I will not ever go anywhere that Holy Spirit didn’t lead and if He isn’t welcome then neither am I. He has so changed me and it is time to arise and shine for my light has come.

I’m so grateful He feels He can use this mess. I never wanted any of this but I have to do this. I want to but it’s deeper than anything people see on the surface. I owe Him! I owe Him my very life (Philemon). I didn’t want people to know me. I didn’t want people around me. I was not a people”y” person. Now, I look at everyone exactly the same bc I understand who you are. I think differently towards different people but love them all. I prolly love my grands more than I love you but 🤷‍♀️. This is important bc I was one of those selfish people that didn’t love others. How could I love them when mostly I didn’t even like people? The heart yall … this heart is new and so pure. It’s like it’s been reset and it was never hurt.

Each time I got hurt my heart would grow a little darker, seeds of anger attached roots. When I say I could have taken out some folks believe me bc in my head they were already dead. I was on the edge of crossing over to the dark side, and I say that with all seriousness and more gratefulness in my heart bc it could have gotten so bad. But God snatched me by the hair of my head again, and saved me from me but my God did it hurt! He told me if I didn’t leave somewhere I’d hurt. I did hurt but it was temporary bc I obeyed. As soon as I depended on Him and let Him begin to lead and tell me where to go the pain was gone. I had to, the pain was severe!!! I’m still exactly where He put me and will stay until He moves me. People say God wouldn’t do that … please! He is God and can do/allow what He wants! In the Bible an angel volunteered to become a lying spirit to the prophets of Baal (I think). He hardened pharaohs heart. People need to read the Bible for themselves!

I have no idea how to do any of this, but I know how to pray. I know how to praise. I know how to worship. I know how to get right up under His wings. When I pray I know it is done. I know He hears me and He has promised me every person around me when I pray and love on Him will be healed. See?, I have to do this. I wasn’t really sure it would happen but He’s shown me.

If you get out of the way He will praise Himself. I’ve danced with Spirit doing it and it’s kinda odd, so awkward at first in front of others but I’ve also noticed they are amazed to see it. I’m amazed to see it. Not many dance in the spirit. I’ve only seen it once and it was my body that was taken over during worship by His Spirit. I opened my eyes to see what was going on and then shut them and let Him go at it.

It’s so weird how when you get to know yourself you get to know all 3 parts of you and you’re gonna have conversations with all of them. I was listening in on a conversation with my soul (thoughts, will, emotions) yesterday and my heart. I felt them fully merge. I felt them fall in love. This is biblical where scripture gets deep in Ephesians about marriage but I’m not ready to explain this, I’m learning.. the heart has brain cells it’s like they got married to the brain brain cells and now my flesh is on board. The soul works with the brain so if you get your head right your heart will follow. Submission was a bit tricky until I had the revelation I chose all of this. I believe we know our end from our beginning and we chose our path. Whether we come back to Christ is on us but we were born for such a time as this. We knew what we were up against when we came into this world but it was like turned off. Holy Spirit will bring all things to your remembrance.

All the love you’ll ever need is on the inside of you. To love my heart I had to get to know her and Jesus. She was broken, healed, touched, all of it but I had to know I could trust her bc I knew old me and the last thing I ever wanted was to go into a TBI blackout and not know what happened or if she was bad or deadly. Main reason I don’t drink! This became my only fear and it was bc I didn’t trust myself. I didn’t trust my brain or my heart and I was on guard at all times- it was rather exhausting! I had to learn to trust Spirit within me first and then she (my heart) earned her trust. I had to see how she really felt about stuff. And, once I learned the heart had brain cells it was time for them to be activated. We can talk to our cells, they are conscious and hear us. Everything is spiritual but I can explain it better using science, at times bc I am a science geek turned God’s spiritual nerd; our hearts remember the love it has for Jesus when you get to know it.

Writing like this has helped me get to know me and Jesus, Holy Spirit and Daddy. If you don’t journal I highly recommend it. You can write out questions and get answers!! Lots of answers…. Trust what you write. Trust the Writer within you.

