Be Still & Shut up

What if you woke up tomorrow only having what you thanked God for today? How much would you have left? Just something to think about! He that gives can take away. Trust me bc ya girl was humbled!

I’m so extremely humble and so honored, I mean I’m sitting here crying as I write this. Ohh what He has done in me and He is not even through! I’ve been sitting here thanking Him bc I love Him so much. Not to get anything, not to ask anything but to just love on Him. He sits and loves you back when you do this – 🔑🔑

I feel like I cry all the time! I can see love and I know when I don’t. If you pay attention people will tell you everything you need to know without opening their mouths.

Stop saying you’re a sinner! You’re not! You may commit unrighteous acts but you are righteous in His sight through Jesus. It is bc of nothing we do or don’t do! So, stop saying this! You are NOT a sinner! There is no sin! Jesus became sin for us! 2 Cor 5:21. Yes, we all mess up but His grace is sufficient! We all fall short, EVERY day, but our goal is to want to be better than we were yesterday! It should be and if it isn’t we need to talk bc you’re in distress and under heavy fire! If one will put a thousand to flight and two ten thousand… we are stronger together. This divide must stop!

Jesus didn’t create religion we did and we’ve allowed it to rule over us way too long. It’s playing with the devil is what it is! Stop that! The judgement from “Christians” helps no body- ever!! You are called to LOVE EVERYONE! Whether you agree with them or not. Whether you prefer their lifestyle or not. Jesus told me; “love them all, don’t judge them they are mine just like you are. If they ask you what I say tell them the truth but be kind and you love them anyway.” So you see, if He told me this it isn’t just for me. Let Him sort them out. You just love and pray for them. You don’t always have to speak and in fact it’s very wise not to at times!

Some people know the spirit of hate but straight forgot about the spirit of love. Don’t forget, everything is spiritual.

I feel like this is all over the place but so I am i today. Things are so good in my life I just don’t know how to stay excited even though I know what’s coming. I have just been waiting on the ball to drop. Ya know? History and how it repeats itself. It won’t this time and He’s reassuring me of that. All is really well and will get so much better. That’s so comforting. I was so sick of cycles!! So sick of them! So, I broke them. ALL of them! He created a new being!! Boy what an awakening! Hahahah

I am so blessed. I have the best family. I love my job and my Boss! My frands, yall, are the absolute best! I am super blessed!

Oh this heart! Y’all, I tell you what! I have never! All- ALL- the love you’ll ever need is on the inside of you! Jesus is ALL! You love on Him and I promise He will love on you. His love overflows and spills onto everyone around me. It’s so cool really. I mean I love people but not like He does. There have been days it was very hard for me to even like some people, like at all. When this started I coulda taken out a whole village. I was so pissed off! I was so mad about my life and the situations I kept finding myself in and I could have went straight back to being Ann. It was intense in some areas and I was sick on top of it and I was tired. I told Him I was done! I was sick of this and to either take me home or take the lead. I was suicidal, depressed, angry, hurt etc… it was pretty bad for awhile. I knocked and He answered. That’s all I did. There is not a key here. It’s simple, I wanted my relationship back with Him like it was when I came back from heaven. I had separated us by living for me and not for Him. I went after Him and I set my heart on Him. The hearts intention is everything. Now, He has made me want to be the proof of His love.

Things are about to go much, MUCH, quicker than you expected! If Daddy has told you anything- DO IT! Don’t be stalling out on Him! Some of y’all’s steps will be misunderstood by many. Some of y’all have prepared and prepared others, good on ya! Surprise!! We are really doing this!

Heart motive is everything with Daddy! What are the desires of your heart? What do you want? Big next question – why? Why do you want it? He asks me this all the time and it is for His will to be done in my life and for Him to give me the stamina, strength, power and courage to walk it out. I want what He wants for me bc His picker isn’t broken and His ways are much higher than mine. I’ve messed up and I don’t want to anymore.

We are under an open heaven! Ask and it shall be given to you according to what He has spoken over your life. John 16:27MSG

Today I almost broke, well, yesterday now. Oh my what a day but the Lord came through. I got up, had coffee, went back inside to get dressed and it was hot in my house. I checked the vents and hot air 😱😱 If you follow me you know my air went out last summer but I prayed it back- I know but I promise. I think it needs some freon now, I pray that is all it needs.
I turned on a fan and opened the back door, turned on my Mac and was gonna work on my book Praise The Lord it was cool outside and the temp steadily dropped all day. I was talking to Daddy and said a few thunderstorms wouldn’t be so bad while my air is out … we are getting some showers and got some unexpected ones today. It amazes me how in my greatest fit of despair He comes through. I got a window unit for the living room and set up a fan to help push it through the rest of the house. I even slept in my bed with the window up and a nice cool breeze shot through there all night. Woke up at midnight but that is nothing unusual. I’ve found there isn’t a lot of sleep w this.

