Be Still & Shut up

These are hard times for people and fear is really running rampant and God wants us to all know that He is still very much in control. He wants us to truly remember that He did not give us a spirit of fear. Today is a lot so buckle up… we are about to discern what we are walking through.

Today was a lot for me and I have like five pages of notes to go through to get all that God gave me out here this morning. I will probably put this in a post too since people aren’t really reading the blog. I do not want any recognition because I promise none of this is from me, I am smart but not this smart. I would never teach any of this if I had not been called to, trust me, because there is now a double portion of judgement attached to me. God put the fear of Him in me, it is ingrained in me to fear Him. I dont think folks fear Him at all, if you want all of my honesty because I didn’t. I feared what my life would be like without Him but not Him. I was seriously wrong!! He tells us everything in His word we just are stupid humans that need our perspectives tweaked. I used to be really down on stupid people until God knocked me down to size with brain injury. I was so mad a few years after my wreck because I didn’t feel like God was moving fast enough. Well, trust me when I say He is the real teacher of patience that we all need to have. With Him and with His children. God will make everything you are going through at this very moment make sense to you if you pay attention to Him.

Ok.. lets get started. I like writing this as though I am speaking to y’all. I was always an extrovert and full of myself but God has shown me what the introverts go through and how much fear is attached to them. Remember, God does not give us a spirit of fear but satan does so we remain believing God does not have better for us. That is a lie from the pits of hell, and we all know that satan is the master of lies. Stop him in his tracks when fear comes at you. I have noticed when there is any kind of fear around me or in me about anything my right hip will ache. That is just a tip and I am sure there will be more as He brings them front and center. Pay attention to how people make you feel and how they make you want to respond because if you are not a negative person and they make you want to act out of your character they have certain spirits attached to them. We need to discern the spirits and remove them. If there is something you do not know just put your hands on them and pray out loud for God to remove that spirit and send them grace. We live in a spoken universe. Everything that came into existence has been spoken and this is why it is so important to watch our mouths. If we speak negatively we are speaking negative junk into our lives or into someone else’s. For there is the power of life and death in our words. (Proverbs 18:21) This is the spirit of power that we learn God gives us in 2 Timothy 1:7. Power, love and a sound mind and not a spirit of fear. Fear makes us speak out of stupidity.

We are coming into Passover and this is a time of year all Israel is to keep because it is a feast of the Lord, not the people, but the Lord. It is time to really start paying attention to God and what He expects of us. IT is time we put the ENTIRE Bible to work for us and read it for all it is worth. We always want to cherry pick what feels good to us but we have to read it and put it all together. This is why we are to read His word and apply it to our lives. There is power in HIs word. Do you realize that Jesus is the word of God? For the Word was with God and God was the Word. (John 1:1) Jesus is also God’s heart and has been there since the beginning, the light of the world. (Gen 1:1, John 1:18) Jesus is to be our example and we are to learn from Him and His words. He is the light of the world (John 8:12) and in the beginning God created the light… the light of our Word. God is who gave life to the blood (Lev 17:11) Jesus is the blood that was sacrificed for our sins to make atonement for Adam and the original sin. This is why our Word is walking and alive, Jesus Christ’s blood is all through it.

Satan come to play in Genesis 3 with a lie. Have you noticed that God cursed satan and put him on his belly. This means that before this he was upright and walking. Which makes a lot of sense to me, now because I saw some strange looking lizard folks in hell. Those were the demons that tortured people. They were hideous and yuck! God made the darkness and He did. He created satan. See how when we put it all together it makes a little more sense? It does to me. Satan deceived Even with a lie. This means it only takes one lie out of our mouths to allow satan in to our lives and to use that lie against us. This is why we call Jesus the truth and why the Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Truth. Liars allow satan into their lives and the further they dig that hole the further out of fellowship they are with God. We must repent in order to get back in God’s good graces.

