Be Still & Shut up

The love of God and to God should come so easily to all of us but I will be the first to admit that this is not always the case. It is a learned experience… it just is especially to us dumb humans. If you really think about God it is hard to come to terms with loving someone you cannot always see. Someone you cannot always feel and you often wonder if He left you. I know I have been there. I have been there many times in my life and have learned numerous lessons because of this and I hope that everyone can learn from me. Please learn from me.

I have learned that my problem with food stemmed from what God wants me to talk about and speak out upon. I never chose to be a hell, fire and brimstone speaker. Who wants them? Not me! I will be honest because nobody wants to talk about the reality of hell or what will send you there. I can feel the choke in my throat because if I do not do this who will? Who can tell you better how to stay outta there than someone who has been there? Would I have stayed in hell for eternity had it not been my time to die… yes! That is what pains me to no extent because I was not the worst one of what my tribe looks like. We all have hidden sins that must be exposed inside of us that we have to move away from. We MUST!! We must know that God is love and we love Him because He loved us first. Most of us are parents and we know that love of our children. God has that same love for us! We loved our children from the moment that pregnancy test was positive no matter what the circumstances we loved them. That is how God loves us and it is a beautiful love. We must never forget our first love because when we do He will spit us out of His mouth. It is better to not know God at all than to be like warm coffee that goes down the sink drain.

It is time our world know the truth and that is if we do not clean up our acts there will be more people in hell than in heaven. I did not come back to tell people they were going to hell because I hate hearing that but I did come back in order to tell everyone how to keep their butts outta there. There are many laws and many sins! If we do not ask for forgiveness what does He have to forgive? If we do not move away from our favorite hidden sins we have not repented. If we do not treat people as we want to be treated we are breaking a commandment. Do we always treat others as we want to be treated? NOPE! I get mad and want to go stab someone’s eyeballs out.. I do not want my eyeballs stabbed out so I have to pray and pray hard for God to take over because my flesh is seriously weak. Being in constant communication with God is what has saved a lot of lives. I tell people all the time I could have been a serial killer and I am not even kidding. I hated people and I know now that I cannot hate anyone, not even those that piss me off to extremes that I need to pray for their lives. It is impossible to continue to hate someone you are praying for and the Bible says if you pray for your enemies you are pouring hot coals on their heads!! That verse made me start praying for everyone. I really had a mean spirit attached to me. God has really changed me and removed the world from who I am now. It still amazes me at what God can get accomplished when we allow Him to move. I was trouble and dancing on bars, smoking and drinking, wanting to kill folks and He did all of this to me so nobody can ever tell me that God cannot do it to them.

Learning who God is and grasping the concept of what Jesus did for us is learning what love truly is. I have always loved the Lord but I will be 100 with everyone I never loved like I love Him today. I do totally put God first and He is the first thing that crosses my mind in the morning and the last thing that crosses it before bed. He is my first, my middle and my last. I have learned how to speak to Him without ceasing and He is my BFF! Did I know all of this was possible? Absolutely not! I have always been an extrovert and thought I needed people around me constantly but God has changed that as well. I need people and I love everyone do not mistake my words but I have learned that I really love Jesus more than anyone. I came back from death like this but, again, lost this love and feeling because the world will make your heart hard. Having a pure heart for God is some serious hard work. God had to remove people that constantly hurt me, tried to keep me in my past, held things over my head, reminded me of who I used to be and those that refused to get to know the new and improved me. I had to ask Him to get rid of them though. I had to ask, beg really, to bring me back to the person I was when I escaped death and totally fell in love with Him. I had to return to being that person that remembered and clung to every word He spoke to me. I had to get back as one with the Holy Spirit.. do you realize that the Holy Spirit living inside of you is God? It is Jesus, God, which is spirit – His spirit living in you!! The God-head lives inside of me, does He live in you? It took me a bit to come to terms with this too.. why would God ever come live in someone like me? Because of His love for His children. If you love anyone you have an innate love for God when you do not even know it. We were born to love not hate others. Is it always easy to love those difficult folks? Oh, heck no! I will not ever lie about any of this and the fact that none of it is easy but nothing worth having has ever come easy to me. I have had to work for everything I have ever had and I do not mind working on my relationship with Jesus. He doe not owe me anything but I owe Him everything.