I questioned my discernment so much but I’m not doing that anymore. He shows and tells me everything before I step into it. I knew about someone wanting to try and manipulate me and what they were going to use to try before it ever happened!! This happened a little bit ago and I flew off!! I will not allow this girl to be hurt again!! She is my car and won’t nobody be taking advantage of her anymore or trying to use anything to manipulate her! The devil has nothing in me!! It’ll never be my fault someone let the devil use them and I’m gonna show them how he did it and what their total part was. I did this and laughed. Then I prayed! That manipulative spirit had to back away from me!! I will not allow this crap!

I’ve noticed when I start breaking something off people, they will get diarrhea bc our bodies must be purged of lies stored up in us. Bowls remove toxins! Strange but true lol ask people that know, hang out and pray with me. Hahaha it’s a little funny.

Don’t let anyone make you question yourself…
Who told you?
Who told you that you couldn’t do this? Who told you that you weren’t worthy? Who told you? Who told you those lies?? And when you get to they said, who is they? You better recognize and do what God says.
Being in alignment in this hour is gonna be crucial. You’re gonna need to be able to hear from Him yourself.

I will tell all He gives me without questions from now on bc there has been a lot He has told me that is in journals and words I have never put out. I had to make sure I was hearing right. I have had to revisit some of them with the spirit discernment and get further meaning, clairty, add to/take away… etc. Some of it I didn’t like and some of it others won’t like either. They can be mad. I dont care bc I know they’re not really mad at me but at what God says. I’m not gonna take it personally unless someone tries to put their hands on me … then we fight, it’s really just that simple. I grew up in a tough town and had several 3rd degree battery charges before I was 16! I was straight up a fighter. Now, I really don’t want to but the devil better know I will and folks the devil is using against me better recognize all my anger is toward the devil. I will go after the demon first but if they wanna rock we can play! Hahaha that’s so funny. My flesh is a fighter! She will throw down and ain’t scared of nothing. I was not the portion of this being that wanted to zip line. She’s pretty tough, I’ll give her that. Our bodies are remarkable! I went and shot at bottles and didn’t miss. This impressed me, I literally impressed myself. I’ve learned I didn’t trust my body but I do now. She knows what to do! Look how fabulously she held up and fought for us. She’s pretty badass in my opinion.

I’m gonna go hang out w some cowboys for the rest of the day. Stay blessed! ✌️🙏

Isaiah 60
Ezekiel 36
Esther 4
Romans 8

Did you know telling people what God has done for you, aka testifying, is asking God to do it again? Testimony in Hebrew means round about “do it again Yahweh” and it stirs the faith of those needing a miracle. You’re believing what He did for you He will do for others.

I’ve figured out how to get through the lives. If you follow me you know those were giving me fits. I did not like it and have had to teach my brain my audience and how much I love them. I will be speaking to my grandchildren and teaching them the power they hold via Facebook lives. I can’t think of anyone better to always be listening. They tell me “Grami, we watched your video!” I have to do this for them and I want this so simple they get it and apply it bc they know their Grami will never tell them wrong. Making videos will get easier but until then I am a whatever it takes kinda gal … Initially tricking the brain works for me.

I’ve really, really struggled with putting myself out here like this. My body (my flesh) gave me fits. When I tell y’all there is power in fasting I’m not kidding. I will fast this body until it does what I say lol, and I’m doing it all out of love. I love myself … all of me, even my quirky silliness and I feel like a kid on Christmas morning every day of my life. What is Yahweh gonna do today?!, ya know? It’s amazing!! I have a lot of energy and I’m a lot for a lot of folks. I’m either bouncing off the walls or in a book.

I went to Gatlinburg for the weekend and had a blast. While there I zip lined and it wasn’t bad, but actually fun once I could feel the harness. Idk I guess sillily I felt protected in a sense. The guide I had looked like the Home Improvement son Jonathan Taylor Thomas, just like him! He was so cute and so witty to have just graduated high school. I fell in love w him instantly and we had a blast. We all were first timers and were all scared in our own ways. We all kicked fears ass tho!! we all finished. When we got to the bottom I threw my arms up and said “we did it guys, we really just did that!” We all looked back up at it and congratulated ourselves. While waiting on our bus to take us back up the mountain there was a girl waiting on EMS that had hurt her ankle in the group before us. She didn’t keep her knees right when coming in for the next zip and hit her ankle at the breaking spot on the tower. We were all chatting and then my body (yall I was so proud and still am!) went over to pray with her. My heart led me. It stuck!! Oh y’all it stuck!! When I tell ya I was dark and coulda taken out some folks, I am not kidding. I am so proud of what God has done! I love this heart! He completely rewrote me and I couldn’t be more grateful.