There are spirits in our world that most cannot see and I never believed it either about them being physically around us. They are though, they are there and real. We either carry God’s spirits or satans. Power, love, sound-mind, wisdom, fear of the Lord, knowledge and understanding, faith, miracles, all of these are spirits and we have to ask for them to be around us and we have to learn how to work with these spirits to accomplish God’s work here on earth. He did send His Spirit (Holy Spirit) to work with these spirits and to be the counselor in order to bring justice to the world. Fear is a spirit we learn about in Job (chapter 4) and we learn these spirits whisper in our ears and we act according to what they say. Our brains cannot tell the difference in something told or something that is happening at that moment if we see what they are whispering into our ears. Visions are not always from God, and this is why discernment is key. Satans goons are liars and want to keep you trapped in your past do not allow them to. To ask for the spirit of discernment we are asking for God’s mind and thoughts, be careful what you ask for. I never loved everyone but when I asked for discernment I got His heart and now I feel like a cry baby at times because I can feel what He feels. I know how that sounds, trust me I know but if God can do this to me He can do it with anyone that subsists and promises to come on board for His use. Submit and you will see I am telling the truth but when you do be ready to spend all of this time at home while CV19 is scaring people to be crazed lunatics with God and in His Word. I cannot think of anything I’d rather be doing.

There are many promises in the Bible we are not paying attention to when attempting to discern these times we are living in. 2020 started out differently that what we see now with the virus. Fear is on so many people, and I know this because I see it. Coffee filter masks.. yes, I have seen this in person. That is fear and it is a spirit from the pit. I have felt fear and he come at me hard but I had to tell it to get lost because I KNOW what God promises in His word. There are simple words in our language that we assume we know and they are just small words that have HUGE meanings. Have, if, will and these are just a few examples. Jesus promised things that we would see and hear before the end. We may be experiencing birthing pains (Matt 24:8, Isa 26:17) but we are not in the very end because there are still things that WILL happened. For instance nation WILL rise against each other and that has not happened. (Matt 24:7) Will is a promise that we are not paying attention to and we have to in order to release fear from our lands. The word will means to come and is futuristic. It also means you can take what is said to the bank that it is going to against all odds happen. We have not seen that yet and Jesus made us a promise. Will is a promise in the Bible.

We have dominion over everything on earth.(Gen 1:26) Jesus had dominion over the sea and wind which means it is alive and so do we. He gave us ALL of His authority we just do not use it. Since this virus is alive and can replicate we ultimately have dominion over it. Do I specifically know how to use all of my authority? No but I am learning. I do know that Jesus was given all authority (dominion) in heaven and earth. He also gave the authority He has to us to do greater things than He did. (Matt 10:1, John 14:12) I know we should all be obedient and not just out of obedience but out of love to our Lord that died for us. Seriously.. who would you die for? If anyone? Jesus died for you.. He died for you so you could spend eternity with Him and I promise you want to go to Him and not the pit. We should also follow HIs commands and love the Lord with all our heart, souls and minds. When we love God with all we have it is easy to follow through on that other commandment of loving others as we love ourselves. It is also much easier to treat others as we want to be treated because we genuinely love them. Love really is one of the greatest gifts and I pray we all get it. It is time to take dominion over the earth and what is trying to survive in it.

Father, thank You for this day. Thank You for Your so many miracles that are surrounding us daily. Thank You for loving us and for providing for us. Thank You for all you do and the so much we take for granted. We nothing but good comes from you. Lord, I am unsure how to do this and I completely admit to my weaknesses for it is through them that You are made strong. Sweep through our land and clean it up . Rid us of COVID-19 and allow Yourself to be seen. Lord, we love you and we thank You for Your ear. In Jesus name we command CV19 to leave our land as quickly as it arrived. Be with those that are sick and suffering, touch them with Your mighty finger Lord, and heal them where we do not lose another life because of this virus. I curse the people that would ever do this on purpose and hold a patent to an organism that kills Your people. Sweep through on them with your judgement. I plead the blood of Jesus over everyone reading this and ask for their angels to go before them with protective shields. In Jesus name! Send the spirit of wisdom so Your people can and will read Your Word for what it says. Let them cast out fear from them with their dominion you gave us over the enemy. Use this virus to bring Your people back to You where they will earnestly seek your face. I believe with all my heart you are about to show Yourself and I am so excited for you. Thank You for Your voice, we love You. In Jesus name- Amen

Yep, we should pray some big bold prayers right now. I am expecting a lot of things from the Lord right now and I want to get you where you expect a lot from Him too. He is your Father, do not forget that.