His love will wreck you! He is a wrecking ball to sin. He is a love that permeates your entire being. A love that is incomprehensible without Him living inside of you. I thank Him for wrecking me in His love. I thank Him for every experience I had to walk through, even hell, because it has made me who I am. I was born to walk through that fire. I am a very bold person with a testament of hell… I had to ask for that bold spirit back because TBI totally destroyed all of me. I learned so much about the hate in our world. I had some things said to me that nobody deserves no matter what they have done in their life. I learned how to treat people how I want to be treated and saw that verse come alive. I had someone tell me that I should have stayed dead that the world would be a better place without me. I was called an embarrassment and saw people enjoyed causing strife in the lives of others. These people have demonic spirits lingering, an un-forgiving spirit for one, and need to cast them out of them. Some of these spirits live on the inside of us and I know that because I have experienced them, and not just speaking in our ears. People have no idea what satan is capable of to enlist folks into his army. I have worked for him so I can tell when others are. It breaks my heart and it used to infuriate me at those people but now I know I can only pray for their deliverance. In order to get delivered by God someone has to ask because He is a total gentleman and will not go where He is not wanted. So many think they are saved forever but they treat His children badly and are happy about what they have done- this is a common distraction from Satan. Why people do not understand or try to know their enemy is beyond me. I would want to know if I was gonna bust hell wide open on a slip and slide. I have heard hell sermons before but they were based on the opinion of the pastor speaking them. I was told I was going to hell for not wearing a dress to church and for having an abortion.. those were not the reasons I went to hell. Jesus does not have a dress code as long as we bring our best to Him! He is also a very forgiving person when we are truly sorry and repent for our sins. I have no opinions left, well, I do, but I cannot share them. I can only tell about crap I have done and how He saved me. I can only speak what He allows because I am not going back to hell for nothing or anybody! Believe that! Hell scared all of the hell right outta me!

We speak so much about Jesus and His death we have forgotten what that means and its significance. I have witness this and been guilty of it. We completely forget the impact His death should have. We have forgotten that not only did He die for us but He was killed INSTEAD OF US! The one on that cross should have been all of us – for the wage of sin IS death. Historians of that era say Jesus Christ’s body was so damaged He was literally unrecognizable. Ever been to a crime scene or seen photos of decayed bodies where dental records had to be used to identify them? This was our God! His flesh was like that of hamburger meat. When He left the whipping post He was so damaged and disfigured. Have you ever died? If so would you die for the entire world? Would you go through all of that for people you do not even know? Would you want to relive it over and over again? Can you now, maybe, catch the impact of what He did for us?! He should have never been the one up there but it was us that belonged there for all of our sins but especially those that we keep hidden in our hearts. Those hidden sins will send many to hell because they have completely forgotten who God is, or they think it is all a joke. Hell is not a joke. Hell is not here on earth as so many tend to believe but it is a literal place where evil lives in the walls. Please know that Jesus does not want anyone in hell. He does not send us there but we send ourselves there because we do not pay attention to His Word. We do not catch the literalness of His meaning behind His Words. Do you realize satan has so much evil that he has not even released into our world, yet? We think it is bad now and so many think this is the end but he has not even gotten started good yet. This is nothing as what is to come. It is nothing to come for those that will not escape his trenches and land in hell. People need to remember who they are in and through Christ and allow God to live on the inside of them because that is the true ONLY way to escape hell. This truly gave me some PTSD, just the screams of people that are already there. Our family members that chose not to accept Jesus and turn from their sins very well could be of those screams- if that does not affect you nothing I say ever will. If you could hear those screams and the laughs of the demons causing those screams because of their torture… I never want another soul to hear what I did. It is all there, know that!