That isn’t all that made me want to crumble. I lost an entire chapter to my book 😱 … I cried! Literally cried! I have since come to realize that the info going in the book is in my head! I know it and it’ll prolly be better when written this next time. It’ll be ok!! I thought this was maybe the worst aspect of the day and then…

I had a guy talk stupid for a bit, on all days. This almost really made me lose my __! I promise I am still in here and it takes all of me for self control at times. I just sat there and looked at him with a facial expression that let him know he needed to shut up! Of all days for someone to be making sexual advances 🙄 He is still alive! I promise! Devil could have sent him to get me out of character but that didn’t work. Seriously?

If today was a test …. I PASSED! The only fear left inside my heart was uncovered and smeared out…. it was coming out of character and turning back into Ann. Yahweh has allowed me to be put in situations to allow myself to see “I got this!” and I’m not in this alone. While I was going through my crazy day Holy Spirit comforted me the entire time. Today wasn’t as great as Him singing to me in jail but all’s well that ends well, right? 😜

Back on the road and back to work today 🙏
Lord, show me something!! Something amazing that confirms Your word spoken over my life!

Moral of this story: in my darkest times He is always there to help me and today I needed Him more than I needed air; air conditioning! 😘

I know I’m on the devils hit list but he is on mine as well! I love Jesus and will do anything He says and I do what I do out of love! However, there is a side of me that wants to do this bc it pisses the enemy off! Im coming for him!! I’m livid! He tried to kill me and if I can teach one person how to kick his ass I’ve won, again!! It takes knowing the Word of God. It takes knowing what God says! You go after Jesus and He will come back harder for you!!

The enemy is crafty and sneaky but we are fighting from victory not for it. Don’t be ignorant to his devices. Everything was paid for on the cross. I get offended when he even tries to attack me. How stupid can he be? I know who I am and to Whom I belong!

You are now a new creation in Christ. Your past is just that the past – new graces every morning and you gotta give that same grace. Every day is new. New for you and for them, it’s got to be like yesterday doesn’t even exist. Don’t take stuff personally. Don’t come into agreement with everything and be careful who you love on! Spirits transfer from others on you. You’ll carry their baggage too.

Nobody is more powerful than Jesus, His name is power. Nothing is more powerful than His blood. That covenant ratifies you. You’re safe! Say it: I am safe. I am safe. I am safe. Get it into all three parts of you. Spirit, soul, body.

I’ve looked Satan in the eyes and he is not some ugly monster. He is beautiful. His voice is not harsh but he lies to you. If he can make you doubt your identity he can make you doubt anything and he will try. He will come to you as everything that looks shiny. All that glitters isn’t gold. I have found fasting to be the quickest way to be free from unbelief and doubt. While fasting God will feed you His Word, His truth and you’re set free.

Daddy, thank You for Your beautiful love. Thank You for new graces each morning and help us to always exponentially and purposely forgive/forget and extend grace as you do. Thank You making us new. Thank You for teaching us covenant! Thank You for showing us who we are! Thank You for sharing Yourself with us! Thank You that we are apart of the vine. Thank You for Your amazing Holy Spirit. O thank You Jesus for your friendship.

This has been a pretty lonely process. I have had only a handful of people around me and pretty much could only talk to Jesus. I was sucked out of the world and it started with headaches. This is why I tell people to get w God when they have a headache.

I’m ready. I’m ready to introduce the new. I’m really tired of being in the cave to be honest. It’s time I come out. It’s time to walk in what He has for me. I’ve stalled Him long enough. I’m at complete peace writing this one! When I write these there has been some nerves behind them. People will say “I’m nuts” and I am! I’m just as crazy as God! I have the mind of Christ. I think persecution bugs me! How dare they? They just don’t know who they are. I can agree with that. If people knew they wouldn’t hate anyone. Everything/everyone is from God, of God and for God.