I have not had time to proof this but I will tonight. As soon as I am finished I am required to post. My grands just got here and they are running amok, I gotta go check on them.. lol. Have a fabulously blessed day.

Behold, bless the Lord,

All you servants of the Lord,

Who by night stand in the house of the Lord!

Lift up your hands in the sanctuary, and bless the Lord.

The Lord who made heaven and earth

Bless you from Zion!

Psalm 134

God tells us here to raise our arms and worship Him. Our praise gets us into His court. We get into His gate with thanksgiving. We need to come before Him with singing. (Psalm 100). So many people are stuck in the spirit of religion that they forget these simple acts. Don’t get caught up in acts or ritual but instead learn to really praise Him. He is worthy and His mercy endures forever! Fall in love with our Savior again and remember the joy of your salvation!

This is what everyone has been waiting on but I had to finish the book first. I had to finish healing and allow God to take over because I am not sure if I would have ever told all of this story. If you have been following me on Facebook you know my entire story makes me sound insanely ridiculous. There is a reason people do not believe and that is because they are not reading the Bible for all it is worth. I am not better than anyone and I have literally prayed the person I am NOW into existence. I was a horrible person that wanted things MY way and I am sure we can all relate to that. It is not a very healthy way to live our lives. I cared about the people I liked before 2012 but I would tell you, and quite quickly, that I did not like very many people. There were a lot of folks I did not like because I thought they were stupid. I think I felt like this until He woke me up from TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury). When I say woke up please know that He had to wake me up to myself and the real world around me because I purposely lived in my social bubble. If any of this is sounding familiar to you, you could be much more like old me than you realized. I loved the Lord, do not ever mistake that but I did not love His people which means I did not totally love Him. That was and is a hard pill to swallow but I have choked on a lot of what He has given me about myself in the last 8 months.

My great awakening, when the headaches started, when my face was set on fire and when my tooth fell out started 8 months ago. This was God getting ahold of me to put me in check. I had to come around the the person I came back as in order to accomplish His goals in my life. And, to use me. He has a plan for you too and not everyone has to die to come to this realization! I was one of the most hard headed kids God has! I would pop-off and get mouthy with anyone, if I didn’t want to punch them in the mouth. There were times, in my younger years, that I did punch those folks in the mouth. Because of this huge shift in my life people think I am insane but I am just a product of what God wants to do with all of His kids. He wants to remove us from everything we love in the world where we love Him the most. Talk about an ego trip… lol.. but seriously I was so selfish I was my own god and would never give up my reins for Him to reign. I am shocked by what He has done and He was able to do this to ME!! I was literally hell on wheels so when I died I was in hell the first time I opened my eyes, after spirits drug me down. Do I know if I would have stayed in hell if that pizza had not been removed from my throat, I do not and I do not want to know. What I do know is that I am a changed person that most people do not know. The ones that knew me before know there is a God though because this change is something only He could muster the strength to do. There have been many people try and change me but none as powerful as God, as if there ever could be. God is power of all power and I love that. God also sends us a spirit of power, I know I have it but He is still teaching me to use His power because it is not magic and I cannot use it at my will but at His. I know how that sounds trust me. I said it out loud for the first time the other day and I wanted to suck it back in.. but, too late. Hell is literal and proverbial. We can make a mess of our own lives so much we are living in a hell on earth called life. I have done this as well and had to pray my way out of those messes. It is only God that can take a mess and create a message. I will spend the rest of my life sharing how to keep yourself out of any type of hell.

