I cried so much tonight. It’s my last week here and when I say bittersweet that’s about the only way I can describe it. The house is empty, and I’m so grateful to the people that purchased things. Thank you! You’ve help make all of this possible. When He told me to sell it I said no problem. I don’t want any of it. This made it where my past doesn’t come into my future! I kept one piece of furniture, a jewelry box that my children got me. I got it the year I died. If it weren’t from them it would be gone too.
I’ve decided I’m going to get a small storage room tomorrow and put what I did keep in there so everything is in one place. The stress of looking at it is getting to me. I have learned order is so important to me bc it’s important to Him. He’s a God of order. The seasons have changed and I only have clothes packed for the Spring/Summer everything else is going to storage. Maybe this is my single summer! I’ve never had a single summer w friends and travel and that is/was my plan. I’m so sure of what He says tho He can scratch through what I want and do whatever He pleases.
Being in the unknown is scary as scary can be in this world. Walking by faith, He fixed her she’s laughing at this. She was crying crying and cried in front of her baby. I try not to do that. I try not to cry in front of my kiddos. Idk why .. I have had to be so strong and I’m tired. If I cry I cry and I dont care who sees anymore. Obviously! There are plenty of videos of You entering and me weeping uncontrollably 😂 I dont care who sees me cry I’m not strong but I have a strong God! The joy of Him is my strength. This weekend was tough and it made me a different type of warrior. They left the apocrypha out for sooo many reasons. My recent learning is that there is a demon that gains legal rights bc we vaccinate our children. That demon is scared of Uriel. Ha! Know what angel I work with the most? Uriel! That was fabulous and then we reset the DNA, hands activated and discharged that evening. Amen! Amen! Amen! My grandson! Thank You Daddy, my God I can’t ever thank You enough! I think this built a different level of prayer for all of us. Thanks! Thanks again! It brought a new level of faith for what I do in the secret place w the warfare and healings, activations. This is fabulous tbh! I wonder so much if what I do is really working or if I’ve just totally lost it. I see. I do see. I got a phone call the other morning letting me know it’s working. She just said “what are you doing in the spirit?” I giggled. It was a morning of deliverance and she felt it. That, too, let’s me know I’m right and it’s working. Thank You! Thank You!
*if you see here I was never allowed to even write I was scared just the situation was. That would have been me coming into agreement w fear and that ain’t happening! He had an angel touch me and clear it, that is what I was laughing. – this was my deliverance and I pray it helps someone else.
When I leave the peace I brought I will pick up and take with me.
Matt 10:13-14. He just gave me that so apparently I wasn’t received here so He’s moving me. I’m ok with that. Perfectly ok with that. It was something I already knew! I’m ready!! The Lord put me here and has made me stay. I’ve wanted to leave for years lol but He wouldn’t let me. I gave in and learned to be content in any situation, circumstance, conversation and then happy and then joyous no matter what. It was surely a process!! 🙌🙌 hallelujah! On to the next phase! Let’s go!!
I went to the girls softball game last night, I sure love watching them play. I’m gonna miss these kids. They have been my life since they were born. They are ready and have been trained well. They will be fine. I know but they are my babies. Thanks for that! Thanks for saying I’ve been training them well. Thank You 😭 cried a lot tonight and 99% of it is gratitude! I’m so thankful ! So much is going on and He is truly the only reason I am still standing. I’m leaving the nest. They are wonderful and I’m so proud of them. I know You have Your hand on them and I thank You and praise You for that!
Abraham, and Noah have visited me since I’ve been in the process of this move bc I was terrified. Idk where I’m going and am figuring out what He’s doing as He does it. I’ve been left out of the loop so I can’t say anything lol. How clever of Him. Anyway, Abraham said, “I know your fear. How do you think I felt? You know my story ..” all I could do was cry. It was like a jab in and through my heart that this is easy next to what he had to do. I felt like I was being a titty baby and I let her be one for a moment. She can get down for a moment but joy comes in the morning. My perspective needed flipping and Abraham helped w that. I thank Him for the witnesses He has given me the privilege of meeting and speaking to. I’m honored, truly!
The Lord has told me who I am going to marry. He told me this four years ago and… well, I have lots of questions that aren’t being answered. I keep hearing words on “your spouse is gonna need you” and that would make me pray more bc idk what anyone is going through. Now, I feel like I may be the one needing the needing. I’m not needy and I don’t want to be. What do you want?… I want to be loved. That’s it. Just love me the way I love you and Yah will take care of the rest.
Be Still & Shut up 