It is not easy to move away from those favorite sins but it is more than possible with Jesus. I have had to move away from every substance in this world and that was not easy. I have come to see that speaking out about all of this is what caused me to eat my feelings. I am over that but it took deliverance on God’s part to move me away from it because it is easier to eat than talk about hell. It is easier to grab the jar of peanut butter than to tell folks hell is real. It is easier to sit out on the porch with coffee and cigs than to write in this blog. All the sins are easier. It is easier to get stoned out of my mind to escape the screams I can sometimes hear in the background. I know! Trust me I know … but with Jesus we are all dressed in white and cleansed of our sins. He brings us back to righteousness! He makes us pure as new fallen snow that allows us into the throne room of God. He prays for us. He laid down His life for you… what more will it take? I cannot change everyone’s mind but your blood will not be on my hands. I can and hopefully will make you think though.

Father, thank You for letting us come before You. Thank You for Your never ending love and that nothing we do can remove that love from us. Thank You for holding us closely to You. Thank You for Your deliverance from the valley. Thank You for dressing us in white, it is priceless. Thank Your for Your blood, Your mercy, Your grace and thank You for dying in my place. Thank You for Your instruction and Your reckless love. You do not wreck us but we wreck ourselves and You come in to clean up our messes and we praise You for this. Thank You! We could never thank You enough. We can never understand our errors and we need You to cleanse us of our secret faults. Keep us from our presumptive sins, and let them not ever have dominion over us. That we may be blameless in Your sight and we may be innocent of transgressions. Forgive us for our sins, _____ (name them) and move us away from anything that hinders our relationship with You. We need You and we know that. We can never live anything of You on our own and we need You to take over and live through us. Let the words of our mouths and the meditations of our hearts be acceptable in Your sight. O Lord, you are our strength and our redeemer. Thank You! We ask that Your message be known to those that need it and grab the hearts of the lost, Lord, and bring them back to You and Your will for them. Remove all demonic forces in and around us. We cancel any plots, plans, and schemes devised by the enemy to come against us and Your children Father. Wrap Your arms around our country and hold it with Your steadfast love. Comfort us as only You can. Teach us to do marvelous things since we understand You live inside of us. Allow us to move only with You. Cleanse us and make us righteous in Your sight. We love You! In Jesus name we pray and we seal this prayer in Your precious name- Amen

There are so many of us that struggle with one thing or another. Addictions you could call them… I have had them too. One of my most recent discovery was that I was addicted to food. What I did not do was pray for God to deliver me from it because I did not believe I was addicted to food, of all things. BUT, let me tell you, it was worse than I had expected. A very dear friend of mine introduced me to a new way of eating and dependence on God. I pray and I pray a whole lot but what I did not pray for was for my head, my heart and my gut to line up with what God wanted for my body. That is ultimately for me to enjoy the good foods but know when to stop eating them. To know I do not have to eat my feelings but I can give them all to my Heavenly Father. God has taught me so much about me and Him in the last season of my life. I know what God can do because He has done it in me. There are so many self-help books out there and some of them we really need to give a chance. The ones that focus on the Word of God, anyway. I recently read a book “The Weigh Down” by Gwen Shamblins and was taken aback by what all God will do with our diet. God has delivered me from many known substances and shown me that He can deliver us from any and all addictions no matter what they are. I believe addiction starts with a spirit from satan but ultimately our body will come to react to what it knows.