I went to heaven as well and it is the most beautiful city that could ever exist. It is exquisite, smells to perfection and has music 1000% of the time. The colors and the buildings are something our minds cannot describe and without the Spirit we cannot comprehend it all. I explain Heaven as in as much detail as He would allow. The train was the coolest thing! Jesus was the absolute BEST! Just saying all of this still puts a choke in my throat because I am the most unworthy person He could ever do this to. When I was with Him and we agreed I would come back we kinda cut a deal, so to speak. I could come back for my grands but I had to enlist in His army. It was a pretty easy decision to make because He said my grands would need me one day to bring them up the way they should go. I was shown their future and there was only one at the time. I have been able to tell my children when they have been pregnant and I have not been wrong. I watched my grands go into foster care while I was in heaven and I had no idea why but I knew I could never allow that. I knew I had to do everything in my absolutely nothingness of a person to save them. I did not care about myself and I knew I would come back without all of my brain. I also KNEW He was going to heal me. I just did not know when. This blog post has me up in my feels for sure! I am siting here crying as I write it. There is so much truth I want to tell people but God has made me shut my mouth. i can only give what He allows. I can only do what He allows and it changed everything about my life. This changed everything about everyone’s life that knows me and is close to me. I have lost people that I loved because of all of this because I got mad at God. He wasn’t working fast enough at healing me and I was losing everyone around me. They were not paying attention to anything I was saying and mostly some still dont. That is not my fault but I do what God tells me. He scares me! He should scare everyone, He is the Keeper of our souls. He is also our only judge and jury that matters.

Traumatic brain injury was the worst thing I have ever experienced in this realm, that is for sure. Living without a brain makes it impossible for anything else in the body to function correctly. The only thing i really wanted to do was hang out with God, this is for real all I do now. I do not know if I had stayed like I am now and not went off on a bender if I would have healed sooner or not. I will never know, not in this life, anyway. And, I really do not want to. Satan was given permission to sift me when I wrecked, and I believe this is part of the reason why I saw hell. I was one of those that did not know what was after this life or if there was really a life after this one. For those of you not sure I promise that entire Bible is real. It is all real! Angels, demons, hell, heaven, the mansions, Jesus, God.. ALL of it! I had faith but not how I have faith now. It took God all of this time and I went way off the deep end with sinning I had to run back the prodigal so I know that is true as well. I still cannot believe what He has done. He healed me! I broke my neck from C2=C5 and crush T9. As a retired nurse that alone should have killed me and paralyzed me if I came out of the coma not a vegetable. I had a brain bleed or fat hematoma (sorta like a boxers closed black eye but on my brain). It was exhausting and the injuries were extensive.

There is a ton to this story and I have tried to keep everything short and sweet so people would read the blog posts. I have not told any of my story on here though, but today I was told to share some. The book goes way more in depth! I am so glad it is finished!! There are people that will think I am crazy. There are people that will hate me, but you know what? They hated my God too. So, I now look at it as a pleasure to be hated by many. I get so much now that never made sense to me. I never looked at everyone in the Bible as flesh and blood. I think we all tend to at times but read the Bible like it is a book of stories, I used to so I know folks do this. We need to put ourselves in their shoes and we come to know them as people. When we can see ourselves there with them the Bible really comes alive. I find my greatest joy in life is communing with the Lord. He is the breath I breathe and I am the apple of HIs eye, but so are you! Be encouraged because if He can do this to me, and I could have been a serial killer in a previous life, He can do it to anyone. Before someone writes me about that I do not believe in previous lives, reincarnation or any of that bull. I believe in God but I do have a sense of humor, you should get one! There is always that one… don’t be that one!

I like to pray with everyone that reads my blog so lets pray.