The mind of Christ is a trip. I can hear Yahweh louder than I can hear myself. Missing the mark was really my only fear but keeping my eyes fixed on Him helps prevents this. This makes me think of when He taught me to fix in on Him. He did it w a scope on a crossbow while I was w a friend on the river. See? Crazy! I am meticulous when it comes to putting out words and teaching, but I’m still human. I’ll never be perfect. Maybe this was fear of failure … idk but it’s gone! 🙌🙌🙌 Lord, Thank You for providing the grace to walk this out. Along with supernatural strength and stamina. Thank You!

He that lives in me is greater than anything of this world. My Father and I are one but my Father is greater. You are so safe, kid! You’ve got angels all around you. Daddy, I had 3 flies get in my house and 2 mosquitoes. I don’t like that can you take care of it please. Thank You I know You have always heard me.
I hear ya kid and I got ya. Thank You❤️ now, you wanna know how safe you are? Yes sir im sorry for complaining. The angels have went before you and paved the way. If you have to walk on water I’ll pull you out. I’ve got you and you’re hidden behind me. You’re in alignment and the safest you’ve ever been in your life. I have all of this taken care of and we are so proud of you. Let me be the first to say “welcome to the new!”

Thursday will be 9 years! Nine years since umm… my death, burial and resurrection! This has been such a process. Healing is hard work, but I am living proof it can be done. The body will heal itself but it takes dedication and doing right! We can’t eat brownies or peanut butter m&m’s 24-7 and expect to be healthy. It just doesn’t work that way. Muscles must be used, especially your brain, it is a muscle too. I’m proof severe TBI can be healed by Jesus! The brain is so cool!! It is one of the most untapped weapons we got. You choose Jesus and He will teach you how to use it for Him. He rewrote me and He is still writing my story. He put His word in me and in my mouth.

I died a few times with that car wreck. It has taken me this time in training to bury the fleshly appetite, to learn how to heal myself, and I got to know who I am. He taught me and I want to teach you! Your first step is prayer. Second is forgiveness.

Prayer is like a superpower. I watch Him w my eyes heal people immediately! The prayer bank!! Miracles! I want to see them every day of my life! The more you pray and step out in faith the more you’ll see.

Today is resurrection day! I am stepping out of the cave!! If I don’t He’s gonna push me out. It’s like a kid with candy to get me out, He’s lured me and I want it! I want my surprise haha. He will show me something and then says “this is what’s waiting for on you on the other side. Come on kid, don’t be scared. I’m right beside you. I will catch you. If you gotta walk on water I will protect you. “

How could I not be ok? How could I not do all He asks? I owe Him my very life and I freely give it to Him to use as He sees fit. Blow my mind Daddy! If God be for us who could ever be against us. Right?! Right!!
I’ve had to coach myself too. I say these things over and over to get them inside me and to remind myself. Faith comes by hearing hearing the word of God. And, I ask myself what is the worst that could happen? Die?! You already did that. Jail? You did that too.. what is the worst that could happen?! Umm, nothing! Nothing is worse than those two things to the natural mind or the heart. I’ve been there and done that. So what! I know the death threat is a lie bc I know when I’m gonna die. Paul knew he was going to be ok bc he knew he was getting to Rome. No matter what happened in the natural he knew he would make it bc God promised him, I felt this deep in me when meditating on it. I’m not afraid of it! There is power in no fear! Ask yourself what is the worst? If you’ve died or almost did there is nothing worse. If you’ve been to jail… you already know it is not where anyone wants to be!

Lord, let the bones you have crushed rejoice! Take us back to the first days and joy of our salvation! Dry bones come alive in every area of our life, in every area of our body, in all! ALL! Search us and find no wicked ways in us. Search us and know our anxieties. Burn everything not of You out of us with the fire of the Holy Spirit! In the precious name of Yeshua!

The days of suffering are over!! Today we step out of the cave and into the new. You are ready and you are prepared!
I’ve ran … it doesn’t work. He will always catch you. You cannot hide from Him. If you make your bed in hell He is there. He never leaves! I praise Him for this so much! I had made my bed in hell. Been there and done that too – nothing will ever be worse than this and I will not go back for anyone or anything!!

Might as well listen the first time and stop delaying yourself. He will get your obedience! He will use a trauma to get you back on track if He needs to- don’t allow it to come to this. He is God and creator of everything. He can use anything at His disposal to make you get in alignment- trust me on this one! Just trust me!! He will allow you to be sifted like wheat – don’t make Him do that!!

Yahweh runs one time in the Bible. One time!! When the prodigal son returned home the Father met him running! Go back to Him! He’s calling you! You answer and you won’t be let down!