In order for God to deliver us from anything we must ask Him to. He is such a gentleman and is not going to come in on the scene unasked. I was a smoker for 30 years,. Yes, I started as a teenager stupidly. I liked to smoke and enjoy a cup of coffee in the mornings. I have quit several times throughout my life but this time God did it. I straight up told Him that I liked to smoke and He was going to have to take it away if He did not want me smoking. I went to a conference November of 2019 and by that Saturday night I was no longer a smoker. Why He took it then is beyond me but He did. When the conference was over I lit up a cigarette and it tasted like ass… not that I know what ass tastes like but this is what I would imagine it to be. I threw the smoke out the window and was done. I have since smoked a few cigarettes to see if they are still nasty and they really weren’t so I believe with all of me the spirit of addiction was trying to come back. The Bible says that when a spirit is removed it will try to come back and if the person’s house is not clean and swept it will bring back seven more spirits making the person worse off than it was originally. Good news! I was able to throw that whole pack of cigarettes away that I had bought and throwing them away did not even bother me. I no longer need them and I can tell when that spirit is lingering and wants to rear its ugly head again because I will crave a smoke and taste that nastiness from the night I quit.

I have also been delivered from the love of alcohol and cannabis. When I went to my Neurologist appointment after my wreck and he saw my scans He told me the quickest way to heal was with the use of cannabis. It was very hard for me to smoke it because I had collapsed a lung in the accident so I found another way to use it. I learned to make canna butter and put it in my coffee. I will always believe that God put cannabis here in order for us to be able to help our bodies heal but we are not to use it in order to simply get high. I did at the end of my use because life was not what I wanted it to be or the way I had envisioned it. I have learned that this is why we overindulge in anything especially substances that take us out of our heads: pills, alcohol, weed.. etc. it is because we do not like our lives. The Bible says we are to be content but that was pretty hard for me to be. I am 44 years old, died in a car wreck and had a severe brain injury. I was pissed at life and myself and at times God. I cannot tell you how many times I regretted coming back to earth during the last 7 years. Never again though because I have found my deliverance from all oppression. I am no longer in Egypt but I have crossed over into the Promise Land of what life is. Is my life perfect? Nope but I have learned to be content and to use my voice as a weapon! Life and death are in the power of our tongues. God’s love for me makes me content in all situations. Was it hard to get here? I will be honest.. kinda. I started small with 5-10 mins a day and before I knew it I was spending hours a day with God and craving MORE!

I was also delivered from pre-marital sex. Wow, He is just making me throw this all out there.. lol. I cannot help but to laugh with Him because it is not to make me look bad but to allow everyone to know if He can and will do this for me He can and will do it for anyone that asks. Did I have to put forth some effort? YES!! I had to ask for all of this and I knew when I was being tested. I started to approach everything as a test so I would not fail Him again. I have failed Him so badly! Do not ever think He holds it against you because He is not like people that throw you away. God always has His arms open wanting your return! No matter what your addiction is seek Him. Look what He has done for me and I am nothing special in our world. I am a normal every day person that has been delivered by our God. If you are a believer He can deliver you. If you aren’t it is pretty easy to get His help. We are saved by faith and allowed a bunch of grace. Faith is everything and it is impossible to please Him without it. When you pray you must believe you are being delivered. Ward off any evil, go to bed and wake up a new person. What have you really got to lose? It is time we all take the next step to deliverance.

If you do not know God lets take care of that. Father God, I know I need You in my life. I know You came to earth as a person, as Jesus, and died in my place for my sins. Thank You for loving me. I know I am a sinner and I ask for Your forgiveness and You adopting me into Your family. I admit I need You in my life and ask You to come and dwell inside of me. In Jesus name- Amen.

It is as easy as that. You got the Holy Spirit and I would love to hear about it. I would love to hear how and what God delivered you from. I had to pray and ask for everything and I recommend that to everyone. Simply, because He is a good, good Father that is just like us in so many ways. We desire to be needed and so does He. Does He need us for an ego boost? Absolutely not but we sure need Him. And, we need to acknowledge all His greatness. Won’t you allow God to deliver you from yourself too?

Letting go of the past is something so many of us have problems with. We constantly ask ourselves what if? What if I had done this or they had done that? Would it of worked? Chances are that answer is no! Toxic is toxic and we must move past all of it.