Father, we come before you with thanksgiving and praise. We thank you for us being here and for us not being sick during CV19. If someone is sick Lord, we ask you to touch them with your Mighty Hand and heal them. Father, thank you that we have food to eat and a warm bed to sleep in and for modern technology. Thank You for being the great physician and for providing for us. Please forgive us for any and all sins. Show us when we are sinning and anything that is hidden in our hearts that we need to take care of. Do not allow bitterness, jealousy or any other negativity to rule over us but show us where we are wrong and show us what we need to let go of. Thank You. Father for Your love, grace, mercy and forgiveness. Remove anything and everyone that is not to go with us in our future, Father. Get those snakes out of our grass. Help us to stay clean and thank You for washing us with the blood of Jesus. Sweep through our land and overtake this virus killing people for we know You are our only hope. Be with our leaders, especially our President, and allow them to make wise decisions for us as individuals and us as a nation. Allow us to adhere to their warnings and fix ourselves before we ever think we have the authority to judge someone else without judging ourselves first. Thank you Father for Your ear. We love you. In Jesus name I seal this prayer. Amen

Thank You Lord for being with us always. We know Your word says where two or more are joined in Your name You are in the midst of them. The internet is a great place to pray with others and we thank You for it. Thank You for Your supernatural abilities and Your power. Thank You for our desire to seek You even when times aren’t hard but Lord I know You will turn what the enemy placed here to destroy us for our good and Your glory. Thank You that Your Word is alive with the Blood of Jesus. Thank You for walking with us and opening our spiritual senses. Please forgive us Father, as individuals and as a nation. Lead us into Your way and bring the prodigals home. Get us and align us in Your will. Shake us up with overwhelming desire to move, see, breathe and live in the supernatural. Father, we bind the spirit of disbelief and send it to the deepest pits to be judged by You and we loose the spirit of faith. What we bind here is bound in heaven and what we loose in earth is loosed in heaven. We use the keys to authority You have left us with to bind up all the evil forces working against us. Teach us to navigate through life with You in charge as we yield to You, Father. Evil is running amok and it is time for us to fight back. We call forth Your warriors and tell them to arise! Lord, be with, guide, protect, put Your angels before our: President, leaders, healthcare, EMS, LEO, pastors, family, friends, the church, the sick – send forth their ministering angels and the spirit of healing, the saved and we ask you to start the conversation with those that are lost. It is time to grow the Kingdom. Lord, thank You for Your ear! In Jesus Name! ~ Amen ~

If you have been paying attention I got hell, fire and brimstone and the spirit world ministry. I get to tell people how real all of this is because I was one, like many of you, that did not believe everything the Bible speaks of before my death. The day I died I saw the spiritual realm that the Bible tells us about. I can assure you that it is all real! I can assure you that God means every ounce of what is in the Bible .. probably and then some, if we were completely honest. I am very transparent and will tell anyone my story to ensure nobody ever goes back to hell. I have been blessed with the difficult conversations that we need to have. There are things that we are doing in this era that does not align with the Word of God.

In the Bible we see several false gods. There is one in particular God wants to discuss this week and it is Molech. This was an Ammonite god that caused the people to sacrifice their children. They would burn their children and give him their children instead of giving them back to God. God is the creator of all things and we need to remember that includes people. Even when we may think it was all a huge mistake, there is a reason. Some of this is to teach us we never want to do those things again and to allow some pain for growth. Abortion is a pretty controversial subject in the USA but it is one that needs some attention. Women may not be sacrificing their children to Molech but who are they sacrificing them for? What are they sacrificing their children for? Money? Careers? Self-seeking agendas? The USA has instituted and adapted numerous laws that allow for the death, or murder, or sacrificing, of these children after their birth. I was a high risk labor and delivery nurse before my death and this allows for many ways to open the slaughter of an entire generation, gender, race.. etc.

In the Book of Leviticus we see Molech and the rules regarding following false gods, specifically killing their children to please this false deity. God will not ask us to kill anyone! This sheds the blood of life and He is life. Lev. 17:11. He is the way, the truth and the life. John 14:6. If we shed blood on purpose there is punishment. God does and will punish His children but His punishment is just and He is the good, good Father. He also forgives us of every sin we have ever committed if we are humble enough to ask for forgiveness. 1 John 1:9.

