that lives in me is God!! I have God living in me, do you? Some folks claim to be saved and think they are going to heaven but they hate.. hate is not of God!! Better clean up your heart and not just to walk in the supernatural but so you do not go to hell. WOW! That is powerful and I am so impressed by our God. I have not felt as close to God as I normally do because sin separates us. I knew this was a love problem but I didn’t know it was this bad. People think that I write these to teach and I love to teach the Word of God but I could never come up with something this good. God cracks me up and is using this blog to teach us all! I love y’all so much! Have a fabulously blessed day! Do not forget God does not want you to be treated badly you are His child so do not go back to toxic because you are lonely!!

Father God, thank You for the spirit of wisdom whom I call my sister. Thank You for Your love. Your forgiveness and thank You for teaching me to forgive myself and others that may never seek mine or Your forgiveness. Thank You! Thank You for revelation of Your Word. We are so excited to do life with You and to manifest You to the masses. Thank You!! Thank You for all of Your provision. Thank You for Your spirit that lives in me. Thank You for being one with me, I could have never done this alone. I am truly not this smart. Thank You! Father, help me forgive where I haven’t. Show us where our hearts need to be healed and keep us pure. We want beauty for our ashes, Lord. Help us to always seek You above all and to never have an idol. Show us where we are wrong and forgive us of our sins, dear Lord. Forgive me and teach me how to completely forgive myself. I declare that the Holy Spirit is living in me. And I praise You because I am so not worthy. Bless those that have harmed us Father. Teach them Your Word and help them to be better people. Allow us to love even the most difficult people as You have loved us when we were the most difficult children You had. Teach us to always walk in love so we are never separated from You that lives in us! Thank You Lord! Thank You!! In Jesus name I seal this prayer. Amen

The love of God and to God should come so easily to all of us but I will be the first to admit that this is not always the case. It is a learned experience… it just is especially to us dumb humans. If you really think about God it is hard to come to terms with loving someone you cannot always see. Someone you cannot always feel and you often wonder if He left you. I know I have been there. I have been there many times in my life and have learned numerous lessons because of this and I hope that everyone can learn from me. Please learn from me.

I have learned that my problem with food stemmed from what God wants me to talk about and speak out upon. I never chose to be a hell, fire and brimstone speaker. Who wants them? Not me! I will be honest because nobody wants to talk about the reality of hell or what will send you there. I can feel the choke in my throat because if I do not do this who will? Who can tell you better how to stay outta there than someone who has been there? Would I have stayed in hell for eternity had it not been my time to die… yes! That is what pains me to no extent because I was not the worst one of what my tribe looks like. We all have hidden sins that must be exposed inside of us that we have to move away from. We MUST!! We must know that God is love and we love Him because He loved us first. Most of us are parents and we know that love of our children. God has that same love for us! We loved our children from the moment that pregnancy test was positive no matter what the circumstances we loved them. That is how God loves us and it is a beautiful love. We must never forget our first love because when we do He will spit us out of His mouth. It is better to not know God at all than to be like warm coffee that goes down the sink drain.

It is time our world know the truth and that is if we do not clean up our acts there will be more people in hell than in heaven. I did not come back to tell people they were going to hell because I hate hearing that but I did come back in order to tell everyone how to keep their butts outta there. There are many laws and many sins! If we do not ask for forgiveness what does He have to forgive? If we do not move away from our favorite hidden sins we have not repented. If we do not treat people as we want to be treated we are breaking a commandment. Do we always treat others as we want to be treated? NOPE! I get mad and want to go stab someone’s eyeballs out.. I do not want my eyeballs stabbed out so I have to pray and pray hard for God to take over because my flesh is seriously weak. Being in constant communication with God is what has saved a lot of lives. I tell people all the time I could have been a serial killer and I am not even kidding. I hated people and I know now that I cannot hate anyone, not even those that piss me off to extremes that I need to pray for their lives. It is impossible to continue to hate someone you are praying for and the Bible says if you pray for your enemies you are pouring hot coals on their heads!! That verse made me start praying for everyone. I really had a mean spirit attached to me. God has really changed me and removed the world from who I am now. It still amazes me at what God can get accomplished when we allow Him to move. I was trouble and dancing on bars, smoking and drinking, wanting to kill folks and He did all of this to me so nobody can ever tell me that God cannot do it to them.

