Be Still & Shut up

If I say something, these days, I mean it! I mean, I mean it w my whole heart… we were joking about bleeding armadillo grooms cakes the other day and i quoted a line from “Steel Magnolias.” Ain’t nothin like a good piece of ass 😂 I looked at Maegan and said and I meant that with my whole heart. 🤣 yep! I meant it. It’s true!

I am so eternally blessed and so grateful. I got to spend today with my baby boy before he officially becomes grown and comes off my insurance ahaha. Seriously, it was a great pleasure to me to be there with him the day before he marries his soulmate. I love that kid more than I’ll ever be able to say.

The reception area is decorated beautifully. It’s simple and elegant … just like these two kiddos that will join hands forever and become one tomorrow.

May the Lord bless them, and keep them, shine His face upon them and forever give them peace. May the Lord always be the one they look to first. May the Lord bless their hands, the fruit of their womb and the love they share. Thank You for being their 3 cord strand! I praise You for these two and thank You for the amazing ways You’ll use this union.

I’m sure there will be picture overload tomorrow night!

A woman may leave you for “Todd”. Her and “Todd” may not last but let me tell you when a woman leaves you for God! Game over!! He will show her who she is and Who she belongs.

I’ve had affairs, played with men and I have left men for a “todd” and it didn’t work out. When I made it about finding Jesus and seeking His love I was made whole! (You go after Him and He makes you whole- the woman w the issue of blood) I didn’t need to search for love on the outside of me. I did tho and so many others do too. You don’t have to. Its important to understand that all the love we’ll ever need is living inside us. ✨Even saying you don’t have something is like admittance in the spirit realm we lack … we lack nothing!

I never wanted to tell anyone about what really happened to me. It’s still so “are you kidding me?”, and it happened to me. I have a burn mark on the bottom of my foot from walking in hell. That’s like a reminder that I really don’t need. This is something that is etched in my head. I have a friend that also has a burn on his foot.

I have had to see who I could trust, Jesus showed me. He has shown me exactly who is for me and against me. He will tell us everything we just don’t always want to listen bc we don’t like what He is saying. I want the truth and often times the truth hurts.

Trust me when I tell you ALL the love you’ll ever want, need or desire already lives on the inside of you!

Today has been busy. I’ve been up since 0230 and going strong all day! I cannot believe the energy and stamina He has instilled in me. It’s kinda like a cool version of ADHD 😂

You’re never gonna guess what happened today! I had a reporter contact me about sharing my story !! Y’all I am so amazed by Jesus! ❤️

You know in the Bible where the angel goes to Joseph? for that which is conceived in her is of the Holy Spirit. Matt 1:20a. You know we’ve learned about inserting our names in scripture and standing on that word? Calling things that aren’t as they are (His Word may not have come to pass yet but it will. He watches over His word to make sure it accomplishes everything He says. (Romans 4:17 it’s biblical)

You become like Mary when you’re given a promise and become pregnant. So all this was done that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the Lord through the prophet, saying: “Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel,” which is translated, “God with us.” You are pregnant with His Word. His truth. His way. His Will for you. It’s you! You are Mary!

Thank You. That explains it, the spiritual conceiving. I’m sure there is more and I’m sure we will get to it and go deeper. Pretty cool!

Journal entry. Private

I asked my kids about all of this before I decided I’d go where Jesus leads. I’ve always tried to include them or think of them when making decisions bc it concerns their lives too. My children told me to run! Don’t walk towards your happy mom, run! I love them and respect them and their happiness so much, and they mine. I’m grateful and so blessed! I don’t tell them near enough how very proud I am of them and how grateful I am to be their mom. Jesus gave me the best when He went to the round table for my babies. I thank them for choosing me. It coulda been worse guys! I coulda always been worse! Look what we overcome! We did it! (Insert another ugly cry 😭😂). Something BIG IS HAPPENING! Happening tonight! That is so amazing and I’m so excited and it hasn’t happened yet. I praise Him in advance!

I’ve spent my day watching football and pampering myself. I did my nails and they look so good! First time I’m don’t them like this and I’m pleased. I love football so that was part of it lol my daughter, Hailey, asked who the hogs were playing today and I said Georgia. She said Georgia tech? And I said no bulldogs but good girl on your teams. She – 🙄 mom we lived there of course I know their teams too. Ok ! Major props my child! We got smacked around a little today but they will come back strong! Amen!
Tennessee played a good game today. So has Bama…

I think I might snuggle up to my man tonight and watch a movie. There is something else about the matrix bc I’ve had it run through my thoughts 2-3 times. Sounds good to me, I like watching it. After a bath and a chapter … sounds like a plan.