These people were burning their children in fire. I cannot imagine the pain those children endured during their deaths. This pain has to be like it would be if we were to un-clamp an umbilical cord allowing the blood to run freely out of a baby causing its demise. This is a whole person that women are sacrificing for themselves. Selfishness is the culprit of this modern day sacrificing to a false god. Women are sacrificing their children for their own well being. meaning- they have taken the reigns of their life from God and they are essentially being their own god. None of this is not of God and He wants the world to understand this. He is God and He is a VERY jealous God. We are to put nobody or anything in front of Him. Abortion is murder and we are not to murder. People that think women need a choice to kill their children are not in alignment with God. The shedding of any blood is illegal and an abomination to the Lord. All children are a blessing and should be regarded as such, even in our day and age. Especially in these times. We are warned all throughout the Bible but many will not apologize for their actions because they try and justify them. There is no justification for selfish killing of their own flesh and blood. I did this so I can tell you all about trying to justify something for our own selfish ambition.

Before you think I am judging please know that I cannot. It is not my place and I did not come back to tell anyone they are going to hell but to prevent anyone from ever going there again. You see, I went to hell when I died and there are many reasons this happened to me. When I was 19 I had an abortion. I killed my own child and caused it to suffer much pain. I also tried to justify these actions but I cannot. I have been shown what is right and what is wrong according to God, and here we are. God has shown me the significance of ALL of His Word. It literally took me dying to see all of this and to readily accept it. After I had the abortion I was not even sorry, if I am going to be honest with all of you and myself. I thought I had done what was best for my life and the life of the child I already had; I was wrong. I was being a selfish tart. I have apologized for this one sin more times that I can even begin to describe. This is something I have had to learn how to forgive myself for. God forgives when we ask. He is so good to us and much better than any of us deserve. A few years after I had an abortion I got pregnant again and I wanted that baby. I lost her at six months. I lost a baby that I loved and wanted. I have had to learn to love myself again after every selfish action I committed. I was my own god and anyone that does this is their own god too. I have purposely given my life over to God to speak out about the hard issues to ensure nobody else goes to hell and that they know they must ask for forgiveness. I had to pray to God for Him to show me everything I needed to forgive and be forgiven for. It has been a grueling process but I am so thankful for His mercy and grace. God blessed me after my loss with a perfect baby but that pregnancy had to be babied all in itself. I prayed so hard for my son and that his life would be spared, that he wouldn’t have to pay for a mistake I made.

This is not easy to speak about and I am sure I will have people judging me. I am alright with that at this point in my life because I know God has forgiven me. I am not scared of any people but I am scared of God. That forgiveness allows freedom. I paid for my mistake and so did the children of Israel that sacrificed their children to false gods; they were sent to Babylon to be slaves. This was their hell, but on earth! They were the chosen people of God that, in a sense, deserved His wrath. Forgiveness is a beautiful thing. God extends His mercy and grace to all who ask. If you have had an abortion or snatched the reigns of your life away from Him you can ask for forgiveness and give Him back your life. We need to analyze who we are through Him and what He wants for us. For those people that do not align to His way of thinking they are not in His way. I can say that because I have been there. Our government is extending too many liberties to Molech, or to your version of him. Whether you are following a false god or you are your god you can change that.

Father, thank you. thank You for Your love, grace and mercy extended to us, your children. We love You so much and ask You to forgive us of our sins committed against You. We also ask You to forgive our country and come back to us. We freely give ourselves as living sacrifices to You. We come back to You asking You to take over again because we are nothing without You. We beg for Your mercy upon our land. Thank You! Thank You for Your strength, love and power in all difficulties. Father, please align us with You and Your Way. In Jesus name- Amen

We need to use our voices as Christians and speak out against things that do not line up with the Word of God. It is time for the Christian Party to take a stand against things we know God is against, and abortion is one of those things. God bless you all and may God provide you with His comfort, strength, forgiveness, mercy, grace and love to surround you during the current times in our world. As CV-19 spreads its ugly head in our world use this time to get to know God and seek His face. You will be amazed at what He can get accomplished in such a short time.