Learning who God is and grasping the concept of what Jesus did for us is learning what love truly is. I have always loved the Lord but I will be 100 with everyone I never loved like I love Him today. I do totally put God first and He is the first thing that crosses my mind in the morning and the last thing that crosses it before bed. He is my first, my middle and my last. I have learned how to speak to Him without ceasing and He is my BFF! Did I know all of this was possible? Absolutely not! I have always been an extrovert and thought I needed people around me constantly but God has changed that as well. I need people and I love everyone do not mistake my words but I have learned that I really love Jesus more than anyone. I came back from death like this but, again, lost this love and feeling because the world will make your heart hard. Having a pure heart for God is some serious hard work. God had to remove people that constantly hurt me, tried to keep me in my past, held things over my head, reminded me of who I used to be and those that refused to get to know the new and improved me. I had to ask Him to get rid of them though. I had to ask, beg really, to bring me back to the person I was when I escaped death and totally fell in love with Him. I had to return to being that person that remembered and clung to every word He spoke to me. I had to get back as one with the Holy Spirit.. do you realize that the Holy Spirit living inside of you is God? It is Jesus, God, which is spirit – His spirit living in you!! The God-head lives inside of me, does He live in you? It took me a bit to come to terms with this too.. why would God ever come live in someone like me? Because of His love for His children. If you love anyone you have an innate love for God when you do not even know it. We were born to love not hate others. Is it always easy to love those difficult folks? Oh, heck no! I will not ever lie about any of this and the fact that none of it is easy but nothing worth having has ever come easy to me. I have had to work for everything I have ever had and I do not mind working on my relationship with Jesus. He doe not owe me anything but I owe Him everything.

His love will wreck you! He is a wrecking ball to sin. He is a love that permeates your entire being. A love that is incomprehensible without Him living inside of you. I thank Him for wrecking me in His love. I thank Him for every experience I had to walk through, even hell, because it has made me who I am. I was born to walk through that fire. I am a very bold person with a testament of hell… I had to ask for that bold spirit back because TBI totally destroyed all of me. I learned so much about the hate in our world. I had some things said to me that nobody deserves no matter what they have done in their life. I learned how to treat people how I want to be treated and saw that verse come alive. I had someone tell me that I should have stayed dead that the world would be a better place without me. I was called an embarrassment and saw people enjoyed causing strife in the lives of others. These people have demonic spirits lingering, an un-forgiving spirit for one, and need to cast them out of them. Some of these spirits live on the inside of us and I know that because I have experienced them, and not just speaking in our ears. People have no idea what satan is capable of to enlist folks into his army. I have worked for him so I can tell when others are. It breaks my heart and it used to infuriate me at those people but now I know I can only pray for their deliverance. In order to get delivered by God someone has to ask because He is a total gentleman and will not go where He is not wanted. So many think they are saved forever but they treat His children badly and are happy about what they have done- this is a common distraction from Satan. Why people do not understand or try to know their enemy is beyond me. I would want to know if I was gonna bust hell wide open on a slip and slide. I have heard hell sermons before but they were based on the opinion of the pastor speaking them. I was told I was going to hell for not wearing a dress to church and for having an abortion.. those were not the reasons I went to hell. Jesus does not have a dress code as long as we bring our best to Him! He is also a very forgiving person when we are truly sorry and repent for our sins. I have no opinions left, well, I do, but I cannot share them. I can only tell about crap I have done and how He saved me. I can only speak what He allows because I am not going back to hell for nothing or anybody! Believe that! Hell scared all of the hell right outta me!