There are many things and some people I’ve had to let go of in this season. I had to get rid of all the toxic that tried to keep me stuck in my past and I recommend that you do as well. People that constantly throw something you did in your face do not get to go into your future with you. They can see that tiny speck in your eye but not the plank in their own. These people are miserable inside their own skin with major insecurities and they strive to bring you down as low as they are to keep you. If they can demolish your self worth you will never feel good enough for what God has for you. This is a character trait of the enemy!! Satan has tons of people working for him that do not even realize they are in his army. God is raising up His own army and this is a fight we must win!

Is it always easy letting go of things? No!! I have struggled and still struggle daily with some things God told me to get rid of. I do not know if I will ever get some of them back or if they are gone for good. It was not easy but it is doable because we must stop and think about what Jesus did for us on the cross. That should have been us up there and not ever God!! For the wage of sin is death and we must heal from this world. We cannot love anything more than God. We cannot put anything or anyone before Him. The Bible says that we cannot love our children more than Him and if we do we are not worthy to be His disciples (Matt 10:37). This one hit me in the gut because I did love my children more than anything and anyone, to include the Lord. I have since realized how wrong I was, handed my children over to the Lord and repented for this common mistake parents make. Forgive us Lord for we are such stupid humans.

I have also held on to toxic relationships and learned to acquire a healthy love for myself. That was hard for me because I felt it was me being selfish but we must learn to love ourselves if we want to love our neighbors. It’s a command from God. How can we possibly know how to love others if we do not know how to properly love ourselves. That does not mean be selfish but instead it must be a healthy love of ourselves. I cannot go buy me $3000 in clothes while I see a child without socks and not buy for them first. I do hope this makes sense! When I purchase myself something I always purchase for someone else as well. This keeps me walking in the spirit of humility and it lets me know for certain if I can afford it or if I am not being a good steward of what God has given me. Do I fail? Absolutely! I, too, am just a stupid human BUT I get to do better and be better than I was the day before. I know what God gives He can take away! Do not allow someone to trap you into a version of you that doesn’t exist any longer. If they do not know who God has transformed you into and they do not want to learn who you are now let them go!!

I once had an affair with a man I thought I loved greatly. After a year or so of throwing everything away and blowing my life up for this person God came on the scene and saved me from a lifetime of hell. I saw what I really meant to that person and I was nothing more than a piece of property. A fantasy in a world he created where he could treat any like dirt and I am not the one to accept that for long! This man could not love me because he did not really love himself. As a criminologist I’ve had a few, way more than I can count, psych courses and training that taught me about the human psyche and why people do what they do. Why they say things they say and how to put it all together or the real meaning behind it. Until I learned that love for me I was trapped and stuck in toxic even though I knew better. Please know that when people try and tear you down they really have some serious self esteem problems themselves and the real issue is not even you! Love you!! On this earth you are your only person. Prayer is your only survival asset and God is your only way to freedom. I literally prayed the person I am today into existence and I work on her daily because I can always be better. So, I know that God hears us. I know that He answers us, especially when we are praying for things He wants to see (His will not ours). Choose you!! Pick you!! Not a toxic relationship. Not a demeaning job. Not a life of hell but go to God and ask Him how you need to put you first … after Him of course bc He is the first, the last and the middle. He is your life support! Wow! That’s good … lol. If you ever doubted that this all come from God I wish y’all knew the before me.