That’s my testimony for today. If He did it to my heart He can and will do it to yours! And all the in betweens in there.

And, whoever that girl was got her healing. She woke up with no pain today and no swelling. Praise the Lord! I know why it didn’t happen immediately too and that won’t happen again. It’s time to see some instant miracles so I can help people know Jesus.

I wonder if Facebook knows them threatening to throw us in jail for sharing the truth doesn’t do anything but piss us off and make us want to share even more truth!!

I posted a video tonight of Brad Barton in a live and everything He said that is happening in the natural (our real time) is in the blog- God told me before hand. It’s starting to come out!! This is so exciting to me. This is such a boost in my spiritual confidence bc I know for a fact my discernment is on point. I had to get over a lot of self doubt when it comes to doing this. (I got over it with “I know what I know bc of who I know shut up w the lies” and I would tell myself you cannot be double minded don’t go against anything He says or has told you) I knew but I didn’t know, ya know? Now I know I know and I love that. Seeing is believing!

If you’re not seeing the truth I beg you to get in the Word and let Him teach you the truth. He is the only one that can help, especially if you worship opinions. If you think your opinion is right and won’t even consider you could be wrong, believe what others say of you and your identity comes from what they think – you are in all reality worshiping the god of opinion. Repent and turn back to the Lord. It’s really that simple. Ask Him to show you the truth, ask Him to create in you a clean heart, steadfast spirit and a soul without holes. I promise He will do it bc this was my prayer and He’s done it to me.

It has taken me so long to trust. I had to learn to trust God, myself, and God in you. If God be for me who could ever be against me. Jesus has done a number on me and He is nowhere near finished. I love this so much! My, my, my have I told y’all lately how much I love Jesus?

I can relate the past few years of my life as if I were in the military. There was like this boot camp where I was told what to eat and when I could. Even had me exercise at 5am. Looking back this is so funny. If anyone fought Him I promise I did. He owns me. His love never fails or goes away. Mental, physical and emotional clean up or training.
After boot camp the training begins. He taught me His Word, His Way, His heart, His Will. He took me different places to teach me to pray in public. He took me to teach. He took me to pray for others and for them to be healed. He took me to give. He took me to help others. He taught me to teach. He taught me using Facebook too w the lives, and through the blog. He taught me how to say what He wants. He taught me how to remove myself. He taught me how to check myself. He’s taught me so much. I want to stay in line and on His path.

I say He Proverbs 22:6’ed me bc even tho I can relate it to how our military operates He trained me. He equipped me. I didn’t know any of this.

I think all of this is pretty cool. I am fully convinced, persuaded, committed and submitted. Oh that feels good! This was a long journey.

My God thank You! It’s time to go to work!

I am so amazed at Jesus. SO AMAZED! This will encourage many!

Holy Spirit started telling me about debt cancellation, supernatural payoffs, debt relief etc, for His righteousness. He gave me that Word around Thanksgiving 2020 and I remember bc I was in Denver. I got some of the word on the flight and the rest while I was there, it’s in the blog. Go get that word!

So, I’ve been standing on that prophetic word and some verses about tithing, and wealth stored up … claim His Word yall, this works!

This week my debts have been paid off! I am talking about financial debts bc all my other debts were paid by Jesus on the cross! I went from not knowing how I was going to buy groceries one week (He did came through tho) to being back to work and debt free!!

I know Him as Jehovah Jireh! He is and forever will be my provider! Had to brag on my Daddy for a minute and maybe this will help you’ll trust Him just a little more. If He did it for me He will do it for you, He is not a respecter or persons.

TheWordWorksIfYouWorkIt

When no opinions matter to you you’ll get totally inside your heart space. You’re gonna learn so much about yourself.

Lord, we bless your Holy name and praise you for this beautiful day. Lord, touch our minds and our hearts and free us from all opinions of others, critical thoughts of ourselves and touch our hearts to bring it healing. Free us from people pleasing as well Jesus. Thank You! Thank You for our freedom.