We speak so much about Jesus and His death we have forgotten what that means and its significance. I have witness this and been guilty of it. We completely forget the impact His death should have. We have forgotten that not only did He die for us but He was killed INSTEAD OF US! The one on that cross should have been all of us – for the wage of sin IS death. Historians of that era say Jesus Christ’s body was so damaged He was literally unrecognizable. Ever been to a crime scene or seen photos of decayed bodies where dental records had to be used to identify them? This was our God! His flesh was like that of hamburger meat. When He left the whipping post He was so damaged and disfigured. Have you ever died? If so would you die for the entire world? Would you go through all of that for people you do not even know? Would you want to relive it over and over again? Can you now, maybe, catch the impact of what He did for us?! He should have never been the one up there but it was us that belonged there for all of our sins but especially those that we keep hidden in our hearts. Those hidden sins will send many to hell because they have completely forgotten who God is, or they think it is all a joke. Hell is not a joke. Hell is not here on earth as so many tend to believe but it is a literal place where evil lives in the walls. Please know that Jesus does not want anyone in hell. He does not send us there but we send ourselves there because we do not pay attention to His Word. We do not catch the literalness of His meaning behind His Words. Do you realize satan has so much evil that he has not even released into our world, yet? We think it is bad now and so many think this is the end but he has not even gotten started good yet. This is nothing as what is to come. It is nothing to come for those that will not escape his trenches and land in hell. People need to remember who they are in and through Christ and allow God to live on the inside of them because that is the true ONLY way to escape hell. This truly gave me some PTSD, just the screams of people that are already there. Our family members that chose not to accept Jesus and turn from their sins very well could be of those screams- if that does not affect you nothing I say ever will. If you could hear those screams and the laughs of the demons causing those screams because of their torture… I never want another soul to hear what I did. It is all there, know that!

It is not easy to move away from those favorite sins but it is more than possible with Jesus. I have had to move away from every substance in this world and that was not easy. I have come to see that speaking out about all of this is what caused me to eat my feelings. I am over that but it took deliverance on God’s part to move me away from it because it is easier to eat than talk about hell. It is easier to grab the jar of peanut butter than to tell folks hell is real. It is easier to sit out on the porch with coffee and cigs than to write in this blog. All the sins are easier. It is easier to get stoned out of my mind to escape the screams I can sometimes hear in the background. I know! Trust me I know … but with Jesus we are all dressed in white and cleansed of our sins. He brings us back to righteousness! He makes us pure as new fallen snow that allows us into the throne room of God. He prays for us. He laid down His life for you… what more will it take? I cannot change everyone’s mind but your blood will not be on my hands. I can and hopefully will make you think though.

Father, thank You for letting us come before You. Thank You for Your never ending love and that nothing we do can remove that love from us. Thank You for holding us closely to You. Thank You for Your deliverance from the valley. Thank You for dressing us in white, it is priceless. Thank Your for Your blood, Your mercy, Your grace and thank You for dying in my place. Thank You for Your instruction and Your reckless love. You do not wreck us but we wreck ourselves and You come in to clean up our messes and we praise You for this. Thank You! We could never thank You enough. We can never understand our errors and we need You to cleanse us of our secret faults. Keep us from our presumptive sins, and let them not ever have dominion over us. That we may be blameless in Your sight and we may be innocent of transgressions. Forgive us for our sins, _____ (name them) and move us away from anything that hinders our relationship with You. We need You and we know that. We can never live anything of You on our own and we need You to take over and live through us. Let the words of our mouths and the meditations of our hearts be acceptable in Your sight. O Lord, you are our strength and our redeemer. Thank You! We ask that Your message be known to those that need it and grab the hearts of the lost, Lord, and bring them back to You and Your will for them. Remove all demonic forces in and around us. We cancel any plots, plans, and schemes devised by the enemy to come against us and Your children Father. Wrap Your arms around our country and hold it with Your steadfast love. Comfort us as only You can. Teach us to do marvelous things since we understand You live inside of us. Allow us to move only with You. Cleanse us and make us righteous in Your sight. We love You! In Jesus name we pray and we seal this prayer in Your precious name- Amen