Father God thank You for setting us free from toxic. No matter what that toxic may be we know You are working behind the scenes to ensure our life is satisfying with You. O how we praise You for saving us! Thank You that we do not feel trapped and You are the all Mighty One and Provider of all our needs. Thank You for turning ALL things that the enemy meant for our bad into our good. We love You so much. Please forgive us for putting anything in this world before You. We need You in our lives and we know that. We need You as our first, our middle and our last. Consume our thoughts dear Lord! Continue to raise up Your army and teach us how to take dominion of this realm to bring Your will and heaven to earth in real time. Send forth our angels of provision as You are our trusted provider. Send forth our angels of protection and healing for us to be healed and shielded form any and all plots of evil against us and our families. Let the remnant arise and come to know You above all names! Show them who You are Father and heal their hearts. Make them whole so they may come before You. Vindicate those that have been lied on, slandered and hurt by the enemy next to them. Shield their hearts, cover the mind where toxic cannot enter any longer after today. Thank You Father for Your so many blessings. As we approach Pentecost we ask for prophetic winds in our realm and for Your Spirit to be so thickly among us that we are removed. Help us bring Your will to our earth. Thank You Lord for your ministering angels and thank You for our salvation. Thank You for sweeping through our land and healing it. We repent and will do according to Your voice. Let us hear You greater than all voices and our discerning spirit will be spot on and louder than others. We will act according to Your will and we will be obedient to Your calling. Thank You for Your blood, Your mercy, Your grace and for us going from glory to glory with You! I seal this prayer in the blood of Jesus that cleanses is of all sins, iniquity and all trespasses- in the name of Jesus we pray , Amen, amen and amen

We have a part to play when it comes to getting the Word (the Gospel) to the entire world. What are you doing to fulfill your role? God has called many people back to Him to work for Him during this treacherous time and right now your biggest answer to all your questions is: BE OBEDIENT!! Is being obedient hard at times? It used to be when I first started my process. I had to share almost everything on Facebook. There was at least a post a week on an update of what God was doing to me and in my life. It was a bit overwhelming at times. Then He told me to start the blog so I could update people here but I haven’t really done that, I have said many times I am hard-headed but I am doing my best to get over that. I have still put most of my process on facebook and how He was dealing with me, even some videos that were not very easy to do at the time. God had to move me to a place where I learned from Him, who He sent me to, was friends with those He allowed, got rid of what He did not want around, and to a place where I loved Him most! We say we love Him with all of our hearts, souls and minds but do we really? This is something He asked me.. and I found that I would not return my children to Him, even though they were grown. In order to go to my next level I had to hand them over. I had to know that He was first in. My life, well, He had to know. He will not trust you if you do not trust Him. I handed them back to Him and what better place could I ever place them? He created them, I merely got afforded the opportunity to be their mother. They were and are my greatest blessings from the Lord and it took me a bit to get to that realization.

I had to put Him first in every aspect of my life. When we went into quarantine I had to abide by it even though my place of employment was open, at first. I was not considered an essential employed for them in God’s eyes. He told me to stay put and spend time with my family. I was not making any money being at home but I did not worry for the first time in my life about how I was going to make ends meet because I knew God had it. Somehow and someway He was going to provide away and He has. It is like my food multiplies, as if toilet paper just showed up on the aisles on just the right day and He told me to stock up on water before this ever happened and I did. I dont have a hundred cases in storage or anything but I do have 5-6 here with me in case there is someone that comes along that does not have any. Our water in Colt is not the best when it comes to drinking it from the tap. I have started boiling water and making gallons of crystal light tea, which I and my grands have come to know we like. I have come to know that I can make it without any earthly substance except water and if I had to I can boil it and turn it into tea with no calories or sugar. It amazes me what He can do. He has also seen to it that all my bills are paid and that one still confuses me. God started on me last September about tithing my money and my time. So, I complied even through I stomped a little; at first. He put it to me like this: “How can I bless anything you do if you do not give it to me first.” I gave Him my money and my children, and my time. I cannot think of anyone better to entrust my children to. Money, I really do not care about, anymore. He had to get me here though and I had to lose it all in order to gain the spirit of humility. Jesus said it best when He said; “render to Caesar what is Ceasar’s and give to God what is Gods. God will bless your children, your money and your obedience. When it comes to my time I have come to realized that 2.4 hours of the days He gives me are not even mine and I must spend them in prayer, in His Word and meditating on it. I literally started with five minutes a day a year ago and now I spend more than that 2.4 hours with Him on the daily. He will get you there too.. give Him a chance with a simply prayer and a verse a day. Start small and He will take you where you need to be with Him but I must warn you, your life is going to change. There is no “it might change” it is going to change and for the better. He created us for this.. how will you do your part?

Obedience was hard for me at first, too. I am human just like everyone else meaning I have the right to choose which way I think would be best in my life. I have made a mess of my life though and that is a huge reason I handed it over to God. I rationalized with my very human brain that He could never do any worse than I had already done. I mean I died in a car wreck and went to hell. If not for Him I could still be there so why couldn’t I trust Him with all of my life? It is not God that ever hurt me it was people and their own wickedness that stunted my growth in Him, please do not allow the world to distress you. Do not allow people so much control over you that they control your emotions. Anyone that angers you controls you! Anyone that can make you cry has their hand in controlling you. It is time to snatch your power back and away from them. Is this hard to do? Yes!! The human heart is a weak, weak organ and this is why deliverance from God is so important. He will deliver you from anything as long as you ask Him to. If He thinks you are happy, in some mediocrity, He will leave you in it. To be delivered takes prayer and often times tons of it, we have to prove it to Him. This is not an acts of works or deed but testing in the wilderness. In order to get to the land He has dedicated to us we must walk in the wilderness and endure all the tests. It is so worth it on the other side. I am not by any means saying this is easy because it is not but it is worth it. When God has it all from you and all your humanness then and only then will He turn your mess into a message to help others. When He has entrusted us to help others we must go forth and make more disciples as we were commanded and teach the gospel… what are you doing? What has He given you to share? In order to reap a harvest you gotta plant seeds but you also MUST stay connected to Him (the Vine). When He puts things to me like this it makes me feel as though I am not doing enough. I instinctively want to do more and it makes me be in competition with the person I was the day before. There are good days and there are bad days. There are days I wonder where He is and what was all of this for, then I remember The Kingdom and that He allowed me to come back for such a time as this. Do I know all that is going to happen? No, and I am not sure I want to. I like surprises but I do know that He is moving and at an exponential rate.

During this season of transformation do not complain, be obedient at all costs, and give to God what it God’s. Also, know that prayer is your lifeline to any and all sanity.

Father, thank You for this day. Thank You for the hedge of protection You have placed around us and our families. Thank You for Your love, Your death in our places, Your blood, Your mercy and Your graces. Lord we as You to continue to bring. Your miracles to our realm of the natural. We praise Your holy name and we love You. We are so thankful You are our God. Continue to change us and show us how we can be better for You each day. Thank You. Thank You for our destiny with You. Forgive us as individuals and as nations that have gone against Your way. Continue to pull us back to the rightness of You and Your way, Father. A new thing is coming from You and we know that and we thank You for allowing us to be apart of Your movement. Help us to stay in Your will for us. Thank You Lord for deliverance, for breaking off chains in the power of Your name! Thank YOU! In Jesus Name- Amen

Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world Phil 2:14,15.

This is not a season for complaints of any kind. When you think of complaining find something you are grateful for and praise the Lord for that one thing. One thing will turn into two and then become numerous things that we take for granted. God started telling me in October ‘19 that toilet paper is a luxury. There are women in other countries that walk every single place that they go and still draw water from wells. When they need to use the bathroom they stop, squat, do their business and then keep on moving. We are so spoiled in the USA!! If you haven’t come to learn that there are luxuries we take for granted you really aren’t paying attention. I had no idea what was going to happen or that tp was about to be wiped from the shelves of all stores, that they were going to ration what we could purchase, or that food was about to be scarce but look at our world. Toilet paper is the least of my worries, there are other ways to wipe a butt and there are families literally wondering where their next meal will come from and people are hoarding toilet paper, can you see how stupid this appears now? It is a hard time but there are many positives! We are not at war on our soil and we very well could be because we have enemies due to our freedoms. People that do not understand the times, our world, and how things really are are the ones that are complaining about minuscule things.

It could be the 70’s again and we could be in the middle of the virus and the Vietnam war… praise the Lord that is not the case. We can all use this time to do positive things. We can all use this time to listen to the Lord, and read, write business plans, write those books, get in His Word, and learn to really pray.. etc from God but we were too busy and in too much motion to hear from God. We are not in control and that is clearly being seen. God is still very much in control of our world. God is going to use all of this for His glory and our good. Nothing will ever be the same but it will be better. We are trapped in our homes but we can use this as a reset within us and to not complain about all of this. It could be worse. I, too, have had moments that I wanted to complain about being in the house but God told me to shut it! To shut my mouth and not let any of it come out of my mouth because it gives room to the enemy. I get sick of fighting the enemy and do not want to do anything that gives him access to me. God has been teaching me about my enemy so I can fight better and I want to help everyone know satan better, not to focus on him but to know that it is him attacking with them goons. COVID19 is not and will forever be known as REVIVAL 2020! Call it what it is and do not give anymore power to the enemy.

There are benefits and one is we are on lockdown with God. He is talking loud and clear. Our children are not being indoctrinated into a culture not meant for the people of God but they have been given the chance to know God! To know there are only two genders. That God is the one in control and we need to repent for not listening to Him. This is a reset that God is using to reset His people and He is revising us. He is raising up a new breed that will not allow the church to be stuck in the spirit of religion but instead they will take dominion and rule the earth as He created us to do. It is all really exciting when we think about the good that will come from this. Spend time outside, if you can. Go play golf. Write that book! Write your business plan! Get in His Word so He can talk to you.. learn to really pray and seek His face.

Do not forget what this weekend brought a little over 2000 years ago. Jesus died and shed His blood for you!!! He died. He was killed. He was beat beyond recognition and we complain about not having toilet paper, put it into perspective folks. He died and we were told to never complain yet we do and so often when things could be a million times worse. Things will get way worse and we are already spiraling instead of using this time to gain access to the Throne Room of God. Stop that! If we cannot complain because when we dont we are left blameless then lets see what complaints do bring- blame. Satan still has access to God in the heavenlies and when we complain he runs and tattles on us; “look at her, she is complaining about not being able to shop. Look at that one not paying attention to the rules.” Can you see it? Do you understand now why the Bible has rules? We see people complaining all through the Bible and it hurts God’s feelings, it also gives room to satan to destroy you (1 Cor. 10, Num 14, Exodus 18 and so many more). The Bible is clear on not complaining.. so dont and trust me I know how hard it is but find something to praise Him for. Like this weekend is Easter, He arose from the grave for us and died so we could have eternal life with Him. Trust me you want to go to heaven! You want to please Him and not arouse His anger. He is the Most High God and He is still very much in control, do not lose hope or grow weary!

Lord, we thank You for allowing us this time to reset with You. To come before You in Your courts with praise. To be at Your throne with thanksgiving. Lord, we praise You and love You. Thank You for how You will use this and how You are using this. Thank You for renewing us and our minds. Let us always remember what You did for us. Thank You for Your blood, Your mercy, Your grace, and Your love for us. Lord, continue moving through our land healing it, and healing Your people. Father, help us use this time wisely and to not complain. We know it could always be worse. Help us to know that prayer is our lifeline and life support. We have the time and no excuse to not use it wisely, help us Lord, control us and move within us. We surrender to You and Your purpose. Lord, teach us to bring heaven to earth.. teach us to use our brains, teach us to use our hearts for You and to advance the Kingdom. We know You are in control and we thank You for being our God. In Jesus name we humble ourselves before You. Restore the joy of our salvation, remove all obstacles that keep us from You. Remove everything from around us that is not from and of You, Lord. Reset us and give us back our hunger for You- You are more important than any substance in this world and You are first. Guide us, direct us and keep us safe, give us the answers Lord and Your will be done not ours. Speak to us dear Lord, In Jesus name- amen.